This song brings me back to the summer of 2020. I was so in love with my boyfriend at the time but our relationship was so corrupted and toxic, so I would cry to this song every night. I remember riding in the car through the city with this song on full volume, looking up at all the colors and city lights. That time period was so bittersweet.
This is from Doja in her darker times, where she was kind of depressed sort of. I can hear her voice a little bit, but the voice change is a big difference. It’s unbelievable that is actually is her.
Doja in this song went through a painful breakup that left her broken. she’s looking back on it (“I’ve been moving in backward directions”). She’s reached out to others but the connections she make are fake (“Friends will pretend in the end when you get big, Get slick, get quick, wanna spend shit”). She turned to drugs and alcohol to cope with the pain of rejection, and she’s hating herself and sees herself as weak for it. No one understands what she’s going through. She turns to whoever’s around but it still leaves her hurt in the end. She knows she shouldn’t go back to her ex who’s now free to move on and do whatever he wants. He’s doing alright but she’s stuck in a bad place. She tries her hardest in relationships but it never works out for her. the song is about self harm, coping, and trauma that repeats itself.her struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts i honestly can be mistaken but thats what i took from it aswell as a few others i have seen also said the same thing.
@@sleniru that was just a rumor. She DID however write this during a hard period in her life. Plus she never stated that it was about suicide or if it was her suicide note.
i remember listening to this song on the bus on the way to school in 2020 when i was so happy not knowing anything about this song or what it means. and now times have changed and i just want to constantly cry everytime i listen to this song.
It shows even the most confident and talented people who sing the most vibeable songs go through dark times. The voice change is unbelievable and sometimes songs like these make you genuinely concerned for said artist.
this song makes me think of summer of 2020 when I started falling out with my best friends. it was at that time I also began to process a lot of things that happened to me. this song was just too relatable lol
This song represents the emotions in the doja. You can't always do it with happy and energetic songs. I think the people who know and listen to this song are like that. This song, like everyone else, reminds me of the summer of 2020. The angles and confusion of that time. Write to me and tell me everything, folks. I love you and Doja ✨
This song brings back 2019/2020 summer bc they were both long for me and I change from soft to a way different person. And I would listen to this song is the main song I listen to. And I remember the vibe a of my red light and the tall shadow in my room.
lyrics ~ The beach is a good place to pick up girls because you can really see what you're getting Most beaches are- of chicks And they're-and they're-and they're-and they're-and they're-and they're-and they're-and they're Hm, mm, mm I've been moving in backward directions During astral projections I plaster my ass on the wall for attention I need faster connections Past is regret, I'd flash from the gemses If I didn't care what my friends did Friends that pretend, wanna end when you get bit Get slick, get quick, wanna spend shit Ends with a sniff or a huff or injection I can't handle rejection, stand my reflection Damn, no one gets it Should I be kind and remind that I'm weak? So I fall more behind every week I'm the 'shine once guys take a peek I cry from my eyes to my feet Stairs to the streets, to the gutters, to the sea When I mutter in my sleep I say, "Mother never weep" My brother finds blood I say, "Shut up 'fore she sees" Another motherfucking treat Won-wonder will she weep, won-wonder where she be Thunder on my teeth Spittin' natural disasters God told me, "Cat, don't mess with the past tense" You're testing the masters So guess what the fact is My ex is a bachelor Next, gonna get big checks from the sets Next, from the dancers Next, from the models This Hennessy is cursed Someone hexed all the bottles Someone hexed all the bottles I swear on my life, I always try But in my eyes, I can fly Sigh Better luck next time Be-be-better luck next time Better luck next time (Next time) Be-be-be-be-better luck next time Better luck next time (Better luck next time) Be-be-be-be-better luck next time Better luck next time Be-be-be-be-better luck next time Better luck next time Be-be-be-be-be-be-be-
I've been moving in backward directions During astral projections I plaster my ass on the wall for attention I need faster connections Past is regret, I'd flash from the gemses If I didn't care what my friends did Friends that pretend, wanna end when you get bit Get slick, get quick, wanna spend shit Ends with a sniff or a huff or injection I can’t handle rejection, stand my reflection Damn, no one gets it Should I be kind and remind that I’m weak? So I fall more behind every week I'm the ’shine once guys take a peek I cry from my eyes to my feet Stairs to the streets, to the gutters, to the sea When I mutter in my sleep I say, "Mother never weep" My brother finds blood I say, "Shut up 'fore she sees" Another motherfucking treat Won-wonder will she weep, won-wonder where she be Thunder on my teeth Spittin' natural disasters God told me, "Cat, don't mess with the past tense" You’re testing the masters So guess what the fact is My ex is a bachelor Next, gonna get big checks from the sets Next, from the dancers Next, from the models This Hennessy is cursed Someone hexed all the bottles Someone hexed all the bottles I swear on my life, I always try But in my eyes, I can fly Sigh
This song makes me feel that I'm not good for anyone. And I'm overthinking everything that I do. This song also reminds me that I was in love with one of my guy friends, he didn't like me back and it took awhile for me to realize that we are better off to be friends.
This song gets me back in 2021...all the kids at night...us playing hide and seek...playing games...hanging out...playing uno...partying...untill i 2022 it all collpased...no group chat...no nothing...no one goes outside anymore same happened like a month ago...we had a group chat with like 10 of us...we were going outside every day...every night...riding the bike...untill one day..no one active...no responds in the group chat...the last message was my message saying:"Does anyone wanna go outside?"...no responds...no nothing...group chat collapsed...
I remember playing this song summer off 2020, I got so attached to this guy who was actually grooming me. I loved him so much, but she would always asked of stuff I didn't feel comfortable with. I loved him so much I gave him what he wanted always. I still love him and I miss our conversations but he is literally my groomer and I feel so ashamed of myself. I am still attached and I dont know what to to.
Tengo miedo a no poder lidiar con mis problemas, ir a la farmacia a comprarme 10 cajas de pastillas, empezar a escribir una carta , mientras me miro al espejo con los ojos hinchados, los brazos cortados, tomar todas esas pastillas, luego venga alguien y me vea tirada a un lado de el baño con una carta en el espejo del baño, llore abrazandome, mientras llama a una ambulancia para que me salven, luego llegue a sobrevivir, solo diga "senti que estaba cumpliendo mi sueño por un momento...", para despues hacerlo de nuevo y lograrlo una vez por todas.
Enserio, no se porque problemas estes pasando, pero en verdad lamento que te sientas así pero siempre va a aver algo para seguir adelante aunque todo parezca perdido llegará algo que te hará subir de nuevo, no pierdas la esperanza, eres demasiado fuerte y porfavor no te vallas, no es facil pero no imposible se libre bello Ángel
I relate to this song so much like when it says “I’ve been moving in a backward direction”… “I paster my ass on the walls for attention”…”past is regret”….”friends wanna end when you get bit”… “end with a sniff or a huff or injection… I can’t handle rejection”… “damn my reflection, damn no one gets it”… “should I be kind in mind that im week”… “so I fall behind every week”…”im the shine when guys take a peak”…” I cry from my eyes to my feet”…”god told me cat dont mess with the past tense”… “you’re testing the master”… “I swear on my life I always try”… I relate to all of those words so much and it’s hurts knowing that too because I’ve been though some much stuff
