Teresa, please never give up.Stay strong and God will give your wisdom and strength. l just came across your comments after listening to one of my favorite speaker Dr Yu 's talk again. l think you are a very courageous and conscientious person and love your family very much especally your husband and your mum. l pray for more understanding and respect & love in working towards your marriage and familiy. Also asking God's protection esp for your personality safety & mum. God understand what u have been through. He walks and understands us even when we are in the deepest pit of depression or sorrow or fear or hopelessness. He will provide you with the strength to carry through .Trust him.🌈❤ I was sexual abused from a very young age more than once by a good family friend whom my parents and older siblings were unawared,. Dad was away in UK for 10 years for work just before l was born. l didnt want my mum to know and hurt or feel angry as mum had worked very hard all her life to care for all of us when many relatives looked down on her while my dad was away for 10 years. She trusted God in all circumstances and had never stopped Sunday services until she passed away peacefully to be with God. .God has been very patience in healing me too.. There were many times in my teenager years ,l cried until l fall asleep. Once or twice suicidal thoughts came to my head as l gone through different negative emotions At the time ,I didnt like children for the fact they are, too weak to protect themselves. However, God hs been very patience with me and he has taken over 30 years to heal me. God sent different guardian Angel at different time to assist . l no longer need to hide or keep this hurtful secret any more to my older siblings. l shared this also with my husband before he asked me to marry him . l told him that l could never marry him but instead he cried with me when l first shared my deepest hurt. l have never dream of being able to work among children as well as teenagers but God has been very patience with me again . He has changed me and still helping me both at work in schools ( more than 20 years now ) and also volunteering work such as children summer camp outreach to some of the disadvantageous children for 10 years . l also have a fairly family and a home with God in it . He is a miracle healer . Trust & pray to God . Find comfort & wisdom with hope in His words and listening to good christan speakers. if you could trying finding someone you could trust and as a prayer partner to pray for you or each other . Never never give up hope and keep praying for bad times as well good times.You are never alone🌈. God loves you. ❤ If you are still worry about your safety and mum 's perhaps trying getting a personal attack alarm and a pepper spray. l have given one to all my family members as it gets dark earlier in UK winter months and also to help someone in need. God is peace ,love & hope. Lay your burdens onto His shoulders . Take good care.🙏
