I'm liking the universe less and less. That's great that we are all one and all, and there are higher, more real ways of perceiving reality. I really could care less. The simple truth is, I am unhappy, and I just want happiness. I don't care about enlightenment, I don't care about elevating my consciousness, I don't care to understand myself and realize these higher truths. I just want to be fucking happy FUCK! Fuck depression, fuck bipolar disorder, fuck enlightenment. Can't I just chill and enjoy being a fucking human being?!
Right. It's like the Matrix. I'd rather not know about the matrix and live a good or decent life in ignorance, than a shitty, fight for my life from day to day life in the real world knowing the matrix exists.
I understand. It’s an every day struggle but gets better over time if you commit yourself to making it better over time. We can talk anytime you want bro. Message me back here or on my channel. Stay up!
Unfortunately, it seems that some human beings do not fit into culturally accepted normative standards, and are therefore classified as waste products of our very productive industrial society.
For months I didn t accepted that i have bipolar disorder, i was sure that I had a spiritual awakening. And i been hospitalized because i have a third eye and a massive spiritual awakening. Almost 2 years later I still belive I had a spiritual awakening
I personally like your enlightenment experience 😊 I saw Beethoven visually and heard him speak audibly in a very rapid paced Latin. I do not understand Latin but I understood the translation. It was, “it is no longer about the law”. Which made perfect sense to me based on what I now believe to be true concerning my spiritual beliefs and how we attain salvation. I was naked in jail and alone at the time. It was real. I heard him. I saw him.
Some people see it as mental illness. Some people are just playing the devil’s advocate in stating you mentally ill to shut you up, when, like the Pharisees, their conscience tells them differently. Many times the ones who should know you best.
I have worn a straight jacket while believing that I was the second coming of Christ. I later came to understand that I was particularly correct. We are all That (just most of us keep telling ourselves that we are not).
My hypomania is often very mystical. Especially in the past couple years. The syncronicities are undeniable, the connection to source is strong, clairsenses are stronger, even when not manic.. The messages/downloads I get from spirit, I will hear others in the Lightworker community(on RU-vid or in person) saying they received the same messages too, around the same day. The depression brings up childhood wounds to be worked through and integrated. This is why I won't take meds, I believe I signed up to have this condition and it serves a purpose. I am getting into therapy again though, because the only thing that makes my BiPolar devastating is my inability to ask for comfort directly, communicate needs without being defensive, both due to CPTSD.
Yes to the synchronicities. For example I was in a manic state, and I was just going over in my head about how much of a phony I was. I had been to Japan once and found my English-Japanese dictionary and was bolstering that I knew Japanese. And on my walk home from work I had the thought “I don’t know Japanese, stop pretending.” I immediately look up to a local gas station named Domo. Which was a japanese word, and I’m like alright the universe is talking to me.
I'm 18, had my manic episode around January of this year. After about 3 weeks in a psych ward, I began taking lithium (6 MMOL) which then increased to (30 MMOL) the 30, felt way too high and I'm now on 12. Ever since the "balancing" of my mood, I have had a lot of shame around my looks and self worth in general. Just recently, I have begun getting a "lower" or more "down" mood, but the whole way through, after being released in mid February, I have felt a lowering of consciousness (in the sense that it is harder to feel real and feel as though I am on planet earth) and a lessening of ability to focus. This causes rather a lot of irritation and stress, as it is hard to do even the simplest of things, such as cleaning my room which I really want to. I often ask myself, "what is the spiritual teaching for this" And everyone around me, even my spiritually inclined mother, seems stumped. From more experience on your end, does it just take time after the first manic episode? I feel as though the question of why I am going through this and why the things that are happening, are as they are, will come to me in due time. Until that day comes, however, do you, dear soul have any advice? Best regards, and love for always, Benoit ❣️.
It's so saddening bc I experienced visions of past lives and even FOUND one of my "stories" really happened, but Im treated like I'm crazy and I feel so outcastes. They first gave me geodone which I now know gave my akethesia Really bad. The one nurse YELLED at me saying " her meds didn't kick in!" I wasn't trying to fight taking meds but they treated me like an object. Although its past it still hurts me. Most people can be nasty to me bc I'm different. I'm afraid I lost touch with my spirituality too...
Big hugs to you Katy, you are not an idiot, and not crazy! The systems set in place to keep us in line and oblivious are what's crazy! It's saddening that a lot of people who work to help other people don't realise this and that they're helping to push the system's agenda's.. we know who's really oblivious here, and I'm happy to say more and more people are slowly waking up to this fact as it's effecting more people daily on a more personal level. Don't give up hope, together we can make a difference!
All moments that we perceive as "past," "present," and "future" actually all exist simultaneously. We only feel as though we're moving through them, moving through time. Dreaming about the future is as easy as dreaming about something from the past because the "future" already exists. We cycle through life after life, not only on this earth but one of many of billions of planets with life on them all throughout the universe. The cycle repeats indefinitely. You are not insane, only awakening. You have not lost touch with your spirituality; it is always there, you will find it again.
This is really interesting..! I myself has gone through a psychosis. And through that doctors could diagnose my illness, Bipolar II. The night I was sent to the hospital I was taken away by the police, treating me similar to a criminal. Even in the hospital everyone was so serious with me even if I was in a state of euphoria almost and my thoughts was racing. They told me to sleep and closed the door to my room. I really wished now that people would have treated me with more patience and compassion, it probably would have calmed me down. Like someone just sitting down and talking to me calmly. I wish for our society that in the future it will be easier for patients with psychosis to ''ride out'' the experience in a better environment.
I usually just have no energy during a depressive phase and the plateau is only a few days (thankfully) where I go pretty much catatonic, too apathetic to even go eat. The manic episodes scare the shit out of me. After about 8-9 years without medication, I started to teeter on the edge of reality. It's difficult to explain, but objects would literally start to fuse together and loose their individual meaning. Everything was stripped of detail, I felt as every around me, including myself, was all part of the same chunk of quantum foam arranged in an immensely intricate, irregular pattern. We were all bound by the same rules and I was just one complex section of the foam that was sophisticated enough to look back upon itself and apply its universal laws to itself. The only thing that remained was the knowledge that 'something' was there but I had no idea what it was and everything confused the hell out of me. Hell, one time I ran around my apartment with a stack of solo cups and was trying to catch these little white mice that were running about. Once I trapped around a dozen or so, I proceeded to collect them.. turns out they we're just scraps of toilet tissue. I spent some nights hiding in my bushes with a baseball bat waiting for someone to break into my car again. My keys and wallet used to 'teleport' back into my house when I reached in my pocket. I went back and forth 12 fucking times before they finally decided to stay in my pocket.. I can recall conversations that I never had and have no recollection of some off those that actually DID happen. I can't even trust my own perceptions and memory. The fucked up part is that I am only just now discovering that world I knew and came to rely on is vastly different from what other see. I can't take anything for granted anymore. Not even my own existence. I've done things where this particular arrangement of matter and energy, myself, should not exist now, and yet here I am. I guess I'm just going to consider it like. lol I'm too much of a pussy to truly test if subjective immortality is real.
+James H. Hi James, yes that is awful, I fell into a two year one the first time, the trick here is tell yourself, if you can come out of it once you can again and again you have the tools to do that.
+moira dean we have to manage the lows with the same importance as the manias, you can do it, I did it and can now do it all the time, its a switch you flick from feeling hopeless to remembering you can come out of it but you have to do the time, whatever that time is, could be like the video says, you have something to face on this spiritual journey. The terrible pyschosis I went through 8 years ago, well I had a relapse two years ago and thankfully we all recognised what was happening and I got treatment early. I recovered from that one within weeks rather that years cos I knew I had it in myself to pull through, and I did. and you do.
+moira dean I think we have to have the depression afterwards because we have to come back to this reality and it can be a bumpy ride. for 8 years I have questioned and questioned my diagnosis cos while I agree that I was in danger it got that bad, and needed meds to come down, I have no language to explain the very real responses from people around me who didn't realise they were guiding me along, kind of like they say one sentence, its two. the first one is the reality based one, the second is the spiritual based one. takes a while to close the spiritual one down, but we have to sometimes so we can live in the real world with real responsabilities , Im highly trained in managing what info I allow to stay, for example If I relate a thought to a biblical image I dismiss it as I am not into religion, just spirituatlity, to keep a balance between my reality body self and my actual true self, I live a normal conformed life, but, when I go to bed for the first hour I can fantasise about whatever I want or don't want whatever mood im in. with the meds im on I get just a few steps before mania and balance. I don't allow it to go too far before I am ready. keep feet on the ground and accept that this is real to us, find away to keep balance. good luck
Yes. So it IS something. I know it's not illness, but a touch of God. But still, reality comes into your way. It's hard to manage school, relationships and jobs if you're mentally unstable all the time.
@@TheMaxiglass Yes, but empathy and understanding towards people with a mental illness exists. If only that were more prevalent in this world... maybe there would be less mental illness and psychosis and belief in "God".
@@lbe for people who are like this, god can also just be seen as truth, truth in its purest form , if u think about it that way, it seems like all things called godly are just extremely smart people who knew to make balance with its wisdom
As someone who's recently suffered his first manic episode, at the age of 28, I can say that this video has it exactly right. Going into the experience I was confused and found myself in a state of increased spirituality. I prayed more than ever and was convinced that I was the second coming of Christ. Once medicated and feeling myself I was even more confused as to what had happened. This video documents the feelings and experiences I had perfectly and I am very thankful for having seen it.
bipolarorwakingup Agreed 100%. It can be mitigated by many different techniques and habits (and lack of habits ie smoking weed and watching scary movies).
It seems as though the mania that is experienced by us with bipolar have many similarities. In my opinion after having 4 manic episodes lasting almost 6 months each, Mania is without a doubt an enlightening experience. Due to the lack of sleep or rest in any way, things start to get messy and difficult to comprehend after just a few days. Imagine how the brain can react after a few months with no real sleep besides a couiple hour cat nap here and there. Bipolar people need to come together and discuss their experiences with one another. Maybe we know something that collectively could be worked out. We are often afraid to discuss our manic experiences with anyone including our doctors in many cases. What we know is a gift from some higher power is usually just broken down until no longer holds any value in our lives. It becomes a curse that is tucked away in some dark closet never to be spoken of. It's way more than that and the people that have experienced this first hand know exactly what I'm talking about. We spend so much time being depressed after one of our manic episodes because we have seen the truth and the beauty around us only to be wiped away by antypsychotics. If you have experienced mania like I have no matter what your diagnosis is and you wish to further discuss what it all may mean then please email me at wildalaskan1976@gmail.com
Im on day 2 of my mania. This is actually the first time im noticing it since ive just been diagnosed. This feeling, this allertnes, creativenes and above all godlike feeling is extremely soothing. My best discription of it, is a mix of the boldness and grandiosity of a psychopathic person but without the emptyness of the soul and lack of empathy, I’ve never understood Kanye West’s music like i do now, since he also has been diagnosed.
My boyfriend is bipolar. As an empath I can feel when his senses are heightened. Looking back when we first met, I believe he was manic because we would talk about deeper level of topics such as spirituality, past pain, past heart break, and life itself. I remembered him gravitating towards me finding every opportunity to talk and spend time with me. He said I had a beautiful soul and it drew him close to me. Then one night out of the blue he kissed me. He said that I was his safe fortress. Though now we're still together and talking, he seems to not understand me as much especially when he's depressed. I believe maybe when he was manic perhaps his heightened sense did see my true soul for who I am and for a brief time connected with my empath abilities? Just as thought, I know this sounds weird.
My ex did , we both didn't know of his illness , I saw a video where smoking weed can trigger it to happen and specially if the person had childhood trauma ... n another thing . When they are high , n suddenly have a manic episode n say things that are out of the normal, n if u don't agree with them or confront them 4rm their irrational behavior, they completely shut u off for days , n perhaps think they are being enlighten n God is speaking 2 them , telling them to let u go , that it's part of his life plan , n that if ur disagreeing with them , you are the devil trying to stop them 4rm their spiritual journey.... oh man theirs so much more , that to say he got arrested 3 times in the same month , for sudden bursts , n rage with his family members. It's heartbreaking . I have had a bad marriage n divorce .. he came into my life as so I thought to be a blessing.. thinking wel where twin flames bkus of how similar we where, how we thought n said the same thing at the same time . We went on for a whole year . Until he wanted to start to smoke weed, n his horrible fight he had with his father . Then I knew he changed , as in my sweetheart , the man I fell in love was taken away 4rm me. He was himself in most days but the rest it's just he'll. Being disrespected , not having any empathy of my feelings n how bad he was hurting me . That's not the man I 1st met , not at all. He's mom begged me to not leave him , that I'm all he talked about , that I was his rock . But man idk . Idk if I can live this way. We r currently not talking, as bkus he's having another episode . N I'm not sure if to move on or not. He doesn't try to look for me . As if I never existed . It's not healthy for me neither .
@@ixpinkmamixi1047 he shut me off a couple of times. We are not living together right now ( long story but I think you have an idea) it's so damn hard for me to let go he was and still is the love. But sometimes he sounds detached other times connected. He now lives with his parents and he was just done with his rehab program for a month. We still talk though just got off the phone with him this morning 🌅. My name is Nancy btw and I have a RU-vid channel. You can contact me anytime you like. It's nice to know I'm not the only one feels so hard 🌷
@@mariecmcleodsterk3402 We just want to share our experiences and support because we have loves ones with this debilitating mental illness. Not everybody understands the complexity of this.
Thank you for sharing. Most of us are all very close to the Devine and know that this "diagnosis" is a very strong lesson and an extremely difficult challenge. We either cave in to the ego and society. Meds, eat poop, work, die. Or we face the gifts and grow in solitude with our gifts and purpose. We're tuned in. Then forced by society to question our intuition daily...most don't make it to our purpose because of this. Show him this and enjoy this journey called Life ✌️💚👁️
i feel the same... thank u man.... i had psychoses becose of my this experiances ... and in one point even sometimes now it can slip my mind.... that i am some reincarnation of prophet .... so much i thank u .... sry for bad eng// now i see that i am not alone...
You are right about all of this. I have been through four episodes and I have experienced all of these things. I really appreciate you creating these videos. It makes me realize that I am not the only one that goes through these episodes. It is comforting to know that there are others out there like me. After the video it confirmed my experiences. I am currently going to school to become an Abnormal Psychologist so I have to be very aware of my mania so that it doesn't reoccur. I am trying to understand this diagnosis and to truly find a way that will help us stay in this world (grounded) while going into a manic episodes. The older I get, the more determined I am to find a solution to the Bipolar Disorder...and that is to find order in the chaos. I look at medication as a tool to bring us out of episodes and to keep us stable, but I believe that it is not a solution, just a temporary fix. There is something we are missing and what that is will help us to find a solution. Thanks again for these videos. I look forward to viewing more, and learning more about this "Gift" we have been given.
with my bipolar i have experienced the feeling of being spiritually enlightened, having a special connection with the universe, feeling like you have floated off into the collective consciousness & now feel connected to everything & everyone, you feel alive for the first time with your senses heigtened & as though you are channelling the energy of the universe...isnt this what all spiritual ppl want to reach??! Rlly i feel like i've had an amazing acid trip that has made me understand life
There's a fine line between a natural awakening and a sudden opening/ awakening due to a manic episode brought on by sudden stress lack sleep food. I relate to the natural experience of awakening. I am also a witness to a family member having a manic episode. Although I can relate, the way in which it is experienced in a manic way is far more unbalanced and misses the true spiritual healing and also the grounded connection to the real world. Without that understanding, grounded aspect, it is chaotic.
When it's brought on through a more natural flow your able to process it. In a manic episode there is no processing. Also I did enjoy this video very much. It's amazing how you hit the nail on the head with everything I experienced. I just wanted to add my thoughts as I'm dealing with someone right now in a spiritual manic episode.
I've experienced everything this video talks about. I'm diagnosed as bipolar one/schizoaffective. I've been hospitalized too many times to count. you can tell in my videos when I'm medicated and when I'm not. No drug compares to the natural highs I've had.
When I connect to inspiration, the collective unconscious or what is called the Holy Spirit, even Akashic records, I go into a manic episode. I've never been diagnosed with bi-polar but I am certain this is a manic episode. Its like a panic attack but I just have to express this intense energy through creativity, singing, sometimes crying...
i wish i'd found this video last fall while experiencing what felt like sudden enlightenment but was diagnosed as a manic episode. i think i would have better understood what was happening and could've even avoided hospitalization
Hospitalised myself 2 times and 2 times by parents which they force the doctor to do -walk naked and got hospitalised think why people take advantage of the kids -point to the car and the car moving to the side off the road (the car was driven) -seen spirit death people from long time ago and spirit from living people and animals which extinct already -seen tear of someone without he actually crying -Heard someone said something without speaking -realize that somebody understand what I said in my mind -realize that my body has soul aswell not only body -understand some fact about life and want to be a philosopher but didnt do bc dont want to harm other people believe -Too sensitive -hate to destroy even a small insect and hate to see other people do it -violent to closet person than before -can communicate with people in youtube in some way amd think that we has a karma together in the past life -realize the 2 past life and begin question that what am i in the next life and feel guilty why have this life such a bad life and unlucky -more religions than before -indecisive -easily distract -every bad thought there has something to distract such engine sound, insect fly infront, sound from gecko, someone talk, even sound of something small -realize that robot try to harm human in someway -think that I am bigger than everyone in my country which is I am touch something bigger than anyone -seen buddha for 4 times and realize that I am adam and my crush which i talk for a year is eva naked on the eden full of animals when I was hospitalised -realize the main elemental of myself -realize that myself can be invisible for a moment and caught somebody did it just to see me doing things -short memories and sadness because realise that have no one to talk to and understand and think that I will come to earth again after I die And thanks all the comment because I know that I am not the one that touching a strange experience. For me its hard to cope this alone because I been with life for 31 years and I witness something that people dont witness which is make me isolated by thought that why Im I been tru this experience Its feeling happy and scary at the same time which more of sadness
@@OnerousEthic I'm not denying the existence of psychosis. I'm not denying it feels and is very real and realistic to the person experiencing it. If all psychosis were beautiful images and feelings of positive energy, a renaissance, and enlightenment rolled into one - and it didn't endanger anybody - I'd be all for leaving people to see and feel such things. But it's the unpredictability of psychosis, the bad images and feelings, and what actions it can lead to, and the aftermath of a deep gut-wrenching depression that makes me think it's altogether a mental condition most can do without in their lives.
@@lbe I understand your intent to protect the vulnerable and the potential harm to them, but your condemnation does not acknowledge the greater good served in the interest of the common good. Could you please rephrase your comment to include both sides?
@@OnerousEthic I don't actually understand what you're saying or asking. Yes, I condemn dangerous messages and RU-vid clips that hurt the mentally vulnerable as this clip does. So I'm not sure what "greater good" in this clip you're trying to force me to acknowledge?! I don't think there is anything remotely helpful in this clip. If anything, it only causes further distress for people with bipolar and for caregivers.
Green Ladybug Speaking for myself, I have found this video profoundly useful in my recovery. IMHO, I have achieved tremendous progress in the past two weeks by following that the advice in this video. But it’s not something that can be done casually. It takes hard work and profound understanding. This series has taught me how to lean into my own “psychotic” mania safely. So I think this and the other videos are like power tools; They can do a lot of work, or they can be dangerous, depending on who is using them…
its hard to go back to a"normal"state of being after feeling so enlightened when manic.I once felt all these things:oneness, peace with my own body, change in values...but as I got more manic and 'i guess delusional' i stopped remembering things, and now a huge gap in my memory separates my medicated self against my egoless state that felt so free. I'm back to the daily anxieties of life , and the medicine feels like it makes everything blurry,my memories,vision,coordination..its all a blur now
indigo infinite rainbow crystal kids,awaken now Laugh,Sing, Dance your after glow blissfulness. inner sight, 3rd eye connected to our consciousness imagination all creation the language of the universal mind. multi dimensions all intentions our thoughts can transcend time----Jerhad Brewer....Dimensional Mind Transformation
On August 30th 2019 I walked the streets of the town that I work in naked because I had a manic episode where I was going to sacrifice my life. I felt so passionate about that day and experience that I had a digital audio recorder on me throughout the day and I recorded every moment. That's day was not a breakdown for me but a breakthrough entirely!
Lets keep in mind that in some cases of Bipolar the reality line can become blurred and making statements like this with no scientific evidence to support it, may create false hope. The fact is, it's easier to accept the idea that something magical might be going on with you then the idea that you may need to make some major life changes and put in some hard work to get your Bipolar under control.
I wish I found your video's years ago when I didn't have the right diagnosis. It's like you are describing my experiences before I became medicated. I miss the manic parts. I was so creative back then.
I am one of those ( bipolar ) who have, since my mothers premature death 2 yrs ago, become increasingly more angry and detached from people. So much so, that I can no longer work, ( on sick leave ) Many days, I cannot even leave my house, because I cannot interact with people on any level. Definitely the darker side of bipolar disorder.
While I do recognise some aspects, I've never felt one with everthing. I do have a hightened appreciation for beauty and nature in particular. I do get this, stop and smell the roses type of mentality. I've pretty much worshipped and then stolen flowers from somebody's garden only to give them to my doctor as a thank you for helping me. In late spring, I've driven through my local forests, where I've driven through 1000's of times, and now I was so overcome with the beautiful shades of green that I nearly crashed, parked my car and just started walking around for hours on end, enjoying nature. Everything, every sound, every sqeaking tree, every calling bird, every glistening in the water and every ray of sunlight touching me felt like it was the first time ever. A newfound appreciation. I forgot about my job that day, turned my phone off, everyone was looking for me. Came home at 10pm, had everybody in stitches, and I didn't get what all the fuss was about. Especially after I had explained what beauty I had just witnessed. And they didn't get it. None of 'em did. However magical it all felt, I not for once felt connected with everything. I felt an extreme appreciation for life. For being alive. To be able to witness these giant trees. I realised that trees were some of the oldest forms of life on this planet. They were here way before anything vaguely resembling a human being ever roamed the earth, and they'll probably be here, long after we've exterminated ourselves. They are our lifegivers. We need them to breathe!! I wasn't exactly hugging trees that day, I was filming them in 4k with my lovely Ursa mini 4k with a Canon 24-70 F2.8 lens and it was godlike to watch it all back but nonetheless, I think this whole spirituality thing really depends on what you believe when you're normal, or without bipolar symptoms as well. If you're a religious person, or agnostic, you might have a somewhat religious experience when manic, or believe you are having one. If you're an atheist like me, you probably won't have one during a manic phase and just find a deep appreciation for life and all life. Feeling a pressing need to solve the worlds problems is probably something innate, wether you're religious or not. If you're not a total scumbag, then these concerns should bother you nonetheless, but life seems to find a way to bash this out of you - it forces you to deal with your own problems. When manic, you forget about your own problems and indeed, focus on the bigger issues. I had a grandiose idea once, when I was manic and psychotic. I noticed that, whenever I walked past people on the street, they would start smiling and laughing more. I realised this was because my very presense filled them with joy and energy and happiness. I figured that, if I would just walk past as much people as possible, pretty much 1/3e of my town would be infected. They would give their infection off to their folks back home, and etc, etc. If everyone would keep spreading it, then pretty soon, all people would be infected, and there would be no more wars, and all people would spend money, energy and effort to solving issues like famine and war. But not everyone agreed with my plans. I was resting in an alley, and I got beat up and robbed xD and then they thew my barely breathing carcass in jail and then to the crisis center where they stuffed me with fuck knows how many mg of seroquel to get me off of it. Reading all of this back, I think I pretty much disproved my point entirely. I think this guy's got a point... :S For some reason, reading this back, I keep hearing it in the voice of Rich Hall. I don't know why.
you probably wont see this, but i need to say that this channel actually saved me and gave me so many answers to what i was experiencing at the time... I was very close to being put on antipsychotics for bipolar mania and knew it wasn't that, and was doing my own research at the time and stumbled upon your channel. It helped me in indescribable ways in my journey. This was nearly 4 years ago now, and I'm proud to say i'm NOT on anti psychotics or every was, i am more adjusted and in university for psychology after having gone through all this and coming up on the other side. I actually can not thank you enough for putting this information all together and helping those going through it. Thank you.
i had mania too.. pretty fun times.. except what comes up must comedown.. and then i was depressed for many years until i got of drugs and booze and stayed on meds. i have been sober 16 years now. i do sometimes remember fondly mania sometimes, but i know the spiritual experience that is worth while is a sober life with not many ups and downs.
A friend of mine is going through this right now. The problem I'm having is she is hell bent on the fact that she is having a spiritual awakening. Spiritual awakenings don't come with being short tempered and mean to people for no reason or think that you are God's gift to all. Insomnia, pains etc should be looked into by your physician and stop chalking it up to enlightenment. Enlightenment is gradual and with each day you learn and grow. No pain, no weird sleep problems etc.
Excelent! Gonna see the part 2 right now. What can I say is that the syncrhonistic experiences are the real proof that there is something connecting all the unimaginable dots of reality. (Jung - Synchronicity book) Then you take your path dancing along with them, some crazy things will happen. The agonic death of the mind ego, there is where the freak episodes can start, just the drowning slaps of this ego, to bring the new consciousness to the observer (you in psychology). This video has 14 years arround and I m seeing it now wow!
Wish you best and no matter how this exp come to you,as pure and holy kind,or scary and evil kind.just keep up without fear of your ago,challenge it as this is your passage of changing which you arrived and need to pass trough second step of your life process.when you overcome that fear inside you,then not only you won your inner enemy,but you also become a person that not fear of death anymore and this also kills the Munster that in our earth life we call them power hungers.lovely part.
That's complicated question to a complicated answer. One way of looking at it is that's the universe way of balancing out your energy. When you get a glimpse of how powerful these sensations are whether through meditation or drugs or whatever, you get a powerful insight of needing to "tell the world" but the reality is is that the world and maybe even yourself are not ready. This is just my experience but it's a very complex illness and set of circumstances that we're all trying to grapple with in our own ways which seem really special sometimes but other's will not and could never understand.
I get the weird feeling there is a price you got to pay for what you are allowed to experience. The good always comes with some bad. Otherwise the system would get way out of balance. Do you think this is possible?
@@jmoney24060 Well, I think if one gains knowledge and wisdom into the human spirit it can seem really liberating at first, but with that you also get a glimpse into the worst parts of yourself and the world around you. So yeah, I think spiritual suffering is the price to pay for the desire to feel and experience life to our utmost capacity.
Andy I wonder, for as many problems as bipolar seems to cause, could it be a blessing in disguise? Perhaps what bipolarawakinings seems to suggest. It seems reasonable to curse the disease, and yet it might serve a purpose.
you get depressed because society traps your senses, religion, false beliefs etc, etc....once you take on someone else's thought patterns , your bound to get depressed, because your not the real you....and the more they take away the beauty of nature, the beautiful countryside etc, etc.....and replace it with this technological concrete jungle, were all bound to get depressed.....because its actually a prison.....I had a mystical experience in about 1990, where the top of head opened, and I felt like I was in touch with magical forces, its just "knowing".... I looked at people and they seemed blind , and their eyes seemed reptilian..but it wasn't scary...its like I had clairvoyance.....it wos supernatural......this lasted for many months, but it wos a lovely feeling!!!....later I had a breakdown....or wos shutdown........and now I struggle with my dark side.....but I wos touched by something I would call supernatural, magical, mystical......but having that experience had never left me.
6:40 is the only agreeable part in the video. I live with a spouse who developed this disorder out of nowhere less than 2 years ago. Don’t romanticize it by calling it spiritual or enlightenment. It’s a mental illness. Period.
It was through meditation that I started on my road to psychosis. Lucid dreams, OBEs and my body was vibrating after hours of stillness/clear mindedness that actually terrified me... the brain is powerful though on a biological level, without having to label experiences as SPIRITUAL. IF it was spiritual, then it should be obvious to your self, without needing others to explain what you've went through. There is NO certainty they are right remember, it's only a belief... sorta like religion.
once on hallucinogens induced psychosis i felt everything you explain here, i wanted to be nude, i thought i was one with the universe (i still think that) i return to early childhood this experiences are dramatic, often very confusing, thats why i started running out like a crazy screaming screams!!
This is a fantastic video. I have been bipolar for over 25 years. In my first experience of depression followed by pure mania I felt as if I was a divided self and that the mania was my true self. As life went on the mania's began to change to psychosis - everything was mixed up. Profound spiritual experiences accompanied these periods. I felt a peaceful, unselfish peace and happiness after these. I knew that was something very special. Thanks for reminding me.
I have had only 2 manic episodes in my life, nether of which I was aggressive or hostile. I did take medication for my Bipolar that DID make me very aggressive, I also took medication that made me very depressed. I currently don't take any medication because I tried 18 different kinds over 3 years, everything made things worse. I control mine by using behavioral therapy and a very clean diet with exercise everyday. I still have some hard times but they last weeks when it would last months before, and they have been spaced very far apart. One of the things I also use is the Wellness Recovery Action Plan (WRAP). That doesn't mean this is how everybody works and or this approach will work for others.
Haha to even think I thought I had a calling of some sort. Sent to save my family from some spiritual attacks. I don't know but the things I talked about, some of them actually happened you know.
Just remember, to be different is not to be sick, the patriarchy has absolved us of forming self trusting intuitive open relationships with our minds and spirits, creating a silent codependent relationship w the med system which requires you to be sick and clueless so it can profit off of you causing actual illness and sickness; mania can be a deeply abundant and honorable experience providing the best enlightenment and gratitude which helps with the crash
ITT: People thinking they've got enlightened because of their first spiritual glimpse. 6 years later after my 'bipolar mania', it was only just a little a beginning, some mental opening, yes it's already unbelievable, but it's absolutely nothing yet, and enlightenment is not even about experience, but about knowing who you are beyond experiences and living from that love consistently.
It’s a blessing for me but it could have went very badly. I’m not one to give up on what I feel and believe but when I get real low I just have to remember my jedi training. Too many angel numbers at specific times. You can’t just walk from the clock and end up right back at it with triple numbers every time and then just write it off with science talk.
Omg! I was just hospitalized for an episode. I ran down the road naked and feel like I went through a spiritual cleansing. I feel more connected to people and experienced a sense of how everything is happening as it is supposed to. Many coincidences! Thank you for sharing this. I have been having more episodes lately. I feel that I am sensitive to energies. Don't feel so alone in this 🧡
I cant belive someone actually do the same as me. I was naked and walk down the road aswell, this memories stuck with me every time I go back to that memories I always feel guilty and laugh at the same time and the next day I was hospitalized because I scream
I used to feel so happy and exited and then always paid for it with deep depression. I stopped allowing myself to experience the highs and thats what took away the lows for me.
I think it depends on how you define enlightenment. I think having an authentic experience of a higher power/force, either inside or outside of us, if a form of enlightenment. It can completely change your life - and it did mine. It also made me a little crazy for a while. But is it ULTIMATE enlightenment? No. Apparently, they have this thing in buddhism called false enlightenment. When you have a strong spiritual experience, and think you have completely arrived.
a flavour....'I felt a warm glow inside me, like my heart had unblocked and for the first time in my life I felt a deep joy and a connection with everything.It continued til August til one evening I was sat and the strangest thing occurred.I started asking god questions!...and through my son who was in the room at his pc, I got the answers!I asked god what is your favourite instrument, my son took his hands off the keyboard and started playing the piano on his desk!I asked what is your favourite car and the next record on the radio was 'little red corvette' (also next day when I went out a red corvette went past me!)eight years later I have finally got my mind back and have recalled in great detail how my story now makes sense thanks to you! very excited better take the meds and go to bed.
It's wonderfull. I had all these experiences when i was 20. A spuritial awekening. Timelessness and childhood the beginning of the evolution. Very odd i am not the one who has this. They pschologie called it pschotic It makes me happy by seeing this video. I have bipolar 1 and i am not crazy.
“The things of God are of deep import; and time, and experience, and careful and ponderous and solemn thoughts can only find them out. Thy mind, O man! if thou wilt lead a soul unto salvation, must stretch as high as the utmost heavens, and search into and contemplate the darkest abyss, and the broad expanse of eternity-thou must commune with God. How much more dignified and noble are the thoughts of God, than the vain imaginations of the human heart! … That was Joseph Smith on his imprisonment in Liberty Jail. What a man i love that guy.
This is uncanny, I experienced almost all those things in my "episode". I concur that modern psychiatry is completely fucked. I think they try to suppress these instincts to maintain the status quo.
Very true. All my experiences have been deeply spiritual. I felt at one with the ocean the sky... One time I felt I was dying. It was thrilling as it was terrifying. While this happened I was reading how Osho said that certain people can’t survive enlightenment, the energy is too much. I felt I was very close and I was scared. My heart was out of control! Not to mention where the fuck are the enlightened women? I might just die of astonishment McKenna style. Everything seemed divine I felt universal love. Deep sensitivity and inspiration. I would cry tears of gratitude of feeling truly blessed. I have definitely felt mini Satoris many times. The west perspective is to mechanical/repressed and limited. They are one sided. Rational. Cannot comprehend the mystical. Irrational. In my experiences I also had psychic encounters, could better read people, heightened senses, and ridiculous synchronistic events. Not to mention I once felt my chakras!!! That was incredible. Also pressure and energy around sahasrara. My eyes would be pulsating with energy as well. I would write ✍️ the most inspired ideas and poetry 💡 The west is full of shit and they bore me to tears. Dicks have yet to enter the oyster.
Part 2...also just to tie in, MANY people have episodes of 'acute psychosis' or mania while on intensive 10 day meditation retreats. Having had a spiritual 'psychosis' like I describe here (I had all these symptoms) and an authentic kundalini experience in 2009, I can assure you that they are very intimately related. That´s why, in India, they insist that intense meditation should be done with the guidance of a master. Without him, you might get crazy!!! Thanks for watching!
I have Bipolar & as a child had such a deep, spiritual zen & connection to the Earth that I would become euphoric or fall into a deep depression. I still feel this way as an adult. Anyone else ever felt the same? I do not want to offend anyone, but I've always and genuinely felt that The Holy Bible was written by someone with mental illness/bipolar. I look at The Bible as more as a philosophy than an actuality. People take it too literally and react rather than meditating on the words.
I just look at the fruits. If the fruits of the experience just bring chaos and misery, NOT enlightenment. Enlightenment brings clarity, not confusion.
the ancient Greeks used to consider bipolar disorder as a divine gift from the gods! A divine gift! Wow! That’s WAY different than how we are looked at today. How fascinating. “Mania” and “melancholia” were among the first two diseases ever categorized. Even Socrates and Plato understood that mania was a divine state with various characteristics such as “erotic inspiration” sent from the god of love or “proteptic inspiration” derived from the Muses. They even go on to say that the god Apollo is the source of this divine inspiration!
it is So important to see patterning. Ie., as when you say how the paradigm we're oppressed in will judge this experience as 'insanity' to go OK--I am now going to look a the paradigm, and you so you look at 'education', mass media, war on drugs and entheogens, mental illness myth. And you see this patterning that NECESSITATES HEALING which are these experiences! which they then try and drug/end
Thanks a lot for posting this. I too am what they call "bipolar" and don't see it as a "disorder" in and of itself. It is very spiritual for those that experience it. I even think the abilities go further, like regarding the sense what others are feeling, beyond even what they want to admit. I've been told this my whole life, dozens of people come talk to me for this reason, and I think the increased brain activity does a lot more than make us hard to understand, to say the least.
Research temporal lobe epilepsy as there is spirituality and excessive writing as side effects of simple partial seizures, which may proceed to complex partial seizures with changes in awareness and blackouts. During a SPS, there may be a spiritual experience or deja vu.
If mania if enligtenment why has my life just gone downhill since my illness? Ive been miserable ever since i become unwell. Not even due to the symptoms themselves. But the effect its had one my life. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder type 1 with pychotic symptoms... Hope this comment doesnt come across as insulting etc. Im not disagreeing with your views. I just want answers to my life.
Because is a break-out of ordinary consciousness of the 'things' that 'make' ordinary consciousnesses mechanized. Is a possibility of ascending or descending, the supra and the infra. BUT this is a possibility of all, and 'breaking out; the ordinary consciousness if the condition to ascending, weather with bipolar disorder, meditation, prayer, being hit by a car etc. And what you say is a special type of awakening(the tantric-shakti type, and not because of the disorder, but because break
Because is a break-out of ordinary consciousness of the 'things' that 'make' ordinary consciousnesses mechanized. Is a possibility of ascending or descending, the supra and the infra. BUT this is a possibility of all, and 'breaking out; the ordinary consciousness if the condition to ascending, weather with bipolar disorder, meditation, prayer, being hit by a car etc. And what you say is a special type of awakening(the tantric-shakti type, and not because of the disorder, but because break
all this talk of feelings of love at around the three minute mark....i am open to the many similarities between bipolar and spiritual episodes, yet, in knowing someone who i bipolar, i have never once seen that person show love during a manic episode....rather they just act like a psychopath who just took a line of cocaine...real sick behavior, and no empathy at all, it is sickening to watch actually
completely. Since I accepted none of them entirely they all kind of came together and fought for supremacy. I thought I was going to die, I thought the multiverse could be real, I thought god could exist, I thought buddhist metaphysics could be true. All in one experience, all I got out of it was uncertainty and conflict. All I'm trying to say is that I believe the ego is still at work when you're in this state, attaching associations to things. Attempting to derive meaning from the meaningless.
Don't forget,no one here called a chosen one,but you may find yourself in middle of mental hospital if you don't know how to handle Fight or Flee,Fight or Flight Response.not many know the knowledge in Art of fighting,but Art of this fight is not written on fighting manual as you will learn on steps u take. if panicked u may brain damaged from seen the things that you may find disturbing and scary,but fighter see it as way that he can challenge that Munster and finally Munster decides to Flee.
After All,this is your exp and may not be the same copy of many others,some may make they exp worth gold but maybe not worth penny.still is something not many like to hear,cause u wont find right word to express the exp to listeners..if you are able to tell the world what dream you saw at night and tell them exactly how your dream was with every details,and if they could picture just one thing of it accurately,then you may find the write word to interpret and i truly doubt,they call you crazy.
1)wait,and stop from going out on street to rise up the white flag that u knowing how, before you making sure of your lucky call. 2)Have pen and paper handy,after any single or huge life moving exp,write down the details of everything ,feel or learned ,colours,shapes or symbolic signs and the meaning of them from ur prospect.respect your timing and move on for gathering info frm net of things had saw or people had before you.info about Automatic Writing"as you may given news of future events.
So telling a person with a messiah complex that they are spiritually awakened is a good idea? wouldn't that feed into their delusions of grandeur? I have Bipolar 1 and i did think i was an ancient spirit that decided to incarnate on earth to save it from itself but i don't think that makes me spiritually awakened. I think it makes me occasionally delusional.
Just a thought.. just a small thought, but you're attempting to appeal to bipolar people and the art on this video is... distracting at the least. My mind races sooooo fast even when nothing is happening, but I literally heard nothing you said in this video because I was so distracted be the art. I am a very artistic person and appreciated this very much so, however I feel you're gonna lose the people who want to hear this message. Manic bipolars can be a hard audience to appeal to, you have to find the appropriate level of boring and interesting. I'm sure I could take medication to fix that problem for myself, but I try to live day to day without excessive medication.
4:35 i just had that experience. I literally just had that exp. I had bipolar off and on for yrs. It just happened to me again after 8 yrs. Broke my heart. But what was the most perplexing and euphoric was this return to the idea of the big bang in light of eternity. I felt it separate from the manic side and it is almost a treasure of the experience in spite of my anguish around it. I would like to know where you found stories of others who experienced that.
