as a person who was diagnosed with chronic illness at 13 years old corpse means so much to me. his music, his content, himself, his fanbase; it's all just so comforting. couldn't be more thankful of your existence, corpse
fr though. Corpse is a major reason why I managed to pull myself out of my deep depression over how debilitating my chronic illness is (I literally can't even sustain any semblance of livelihood, still living with my parents in my early 30s while my doctors say there's nothing more they can do past my diagnosis) and have hope that maybe there's still something I can do.. I'm still here fighting because Corpse is such an inspiration, even though he says he doesn't want/mean to be.
I was diagnosed with multiple chronic illnesses throughout my teen years and into adulthood and he means so much to me, he makes me feel like I'm more than my illness, and it helps so much more than he'll probably ever know
On top of the message of dealing with chronic illness... the flow in this song is fuckin unmatched. "Reprobate, psych-major, sick-sick-sick so we like danger" holy fuck that line absolutely kills it. Well done, corpse.
Corpse, I am dying of complications with Multiple Sclerosis. I am not being honest with my spouse about the severity so I can keep having good days with her instead of having days where we are knowingly saying goodbye. I will tell her soon, though... I want to thank you for still being here. Even if you don't know me or think I'm doing the wrong thing, know that you're helping people get the strength to walk into the darkness unafraid.
Don't make it just about you. Tell her. Don't take that closure from her. My best friend did the same thing to me, and I'm STILL recovering from that experience a decade later. There were so many things I didn't get to say or do because she kept her own illness secret, and now I'll never get to say any of it. Tell her.
I get that. Last thing you want is nothing but mourning and grief on her face. Better to get and give as many happy memories as possible before you eventually have to tell her.
@@quantumfluctuation5667 Then why listen to it? And also comment on someone saying they like it? Like just keep your opinion to yourself, especially when it's a bad one.
We often hear about chronic illnesses, but often not the reality of living with said illnesses. The feelings that might never go away, the issues that linger here to stay. This song hits differently because it feels like it's your experiences; your story. Even though I may not be able to relate, I still feel the pain and sorrow lyrically and vocally. Thank you for being the voice for many, CORPSE. You and your music means a lot to so many people
Coming from someone who has suffered from depression and suicidal thoughts all throughout middle school and to this day.... Corpse you will always be the voice of chronic illness, whether it be physical or mental. Never give up.
This song means a lot to me as someone who is chronically mentally and physically ill. It encapsulates all the pain it brings and the fear of hurting those around me if something happened
8 months later, probably still the most "touching" song I've listened to. I can't say 100% relatable because I don't think bpd is considered chronic, however I feel this. I've been in and out of hospitals, psychiatrists, and doctors offices since I was 10 and I think I understand the feeling of knowing it'll never truly go away. I see people on the internet and in my everyday life who can just go about there days easily knowing that everything is just fine, and y'know it makes me sad that I'll never be one of those people. However this song has always hit pretty close to home and I really appreciate the meaningful lyrics. Keep it up man, we all believe in you.
Chronic refers to something that’s long-term & can’t be cured completely. Many serious mental health conditions fall under that category, BPD is one of those difficult conditions to navigate trying to live a “normal” life so yeah, I would say it’s a chronic illness. It requires constant effort & it’s a long-term condition that also requires acceptance, learning to be okay with the reality that there will be ups & downs & it Wayne a lifelong journey. It also requires professional & personal support systems in place to sustain long-term stability, as best as can be achieved with these conditions. Those are all very common features of “chronic” conditions. It is also considered an “invisible illness” &, for some, it can reach the level of causing disability in one’s capacity to function in various areas of life. Like, holding a job, academic success, maintaining stable relationships, basic self-autonomy/independence, etc
No clue how I ended up here but this resonated immensely with me. As a spoony with lupus, having been through the continuous hospital charade & being permanently bound to pills so that my body doesn't kick the bucket - it made me feel heard. Even though the meds barely help, and it's frustrating to see others live at faster paces when you're 24 - I'm trying to find gratitude in things. This was a lovely find. Thanks 🌻
My daughter had two strokes at 8 years she lives with pain everyday, she showed me this song I just wanted to say thank you for this. She also told me a little bit about you and I'm sorry about everything you have been through keep your head up and keep making music.
I've had this song on repeat for days. A few weeks ago I got diagnosed with Degenerative Disc Disease in my cervical spine (specifically my c6, so finding this song when I did was eerily personal for me). Corpse, I know you probably won't see this comment, but thank you for being there for me through your music while I've been grieving the loss of control over my own body and coming to terms with the realization that I will likely be dealing with this for the rest of my life. I'm currently in graduate school getting my doctorate in clinical psychology and dealing with the constant pain and cognitive symptoms over the last six months on top of all of my academic stress has made me feel like I was losing a piece of myself or like I was going to wither away, but your music has made me feel like I'm not alone and gives me strength to keep going. Thank you
“Got you counting the days when your illness is chronic, Death really changes the way you behave” To this I felt a tear slide down my cheek, it might just be the truest thing somebody has ever said in a song. I admire his way of thinking, because I never thought I would find someone with a similar mindset as my own. Corpse manages to steal the words from my mouth, right as I’m about to speak them, and somehow makes them sound better and deeper. This is the greatest song he has ever made, and I’m very thankful for it.
We can never truly know what ails him or his daily struggles, you can feel the heaviness in his words. Music is his coping mechanism and this is his way of expressing everything. Corpse is an absolute magician with his music, but all he wants is to be seen as a person. He has his good days, but he also has his bad days too.
Chronic illness is the thing that destroyed every relationship I’ve had. My most recent relationship just ended because he couldn’t handle being with someone who was chronically sick and depressed. Meds and hospitals and surgeries and constant doctors monitoring me and telling me I’ll die soon are overwhelming for me alone, so I can understand people walking out on me cuz they can’t see someone they love die in front of them. I’m 32 but have been told I won’t make it to see 50. This song when I first heard it hit me so hard. It still does. And I finally felt I could post a comment and say all this. I love this song and it always helps me to feel less alone in the world knowing I’m not the only one suffering like this
dont worry about people, they are just idiots,,,,you have yourselves,,,just enjoy being with yourself bcuz the best friend,, human being can ever have in their whole life is,,thereselfes......I dont have anny illness but i enjoy with myself more than i do with people bcuz people are iddiots...
every one of your songs has a different vibe, sound, and rhythm. Normally with really unique voices they are one hit wonders and then all their music sounds the same, but with your every song is a whole new story, and the rhythm changes are SO SICK. I LOVEEEEEEEEEE ITTTTTT ALLLLL
@@Maybe276 yea I like it though because whenever I hear it Im more excited by an amazing rhythm/beat he did, and they always sounds different then the last. Its like satisfying to listen to
Can we Just appreciate the word play here? At 0:42 he says "I could stay a while 4 I move on" the after that, he starts rhyming his sentence in for word intervals. This dude is crazy
That's the way rap should be done. Clean, non-distracting piano, nice background sounding, astonishing flow, deep dark text and GOD DAMN this vocal... Thanks for this gem, man. Stay sane, CORPSE.
This song hurts. Like, as a dropout with chronic illnesses, this is so relatable it's painful. But in a good way. Corpse's songs just make me feel less alone.
it's cathartic, id say. always being in pain, feeling like you won't amount to anything, wanting to do stuff but your body saying no, going to unhealthy coping mechanisms since you don't know how to do anything else, etc etc. it reminds me of something my therapist once said: old wounds are going to hurt no matter what, what's important is how it happens and how it's taken care of. an open, infected wound is excruciating, but a healthy wound needs to be opened so it can drain and be cleaned. idk if that makes any sense lol
When Corpse began to speak out about his chronic illnesses, mine were getting worse. We had tried for so many years to find something and hit a wall. My family gave up. But I didn’t. This song, as sad as it is, is a reminder to keep fighting. Because this pain will pass eventually. Live life until you can’t.
same here. im still in a lot of pain and struggling to get through, but on the day this song came out, i finally got a referral for gender reaffirming surgery. sometimes i can be hopeful
its quite amazing how such a song can be overlooked until you listen to it properly and actually listen to what he's saying. It becomes incredibly relatable to those actually genuinely struggling
I have chronic back pain, graves disease, and EDS. All contribute to a daily struggle of even getting up to work. I absolutely adore this and I'm glad my sister forced me to listen to it. So many of the lyrics hit me hard in the feels. Keep producing music, you're amazing and strong to still be working under those conditions.
“Fuck ur fucking sickness lost u in the process” hits me deep I lost someone to suicide..either it be mental or physical illness they r all hell but I hope u pull thru bro whatever ur going thru keep ur head up cause it’s a never ending battle
I fucking love the lyrical consistency throughout this. Sometimes it's rhymes, sometimes the words lead into something new, sometimes you just say fuck it and sing what you WANT. This is amazing.
I remember finding out your content back then. Some time later I found your music. I've been listening to your songs since then. I think I found them in the right time. Been dealing with lot of health issues, specially this year... Got some back problems, got diagnosed with gerd as well; amongst other things, which leads me to I feel sick and being in pain most days so, listening to music, your music; (this song in particular) is a good way for me to cope with all those things, so thank you Corpse. Thank you for spreading awareness. Take care.
It's hard to put into words how Corpse's more serious songs hit me. There's depth to them, things I can relate to and things that go past what I can truly understand on a personal level, and might never be able to understand. But that's also how I feel sometimes, that there is depth to my own pain and that it will never truly be understood in its entirety by any single person. There's a kind of peace in finding empathy over pain or frustration, even if it is incomplete.
This is so well written. Ur absolutely right. I feel he’s got such a talent turning how he feels into words and ryhythms. Everything is honest that’s how it gets to so many ppl. He’s a true artist no doubt
Hey corpse, I don't know if you'll read this, but I just wanted to say, take your time, underneath all the voice thirst and several other reactions, we do know there's you as a person, and I can't say I know what you're going through, but I do know it is tough, so, we understand if you have to take a break from it all to deal with your own stuff. Thank you, for everything, see you next time man, take care.
such a heavy song that i can relate to, i havent been chronically ill but i feel like i been ill my whole life, been through so many break ups and being hard of hearing it was hard for me to fit in, always thinking about suicide but i never done it, your music inspire me, and i hope you continue your music career, keep at it corpse :)
Nothing since Agoraphobic has hit me this deeply.. I can literally feel his pain reverbing in my soul, and maybe that's just because there is an element to this that I can relate to. Just wow, always speechless from every song he drops.
"Fuck ur fucking sickness lost u in the process" Lost myself in the process, let alone my friends. People I have know half my life no longer talk to me because I can't do the things I used to do, due to chronic illness. Chronis illness suck ass, and yet nobody talks about it enough, so thank you. At least we all know we aren't alone in the struggle.
Ya, I swear I get bullied so much in school. I tried leaving school but my parents won’t let me bc if I do I’ll be known as a “ failure in the family” the past 5 years of my life have been me in and out of hospitals and me being bullied. I gave up on my favorite things. Drawing, writing, reading. They just remind me of the past 5 years. It’s really nice to know that we are not alone in this struggle. I have been watching corpse for abt a year now and listening to his songs calm me down when I want to break things and just rage out. I have 4 older brothers who well suck, there the main reason why I lost most of my friends, I do try to protect my younger siblings so that they won’t end up in the wrong mindset because they are still young. I have 3 close friends but they all live 45 minutes away from my house so I rarely see them.
I've been chronically I'll since I was 3 months old. When I was little I used to spend so much time at the hospital I would tell the doctor what prescription I needed. During my teen years my asma seemed to stabilize, but then at 17 I started to develop symptoms of endometriosis. Not to mention my list of mental illness. Invincible disabilities and chronic illness are the worst.
I hope you can find some true friends whether in real life, this community, or heck even me. No one should have to suffer from friends walking out. I personally think it’s one of the most awful things you can do as a person. If you ever wanna talk just reply and I’ll send my discord stuff🙂
it is ok at the end of the day u get to choose how u want to live ur life keep it up remember u can only find the most sincere type of friends when u are in this kind of situation
Being diagnosed with multiple chronic illnesses myself. Corpse is one of the only people in the world that actually makes me feel like I have a way of letting all the pain out. Throughout my whole life I felt so insignificant to everyone around me but knowing that there are other people who have felt my pain and probably worse makes me feel a whole lot better but knowing that others are going through what I have also makes me feel bad. Either way, Corpse is a beautiful person and makes my day a whole lot better with all his songs and streams so. We all love you Corpse! You're so amazing to those of us that have no way of getting any comfort! Thank you!
I'm someone with chronic illnesses, and even though I will obviously never know exactly what Corpse is going through, I understand. Corpse's content is such an escape for me, and it will always be.
I'm so sorry for all of yall suffering through chronic pain or illnesses or anything else life threatening. If I could switch places with you all, I would in an instant. This song speaks to so many people in this comment section, thank you Corpse for doing what you do. You don't deserve the pain you're going through, physical or otherwise. Nobody does. Hugs to everyone here 🫂🫂🫂
Thank you for another song-honestly, I never thought I would be so entranced with your type of music. But each song, from 'Miss You!' to this new one, speaks to me for different reasons. And even If I can't 100% relate to them all. I do find them calling out to a different part of me. Thank you for making me feel something when I thought I was dead inside.
Same here, for example I have multiple chronic Illnesses (Narcolepsy, Epilepsy, Psoriatic Arthritis (which developed/I got diagnosted with when I was 25 so you could call Early Onset Psoriatic Arthritis)) )
"got meds in my blood, got death on my mind" shit hit real deep for me. i suffer from acid reflux/GERD too and i've always had trouble with social anxiety and slight agoraphobia and it was always hard for me to go out and make friends but once i heard Corpse's music and they way he shares how his anxiety affects him and how life is hard for him and others too just really opened something up for me cuz for him to do that with all the people that just totally shit on him for no reason takes guts and an insane amount of courage to do which is extremely hard with anxiety issues so thank you so much Corpse for helping me and others see that, you may be known as "deep voice guy" to other people but to me and others you're so much more, you're an amazing artist, an amazing content creator and just a huge inspiration for people trying to get over anxiety and depression. you've taught me that life is difficult but you just gotta keep going and that's such a beautiful message so thank you so much Corpse, we'll always love you man.
@UCs4lWISJceFPU1jOuJo6DxA wait are you talking to me because if you are I know I was just confused on why they would say that. Also I asked that question because if you are trying to at me my name just looks like a bunch of numbers and letters for some reason but if not I replied to you for no reason so sorry about that
I've been listening to Corpses songs the past few days, been in a dark place. It's been helping. I hope he takes care of himself and knows that his true fans don't care if he stays hidden or decides to reveal. We just want him to feel safe and happy.
there are many of us here that will always b here 4 u, Corpse. u have been an inspiration for those who are struggling and dealing with chronic illness (from what i have read in the comments past and present whenever i watch). i have autism and i have friends with chronic illness, when they ask for any new songs i usually point them to u bcuz u understand and know the pain they go through.
All I hope is that he is healthy, happy and not in pain or lonely. He deserves all good things in this world for cheering up many people in this world.
I live with similar/the same conditions corpse does, he might not be lonely because he’s a busy dude with all his music but he’s going to be constantly paying for medicine, prescription pain killers, medical bills from before his youtube career. He’s gotten braver going outside and I wish I could be like that so I do deeply hope he’s doing okay but the reality is he very well may not be. Chronic pain is chronic and we live in this pain everyday no matter what, sometimes there’s nothing that can help.
This song sounds so sad, Corpse has been through a lot and I’m glad he’s still here with us making music. I hope to see him making more RU-vid videos too. Love you Corpse 🖤
Love u corpse thanks for being light to stuff like mental illness you r awesome I am agoraphobic and is on special medicine for it but your agoraphobic song I can play on repeat.
I feel so sad for corpse seeing his old songs and the new ones u can see how much his voice is getting more deeper and deeper which means hes probally suffering more
i resonate with this song so hard, and i'm very poor at putting things into words so bare with me. i almost lost myself, i'm chronically ill with neuropathy, nerve damage, arthiritis, several other things. i watched Corpse's interview with Anthony Padilla a few months back and i had tears in my eyes during parts of the interview because i thoroughly understand, and i felt an odd sense of comfort that someone else has gone through what i have medically and emotionally. it tears you down day after day and fighting is hard. very difficult at times when you're so engulfed in flames that you can barely stand to move your fingers. i go to the doctor's and get shrugged off appointment after appointment and hearing someone else has gone through the same gut-wrenching repetition gives me some hope, especially since Corpse is raising awareness about it. keep going, Corpse 🖤💜 you're doing phenomenally
ive been chronically ill my whole life, at 8 years old i already knew nothing but hospitals, doctors, and constant pain. theres a 2020 tweet of yours, Corpse, that talks about how you wanted to be able to make the voice of chronically ill people heard, how you wanted to bring awareness. you did it Corpse, you totally achieved that, in the most beautiful way you ever could. thank you, i cant express how much your music means to me.
when I was just a few years old my parents noticed I couldn't walk well. I cried about my pain, but hospitals thought it was just growing pain. when I went to second grade we got an MRI the doctor told us I had a condition called Osgood Schlatter arthritis. usually, that condition goes away but the doctor told me the chances are really low that I would live without that pain. when I started hearing corpses music, it literally changed my life. It gave me the motivation to do sports and all the things I've always loved. thank you corpse.
I have type one diabetes and nerve damage CORPSE you are an inspiration to me as someone who could die at any moment, I love you man and all your real fans do too. We're all here for you. If i died today I'm glad i got to be apart of your fan base - your fan Payden
As someone who feels like they are constantly falling behind because my old friends/classmates are in life this hits close to me. All the shit I allowed myself to do. I am surprised I ain’t death yet. Yet I also see how far I’ve gotten and I keep going. Never stop bro. I haven’t yet, I beat to the tune of my drum, just like you do.
This evokes a feeling I hate, and it makes me uncomfortable because it’s describes things I felt before that I wouldn’t be able to put into words like this. The song is amazing and it makes my heart hurt. Love you corpse ❤️
Literally! I wasn’t sure if I should say relatable since I’m sure he’s talking about his own story but there’s no other way to describe it. Def a familiar feeling.
I think truly, this couldn’t have came at a more profound and needed time of my life. “Life Waster” as the title song, along with the lyrics and your voice really impacts in such a deep & raw level. I love the production and emotion that went into this. It’s a masterpiece. This song feels incredible vulnerable, grounded and overall like a insight of someone who feels they’re wasting their life - due to many reasons. I only think this because that’s what I’ve been struggling with and dealing with since as a teenager. I can relate, maybe not on the same way but I’m familiar. I’m Chronic, I have mental health issues and have to deal with a disability everyday of my life; only recently in faced with another medical problem and I feel so lost. I’m 21, I never felt so numb and have suicidal ideation in my mind as much as I do now. I feel my friends are moving along happy with their lives, while I’m here, in such a dark place and the last thing I wanna do is waste their time as a burden. Life is going by so fast and so slow at the same time, I’m stuck and unable to go back to some sense of normality. I actually do feel like a life waster now that I think about it…meds, doctors, pain and everything is the reality for me. It’s almost self-destructive truly, I’ve tried everything and music is basically all I have right now. So, thank you Corspe, for this song and giving something akin to a lifeline for me to hold onto. 🖤
I lov the way u explain it. And though I don’t know u- I’m glad music is something u can keep in these hard times. It’s hard I’m sure. But I’m glad u wrote this. I’m glad I got to know this about u. It’s not wasted I promise. I hope u keep doing ur best. Can’t wait for the next song, but this one certainly did it’s job.
@@01eminasvolhamato Ah, thank you so much. (I could’ve went more into detail or write more but I didn’t want to go overboard.) I may not know you either, but I appreciate you and your comment. I’m glad too honestly, I don’t know where I’d be without it - it’d be harder for sure. Thank you, I’m glad you felt such a way about my comment and got to know me through it; that it’s not wasted. I’ll hold onto that promise. 🎶 I’m doing the best I can, I can promise that. I hope you’re doing well and taking care as well. I can’t wait too, he just keeps improving and each song is such a unique piece, this one certainly is a new favourite of mine and I do agree it did it’s job. Immense appreciation and kudos for the hard work and dedication!! 💜
First of all, keep it together, don't lose hope. I'm 23 now i don't have that big illness, but it most likely will stuck with me for rest of my life. Before that i had a job, now 1-2 year past i can't have one. So i really feel a true “Life Waster”. Friends building carriers, have families.. i do nothing But if everything goes as planned i can start again, but already hated this years to not "progressing" in life.
@@martinnagy3791 Hi, thank you for your quick “to the point” comment at the start - I’ll try and keep it together. I won’t lose hope, I promise. Thank you for sharing some of your story, how this song relates and feels to you; I appreciate it a lot. I understand, truly. I had a job last year, I had to quit and I’m still dealing with this new health condition; I’ve had to give up a lot of things and take a break from doing what I love. (Digital Art) So, I relate to that and I’m sorry you are going through this, it isn’t fair nor deserved…I hope you get through this and know you aren’t alone. I can also relate and understand seeing friends and families moving on, doing something with their lives and being happy; it really cements that you are wasting your life away and sometimes you can’t do anything about it. You just have to let yourself feel in the moment, it’s okie to and I hate not being able to progress too - especially when it comes to showing one’s true potential and willing to improve. I truly hope and wish that everything goes to plan for you my friend, you already made it this far and I’m proud of you for that. Even if things don’t go to plan, I’m here for you and if you want someone to talk to; we still got more lives and years ahead to try again. Take care okie and thank you again for your reply. 💜
The thing I found most helpful with my chronic illness is doing small things every day. I can’t build sets like I used to or run theatrical productions like I used to and I can’t use the skills I acquired before my illness that started at 15 but… I can make small things. Blankets for new babies in my family. Little trinkets and projects. I spend time every day working on small things because I can’t manage working heavy machinery anymore. I’m not useless… even though my brain tells me that I am every day. I’m not wasting time… even though everyone else got to go follow their dreams and I was stuck at home sleeping in front of the toilet for weeks on end. I fill the time I do have and I make small beautiful things for the people I love and right now that has to be enough. Please don’t give up on your art… it’s your only outlet. Make beautiful things especially when it hurts to make them. That is after all the essence of art and what makes this music so relatable. I hope you’ll keep going friend. I believe in you.
Man, this track gets me every time. I’ve had 6 open heart surgeries. 5 of them were done by the time I was 13. The 6th was done in February of this year. I was strung out on heroin/opiates amongst other things on & off from the time I was cut off my pain medication after my 5th surgery when I was 13 till September of last year. I’m 27 now & have almost 1 year clean. Thank you for this song , brother. It means so much to myself & many others.
I feel heard. This song got me through this past year dealing with severe chronic joint pain (esp hands and arms) and an RA diagnosis around this time last year, at age 25. This song is one of the reasons I decided to stay.
As a thirteen years old diagnosed with social agoraphobia which is the fear of people I love corpse and everything about him he's so comforting and it feels like he's there for me
Seeing someone with chronic illness absolutely killing it while also being relatively open about their personal struggles really, genuinely gives a lot of hope for other people. And if not hope, then it gives the catharsis of being able to listen to your music and just.. feel. Feel wronged. And that's okay. A lot of people have been. Keep killing it.
So true. This is part of the reason I love him so much. His story is eerily similar to mine and I’ve felt so alone all this time but now I hear his music and it feels like finally talking to someone who gets it.
Don't know if you know this but you pretty much described ironmouse, good friend of corpse with a chronic illness as well. You can catch her on twitch and might even get the nice surprise of Corpses visit there from time to time
@@TheMarquis_31 Common Variable Immune Deficiency also abbreviated to CVID. It basically means that she has no immune system thus has to stay quarantined at all times. She is also on respiratory aid and has to get plasma injected every couple of weeks (donate plasma if you can ;) ). Her condition also has had a major impact on her high pitched voice which some might qualify as annoying. So quite the opposite to Corpse whose voice is described as assertive and dominant. Despite all these issues she is a bright ray of sunshine and a beautiful human being whose company is beyond entertaining.
I’ve got chronic illnesses + PTSD from childhood trauma and these lyrics fit how I feel just a little too well. It’s like He took the swirling thoughts in my mind and made them make sense. I hate knowing he struggles too, but I guess that’s life. We all struggle. It’s bittersweet because I love knowing I’m not alone, that I’m not the odd man out for my feelings, but it’s painful knowing others hurt just like I do.
much love and respect for corpse, you're amazing and such a strong person to be willing to voice your vulnerability through your music and share it with the public really does take guts never forget your worth king :) ❤️
Lyrically this is one of your best songs to date. I love seeing the improvement from when i first heard your music to now. The old stuff goes hard still, but this song had me take a seat.
This song was probably a lot for him to write knowing how much info he is putting out there talking about him and how he thinks and I think we should all thank him for doing so bc not a lot of people would put there own day to day life and story in to not one not two but just about every single one of them ♥️
The words "life waster" express EXACTLY how I feel about my chronic illnesses. Back when I was somewhat more able most people didn't really believe me or understand, and were always "disappointed in me", and like trust me, you were never as disappointed in me as I was in myself for letting people down. I fight every day not to hate myself for my illness and disabilities, and give myself some grace, but these asshole illnesses have stolen my twenties from me and I'm grieving all the things I could have done while I've been fighting this shit.
Same. I spent my 30s in constant pain after I "recovered" from pneumonia. I would sleep for 3 days at a time. My husband was like "what's wrong?" I had 2 babies to care for but I couldn't wake up. If I was awake, I was in pain. Eventually the fibromyalgia got a lot better and I could sort of live my life again, but most of my hobbies were too strenuous for me to do without it backlashing and making it more difficult to recover from. Now, in my late 40s, I'm at a healthy weight and feeling better. Unfortunately, I just found out I might have lymphoma. So much for making up for all the years I missed living while I was debilitatingly ill. Now I don't even know if I'll be around for my daughter's wedding next year 🥺
i'm an author and a streamer, and still a teen, and holy hell its so frustrating to not have even graduated high school yet and still in so much mental pain that people try to brush off
@@Becky317girl you said "might" have lymphoma...And your already writing off your daughters wedding and your future. You need to be a little more positive it might change some things in your life. You be surprised what positive thoughts can do
i don't have any chronic physical illnesses, but my entire life i've been battling chronic mental illnesses, along with years upon years of almost every type of abuse. this song really resonates with me, even if it is about chronic physical illness. i feel so seen and heard because sometimes i just feel like there's no point to my life when it's so dark and it's never really gotten better. i appreciate this song so much.
This is deep af. I was born Diabetic Type 1 and have been dying ever since. I don’t have more than 5 years left, so I feel this song down to my soul. 🤟🏼🖤
Out of all his songs this one hits the hardest. This isnt jus a guy wiv a nice voice rapping over a beat, this is corpse telling his story its real and i love him because of it. He nvr fails to make real music. He something we need alot more these days. I luv you corpse.
For whatever reason, this song really relates to what I'm going through right now. I've been from hospital to hospital and it feels like I don't have the help I need yet. Thank you for creating this to help me cope in some shape or form
Bro corpse is an amazing person he helps so so so many people he’s genuinely so kind and his voice and mood and just change in seconds I didn’t think someone’s natural voice could be so deep like him when he wakes up Oml just him existing helps so many people
This song means so much to me personally. My chronic illness isn’t physical but it makes life hard and this song truly vocalizes how I feel. I want to succeed in my life but my illness makes me feel I don’t deserve it so I sabotage over and over again. I want to be loved but the voices tell me I don’t deserve it so I sabotage. The way I grew up doesn’t help me because I’ve never seen what a healthy relationship looks like so I end up treating all my partners like shit because that’s all I’ve ever seen. I’ve been abusive, manipulative, unfaithful. I’ve been nasty. And that cycle of behavior makes the voices tell me “Who are you to be successful? What makes you think you deserve to be happy when you did THAT? What right do you have to be okay, you pathetic piece of shit?” It makes me afraid to go to college because I don’t want to continue the cycle there. I don’t wanna die but it gets so hard that I’m worried one day I will give in and kill myself. And it keeps getting worse. Every time something good in my life happens I ruin it. So I count my days because it feels like giving into the voices is inevitable. And loving somebody feels impossible.
my fiance decided that he couldnt cope with dealing with my chronic pain and illnesses after 8 years together. I've tried my hardest to push through the pain to get better, help more and be present but this song speaks to so much frustration I have at illnesses stealing so much of my 20s.
Girl I feel you.. with my right knee being destroyed by Cipro and my GERD I've been fighting. If you need a friend reach out to me I'll be here for you.
I can understand how you might feel betrayed, but its nobodies job to look after you if they start to feel its a burden on themselves. I hope you find someone that can help you but I hope you also dont feel like he was obligated to stay.
Im so sorry hun. I've been there. I just wanna send you the biggest hugs and tell you you are loved. Fk his conditional love, you deserve so much better and you have so much love to offer. 🖤
I feel ya. I think my bf of 7 yers is going down that route lately. Had three spinal surgeries in the last year. Been having mental illness since childhood. So i know about stealing my life (im 34)
As someone with chronic illnesses currently unable to get out of bed, finding this song right now has me crying so hard. Corpse and his content means so much to me, it's one of the only things holding me together right now it seems. Finding he had fibromyalgia as well really just made me feel less alone, less like it's just in my head despite so many saying it is. I hope you're okay Corpse, all things considered, I'm so thankful for you and everything you do
i actually feel bad for you and wish you the best buttttt.... sorry corpse is ass and his music is terrible (my opiinion) also he only has fans cause emo highsool girls who dye their hair rainbow and wear dog colars