2021 sucked and here's why (but also a 2022 TBR!) 

Hailey you will find the right publisher. Courtney summers had written something like 12 different manuscripts before her first book. This might not want to be what you here but once you have one book published it’s much easier to publish the books closest to your heart. Wishing you well. Best of luck with getting published.

My heart goes out to you, Hailey. Anxiety and depression and being out of your comfort zone can be terrible. I've suffered from these things the whole of my adult life and I am 68 years old. Keep up with the bookstuff I so look forward to them. Bless you.

Hi Hailey, I'm a teenager struggling with depression and anxiety and I just wanted to say how much I enjoy your videos. I'm so sorry you're going through this, and I wanted to tell you how amazing I think you are. Your videos have been the highlight of my December. Remember you are loved and you are enough. Wishing you the best new year.

As someone who’s been hospitalized more than 10 times for depression and anxiety (🥴), I just wanted to say I really appreciate you being so raw and open in this video. I hate that you’re struggling so much, but it helps to see others have a hard time but manage to stay at least afloat enough to get by. I truly, truly hope things improve for you in the new year. One thing I think should be noted is how strong you clearly are. I don’t mean that to belittle your current suffering, I just mean I’ve been watching you for years and your strength has always inspired me. I’m sending you all the love and prayers, and I hope you’re able to come through this stronger than ever. ❤️

People accidentally reminding you of your problems sucks so much. They definately should be able to share their happyness or struggles, but it’s also totally ok if that isn’t with you right now (though actually putting that into action is hard and I didn’t actually do that)

I know JK Rowling is cancelled, but she was rejected so much when she was trying to publish Harry Potter, and it's an enormous success! Please don't put too much of your self worth into being able to quickly publish your book. It seems like it's hard initially to get published, then gets easier once you have a published book. Seeing you so upset was so sad, Bookmas really cheered me up over the holidays. Please take the time you need for yourself next year and only come back to youtube when you're ready. I have also struggled with anxiety and depression, and hearing about you breaking down in a grocery store is so relatable. I can't imagine how isolating it must be not speaking the 1st language of everyone around you. That's why I feel so bad often for foreign refugees or immigrants and whatnot. Crazy how Canada is so big and diverse that you can feel really far from loved ones. I am rooting for you, as someone who is also scared of moving far away from her family someday. You're dealing with so many disappointments and juggling so much, I don't know how you do it. I didn't realize you felt inferior to other booktubers, but I want you to know we love you and your content. Tell imposter syndrome to eff off, you're doing so well girl! You're the only youtuber I can think of that posted a video every day for December. If bookmas is ever too much, maybe trying doing 12 days instead so you feel less overwhelmed at ome of the busiest times of the year.

when Hailey's voice broke I wanted to tear the screen and give her a hug! ur content and ur smile are amazing! keep up girl! chin up and SMILE!

I'm so sorry Hailey! Watching you crying just broke my heart. Please don't lose hope and keep going on! One day you'll definitely get published. We'll always love you❤

I’m in such a similar place mentally as you! I feel like I’m at the lowest I’ve been in a long time and it can be so disheartening when the new year starts tomorrow and that’s when people start “new” but I know things won’t change overnight. I’m in Ontario so the Covid situation is similar. I’m in a small town where I don’t know a lot of people and already feel isolated so the past two years have been so exhausting. My boyfriend also just tested positive for COVID, and I had to go to the grocery store alone yesterday and had a panic attack it was so busy, so I know EXACTLY how you feel. I guess I just wanted to say this because knowing you’re not alone in your feelings can make things a little less heavy.

Awww. Sweetie. I’m so thankful that you shared your story. First of all, you’re not alone. I have struggled for years. Keep fighting. Look for happiness in the little things. You are amazing. I watch YOU for You. Love your content. Don’t compare yourself as you are unique and special. You’ve had some big changes this year. Let yourself adjust. I’m so thankful for you. Hugs and prayers.

I love your idea about not rating, I always feel bad when giving a bad rating because it is indeed personal. Goodreads does ask you it immediately like calm down I just finished the book.

You are my favorite book tuber of all! Stay strong girl! Breathe. And then keep moving. Easier said then done I know but you have got this. Thanks for keeping it real with us. Most people don't talk about these things. But they need to be talked about. I promise you are NOT alone. And you do NOT need to apologize for feeling your feelings. As for the book I am also super bummed. If you decide to self publish I will buy it!!

I'm sure you know you are not alone. My son in law is in a 90 day mental health treatment center for feeling the same kind of feelings you have. 2021 did indeed suck but maybe we can all have hope that things will get better.

I'm so sorry Hailey, rejection is the worst especially when you have worked so hard on the project of your heart. It sounds so cliche but persistence is everything. Keep writing and keep pitching your story, I know it will find a home in the end, even if it's not quite the way you first envisioned. I really love your videos and they have brought me so much joy over this rubbish year so thank you!! 💕💕

I wish you the best for 2022! And for when the PM does some conference, they always speak english after they are done in french. And most of the time they give better informations in english to be honest.

I hope you know that you do NOT have to apologize for being in a bad mental place. Your channel is your place to talk about whatever you want or need to, and I appreciate your honesty about everything in your life. Do what you need to do, and we will be here to support you

Hailey, I’ve been watching your videos since around 2018 and most of the books I’ve read and loved were recommended by you. Whenever I need reading motivation I come to your channel. You are such a sweet person and you deserve for your dreams to come true. You will find the right publisher and when you do, all your supporters will be first in line to read your book, don’t be too hard on yourself. Things will get better. I’m wishing you all the best in 2022, you truly deserve it.❤️

You speaking so openly about your mental health has helped me realize that I am most definitely not alone, and that brings me peace, and hopefully does the same to you. I have never heard someone speak of their own mental health and had it resonate with my own as much as you did. Clearly, we are both in much different situations, but it is comforting knowing that we are not alone. I hope for 2022 to bring much-deserved peace to you, if anything, a breath of fresh air.

It breaks my heart to hear you apologize for all of this. There is NO NEED to apologize for your feelings or things going on in your head. yes, there are always going to be people who have it worse, but that does not mean your problems are invalid! I know you probably know this anyway but sometimes it's important to hear again because I totally feel for you, sometimes things just overwhelm you (same). I hope you just never forget that there are people who understand and support you. And honestly, hearing you talk about all of it makes me feel so much less alone! Thank you for being you and trying so hard!

Hey, it's ok to struggle with mental health and be grateful and have great things in your life at the same time. You don't have to prove yourself, you don't have to be worse than anyone to be allowed to feel bad. Your feelings are valid. I hope 2022 brings some lightness and joy to you! ❤

I feel you on a lot of this. I so appreciate you being so vulnerable with us. Therapy is the best thing I ever did for myself! I have looked into those internships at Penguin Random House Canada in the past and it seems like such an amazing opportunity. Congratulations! I also love the idea of a vision board as your computer background. I have to do that!

Please be kind to yourself. You dont need to apologize for what you are feeling and going through, just take care of yourself. Sending you hugs.

You are so strong and brave for coming out and not hiding it (even if you have every right to keep your life as private as you want it to be). We are all here for you and I am sure it will keep getting better. Life is ups and downs and I really identify with you. Things will get better, you got this

I totally relate to struggling to be excited for other people and comparing yourself to them. I graduated college this year, and I’ve been applying to publishing jobs for about 6 months now with no luck. It is not an easy industry to break into as either a writer or an editor/marketer/etc. Seeing my friends land jobs while I haven’t has been rough. So you aren’t alone!!

I live in Ontario and every time I hear about Quebec on the news, I think about you. I hope and pray that it gets better soon. I have enjoyed all your Bookmas videos. They are the first ones I click on when I get home from work.

We are here. We are with you. We hear you. We believe in you. We support you. I completely understand you. We are strong and we will keep pushing! 👊

I'm so sorry 2021 was hard for you, I hope you can be happier next year and do things you enjoy, don't give up on trying to publish your book, your moment is gonna come sooner or later! Good luck for 2022!💕

I'm so sorry that the last couple of years has been rough for you in a number of different ways and can well relate to feeling isolated, depressed, stressed, super anxious, frustrated about things not working out so far as hoped and other things that you've mentioned. I hope that you do find the right publisher for your novel as I'm so excited to read it some day and may 2022 be the year that things start looking up for you. Congratulations on your new job! Thank you for sharing your thoughts about your struggles as I know it's not an easy thing to do and please know that you're not alone even if it tends to feel like that most of the time and please remember to be gentle with yourself.

Hello Hailey! Thank you so much for sharing your personal struggles with your mental health this year. I know nothing anyone can say will make anything any easier, but I would like you to know that your openness throughout this year about your own issues has helped me to seek out help for myself. I was diagnosed with OCD, depression, and anxiety last month and am now working with professionals to deal with all that with counseling and medication. Although rejections suck and hurt, I hope you can push through and keep trying with your writing. Putting your heart and soul into something like a book opens you up to a whole lot of vulnerability, but you deserve the joy the creative process brings. I hope your new year is better than this past one. ~Nat

I am so sorry that you are experiencing so much hardship but just letting you know I LOVE YOUR VIDEOS!!! You were one of the first people to get me into booktube and I love this community as I don't really have many people in person I can talk to about the things I love. And I know I can't really say anything in regards to publishing (zero experience) but I am sure that the right publisher will be there for you and when it does happen I can't wait to support you throughout that journey. Praying for you and I hope you have some bright spots in the darkness.

FYI, in the Quebec government annoucements, they always repeat the most important information in English after the French version. They also keep a time at at the end for questions in English. I usually watch the announcement on RU-vid, that way I can speed up through the sections I don't need (for me, it's the English part...) Take care of yourself, and thank you for your honesty.

I'm so sorry for your mental health, my 2021 has been the lowest for me too. I decided to get on medication for my anxiety and depression . I'm so sorry about your novel, I pray your 2022 goes great!!!

Thank you for all your content this year. It's been....a year and it was great to have you throughout it. I was just writing in my journal how unproductive and sad this year was. I hope everything gets better soon and hope that this clean slate leads to great year. For you and for everyone. Happy New Year.

So sorry for the struggles this year. Anxiety sucks so much. Thank you for bookmas!! It’s been great❤️

Depression and anxiety suck. I suffer with them too. And I dont have the drive or motivation to clean, or do anything. I lost my job 4 days before Christmas because I have health problems. Now I struggle to go to interviews. Let alone get up and shower. I have dreams I keep failing at due to my anxiety. I have 50k in student loan debt and nothing to show for it. I'm not here to try and compare us, but to tell you, you are definitely not alone in this journey. Let's make 2022 our year. Let's power through it one foot in front of another. We got this, despite our little failures, we will overcome it.

Thanks so much for sharing and being so honest Hailey. I also suffer from a history of major depression and have chronic anxiety and this has been and continues to be such a difficult time. Currently (I live in Australia) I have spent all summer holidays caring for my family as I am on holidays but I return to teaching through an internship in the next couple of weeks I don’t know when or how…at a new school where I have received no communication since October when I was taken on. It’s so anxiety producing. I’m worried for my kids going back to school, my husband is going bananas as a GP and my mother in law has landed herself in hospital through la k of self care despite all of our efforts to support her. I started horse riding lessons halfway through last year and it was the best thing ever for me. I’m planning to only read what I feel like reading this year and throw all non essential goals out the window. I love the idea of your vision board. That is such a great place to start. I’m really loving your videos and hope you start to feel better when you have a job to work at outside the home as I know for me that although if I had a choice I would never leave home as it it such a safe beautiful space, that joining a team of people with common goals and seeing real things get done and achieved outside of my own private world are essential for my self esteem and otherwise loneliness. Love and hugs from Adelaide xxx oh and given the history you gave (I used to be a nurse) try taking some vitamin D supplements as lack of D can really make just everything worse. It’s easy to get deficient and from experience taking the supplements when I wasn’t coping and was also shown to be deficient made all the difference to my mood. I supplement every winter even in the mild winters we get here because I just don’t spend enough time outside.

My heart really goes out to you, this year has been really difficult to get through, I hope that you’re able to find some peace and solace this upcoming year.

I'm rooting for you Hailey! I know you will do great in 2022, we all will! And I know you will get your book published! And I will be reading it once it is published! I remember feeling sad and depressed so often and I realized something that helped me and that was taking care of my spiritual aspect of my life. I used to not think much about it and it felt like there was a void. And know that I put it as my priority, I see so much difference!

Hi Hailey! I have been watching you for years. I was also feeling down and out and tired last year. It was a very hard time for me and my family but we made it. I just want to encourage you to keep going. This season for you is hard but it is going to work out and you will have a great survival story. This may even be a part of one of your great novels. Keep going okay. This is your season of live research and inspiration. All the best with all the stories you will publish!

Hailey, I found you during 2020 and with my own depression I like didn't watch any videos until like four months ago and I've loved your videos! You are a person so inspires me.

HAILEY 💕 I love your content so much. You are so valued. I have been struggling with the depression monster and it convinces me whole heartedly that I am not doing well or contributing to what I want to do with my life, but I try and constantly remind myself it is lying to me. Keep going- better times are ahead!

I can’t imagine how hard it must be to feel so isolated and then to have your one escape taken away 🥺. I hope some of the restrictions are lifted soon for you.

Hailey, you’re feelings are valid and you are not the only one feeling the way you feel. I hope you can feel the love from us ❤️

Hi Hailey, I'm sending so much hugs and good vibes for 2022. I totally understand that feeling of jealousy at watching your writing friends succeed at your dream.... I feel that so much and even as I'm happy for my own writing friends, it's so hard to watch them get good things when I just get rejected.... It really hurts. I hope your new job will help you have other things to focus on 💕📚🎉

Hey Hailey, Totally get it. I have moved across the world to Australia and as much as I love it here, it is really hard. COVID has made it even worse, making friends as an adult sucks. I have been here for 7 years and this is the first year I have felt like this is home. Moving is challenging. It took me at least a year to get a decent job and now 6 years later, I am in in dream job. I am still missing the US and hoping to get back in July. Take care of yourself. You'll get where you need to be. It will happen. I'm older than you, but you are one of the only book tubers I follow and will always watch. Keep your head up. Depression and Anxiety SUCK! Hopefully, you can get in to see someone at some point. In the meantime, give yourself a break, Please. Thinking of you. Congrats on the job. That is definitely something to look forward to.

You absolutely matter and make a difference. You're the reason I started a RU-vid channel reviewing books. You inspire me all the time. I also have depression, so seeing creators like you and Hannah and Zoe who have spoken about their mental illness on camera and let people know they aren't alone has meant a lot. You matter. You're content matters. I'm glad that you exist.

The amount of times I wanted to jump thru this screen and give you a huge hug! I wish you nothing but happiness, prosperity, good health, and all the positivity in the world💞 I know this is probably something that you don’t want to hear but everything happens for a reason and with how strong minded you are, I know you will accomplish anything you set your mind to. I love you and I love your videos and I’m proud of you 🥰 you got this girl!!!

I totally feel you. Keep up the good work! Things will get better :)

Hailey i so enjoy your videos and hate this year has been so rough for you. I’m praying that 2022 is better. Praying your boyfriend gets better fast as well.

Thanks for adding the new content. When I heard about the Quebec curfew I was wondering how you were doing. Congrats on the internship!!

Hi Hailey, I'm really really sorry for what you've been going through...honestly I'm currently going through a similar situation with my work where I've been receiving rejections one after the other (the latest one being yesterday) and as someone who also has anxiety and who consistently puts themselves out there with their work, I get how exhausting it is and how much you just wanna give up. But stay strong... brighter days are up ahead...tc.

EVERYTHING you said, same girl same. This year will be better ♡

I’ve been watching you for a very long time! I know you are struggling, I struggle with severe anxiety too, so I understand. I have faith in you and your talent! Please don’t give up, it will happen, you have a strength you just haven’t realized yet. You’ve touched so many lives with your love for reading, you just can’t see it. You are human, none of us are perfect, I’ve always valued your honesty. It means a lot that you show us that you are just one of us. The people that film just perfect looking content are not what most of us gravitate towards, the majority prefer real human interaction like you provide. I looked forward to your Vlogmas content everyday! Be proud, you showed up and gave us some lovely book recommendations! You are a smart young person, you will learn French, I just know it! The new internship will help a lot with language and getting out of the house. It might be interesting to do a live show with reading sprints, where we could read with you, or pick a book a month and we could all buddy read it, just a thought 💭 whatever you do in the New Year all of us will be here for you! Keep pushing forward, one day, one moment at a time, you are an amazing human full of kindness!! 💕💪🏻🙏

Hailey I really love watching your videos. Infact it was because of you I started watching BookTube in the first place. Also, I would love to add that I'm aware there are plenty of other awesome BookTubers out there, but I find your videos the best. And you're the only person I turn to whenever I feel like watching BookTube. I really love your content and you. It's only because of you I've realised that speaking about your mental health, and speaking your mind is normal and important. After looking at you I've become more & more transparent about my feelings and mind. I've started to speak about my feelings to my friends & family and it has made my life a lot easier.

My New Year's Resolutions is to stick to my TBR and read 100 books, read as much as possible 📚😘 2021 has been one of the worst years of my life in terms of reading and things going on in my life but I want 2022 to be a positive year 👍👍 Cheers to 2022 🥂🥂

Congratulations on your career opportunity and your sisters weddings. Those happy moments might be fleeting, but you can keep them in your pocket and reflect on them when you need them most ♥️ even if you don’t believe it, you’re killing it. You’re a badass. You’re doing the things. I’m proud of you.

My heart and thoughts are with you, you are lovely and amazing! I live in a country where I don't speak the language, and moved into a new city the moment covid started so it did alienate me quite a lot, I get a bit of what you're going trough!! I'm sending you a big big virtual hug!! I hope you find what works for you!

Thank you for sharing Hailey. I know how hard it is to be honest about mental health and the things that affect it. You should be proud of how you have held it together this year and continued to make content despite struggling so much. I hope and pray that you find a new source of joy in 2022 and become a happier person. I really enjoy your videos every time you upload and I love all the new content you have put out. I will continue to watch whatever you do!

I’m praying for you girl! YOU MATTER. You as a person anxiety and depression are so suffocating but you as a person matter. Love from Louisiana

Moving is hard. Just remember that you don't have to stay there forever. You can and may move back to your home town again someday. ❤️

So happy you opened up, must feel great to get it all out. Im struggling mentally aswell, nothing to be ashamed of. Everyone hits roads bumps in life. Just keep your head up, youll be okay.

Hailey, girl you will rock 2022. 2021 was just the worst period, my own mental health has been roller coastering too and I get it. Take your time, get help, and also find some place to socialize even if its online or something, I hope this internship will allow that. I know when I isolate (whether on purpose or just situational) my own mental health goes haywire. Giving you virtual hugs and support! It will get better.

Aw Hailey, I just wish we could do more to help! You will get through this, I have faith in you. Even when it looks like life is perfect, you have no clue how things are behind the camera. Mental health issues don't discriminate and you can only do the best you can.

I know 2021 has been hard for you, but I'm so proud of you for pushing through. I hope 2022 is much better, filled with happy moments. Congrats on the job! I hope that it a positive experience for you! I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers for the new year.

Thank you for being honest! Also, your feelings are 100% valid regardless of "how grateful you should be" or "how lucky you are" in life. I know you know this, but sometimes we need to be reminded. Also, please don't forget that we are living through a traumatic experience with this pandemic, which is not great for our mental health. Congrats on your new job and I hope/pray that 2022 is fantastic for you!

Congratulations on your internship! Amazing! I hope 2022 is much more gentle for you!♥

I love your videos and the enthusiasm that you bring to them. I do not read the same type of books as you. I am mostly and SFF reader but I still come back to you because of your enthusiasm. I am going to be reading mistborn this year as well. ❤️❤️

I know that I already commented but, it was before I got into the "meat & potatoes" if you will... but it is breaking my heart to see you so ... sad! I am glad that you got a job somewhere that you love and you are excited for 2022! I and my family are rooting for you! You are such an amazing person, Sweets! You have a heart of gold and when you smile it makes me want to smile! also, I know that once your book does get published, it is going to be a bestseller!!! and it will fill so much better knowing that you put your own blood, sweat, and tears into this book and I cannot wait for that moment! I really do hope that you are going to do signed copies... i promise you i will be one of the people who buys extra for a signed copy, maybe even a personalized copy of the book??! i know that i haven't been commenting or watching/liking a lot of your vids lately but i am back now! We (your subs) love you and we only want the best for you, always beautiful! I hope things start looking up this year and that you can accomplish your 2022 goal of the year ... to just be happy!

Congratulations on the new job! I know times are hard, you will find your way and you should be proud that you already are!

I visited Montreal a lot when I was with my ex, cause his families from there, and even though they prefer speaking in French, most know English as well, and I always found a lot were fine speaking English when I went in stores, and told them I know English. I know it's stressful, I alway panicked when I went out there and felt bad telling them I don't understand French.

Hi Hailey! Please press on! Things will look up eventually. Just an outsider though, and I know that I will never understand the entirety of your situation, but it looks like the move is the root of most of your problems. It is okay to not be okay with your decision, you dont have to live by it, especially if it doesnt make you happy. I really hope you figure things out soon!!

My heart goes out to you. I’m so sorry to hear that you’re struggling so much. But we’re all rooting for you. Congrats on your new job!

Hailey, the fact that you can talk about failure makes you so relatable for the millions of us out here who have also tried and failed while pursuing a dream. You know. There’s a line from my favorite Alice in Wonderland movie (the 1999 one) - anyways, it’s a conversation between Alice and the White Knight - about what to do when you fall off your horse - You get up and try again. Never give up, Hailey. Try again a million times over.

One day at a time ♥️ talking and being open about things help so much more than we realize. Speak things into existence. Don’t be so hard on yourself. One thing at a time. We are all rooting for you, always.

I completely understand you! You are going to find your way. I have been battling depresion since 2019 and I am still have my ups and downs but I am getting there. Things are going to get better. I promise 🔮

I appreciate you being so open about your struggles. My mental health has definitely been super low this year. Just know you are not alone and you are loved and cared about 💜💜

Hi Hailey, first of all you’re one of the reasons why I’m reading more and I’m really thank you for that. I’m from Venezuela and I moved to Romania not knowing Romanian (I’m already going to be 5 years here and I don’t speak the language fully) after a lot of things, a relationship and needing to communicate with my in laws.. I tried and now I can say some things hahaha don’t think it’s too much. It was really dark and from time to time still is, the feeling of not been like fully able to communicate or understand. I hug you and I know that is hard and freaking sad to be in that point also with that feeling of everyone being successful and still that luck hasn’t touch us. The thing is that it will come, I really enjoy super much see you and yeah.. send you love girl because you deserve all the good things. 2022 will be crazy and you gonna rock it! ❤️‍🔥

Haven’t watched your content in ages. Great to get a notification for your video. I’m from ireland. I hope to watch more of your videos after this. Would be interesting to see you vlog you learning french too as I’m currently learning that language too.Hope 2022 is better for you

Hi Hailey! Watching that beginning portion was tough. It was amazing to see you being so open and vulnerable, but it broke my heart to hear how much you've been struggling. We all love you, and your content. And we all believe in you!!! You'll make it!!! 💜💜💜💜

This video really broke my heart. I really wish you would be happier and get the success you deserve in 2022 and every other year that follows.

Hi Hailey! I've been watching your channel for a while. Funny enough, I have very little interest in a lot of books that you discuss. I watch your channel because I like you and I like your videos. As you say, it's ok not to be ok, but you are still a bright light in the world. Specifically, I have to say that your Bookmas content is incredible. I can't imagine how much work that takes to accomplish and I give you major kudos for what you've created. About 3 1/2 years ago, I decided I wanted to leave my job. I thought that I would be able to find a ton of other jobs and would find something so much better. I ended up going months without even a single interview. I was crushed. Randomly, one of my past work acquaintances reached out with a job opening that she thought would be good for me. I ended up getting that job and still have it now. I know I'm not in my 20+ year career at the moment, but I am in a job that I truly love and have so much passion for. Like took me in a direction that I didn't expect at all. I know it doesn't always help when you're in the middle of a downturn, but just remember that sometimes we can't see what direction we need to be going. Focus on taking care of yourself and following your passions! Things will right themselves and you will see where you need to be

I get it girl...take the time you need! I have felt that way many times in my life. I've been homeless. I've been stuck at the bottom of life for most of my life. Now that I finally secured my job as an English teacher, I still have massive amounts of anxiety about how I might mess it up. I'm just now starting a RU-vid channel and writing my novel, but I have to cope with the fact that those goals may never come to fruition. The best thing is to just keep journaling and talking about your thoughts. Take one day at a time. Just keep talking! I know you don't know me but I love you! Not just your videos, but the raw you! To take this job I had to move to a place I don't know anything about. I don't know people or have any close friends, so...you're not alone.

Hi Hailey, I have only watched the first part of your video. And I want to say thank you for talking about your feelings, for taking care of yourself, and for encouraging others to do the same. I started following you in spring 2020 but was really impressed last winter and this when you admitted how hard the pandemic had been. I live in the states so we have not had the same lockdowns Canada has had (for better or worse) and truly, I do not know how I would handle it. I appreciate that you were honest because so often I wonder if I’m going crazy for the stress I felt during the pandemic, previous shutdowns, and even remote threat or idea of new ones. It’s good to know someone else feels similar in a strange way. Thank you! Please take care of yourself. And take the time you need. You have something to share with the world, through books and your writing and that is wonderful! And writing wise, there will be a door at some point. Lastly, a comment on the language: I know not everyone is like this, but I still want to hear from someone who doesn’t speak English well. Our conversation may not be very involved, since unfortunately I only speak English, but I would still want to hear. I don’t know how people in Quebec are but you seem like a lovely person. And you may not be fluent or conversational in French. But don’t let that make you afraid to have conversations. I wish you a happy 2022! Take care of yourself! Do whatever you need to take care of yourself. And remember that you have so much to give whether that is for RU-vid, your writing, your loved ones, or strangers you meet in person or online. Be well!

I am so sorry. I saw your story about twin travel novel but please keep going. Social media is all highlights. YOU are the authentic one. YOU do have a voice. Please be kinder to yourself. We love your content!

It is really understandable that you feel overwhelmed with the language barrier but believe me you will feel so much better regarding it soon. I’m speaking as a person who did not speak English well at all when I moved to the UK. I had to have a translator with me at school during my first year here and children can be incredibly rude when they see you as someone different or even stupid. I think you just have to remember that good people, the people that matter, will never judge you or think less of you if you speak a different language, especially if you are trying to learn theirs. 😊 I really hope your French doesn’t make your anxiety worse for much longer.

hi! i just wanna say how much i love your content and that im sorry 2021 was so hard on you! im studying french very intensively and it causes me a lot of anxiety as well so i totally understand you😭😭 i hope 2022 will be better for you and you'll find your comfort zone again! wishing you all the best

I appreciate you talking about mental health

First of all, DON’T apologize! Second of all, we love you. Take your time.

I feel like you could use a big hug. 🤗 Comparison can be such a thief of joy. I’m the same way and learning that I can be happy for my friends and grieve for myself at the same time. It’s confusing feelings and can be a lot to work through in the moment, but overall freeing to fully feel and allow yourself to grieve. The internship sounds so cool! And if it’s something you can share more about in the future, I’m excited to hear more about it. I think you’ve mentioned in the past that you’re not really spiritual, but here are some powerful words that have given me hope and strength in my hardest moments: For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. Future Hailey will be stronger for all that she has gone through this past year.

Thank you for sharing what you're going through. I just want to say that you're not alone, we're all here hoping for your happiness. I know you didn't ask for any advices, but in 2021 what really really helped me was having a happy journal. It was just a plain page on my goodnotes, and I wrote a line or two about something good that happened that day. I just had to find something to write about, even if it was "today the meal I cooked tasted good". I didn't decorate the journal or anything, as no to discourage me to write on days I really wasn't well. After a while, I got the energy to actively seek good things so I could write them and it helped so much. Thank you for all your content, "I started reading a book recommended by Hailey" was on my happy journal a few times, thank you for these moments of joy. I wish your 2022 is everything you want it to be

So I moved to spain a few months ago. And I relate so much on the language difficulty, been going to language class for three weeks but still can't carry a conversation for my life. Thank you for being so open 💕 I love your videos they make me so happy. Really hope this year will be better for you 💛

Hailey sorry to hear all that you are going through. Don't give up on your dreams of becoming an author. As hard as it may seem right now, just know other author's have gone through the same thing, your day will come my friend. Something I used to do was write in a journal when things got too overwelming, it took it off my shoulders and I was able to deal with it in a much better way. Also taking the time to write down what your grateful for will lighten things. I hope 2022 brings you the happiness you deserve and all good things to come your way. You got this girl, Happy New Year!

💚💚💚 Just dropping in to send some love. You are one of my favorite creators, and I hate seeing you struggle. You have so many supporters here who are willing to listen to you vent and just express what you're feeling - don't forget that. That's in addition to your significant other, your family, and friends behind the screen there with you.

You speak for many. I hope 2022 brings much better times for you. Thinking of you always and grateful for your content.

So sorry 2021 has been hard :( hope 2022 will be better

My therapist says when I have anxiety I need to ask myself what is the worst that can happen. Literally what is the worst possible thing that can happen. So if your shopping and someone starts yelling at you in French and you don’t understand, what’s the worst that can happen? You can walk away. You can just leave. It’s hard but I find it helpful. It reminds me that the worst for me is literally the basic for someone else. Congrats on the internship. Sometimes what we think we want is not actually what we need

Congratulations on the internship!! I believe in you, girl. Whatever you do, you do it with your whole heart, which is so admirable. I'm trying to do the same this new year. I've been low and anxious myself lately, but it will be okay. You are not alone! From Nebraska, USA.

I will be praying for you, Hailey! I hope you know how loved you are.💕

I just want to say I believe in you Hailey. You will find the right publisher and if you need to cry about it than that is totally fine. Give yoursf Some credit. You are trying and you keep trying. That is the mist important. Ofcourse you are happy for the people who got published. But it makes you human that you feel devistated. I have your back! The best wishes for 2022 and I hope that you reach your goals for the next year. Good luck!!!

As someone who just found your channel, and who’s dream is to also be an author, you are doing great. You are going to get there. I totally relate to seeing friends get their work published. Our time is coming!