08:58 말하는 순간에도 그동안 견뎌왔던 세월이 주마등처럼 스쳐지나가서 그 모든 감정이 뒤섞여서는 온갖 감정이 뭉친 "사랑해요." 한마디 왈칵 토해내고 어쩔 줄 모르는 눈으로 팬들 보는 게 내가 알던, 별빛이 알던 재환이 그대로의 모습이어서 예쁘고, 고맙고 그래요. 재환아 고마워. 잘했고, 수고 했어. 몸 건강히 군대 잘 다녀 와.
나도 거기 울러갔어 학연아. 아차도 그랬고 팬미팅도 그랬고 우리에게 똑같이 슬픈 이별이니까 울려고 갔었어. 그리고 학연이 눈물 많은 사람들인거 다 알고, 어떤 마음일지 다 아는 사람들인데 감정을 참는게 익숙해지고, 눈물을 숨기는게 능숙해 진 너를 보고 마음이 너무 아팠어. 그만큼 팬들이 큰 나무가 되어주지 못했나, 팬이라는 이름으로 소중한 너를 아프게 했나. 어쨌든 2년간 다들 그런대로 의미있게 살다가 신나게 다시 만나자. 네 주위에 좋은 사람들만 가득하길, 상처주는 사람은 쿨하게 지워버릴 수 있길 기도할게. 좋은 꿈 꿔 사랑해
이때 진짜 참 많이도 울었는데.. 뭔가 다 표현할 수 없는 그런 마음찡함... 지금도 보면서 계속 눈물이 나는데. 계속 보고 있으니까 우리 육빅스 넘 보고싶다. 진짜 보고싶다. 멤버들 이름 하나 하나 부르면서 울던 재환이, 나중에 재환이가 얘기했던게 생각나네..원래는 본명 부르고 싶었는데 그럼 눈물이 더 날 것 같아서 예명불렀다는 말에 내 심장 갈기갈기ㅠㅠ 조용히 눈물 삼키다 무대 뒷쪽으로 가서는 펑펑 운다는 학연이 생각에 마음이 아팠던 그때였는데.. 내새꾸들 많이 사랑한다❤ 그리고 너무 보고싶어 육빅스😊
I miss them so much. They don't know how much they comforted me, those words "well done, thank you, i love you' even though it doesn't apply straight to me, those words, nobody has never said that me, but VIXX did. I cry every night listening to them, I try to check up on their social media and support them on whatever they are doing. Ravi is about to go to the army, Hyukie is appearing in films, Leo is participating in musicals, Ken to, N is showing up in drama's, Hongbinnie is doing streams and is sometimes active on Insta. Not a while ago they had their 10th year anniversary and you don't know how stupid I looked crying and smiling like an idiot while watching them. I remembered so many memories of them being together. I am proud to say and be apart of starlight I am proud of stan'ing Vixx I will proudly support them in many activities, I am proud of their music career, and I am proud of them being themselves. I miss them I miss them I miss them so much my heart is about to explode, My one wish is for them is ALL, ALL 6 of them to be together on stage. They saved my life, they comforted me. I cant express in words of how much VIXX and Starlight mean to me. I SWEAR WHY DO I MISS THEM SO MUCH??!!! ITS NOT LIKE IF SEEN THEM IN REAL LIFE YET. IDK WHAT TO DO. I JUST HOPE SOMEBODY KNOWS HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM AND ACKNOWLEDGE THEM AND HOW THEY COMFORTED ME. I hope they all get the recognition they deserve for the performances, their styles, their visuals, their abilities they ALL 6 OF THEM have when they perform on stage. NONE, literally NONE of VIXX's album is bad. ALL of of their albums are so good the b sides tracks were all nice, their concepts, and the story behind each and every song, ITS JUST IMMACULATE. Please Starlight don't ever leave VIXX and forget about them please. All 6 of them are so precious to me, their like older brothers or really great friends I've had for a long time. Please support them for their individual activities, Please love them for who they are and their choices, you don't know how much they mean to me. If you reading this thanking for reading my little tantrum and understanding me. I love you please be safe, and healthy, love yourself, be confident in yourself, their are no real friends in this world, be yourself and show people who you are, your insecurities doesn't make what you are, its your personality and your heart and the way you think make what you are. (I am a bad writer and bad at expressing myself but this isn't negative at all, I am trying to be positive, if it doesn't sound positive then I am truly and dearly sorry) But I love you, thank you, and you did well.
