that longing... I feel it too... but at the end of the night I always have to face the fact that it probably doesn't exist.... that my mom, my dad, my twin brother, older brother, my sister, my other brother and sister, my best friend, my pets, my grandmas, my grandpas, my uncles, my aunts, my cousins, my nieces, my nephews, my teachers, my friends, my enemies... all of this... all of this static... just fades away. No other purpose, no outro theme, no other meaning besides what we make for ourselves. I mean I spend my days trying to fill up the time as a distraction for the void just outside my peripheral, but what I can say is that more and more, on nights like this where the void is all I can seem to see no matter where I look... I am starting to find more and more peace with it. All of that static that fades is so wonderful, but it doesn't last, nothing does. So asking that girl out not asking that girl out... what's the difference? If it doesn't make a difference in the end then why the fuck would I not do it? What a fucked up bandaid for such a deep, hollow feeling
When i listen to it i feel like i am staying on a chair at night. Imagining that moonlight is brightening the room after a long, hard day. Feeling deep melancholia.
From the dawn of their existence on their little blue stone, the humans watched the heavens in wonder and envy, wishing to touch the stars. And so they toiled for long ages to build vessels that could cut through the void like a knife through butter. In time, the fruits of their labor grew ripe, and finally they could see the heavens for themselves, for what they really were. And so they populated their chunk of the galaxy. Those glimpses, which had once been the humans’ fantasy, became reality as they built marvels of their own within the infinite splendor and marvels of the cosmos. The pale stars became their new homes, and the void became their new roads. When they encountered the Federation of Sentience, they were happy to join us, and, in doing so, they brought order to the chaos we had faced for over 5 thousand years. We were captivated by their endeavors, their belief that their entire existence was a journey as they beat back the countless empires of slavers and barbarians who gathered at our borders and caused chaos for many centuries. But nothing beautiful lasts for long, and the young species was suddenly enthralled by a civil war amongst themselves. One side developed a vile technology that turned its victims into mindless, hive-minded cyborg monstrosities who tore their opponents apart with unparalleled brutality. The defenders built great star-killing superweapons, which devastated the rebels with such astounding efficiency that their entire philosophy became extinct. But the humans had reduced themselves to only 3 billion by the end of this war, and went into eclipse. The technologies that they left helped us recover for their loss, and even now, we mourn over their untimely deaths. On what was once their home, their Earth, our federation tirelessly works on ways to try and bring them back. Our anthem has historically been the mixture of all our species’ anthems combined, but after the humans’ demise, we now include, at the very middle, a somber tune, made by the human composer Chopin, as homage to their dead species. And whenever this tune plays, we collectively kneel for our lost member. May they rest well, for there will never be another species like them.
This makes me relive the life and loss of Penn Station. How it was built to welcome new people to their city, making anyone feel like humbled gods. Then to the attention of detail all for the people to make a marvel for all to see. But then times change becoming so norm that it began attracting unpleasant sites. (drug users, gang criminals, etc) So much so it preictally died because of the invention of the bus and highways began to wide spread making trains less effective. There will never be another of its kind. Even in our time we couldn't even mange to keep it alive paying for its maintenance, let alone make another of its splendor in our future, what a terrible shame. 'One entered the city like a god; one scuttles in now like a rat' - Vincent Scully, A critic, lover of Architecture.
You enter in an empty room, big and full of chairs with no people sitting, next to tables with nothing on them. There is a great chandelier hanging from the ceiling. The walls are covered with red paintwall. The carpet on the floor ocupies the whole size of the room, also red. Stepping feels weird, as if many people were looking at you. You sit on an empty chair next to the door and look uncomfortably around, feeling sad for a reason you can't grasp. It feels as if time didn't pass, as if your life was meaningles in that precise location. There is nothing more than this.
Hola Eli, es algo muy personal hablar solo, hablar en silencio, de todos modos, en temas del corazón, lo que yo piense o sienta no le importa a los demas, constantemente escribo a solas o escribo en lugares donde se que pasaran desapercibidos y seran olvidados rapidamente, esta vez hablo sobre mi compañera de trabajo. Noce porque lo hize, siempre con las compañeras de trabajo mantengo distancia para no encariñarme, contigo entendi el porque, cuando me anime a acercarme a ti y charlar, me encanto tu forma de ser, tu personalidad, tu sentido del humor, tanto que quise acercarme mas, primero con platicas, y luego con invitarte a salir y conocerte mas, no me arrepiento, pasar tiempo contigo es algo muy reconfortante, sentia paz, sentia alegria, como si todas las cosas malas que me suceden perdieran importancia, con tan solo verte sonreir y escucharte, Dios, tu eres testigo de como me ponia cuando aceptabas mi invitacion, al principio no queria aceptarlo, pero con el tiempo lo entendi, me estaba empezando a enamorar de tí, cada vez mas, pero tenia miedo, uno porque entre tu y yo hay una diferencia de edad grande, y otro porque despues de mucho tiempo empeze a sentir un amor tan fuerte, y fue inevitable recordar todo lo que paso, pero me dije que no, que tenia la fé que esta vez seria diferente, quize intentarlo, acercarme mas, hasta que, entendi porque el miedo, se me olvido el hecho de que no soy relevante, no soy una persona interesante de conocer, soy una persona que hizo cosas malas que lo perseguiran para siempre, y veo que tu tambien lo viste de esa forma, porque poco a poco perdias el interes en mí, ya no hablabas mucho, y ya no aceptabas mis invitaciones, cada vez mas fria en tus respuestas, el interes ya se murio, cuando eso paso, entendi todo... Entendi porque mi mente no queria que conociera personas, que no sintiera cariño por ellas mucho menos amor, entendi porque los amigos me duran poco, entendi porque la unica persona que llego a amarme aunque sea un poco... dejo de hacerlo, senti el golpe directo que hizo volver a la realidad, me hizo entender que no puedo escapar de mi castigo por haber hecho esas cosas malas, me hizo recordar que en una relacion lo poco que puedo dar, que es la fidelidad y saber escuchar a la persona que amas por horas, hoy en dia ya no sirve, comprendi la situacion y tome la decicion de dar un paso al costado, empezar a alejarme de tí, porque es obvio que tu por mi nunca sentiras algo, y ahi el unico que terminaria herido soy yo, a ti ni te afectaria, en silencio siempre pedire que te vaya bien en todo lo que hagas, que logres tus sueños, que conoscas a la persona ideal, la pareja de tus sueños, que vivas feliz el resto de tus dias, yo estare en silencio tratando de mantener este sentimiento a raya conteniendolo y destruyendo poco a poco, se que me tomara años conseguirlo, no importa, es parte de mi vida encariñarme con alguien, volver a la realidad y entender que eso no va a funcionar, y uso cualquier medio para desahogarme, tan solo me despido con un gracias, gracias por compartir parte de tus historias conmigo, gracias por darme momentos tan bonitos, no te preocupes, nunca mas te voy a volver a incomodar, me mantendre a raya, amandote en silencio y hechandote animos desde el anonimato, pasala muy bien y cuidate mucho, eres una mujer muy encantadora 🩷
Sei que a maioria não vai entender oque eu falo mas essa musica traduz o sofrimento e angústia junto com uma aconchego de dor que sentimos nos nossos corações, .____.
For me it's, you're walking in a side walk full of crowd and you someone is chasing you then you run and everyone is looking at you then you stopped at a abandoned warehouse and you felt 10 second pain after that you're feeling cold then you Die the end :)
Please. Come back. It’s been so long since I last saw you. Please. I’m begging you…I pray that you come back everyday.. It’s been years. 19 years since you died. If I done anything…. TRIED anything… Then maybe… You wouldn’t be six feet under… You would be here With me On the couch With the child you were never able to see… Echo’Mist-1891
Walking along the beach as as the world is on fire and everything you know is burning to the ground. Here there is no flames, but only the water crashing onto the shore. You feel an overwhelming sense of peace as it’s all turning to dust. Did you win or did you loose everything?
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