go back to her original video she left a long ahh paragraph explaining what this song is about ...lol Idk how ppl miss it like it is the first thing you see on her video as it is PINNED in the comments...the MV is referring to her traumatic past from her childhood growing up in the Philippines and what her parents did to her....most of her songs so far reflect her life and things she has gone through which is why I love her so much for her authenticity and realness.
The color yellow basically represents her abusive childhood because when she was young her room that she was locked in was all yellow . Her drowning in yellow represents her drowning in abuse . She's also naked during this which symbolizes her vulnerability . Also her childhood room had a lock on the outside so that's why the one in the video does too.
She said it's about her childhood that keeps haunting her. My own interpretation is that she wakes up in the same nightmare again and again. When she thought she could already escape it, she was pulled back to the harsh reality every time.
The meaning behind this song is very sad Her adoptive parents abused her when she was a kid.. The room she was locked in bad yellow walls.. Then at the beginning, the trophies are when she won drawing and singing contests But her adoptive parents will always get mad when she join some contest And I noticed she wore the blouse that choked her at the beginning.. I wonder what that meant
