【Oliver】 Amygdala's Rag Doll 【Original Song】 

I'm a Japanese Vocaloid fan. It's a very nice song that Oliver's voice matches very well!

"I'll say it again, I'm only getting worse" -My grades after months of quarantine and online school starts

For those who don’t know, the amygdala is a part of the brain that makes anxiety , well go do it’s thing . It’s one of the main culprits for anxiety and the rag doll is you. Sometimes anxiety can take over you and many of the lyrics here reflect the effects of anxiety and how it feels like having it. Hope this helps

0:32 where the doll (the one singing) says "vexatious, *my amygdala* " he words amygdala as something he has, instead of it being the name of the doll's owner or something like that. The amygdala is a part of the brain thats associated with "anxiety, aggression, fear conditioning, emotional memory, and social cognition", while vexation is "something that causes annoyance and the state of mind that results from being annoyed" The jumble of letters doesn’t seem to be the url. Going through the sections frame by frame, the letters seem to look more like random symbols if anything.

So what i got from this song is: he creates voodoo doll of himself because it says :an eye for an eye that's how the game works, clearly this is about a boy who hates himself, with amygdala (meaning the parts of his mind that control his emotions are controlling his self harming actions) so he pokes holes into himself deteriorating his brains ethical functions, saying: the frontal lobe placed me behind my own strings aka amygdala/unstable emotions, meaning he has gone mad with his self harming and his brain isn't functioning and he is losing memory and is in fear of the consequence of what he has done saying: it should've never been wound, which is his regret from doing it claiming in the end it was all his fault saying he is sorry. update: i put more consideration in the lyrics regarding to fire; i think he started the doll on fire which also started him on fire, it explains the specific types of holes created on the doll from it burning but it explains why he can't inhale or exhale, the fire is choking him out, he pulls the fire alarm as a last resort of help from saving him from himself. also to note the lyrics: the dull assumption that I've tasted decency, waiting for the embers to lose their glow, and i and i don't know, because all I've ever known were clusters of holes, they say that that the assumption that they have been treated well by them-self or anyone else is dull, than say how they are waiting for the fire (the pain and or self inflicted abuse) to go away, and than after that they say they don't know, because all they have ever known is their self hatred, now that i think about it this could be a song about someone who hates them-self and cuts them-self and they try to commit suicide by starting them-self on fire but halfway through the decision they change their mind. they keep saying turning eyes to the trypo-puppeteer (their emotions) like they are blaming their emotions for them being uncontrollable. than at the end of the song they say "i am the trypo-puppeteer" meaning they have come to the realization that their emotions aren't a separate entity from them-self and this whole time all this pain wasn't only based on their circumstances as much as it was their own doing in only believing they could only live in suffering and suffering alone. the name of the song is: Emotion's Rag Doll

This is actually a really good metaphor for anxiety. The puppet/rag doll is a kid with some sort of anxiety disorder, I assume OCD or a Phobic disorder, the Amygdala is, well... the Amygdala (the part of the brain that controls the fight or flight system), and the Trypo puppeteer is either a metaphor for intrusive thoughts or self harm. This is about a kid with crippling anxiety and has trypophobia but because so many people say they have trypophobia without actually having any sort of phobia, leading to people thinking that trypophobia isn't really or not a big deal, he's not taken seriously and doesn't get the help he needs. He's plagued by intrusive thoughts which he blames himself for, that's why he calls himself the trypo puppeteer at the end, he blames himself for his pain. Or, if you go with the self harm metaphor, he cuts and burns himself to distract himself from the pain. This would make sense since the rag doll is "cauterized", not burnt, implying that the inflicted burns were intentional and used to "heal". He can't handle the world, he has panic attacks that lead him to do stupid things and then he feels embarrassed or ashamed, he doesn't have control, the line "my frontal lobe placed me behind my own strings" could refer to him numbing his emotions so he doesn't have another outburst/panic attack again, or it could also refer to losing trust for himself. "I defy the way the game works" he doesn't feel like he should be feeling the way he does because he can't make sense of his messed up mental state. He begs Amygdala and the Trypo puppeteer to leave him alone. Self harm has become an addiction, or if you go with the intrusive thought thing, the thoughts have taken a mind of their own and he no longer feels in control of his mind/actions. Now that I think about it, "Trypo puppeteer" could also refer to someone abusive in his life which would probably make more sense. I feel like I'm pulling most of this out of my ass, idk. Maybe I'm just projecting myself onto the story because I have personal experience with anxiety. This is just how I view the song.

"I can't inhale anymore" Ah yes *asthma*

The fact that exactly 5 years ago,when i was sleeping this song popped up on my tv even though my mom was sleeping and the tv wasn't on,and i see this song again is literatlly terrifying for me

Oliver: I can't inhale anymore Me trying to sing along: *I can't either, bro, I can't either.*

Fun fact: The amygdala is responsible for the Flight, Fight, and Freeze responses. And during such an event the frontal lobe -which is responsible for advanced memory and cognitive thoughts- becomes “numb” and has a harder time retaining memory and acting rationally in the moment. Or at least, that’s how it works with me and my stupid brain.

possible meaning?: (mentions suicide dhakbacsjab) so the song takes place in the perspective of the 'trypo- puppeteer', someone who's mentally ill. he believes that the rag dolls are alive and feel pain, but still rips them apart and shit. he can hear their cries, which is what the choruses are. he feels guilt for it, and it's making his illness worse. soon, he ends up realizing that it wasn't the rag doll screaming--it was the person it represented (at least, thats what he thought). he decides to end his life by burning down the place he lives in, "waiting for the world to burn." and now, he can't inhale anymore. edit 2024 i dony remember making this comment hello???

I actually used to listen to this song for hours when I was younger.

What’s with activating almonds *_PLEASE E X P L A I N_*

I just now realized why u said, “activate, your almonds” in the description, bc, amygdala is an almond-shape set of neurons

Wow, I love Swiss Cheese the Musical

0:53 The full phrase is "an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth" but Ghost already made a "tooth for a tooth" song, so this time it's just an eye for an eye

song:"i cant inhale anymore!" the song two seconds later:*heavy breathing*

Song:"waiting for the world to burn" Australia: Alright lets start here-

Perhaps. Hear me out, plz; “Amygdala’s Rag Doll” is the story of a young boy accidentally starting a horrible house fire, where all his family perished and he personally suffered intense injuries. Even after being rescued and restored of his charred skin, he was trapped in terrible physical and mental problems, such as his skin burning so bad that he viewed the burned areas as stitched rags, whilst his injuries were restored a little while later, he only saw the holes caused by the many cauterisations he had whilst the doctors were fixing his non-burn injuries. The boy continued to believe he was a rag doll, due to how his burned areas were stitched together and had tons of “holes”. Not just that, due to all the smoke inhalation, his lungs were in horrible shape and he felt he couldn’t breathe anymore because it was such a struggle to do so, in which only fed into the delusion he wasn’t human. After the traumatic experience, the combination of his guilt complex and his PTSD, he labelled himself as the world-hating “trypo-puppeteer” for causing the fire that ‘killed’ him and killed his family. As the boy further fell into the delusion he told himself, he begun losing memories of his beloved family and his PSTD engulfed the entirety of his psychological state… like a larvae, till nothing remained but a self-hating, physically and mentally scorched young boy, who views himself as a lifeless Ragdoll

Oliver: *coughs* The house he's currently inside: *Burns down* Oliver: SHI-

Me: I don't have trypophobia so I should be good Me: *sees the holes on his hands* My soul: Aight Imma head out

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most talk about a fire victim and lyrics kinda look like it, but, after a sugar rush i got to the conclusion its a dire analogy to growing and getting old as a lot of things said in the song can be related to that context in a very poetic way, thank you starbucks

Still cant get this out of my head

“Waiting for the world to burn” This didn’t age well.

"I'll say it again, I'm only getting worse" -My self esteem

0:11 This is what every kid late for school feels

"Miku songs are the most scary!" Oliver: *hold my holes*

I still can't believe that the Oliver, who has one of the most darkest songs of the Vocaloid universe, voiced PuppyCat ;-;

God this song is hauntingly good

"Waiting for the world to burn" Australia and California: Don't mind if I do- Edit: Why is every part of the world starting to BURN?

一時期めっちゃ好きで聴いてたなぁ……GHOSTさんのおかげで英語が好きになったと言っても過言では無い

*Fire burns* Hmm. Yes. The floor here is made out of floor.

2:54 if ya'll are wondering.

When Oliver said, “I cry when anything hurts” sounds like my excuse for when I cry when I stub my toe

RU-vid recommended this masterpiece to me after years, I remember the first time I heard this song was in 2020, and I came back here after three years to listen to it again, I love this song

"An eye for an eye" People with glasses: So I can trade my eyes? Sweet

All the animators out there! The “animation part” starts here: 2:54

3:06 Sayin take corner, Burn until a corpse. Say we metal hush now, discord. Trying once to try nicotine i cant exhale anymore So 1 2 3 and it’s time for quarantine Pull my steel and skin my bone cat Fire wons and the rags city apart Car can’t inhale anymore

Bro I used to be obsessed with this song, Came back and it's still amazing

Me: *plays song on 2x speed* RU-vid: ... Me: RU-vid.. you okay there, buddy... RU-vid: *ReEeEee*

Only Oliver

As an artist I’m jealous of the person who drew the character

we were doing a worksheet about the nervous system today and one of the questions was what part of the brain controls emotions and i fangirl squealed so loud that everyone just slowly turned around and looked at me like i suddenly became a duck

When you listened to the song 17 times, but you still can’t understand the lyrics without the subtitles:

Oliver has always been one of my favorite VOCALOIDs, But I think this is probably my favorite song with him. I used to be terrified of this song, Actually haha! I now listen to this song like it's a drug, It's just so hypnotic!

The tiktok bit starts at 3:00 if you're lame and wanna skip this masterpiece.

Nobody: Ghost: *activate your almonds you god dang coward*

Me: Wait, the song was in English? GHOST: Always has been

Almond boi is the first character I ever met here, I'm glad I met him.

Updated list of words and their meanings along with some lyric explanations: • Iodine - the 53rd element on the periodic table. Iodine is used in medical alcohol and iodized salts. • Inexplicable - something unable to be explained. Synonyms with unaccountable • Unaccountable - something unable to be explained. Synonyms with inexplicable • Vexatious - difficult to deal with and causing lots distress; troublesome, annoying • Amygdala - the section of the brain responsible for your Fight-Flight-Freeze response. It controls emotions like fear, sadness, aggression, and pleasure; The Amygdala helps in the processing of memories, decision making, and emotional responses • Autonomy - the ability to make informed and uncoerced decisions for yourself. • Mutilate - to permanently damage a being (be it human or animal) to the point of limbs or parts being removed. • Cauterize - burning or freezing a wound in order to stop bleeding or infection. This burning can be done with fire, a hot iron, or chemicals. • Supplication - the act of begging or asking a god for something humbly or earnestly • Ichor - the fluid in place of blood in a god; poetically used in reference to the blood of humans and animals; watery discharge from a wound • Frontal Lobe - the "control center" of the brain. It's connected to our ability to have voluntary movement, to speak, and to problem-solve. It is also responsible for your personality, emotional expression, memories and their formation, and ability to make judgement; the part of the brain the controls high-level cognitive skills and primary motor functions. • Mend - to repair what was broken • Discord - the lack of agreement and harmony; chaos; conflict; disharmony • Trypo - riddled with holes. Trypophobia is the fear of things riddled with holes. • Tourniquet - a strip of fabric, cord, or bandage that is tied tightly to a limb in order to cut off blood circulation to said limb. It is used in emergency situations to stop life-threatening external bleeding So how do some of these words apply to the song? • "Iodine words" = "stinging/burning words" • "Vexatious, my Amygdala that I can't do a thing about" could refer to Amygdala hijacking, which is when the Amygdala overreacts to a situation and causes panic and distress. His Amygdala is acting out "twenty-four" meaning non-stop, 24/7. • "From losing my autonomy, a mutilated part of me" lack of autonomy, taken away by his Amygdala • "From the mouth of the cauterized rag doll..." He sounds like he's closing wounds with fire. • "Supplications to leave him alone" Either begging to himself or his mind to stop • "Throw the nails away and leave him alone" The wounds I mentioned before feel like self-caused ones caused by a skin picking disorder, hence the holes. The nails mentioned would be his actual nails, not metal ones like the doll in the music video shows. • "Pull my strings and swallow ichor" He talks about himself like he's a rag doll during the first half of the song until his frontal lobe "puts [him] behind [his] own strings". When you pull the strings of a doll, the doll falls apart and the stuffing comes out. The human equivalent of this, "Pull my skin and swallow ichor", makes it more clear what he's doing. • "My Frontal Lobe put me behind my own strings" He's able to think clearer now despite the Amygdala overreacting. He's gained some autonomy back. • "Waiting for the world to burn, waiting for the holes to close now" the fire and burning in the song might be a metaphor for guilt and other strong emotions. "Waiting for the world to burn" = "Waiting for the guilt/sadness/anger from reopening a wound to pass". "Waiting for the holes to close now" is self-explanatory. • "The fire and I, alone again. The guilt and I, alone again." makes me wonder if the fire mentioned throughout the song is real or just a metaphor like him calling himself a rag doll is. • "The fire burns and the rags are torn apart." Guilt/burning emotions rises and rags, aka skin, is torn again. • "So say my limbs are torn apart and the stuffing falls out? The toy should've never been wound. I never meant any harm." Feels self-explanatory. • "And I can't inhale/exhale anymore" could go either way. Either it's because of an actual fire or it's because of guilt and an intense emotional reaction due to the Amygdala issue. • "Trypo-puppeteer" = "Hole-riddled puppeteer"

"I can't inhale anymore" *Dude just breath*

I think this song is about the guilt from something that wasn't actually your fault but you still feel responsible for it

me: holes dont bother me too much me: sees holes in the hands me, feeling my soul leave my body: H

“i can’t inhale/exhale anymore” *starts inhaling and exhaling*

So here’s my theory: Oliver is a doll that is used as an outlet for it’s owner’s anger. (Burning him, sticking nails through his hands, etc.) One day, the doll gains sentience and doesn’t understand why his owner keeps hurting him. The doll believes it is something that he did. (hence, “this has always been my fault.) And... that’s all I’ve got. Idk how accurate it is, or if I’m stating something that everyone already knew, but I’m here anyway.

"Fire burns" *Hmm.. Yes it tends to do that.* "I can't inhale anymore" *HMMM.... YES.. ASTHMA.*

Oliver:”I can’t inhale anymore” Me trying to sing it: That verse describe this little moment

90% Activate almonds 5% trypophobia meme 5% random comments..

This sounds like a story of child abuse. . . . Idk, it might be just me making scary backstories for songs again.

I spent my whole life thinking the first words of the song were "I'm cold i'm cold", and its "I HIDE?"???

SHIT WHO PULLED THE FIRE ALARM

Oh my gosh, when you have skin picking disorder/dermatillomania, this song hits SO different… My therapist praised me for saying I “chose” to pick my own skin when I was anxious and I pointed out how it can be totally unconscious and I in a trance lose track of time while doing it. “Well, you still choose to continue doing it when you realize it’s happening.” He retorted. I knew I wasn’t going to convince him and just didn’t say more. That is the hell of skin picking and other body focused repetitive behaviors, it literally walks the line between complex intentional behavior from the frontal lobe, and the unconscious reactions of the amygdala. As a result, it is often unfairly compared to addiction, which is also a disease people say is a result of poor willpower. This is far from the case. Like I said, I literally have lost track of multiple hours picking holes in myself. It’s hard to explain to someone who doesn’t have it. Basically it takes a LOT of mental energy to break the repetition, because it’s a behavior relieving extreme anxiety. Even though logically nothing is stopping you from pulling your hand away, you can’t do it. You’re numbed out, hence losing track of time and not feeling much pain. Then people try to shame you out of your “bad habit” and remind you how disgusting and dangerous the behavior is, which you already are well aware of. The shame that results from that only makes the picking continue as you get more anxiety buildup from the fear of others reactions. So on some level, you take precautions to hide your picking, but you can’t just stop as easily as others might think. Usually what it takes to stop me in this “trance” is something external that triggers my amygdala (ironically), like a loud noise, someone startling me by touching my shoulder, nearly losing my balance and falling, etc. It is literally like being your amygdala’s rag doll.

"Waiting for the world to burn" Australia: I'll start now.

i've listened to this song a million time and never noticed how at 3:30 you can almost hear breathing, most likely representing how the boy can't breathe properly

This is probably the only song I've heard that's actually played off of Oliver's Frankenstein-like character concept Also remember to activate your almonds for emotional stability

I may be an edgelord but y'all can't tell me that the line "And I defy the way the game works, between you and me, it's only getting worse" doesn't hit hard as hell

Oliver is such an underrated Vocaloid,

No ones talking about how he’s wearing a crop top. He freaking rocks it though.

"Waiting for the world to burn" This did not age well. *THIS DID NOT AGE WELL.*

This song: *exists* Animation memers: *_ITS FREE REAL ESTATE_*

okay no. i keep this on repeat and each time it replays the doll changes slightly - more holes, the top more ruined, nails which I KNOW were not there last time

"Waiting for the world to burn" Australia: AN I OOP

I was jumping on the trampoline with my sister while listening to this, and I jumped, crossed my legs, and managed to land right as the song ended I am proud of myself for this

Ok I thought "amygdala" was just a name but I was taking a neuroscience class online and the teacher was talking about the different parts of the brain and she said "amygdala" and I immediately thought of this song and apparently that part of the brain controls fear and emotions so I thought that was interesting cuz I didn't know that and I'm assuming that was put in this song on purpose but I thought it was really neat. Oh I just realized it says activate your almonds in the description and I think that referring to your amygdala and YOU SHOULD HAVE FEAR AND EMOTION.

*this song* *bless this song* *this song is what dragged me into the vocaloid fandom* *this one* *and i fookin' L O A F it*

As someone with CPTSD and DID, dear GOD does this hit SO close to home.

That awkward moment when you can't tell when Oliver is laying down or standing up, so you comment about it hoping the owner would tell you.

Me: *listens to this while casually opening and removing pomegranates *

oliver is cute, i would adopt him.

Not so fun fact: THIS SON HAS RIDDLES AND 1/3 HAS BEEN SOLVED WHAT THE FUCK ITS BEEN 6 YEARS AND WE DIDNT KNEW THIS, HOLY SHIT NOW IMAGINE HOW MANY YEARS IT WILL TAKE TO THE SECOND RIDDLE

”I never meant any harm” Kokichi is that true-

An eye for an eye, that’s how the game works Emo kids: *dont mind if I do-*

HOW DID 12 Y OLD ME DIDN'T KNOW THIS WAS VOCALOID (I haven't heard of vocaloid there, but now I do 😼😼😼)

I vividly remember being in 7th grade listening to this in my teacher’s classroom- I was the TA and so I kinda hid out in there a lot, especially at lunch. Since she trusted me a lot, she’d leave me alone in the classroom to vibe, so I’d just play this out loud. One day she walked in on me blasting this- I was just fumbling with my phone trying to pause the video while trying to stutter an explanation as the song went “FIRE BURNS AND THE RAGS ARE TORN APART”. ‘Twas a fun experience. That was the day my almonds were activated. This is actually the first song I heard from you! Found your channel back in 2016 ^^ Thank you for the bops Ghost! I just wanted to let you know I’ve enjoyed every song I’ve listened to on your channel since! Thanks for smacking your jams onto RU-vid and being amazing! EDIT: it's 1/20/23 what the fuck does activating your almonds mean i came back for a listen when my friend was talking about ghost and i went "oh i wonder if my comment's still there!" and saw the comment thing and i just- i HELLO????

THE NOSTALGIA OF THE PIGGY ANIMATION MEMES OMG😭😭

“People die when they get killed” Ngl, I didn’t know that 😮

“I don’t know where the thoughts are coming from” yeah I don’t know either.

This came on while i was asleep bc i went into my sisters room to look in the mirror to see how my hat looked and i sat on her bed and fell asleep and when i woke up i checked to see what songs i missed and i saw this song and i was shocked bc i ain't listened to this song since i was younger and i used to be scared of it

"I cry, I cry, when anything hurts." Welcome to the club pal Edit: who invented fire a brilliant bright spark

Olivers voice and character:🥰🤗😇💗 Olivers songs:💀🔪👿👹

The fact that this is a vent song, almost makes me feel bad jamming to it

**when u realized that most of the songs ghost makes are turned into memes** “Oh”

For some reason this song gives me a petscop vibe.

3:58あたりから機械音声が少し人間味のある声に変わるのが好きです…！

Even though this song is 6 years old, I'm determined to solve it. I am going to post a theory every day. So, what I thought of is that the ragdoll is actually a good person at heart but after the fire he got the holes in his memory kind of like a film strip will burn and stop working, then after losing some of his memories he became the trypo-puppeter. Then this is not the end because on another comment Ghost responded saying their is a hidden url, I'm convinced that the url is the hidden symbols at these timestamps if you slow it down. 0:15 0:47 1:29 1:49 2:30 2:53 2:59 3:09 3:21 3:30 4:15 4:20 4:34 Though I am also convinced that if someone can read and decipher it to put them together it will form the url, then back to the comment that Ghost mentioned had a Url in here, they also said there were 2 more left. I believe that this Url needing to be solved is actually the 2nd puzzle, then whatever site the url leads to contains the 3rd puzzle. If we could get to and solve that puzzle then this 6 year old mystery will finally be solved... But hey, that's just a theory.

''I'll say it again, I'm only getting worse.'' -My stress levels after going up another grade.

I seriously can’t tell if Oliver is walking or laying on the ground

Honestly as someone with C-PTSD, I feel like this song hits close to home with how it makes my brain operate. The constant fear, and flips of emotion from scared to angry, causing you to do harmful things to yourself or others but you feel you can’t control it.

I finally found it, after 3 years, I finally found the original, I got nostalgia of all of the old memes. Love this song