1:02 *well my dad is with my mom so... He's not in pain anymore* Those words feels like a hot knife running through butter, being that the butter is your heart.
i remember watching this 3 years ago and i couldn’t imagine the pain you were going through, i couldn’t imagine losing a parent. i lost my mom to depression with this global pandemic and i felt and still feel so heartbroken. it’s been a month without her and it still feels so weird, i feel lost at times, especially waking up every morning and expecting a phone call or text from her telling me something crazy or funny or just wanting to chat. i miss her every single day.
I lost my dad unexpectedly in 2018 and have slowly watched my mom drink herself away since.. she recently has been given a diagnosis of cirrhosis of the liver and 1-3 years to live.. if that.. I’m not coping well.. It so hard losing a parent and all l have learned from it is to go day by day.. don’t force or stop your emotions. What ever you feel is normal and it’s your way of coping. Good vibes to you.
@@aerryn420 my mom has actually gone through the same thing when she was 14. Her father passed away from cancer and her mother drank a lot as well and due to it she passed on soon after. I am so sorry. You deserve the absolute best in life and things will get better. I hope you have amazing friends and family ❤❤
i don’t even know who you are, but i’m sending you all my love. they’re in a better place now, and they would be so proud of you for being so strong. all my love, and stay strong 💗
I S S Y Because she is saying, *heart snaps in half* like is someone supposed to laugh at that? An initial reaction wouldn't say that this comment was grief like Sarah's, it's supposed to be funny when this isn't a laughing matter.
Giulisss Purtoppo è morto suo padre, fra l'altro nel giro di due giorni, prima stava bene poi tutto in una volta si è sentito male, è andato al pronto soccorso ma l'hanno rimandato a casa dicendo che non era niente di grave (da quello che ho capito), poi è stato male di nuovo, lei ha chiamato il 911 (per noi sarebbe il 118) e in due giorni se ne è andato nonostante le cure dei medici. Poi non so se lo sai ma anche sua madre purtoppo è morta credo un paio di anni fa e da quello che ho capito anche lei in modo veloce e inaspettato....
sara i live in Jordan , come visit me...dont be alone..u can have ur own room, the house is big enough...i cook for u and take care of you...i honestly mean it. u are in my prayers
Can’t believe it’s been 3 years. They say times supposed to heal you but it never does when it’s someone you love that’s left a big impact on your heart . Thinking of you xx
My Dad passed away suddenly two and a half weeks ago. Yesterday we laid him to rest. The pain is an unbearable pain like no other that can never be put into words. Trying to find comfort in others who know what I am going through. Empty is the most adequate way explain this pain.
grief i've learned, is really just love. its all the love you want to give but cannot. All of that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in that hollow part of your chest . grief is just love with no place to go.
My dad died today.. july 24 2019. I will miss him dearly. We are Never Alone sweetie. Thank you for this video. You are Beautiful, just like Me. Edit: my best friend died September 22nd 2019. Hug your Loved Ones.
@@grace90183 we had a terrible relationship. I recieved my predisposition for drugs and alcohol from him and nothing else. He wasn't a bad Man, but he was a raging drunk. I am more Angry than anything else. Death makes me Mad. Idk why.
I'm a big guy and I cried like a baby watching this video,I'm 26 and my dad passed away from cancer about a year ago,until today I tried everything in my power not to think about it,just pushing the thoughts away,but I've had a really tough couple of month and couldn't take it anymore,I broke down today,I'm completely lost, i don't know what to do, everything reminds me of him as we used to work together, every tool that he ever used,every piece of clothing,I miss him so much that I feel like 50% of me died that day but I never wanted to show it to anyone cause ive always felt that If I hide it than one day it will go away, but it didn't, I dont know what the solution is but I hope you have other family members around you that love you and support you,if I didn't I wouldn't be here right now,people say that the pain will go away but it never does, we just learn to hide it from people and pretend that everything is normal,when its not,how can it be normal when all of a sudden someone so important to you simply one day disappears without any trace,just gone and all we have left if memories and things that belonged to that person,I'm finding it really hard to believe in God but I try everyday as its the only hope we have that not everything is lost and one day just maybe one day I will get to tell him how much I missed him,Kocham cie tato
exactly, the pain and sadness will never disappear but we'll just learn to hide it ... that's exactly it ...... my dad died two years ago and still can not absorb it just because he was not sick or had an accident, just died just ...... died on vacation, my mom flew home without dad terrible, terrible, terrible when waiting at the airport and returning only one parent :-( :-( everyone is watching us from heaven
Sara K listen life isn't over for you okay. I'm going to say this with all my heart and all my life I know it must be difficult to have both of your parents have let go of the grass and go to another place to go but they must be drinking wine and eating fancy things and scones 😂 they're in a better place now. Sara listen life is just going to be full of little surprises some that might make you happy and others that will make you sad. I'm saying this from my own experience so I had lost my uncle around when I was 7or8 and I'm 13 now i will say that when I found out that my uncle had passed away I didn't believe it but last year is when it really hit me and when I cried and I felt like there was nothing else for me because he was my father figuire because my dad wasn't around he had gone to jail and if you only knew how lucky you were and are to have had a father that stuck around but guess what my great aunt had now been diagnosed with cancer and she had been for almost a year and yesterday that I saw her she said she felt her whole body giving up on her that she couldn't do it anymore and let me just tell you that at my age you shouldn't be depressed you should be hanging with friends and stuff like that well I am really much of a lonesome persona then people think but let me tell you something sara when you saw that your dad passed away and maybe thought you were alone you had nothing else you wanted to do but cry just remind yourself you have us and me life isn't going to be easier but you will always have something to live for that people love you for. I'm going to tell you now that you have really showed me what life is going to be like and not to give up and I hope you read this because what I saw in this video was a really heart broken girl with a really strong mind and body because that's what you are. You are the definition of what a strong person is and what they would represent and you are one of my biggest role models and thank you sara I thank you so much
I don’t know why I return to your videos periodically. Reading the comments and seeing I’m not alone in this means the impact you leave on first time watchers is immense. So many of us leave the same comment “I first watched this years ago and find myself coming back to rewatch”. Why do we do that? Because we’re going through heartaches in our own lives? Your heart and soul is raw and open to us all. Perhaps we see ourselves in you. Perhaps we see you at your lowest moments and know that you have navigated your way through them-and alone, at that, and that gives us obnoxious hope that we can get through our own tragedies, because you did. I even have a partner and adult children and brothers, and I’m facing the deterioration of my mother but I’ve never felt more alone. Going through and organising her accounts is heartbreaking how she has kept everything in order but is now failing to stay on top of things. Thank you for helping me and others to prepare us for our own loneliness in whatever form that presents itself. I always wish the best for you x
I cannot place into words how impactful this comment is. Thank you for taking the time to leave such a heartfelt comment. I am still shocked to this day that it's already been so many years since I posted this video. The comments, more specifically the comments you are referring to are the ones that keep my sanity at ease and it reminds me I am not alone in this journey we call life. Through the thick and thin of it all, the ups and downs, the darkness and the light. I am a little speechless as sometimes being reminded of the things we are all going through can be an instantaneous wakeup call. My heart is out to both you and your Mother. Its wild you left this comment because I have been wanting to make a video where I talk about pain, grief, and cleaning... I am still organizing both of my parents things and I couldn't agree with you more... it's eye opening to see how organized and put together our parents were. It shocks me to see all they are capable of. It's also inspiring because maybe one day we can be just like them. Although we all feel this loneliness, it's comforting to know we are not alone and some of us are feeling a similar pain. Thank you for taking the time to leave this comment and come back to this video. I truly wish this video will continue to be a "safe" place for us all, even through the pain and hardships. I promise I am always a comment or email away if you ever need someone to talk to or an open ear to listen.
This comment really hit home for me. I just went on a rabbit hole of trying to find Sara’s profile again, my RU-vid watch history said I watched in 2017, 6 years ago as well. We love you Sara.
elle r everybody does. Not saying it isn't bad but everybody loses their parents some day. Does that mean everybody is the strongest person? She also claims that God punishes her for her former live. Do you want to explain that to a child that gets beaten and molested by someone. "Sorry but you get punished for a reason. Your soul did something bad in it's former life". That is so ignorant
Nicole Leonard - I can't imagine 1000 people thumbed this down to be mean. I think some people thumb it down because they are sad and it's counterintuitive to thumb up something sad. But, yeah, some people are insensitive. Mostly the thumbs down are in sympathy.
I can't believe it's been over a year now. I remember first seeing this and my heart broke for you I thought "baby no:(". I hope you are doing okay now. I send my love and support to you always.
"And I just want to sleep and lay down and cry, but I know my dad would smack me if I did that." Sara, be brave. Your dad and mom would stay with you in your heart for as long as you need it.
I remember the day you posted this so vividly. I remember where I was, what I was doing and just sitting crying with you. It's hard to believe it's been three years. You are such a vibrant being. I wish this life could have been more gentle on you, but you are so so strong. I admire you so much, always sending you support & love, xo
I don't think I've ever seen a video of yours before but I saw you in my suggested videos and had to click. I knew it was going to be an intense video and I hate to see anyone in pain. I wish you the best Sara.
As the anniversary is coming up, I just want you to know we are all here for you, you are an inspiration for all of us and we are all willing to give back. I remember when you uploaded this and my stomach just dropped at the thumbnail before I even started watching. I cannot begin to imagine the pain you have been through, losing your parents and surviving that terrible accident. I'm proud of you for being here with us and putting yourself out there and talking to us, from mite wars to book recommendations to storytimes to beautiful makeup tutorials. Love you Sara, you're wonderful.
im crying..... her beautiful eyes dont deserve a tear.... she is so beautiful and a pure soul.... im so mad at the universe... she should not be dealing with this at a young age...
I'm crying too I can't imagine what she would be going through right know. I'm just praying and wishing. I know she's strong, she's amazing and she will get through this. It's just painful because she has gone through too much already
Sometimes when I need a cry, I come to this video to cry with you, and I listen to you. We are strong at the end of the day. I love you Sara, you're my friend and have been for a while now. Stay unfiltered and raw dude.
I remember watching this video and dreading this pain. May 2019 I lost my father, I am broken and lost. This video has a whole other level of meaning to me😞😞😞
she just looks so empty and despairing... it's heart breaking... if you watch her struggling not to break and still trying to be brave and incredibly mature when she's trying to explain ... Sara if you're reading this I am truly sorry for the pain and emptiness you're feeling right now. I honestly think your soul and strong sense of being will help you through this xxx
This still hits as hard as it did when I first watched it 3 years ago! It’s just popped up out of nowhere.. and it took be straight back to being awake at some stupid hour, crying with you watching this video. Now I see you have a smile. This makes my heart happy x
I watched this video for the first time right after you posted it, and my heart broke for you. I remember thinking “I can’t imagine” bc I had never experienced a loss like this. I lost my dad and brother different times within this past year. They both died alone. I still don’t understand it and I don’t think I ever will, it’s just too hard to grasp with my limited human thoughts and emotions. I’m taking it day by day and came back to this video for a little help processing. I still send you so much love 4 years later, with a little more understanding ❤️❤️❤️
For those who say she's just looking for attention.. YES she is. Stop thinking that you guys are better than anyone. She has no dad and mom anymore, she can have you to support her but you don't have the guts to see that someone in pain feels like shit. We are all brothers and sisters, we need to support eachothers, if not, God would've made Adam without Eve. Now just shut up, leave or understand that your sister needs you.
I know it's been 2 years and this is really late but remembering this quote helps me 2 years after my loss. ''I carry them with me. What they would have thought and said and done. Make them apart of who I am. So even though they are gone from the world they're never gone from me.''
Been watching you since I was 15. I’m about to be 20. My dad died a week ago because of cancer. Still can’t believe he’s gone, I can’t even cry or be sad cause every time he enters my thoughts my head just shuts down and I can’t realize it... 08.02.21 ♥️ Ku ru7maluch Baba.
I've been told the same thing over and over too but I suggest just don't fuck with that. Like, life is terrible and sometimes it eflects in your eyes, but still, it shouldn't have the power to change anything. No matter if it's about other people's opinions or your feeling about yourself. I don't know, maybe it's just me, maybe I'm oversensitive but people saying me something like this since my young age... I've always been like: fuck off, even if it shows up... I can still carry on, I can still have moments, when I'm truly happy and yes, WITH trauma, WITH grief, I CAN CARRY ON for myself and for ones I love and respect. I feel like sadness, pain, these are just empty words trying to close up our whole lives and experiences in little cage just to let others think they know, what's going on and that they can help or just tell you to put yourself together one day. Like... I have no words I'm sorry, it's just stupid. I really don't like hearing that from anyone.I feel miserable and weak then.
Ashley Custer Why? She has over 500k subs. She makes great money. More than enough. I think it's awesome to shoot her a nice message or comment, but there are people out there and in GoFundMe who actually need help.
i feel so ashamed of being mad with my dad or feeling like he doesn’t love me. even if he doesn’t love me i will never stop loving him. this really humbles me. rooting for your strength and prosperity babe!
I remember watching this video when it first came out and thinking it would be impossible for me to survive loss like that. For some reason I think of this video often, all the thousands of RU-vid videos I’ve watched and this one has never left my mind. Now many years later, my mom passed in September and my dad is currently in the hospital with heart failure. I finally figured out how people survive such loss, you just do. One day at a time 🖤 seeing your current videos give me so much hope, thank you.
Even though your world is crumbling, I ask you don't forget to eat. Sleep, my dear, when you are tired, eat when you feel hungry, cry when you feel broken, reach out when you need help. There is nothing else one can say. I only ask that you remember the love they felt for you and love yourself that much. I mean this more than I ever have, I'm sorry for your loss. I'm sorry.
Skyla Valentine is that sounds like the lyrics to eat by Zion.t but it's so fitting I love that song ❤ it helped me get through so much. I hope she will be okay.
I don't know why this popped up on my timeline and I don't know why I decided to click on it, and I don't know what was keeping me here to watch the whole thing, but I did. And this is so raw and so beautiful and so real. I commend you for being this brave and honest putting this video up. I know my words won't help, but thank you for being you. I'm sorry you have to go through this. You are beautiful inside and out and I appreciate you. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
I remember I saw this video when you first posted it. My dad just died and idk I thought of you and wanted to watch this vid. It’s nice to know I’m not alone and there are other people who have gone or are going thru this. Thank you for this. Really thanks for your channel
I came back to this and cried my eyes out. I love you so much, I wish I could take your pain away. You sometimes just remind me to be grateful for everything I have. I realise how stupid I am when I complain about things. Thank you endlessly for that
Do not stand at my grave and weep. I am not there. I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autumn rain. When you awaken in the morning's hush I am the swift uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circled flight. I am the soft stars that shine at night. Do not stand at my grave and cry; I am not there. I did not die. (Mary Elizabeth Frye)
I remember watching this video when you just posted it. Now I lost my dad a month ago. I know the pain. I’m so sorry for your loss. They’re in. Better place watching over you babe. I’m glad you actually posted this video. It makes me feel like I have someone to relate to & pretend we’re coping together. Love you girly. You’re strong. ❤️
I remember watching this video And was thinking how strong you are ect and little did I know I would be Sharing your pain I lost my dad January 2018. This video mind blows me on how I can exactly now feel what you feel.
Sara, I know this video was made a year so my comment seems late, however, I was unable to articulate my thoughts and feelings. I feel like it’d be fake to say: you’re so strong. my condolences. Because you deserve so much more than that. You deserve the worlds arms wrapped around you and you deserve mirth, love, light and peace forever. You are a pillar of strength and resilience. Thank you for being honest and not being a bullshit artist. 💫❤️
I have never seen this girl before but this breaks my heart I am literally crying along with her. Your parents are watching over you in heaven and they are so proud of you. Cuddle those pets
My uncle was recently diagnosed with cancer and today I was finding really hard and I remembered this video. I can’t explain it but I just cried and watched this video at the same time and it really helped I don’t know why. But thank you for sharing this and keeping this uploaded. I hope you’re coping a bit better now.
Myah Alanna Myah you are an amazing friend! Please talk to her and probably make her feel better! Thank you for that ! I literally can't stop thinking about her 💕
I can tell that you are a person that has suffered greatly in life. I resonate with the way that your brain works. I find your strength empowering & familiar. I’m suffering greatly myself, whilst grasping on to healing in whatever way I can. Just found out we share the same birthday, just wanted to say that I see & hear you, & resonate♥️
im waiting for a new video of mine to upload... im in a dark place too babe... i want you to know i am here for you and you are never alone, hopefully my new video will be of some help
You guys are such amazing just like your Parents which are hopefully in Heaven now. I send you so much love and I just want you to know that you are never alone. Talking about what you feel is a good solution. Please be never afraid of talking with someone about your Feelings. Ly
Nobody is prepared for this specific tragedy....I dont know you but I happen to click on your video and....i empathize with you so much baby. you have my deepest empathy honey. I miss my papa too...I hope the pain eases soon.
Sara, I consider you my best friend and well, I don't know why I'm writing this right now on this video... A comment you won't even see but something in me wanted to tell you- you make me strong when life gets tough.... You really really do. You got no idea dude!
even though i don’t watch your channel and videos, as this is the first one i’ve seen, i really do hope you’re doing better and having positive people surrounding you❤️
God, I hate it when people say this to me. I know you probably mean well, but it isn't the best thing to hear, especially when you are already feeling alone.
I feel that might be overwhelming right now, Joyce. I dunno. It has good intentions but I think a lot of people want to be left to mourn for a while after losing someone.
You are so strong and brave. To be so young and so grounded...your parents would be so very proud of you. They must have been wonderful people to create such a beautiful soul like you. Know that you are never alone. xoxo
You are most welcome sweetie. Never stop spreading your light. You are changing the world in more ways then you realize. Stay true to you, and keep uploading these videos...if only for therapeutic purposes. They will help you and so many others. Peace and Blessings to you always.
I don’t know why I chose to rewatch this after so many years. But I had this weird sense of time watching it, where I was sending you so much love, healing, soothing energy from the future, but feeling like it was still relevant and having an effect. Time is weird. You are a strong and beautiful soul. God bless.
i remember crying my eyes out watching your video for the first time three years ago. I did not feel what you were going through and i used to be scared of the thought of losing a parent because it seemed like a really remote from my reality. Now it's my reality. I lost my father recently
Dear Sara, you are a person on the completely opposite side of the world from me, a person I've never met or talked to, but here I am, feeling what you feel, crying with you, hearing through your brave words, to the shivers in your obviously unfairly overloaded heart. I don't have any words of consolation, just know that you're not alone. In your house, you have your animals and plants and a shitload of people who love you through this tiny screen.
i remember the first time i watched this when you posted it, i hope you’re doing well and know that you are loved by many. you’re such a strong and beautiful woman 💜
I was questioning why random videos like these pop up in my recommended, but when I watched it, it was one of the realest and heart-wrenching vids I've ever seen. God bless you, girl. Stay strong, and I wish you the best.
I remember watching this in 2017, it litteraly broke my heart...you are such a beautiful soul and definitely deserved better, but I'm so glad you're doing better and are keeping making videos!!! Love from France
I love you Sara and i hope you're doing better. I know life is very stressful at the right now. Time really does help, ive learned that. Patience and allowing yourself to forgive yourself for the things you really can't control is what helps. Im literally angry at the world all the time but i know that it does make me feel so much better to just really talk to myself and tell myself its okay. everything it going to be okay. just breathe. I really am sorry for all the widespread emotion you may feel and the feeling of not being safe, i feel it all the time and from personal experience writing to myself has helped alot with the emotions i feel . Sending you positive vibes and energy. i truly hope you'll find a way to cope and feel better, cause girl im still trying to lol. but i love you and pray for the best for you. If you ever want to talk please message me (:
Gabrielle Nickson such a good way to word what I was trying to say. VIBES! Their more real than what you see. Trust in any vibes you get. When you feel as if someone is watching you or with you.. Know its your mom & dad. They are together & happy. They would want the same for you love. Xoxo
I feel you... My grandfather died last week after fighting years with cancer... He was like a father for me, and I just can't accept that he is not around with us anymore😭
In the best possible way. Kinda like being heartbroken and calm at the same time. This didn't happen to me so I don't feel that heartwrenching pain and yet I relate so much with how you're feeling that I want to cry with you
I watched this video when you barely had post it & I always come back to this and realize how much of such a strong person you are. I’ve been subscribed ever since because of this exact video. You’re such a strong soul and I hope blessing come to you.
After i lost my mother i suffered every single day of my life for 4 years.. it took me 4 years to learn how to deal with the horrible images stuck in my head of her in her last moth of her life.. they still come sometimes, but it’s easier to just think about something else. She was the person i loved the most, and losing her was the worst thing ever happened to me. But I fought , i wanted to die too, I had a strong depression, but I had to stay strong, because that’s what she wanted me to do. Hang in there, this are things that change you forever, the wounds won’t heal, but you will learn how to make the pain bareable in order to keep living.
i lost my dad in suicide last year, and its so hard, hard, i feel so selfish when i laugh in the same room, infront of a photo of him, smiling at the camera, its so hard, like i still wait for him to say goodnight at the night, kiss me on the forhead, i miss my dad so much, but if that makes him happy, im happy. daddy is in the heaven now, and i hope hes as proud of me as iam at him.
Bleach God looks at all sins equally. You can slaughter 8 people,and then turn the gun on yourself.Or,you can steal a pack of skittles from the store.God views them the same.Although,I am no one to say whether he's in heaven or hell.Don't reply to my comment.Have a good day.☺
