I cannot understand how people can praise something that gives them a sense of false hope. There’s one scene in this film that hits me very hard, where we observe senpai’s thoughts and feelings visualized in a courtroom. I’ve been struggling with depression ever since this pandemic hit and I’ve undergone a number of breakups; few as they were affected me severely. Whereas senpai manages to win her heart in one night, I attempted to cut my arm purposefully a few nights ago because that’s how hopeless I feel the situation to be. Sometimes I still feel that way. All I want in the end is someone I can cherish, hold close, and share this life of mine with, explore the great outdoors and settle down in a small log cabin in the Rocky Mountains to raise a family. But sometimes I feel like I’m asking too much. The film said, “Waiting hurts, and being waited upon hurts. But those who are alone must act.” I’ve tried many times only to have my heartbroken. I’ve lost how many girls I’ve given my number to in College. Senpai has no fucking clue how lucky he is. All the shenanigans, the magic moments, the confessions, they’re bullshit, unreal. They’ll never happen to me. Sometimes I feel like my heart is so broken, it’ll implode.
