The track was released on May 2018 as return to her channel after her failed suicide attempt back on April 2018. The description explained some of her situation, as well as the mental health issues she's had for a long time. It also contained her Discord tag if anyone wanted to talk to her, but at some point she removed it from the description.
@@gothicwvlff2 I'll try to find it since the description came from when she posted Pandora's Box as a single and I only have the memory of it. I do have the link as I sent it to an old friend when it was released, but it's deleted so there's not much use. I checked internet archive as well and no luck as far as anyone backing up the link before the video's deletion.
@@gothicwvlff2 Actually I'm stupid. I copy pasted the description to them directly. Here it is. I will however, remove some people they refer to as I don't want some cunt to contact the group and harass them. Just a quick reminder that she was at her lowest point of her life and it very evident. So remember that. May 21st, 2018: "I don’t know why I’m still here anymore I often like to think I died long ago & this existence is actually hell itself Some kind of justification for why everything is so fucked up I don’t know what I’m doing or if it even matters if I do it Sitting in my bath of blood & vomit again, not knowing what to do, knowing time is still an endless cycle to nowhere I’ve been trying to keep myself from drowning in my fucked up head again I’ve spoken to multiple doctors & psychiatrists begging for some kind of help, all I got were referrals to some other fuckwit who is horribly incompetent at his/her job as a mental health specialist. being tossed around like a fucking ball. Eventually, it dropped & everyone fucked off. Here is all I know. I’m diagnosed with schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, & borderline personality disorder. I have attempted to kill others & myself multiple times in the past, present, & certainly in the future. I can hear everyone screaming in my head & I can’t crush your fucking face I see them & I cripple I still have not received any actual help for my disorders. I get paid to suffer. In relation to Sadboy Sheldon & the channel, I will no longer be making mashups. This decision is final. However I will be making a compilation album to properly signal the end of Sadboy Sheldon. As for [removed], I will give [removed] permission to archive all the albums I’ve made under the Sadboy Sheldon alias if he wishes to do so. The only reason I even found [removed] to begin with was that I was obsessed with Jenny Wakeman during a very self-destructive time. That was the only reason this channel even exists. However, I am still the same self-destructive person, I burned my bridges & I cannot be fucked to re-build it Someone can go forward this to him or something. Sewerslvt is still ongoing, & all future material will be released independently on this channel & depending on how I feel I may do some other shit with the channel. I just do not know what to do with this shit anymore. Humanity is dust in a vacuum Nothing will ever change You are the same helpless child you have always been I need some alcohol, a cone, a wank, & maybe I won’t try again Discord #0301".
This song is what introduced me to her new music when she still went by Sadboy Sheldon. I will always remember blasting this during Hotline Miami levels. #Jvnkoforever
for some reason this revives me to just stand up and hallucinate?/imagine? im on fire with purple and green flames while walking down a dark forested road toward something important
keep exploring that stuff man, i sometimes hallucinate/imagine a doorway with two windows on each side, i can't see out the windows because they are pure light but when the door is open it's pitch black outside, stuff be weird
@@basedman68 sounds like a plan had another moment in my weird purple and green flame state where i was flying/walking upward up somehow like as if gravity no longer existed and i decided how and wherever i moved almost like no clipping in gmod
Sounds like tortured screams slowed down. But it's feedback from mic and a really big amp someone says something distorted and at the end makes a sound like a pig squeal.
@@gothicwvlff2 sewerslvts samples and sounds are always questionable. References to questionable hentai, picture of convicted child predator on single cover, abuse victims. Sewerslvts alias "junko" is a reference to a torture victim that was viciously bruutally abused s3xually for months. Songs about suicide, depression, disphoria. If you think too much about it, its hard to enjoy Personally, i cant enjoy their music anymore, it just makes me feel bad. It sucks because its real art. Just bad vibes, almost glorifying evil.
@@joeylamp_holder2013 theres a whole reupload station, youre commenting on it right now, if you want to listen to them without supporting them just keep listening to them on here.
@@joeylamp_holder2013 songs about sui, big sad, and dyshproa are from their personal struggles. also im curious about the "picture of a convicted pred" apparently it has something to do with the song luciferians if i remember correctly
