A Day in the Life of a 33 Year Old Alcoholic Struggling to Stay Sober 

17 years sober here. Kicking alcohol's arse! 👊👊👊

was addicted to what i called a trifecta Meth, Opium, Alcohol. I also suffered severe depression and cptsd. i went to a party and consumed about 2g of shrooms i was lost in my head for 6 minutes but when i came back my depression and addiction to my trifecta was gone. I didn't realize it at the time. The psychedelic experience is temporary but people have good permanent results. 6 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.

Man did I NEED this. Stuck in a brutal cycle waking up feeling like dying, another drink to make it go away, another drink to keep it going. Repeat. Glad I found you.

I am 70 year old woman...sober 4 years...started at 16...you can do the math. I got tired of my heart going crazy at night and phycosis (spelling) of voices I heard that no one else did...plus terrible sleep. I drank less and less until I was able to quit...boy, am I glad thats over...I will never drink again. I totally loved wine and brandy...but it's not worth it. Blessings.

Hey man.. Fellow aussie here.. 66yo. Drinker for 50years. The last 20 pretty heavy.. Port and beer was my poison of choice. Morning till early evening. Never got hangovers. Life was sweet. I really enjoyed drinking.. That was until my liver sent a nuclear warning shot across the bow. (Cirrhosis) is now my partner in crime. My stomach swelled up HUGE.. (Ascites).. Went to the ER and was drained of ascetic fluid.. 15ltrs out.. That was at the beginning of January 2024. Sober since then. Not because I wanted to. Because I HAD to. My liver doctor gave me some sobering news. "If you don't stop the booze, you'll be dead before the end of the year"............. How can I live without booze??............ I'm doing it now. It was hard but is getting easier.. My method to keep the mind off the devils water.............. Keep your fridge full of easy to get to snacks like fruit, (strawberries / plums / kiwi fruit / apples / lemons / cherry tomatoes / baby cucumbers / low sugar and salt muesli bars ). Anything that's fresh and you like. When you think of a beer, go the the fridge and grab a few of those snacks. Protein shakes. I'm back exercising again. Swimming, weights, bike.. I've gone from 115kg down to 85kg.................... Do I miss the booze?? Bloody oath I do, but given the choice again, I'd much prefer to be 85kg and now eating like a horse than 115kg and feeling sluggish all the time......... Hang in there mate.. It could've been a whole lot worse................... Giving up the booze after such a long time was like losing my best friend.. But a new life is starting............

17yrs clean from heroin and four years clean from alcohol here. What really helped me to stay clean was finding another passion. Find a "healthy" addiction, if you will. For me, it was weightlifting. it completely changed my life so thought i would share with you too. ❤ Godspeed!

I have 69 days sober, today. I will be 61 yrs. old, in 4 days. It is never too late, to reclaim your bliss, your life, yourself. Keep the faith, brother. Goddess Blessings.. 🙋 💜. Jaye

I’m a 69 yr old woman living in south Texas. You just popped on my feed. Thank you for making this video! I hope you keep telling your story! I will keep following you. I’m for you!

Never quit never surrender this is not only for this man but everyone out there reading this! I am over 2 years sober both alcohol and nicotine and I can say I’ve beat my demons back into the hell hole they came from. God is good god is great always remember there’s something to live for ❤ it won’t be easy and it’ll be hard as hell but you can do it!

Hey man, quit now before the withdrawals and delirium tremens start. I’m 27, over the last year and a half I’ve put myself in the ER about ten times because of alcohol and withdrawals. On March 19th I checked myself into a rehab center for detox and residential inpatient. It was the best decision I could have made. 56 days sober now and no intention of ever drinking again. Alcohol just takes and takes from you, and if the bad shit hasn’t happened yet, like jail, prison, seizures, killing someone, killing yourself, etc, it’s coming if you keep diving further into alcohol. Quit now!

I'm on day 35. I attempted suicide Jan 1st because of alcohol, cold turkey and DT's. I jumped from a significant height and f'd myself up.. I was forced to detox for the first significant period in 20 years as I was in hospital for months. It was also not in my home country which made it even crazier.. I have life altering injuries because of it.. and still relapsed after discharge. I'm 38. I identify with everything you experienced here. I hope all is going well for you. I would caution to anybody in a similar position. Start slowly. Do not try and change so much so soon. Not having a drink is the only priority. Please do it with medical supervision if you have been drinking heavily. I know from a lot of experience. Greetings from Ireland.

I drank every single day for over 20 years. Over 40 beers a day. I was hospitalized over 20xs for alcohol withdrawal..and was pronounced dead 3xs in 1 day due to a serious seizure due to withdraw. Jesus Christ took my addiction away and made me new again. Believe and trust him with your life and soul..accept him as Lord of your life

Remember, it's not how much you stumble, it's how many times you get up! Keep getting up and you'll get there! ❤️

I read The Alcohol Experiment and This Naked Mind. It changed my life. Keep your head up, keep going. Ive got about 18 months under my belt now. I’m sorry you’re struggling. It’s freaking hard, but it’s so so worth it.

dude, you have no idea how much this helps me. i'm struggling now kicking kratom (i know, i know). i've taken it for 10+ years and yesterday i just wanted to be done, so i stopped. i feel awful, like the flu, down and out. i blew off a girl i've been talking to for weeks because i can't get out of bed. this helped me to see like you would not believe. esp since this came recommended out of nowhere, i am not a drinker, haven't researched quitting or withdrawls etc. the algo delievered you to me and i am so beyond thankful. i need to keep up this fight.

I lost my mother 9 months ago to alcohol. And my father is drinking too, and i can't stop him. That's a terrible life situation im in. Don't drink guys. It's a road to nowhere, but hurting people around you, those the closest.

Whisky was my favorite. Stay strong and just keep quitting until you don't have to anymore. I Quit drinking over and over so many times I can't count. I am over 2 years sober now and loving life. I know you can get there to some day.

I’ve got just over two years of sobriety. 33 year old Irish guy living down under. Binged on alcohol every weekend since the age of 15 and never stopped until it got worse and the whiskey got the better of me. Multiple black outs and eventually it caught up on me after falling asleep too many times in too many dodgy places. AA helped me realise that addiction is a spectrum and that there are many different types of drinkers/ alcoholics. I did not want to quit and couldn’t imagine life without it but here I am today having a decent life without it. It’s been such a learning curve, with good times and bad times but there would have been so many more bad times if I had of continued. Change is possible and an open mind is key. Listening and learning in the rooms of AA gave me such a great scope of how bad the booze can be. Wishing you the best pal, If I can do it, you can

Good stuff! I’m almost 6 months sober after 40 years of chaos and heavy drinking. Keep up the great content!

37yr drug addict here! I’m 65yrs old now and have been clean for 15yrs! My wake up call was going to jail! I thought I was untouchable. Cleaning up to go to court was the hardest most unexplainable pain my body ever went through! Thought I was gonna die. I never want to go through that ever again. Long story short, I’ve NEVER looked back & NEVER used again! I love myself now! YOU can do it!

I quit at 37, nearly 2 years ago, and it was rough for me and also the best thing I ever did. It gets easier with each month and it felt like a goal I'd never achieve but here I am. I wish you all the best.

Stay strong brother. My little brother suffers from alcoholism and it has destroyed his life in only a matter of a few years. Thank you for this video

I’m 42 and a recovering alcoholic. I drank solidly for 15 years, morning, noon and night. That was until the 21st of December 2019. Through the power of support from my family and friends, a desire to stop drinking and the acknowledgment I’m powerless over alcohol, I managed to put down the first drink and the rest took care of itself. Hang in there, it does get easier, but it’s a talking illness. You need to share your struggles with those around you and lean on the support when you need it.

I only started drinking heavily a couple of years ago. It's loneliness that drives me to it. I live alone and work more or less alone. I simply cannot spend too much time at home alone or I get depressed. I love the atmosphere of the pub where at least there's a chance I can talk to someone, listen to the music on the juke box, etc. Anyone else feel the same way?

Thank you for your honesty mate. Please try find some self-compassion. You will get through this too man. 🤜🤛

You do it to feel better. Its called self hurting behavior. To get away from the real pain you have inside. And it means that youre not ready, willing or strong enough yet to face it. We do what we need. I wish the best from Sweden

I relapsed yesterday. Thanks for your honesty, now i know im not alone 😞

My best mate struggled (which is why I'm watching). It seems to affect the most wholesome people. You're a good looking dude with a lot to offer bud.

When I did a 7 day water fast, it reset my food and alcohol cravings. Weened back into food after the 7 days sticking to a high protein diet and I have had zero cravings since. Long term fasting is not for everyone, so if you try something like that do it with extreme caution and at your own risk. Ensure you are adding quality electrolytes to your water too daily. Have a doctor monitor you throughout it too if possible. Good luck with your sobriety brother. I have faith in you.

1 of the main reasons we 'self medicate' is lack of self love. I can't help but notice ur constant jibes at urself ❤ be concious of how u speak 2 urself, even through ur thoughts ......with the same kindness for instance u would speak 2 ur kids 😊 u r enough ❤

Get yourself some support! There are LOTS of people learning to stay sober one day (or one hour or one minute) at a time. You let it happen because it's an illness. It's the first drink that does the damage. Don't be so terribly hard on yourself--if you're like most of us who can't drink normally, you're beating yourself up all the time! Go get yourself support--go to meetings! The hardest part is in the beginning. Get the support!! And don't take the first drink TODAY. Just today. Then, do it again tomorrow. And oh, did i mention, get to meetings, get support!

What helps me a lot is to read comments from people on day one on apps or places like reddit. It reminds me of how I felt back then. Videos like this help me too. You mention that you are proud of your ability to push through the hangover. I will say that you are young at 33, they only get worse. I'm 41 and my last hangover had me in bed for 5 days taking anti depressants. It's really dangerous for your mental health. You must persevere if you want any chance at a normal life. I stopped for 6 months last year and then started again, now at 35 days hoping to never drink again this time.

My son is an alcoholic and currently looking at 20 do 5 in prison bc of his drinking 😢thank you for sharing im praying for you and sending love ❤️❤️❤️

I needed to see this. I relapsed after 6 months sober. I’m here with you. I don’t want to go back. Thank you and I’m wishing you so much strength and resolve ❤

I came across this video on a perfect evening in my world. 99 days sober and I’ve been contemplating drinking tonight. Thank you for mentioning the bloating. Why I quit., my body was not assimilating alcohol and slowly shutting down my kidneys.

I'm From the Caribbean...Have the same problem with always relapsing I'm 4 days sober..need some divine intervention..keep strong..I could relate..

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Glad I saw this video. I'm on Day 1 today. Been drinking a fifth of whiskey and binge-eating meat and junk food for 23 years. My health is so bad that I'm about to lose my job. Today is the day I change my life

Been 4 weeks sober from alcohol,have done it before and was sober for a while but relapsed A lot going on at home and with my health and this time I feel way more confident about staying sober, maintaining sobriety is difficult but I'll do it this time

My husband hasn’t had a drink since New Year’s Day and he was drinking heavy and the sheer admiration we have for him helps him stay positive and the fact he now also has tremendous pride now in fact he can now say he’s teetotal which we all thought was impossible! And to note he had two massive bottles of spirits at home but hasn’t touched a drop !Just take it day by day and say to yourself I will get though this one day at a time! Try not to cut everything at once as it’s so much to tempt you to quit and just concentrate on the 24hours🙂

Have watched Alcohol absolutely wreck one of my best friends lives . I already wasn't that big on drinking but seeing how he was to what he is now is just fucked and made me decide to basically not drink at all except maybe the odd 1 here and there , socially , but I'm already struggling with a 12 year Benzo and Opiate Addiction ( they were for legit purposes that ended up turning me into a junky u could say ) but it's not fun anymore , just being chained to these chemicals everyday is soul crushing and with Benzoes and Alcohol being somewhat related and 2 of the most dangerous addictions in terms of withdrawal , I feel where ur coming from with the struggle but I truly hope things keep getting better for u man , u can keep this up and idk u but u seem to have a decent amount of support which I hope helps too . Most importantly I wish u nothing but the best on ur journey to recovery and freeing urself from the shackles of addiction bro . One love and stay safe dude 👊

Todays my day one, well actually my first few hours. Good on you for being honest and hope that now, 2 months in the future is looking bright 💪🏼

Hi this is my first time watching you, i wish you the absolute best, im also a struggling alcoholic 23yo from across the pond 🇮🇪 . I go through about 20 cans of beer and 500ml of vodka per day. Not ideal but im waiting to get a spot in residential treatment. Best wishes 🙏

btw bro im a web developer in training i dont know if this sounds stupid but i respect what your doing and if you need a website or logo or anything in the future il be more than happy to help ou help more people this video gave me strength to get back on track

Thank you from a Melbournian who’s been battling this shit for years! ❤

Alcohol, drugs, addiction are not cunning, baffling, and powerful in the least. YOU ARE. More people need to realize this.

A month without a drink is fucking amazing. Keep grinding brother!

Please continue doing your videos, man I feel for you because I’m struggling with the same thing and I’m sure many others are too. I like the honesty you show in your videos, listening to your story really helped me and the reason why is because I can relate 100%. Please keep posting videos on your progress we got this!

I've never met you, but I'm in your corner cheering you on. Godspeed brother.

I finally broke down and realized that I needed support. I’ve been going to AA meetings and told everyone around me about my struggles. The overwhelming majority of people were supporting and loving. I got my 30 day token then f’d up with a lapse. Lapse is part of recovery. The best thing is to never say you won’t ever drink again because that just sends you down a spiral when a lapse occurs. Don’t give up. Get help and ask for help. I was really hesitant to go to meetings but it has been a safe place and therapeutic.

I feel you brother. I’ll be praying for your recovery as well as for my own. Even though I’ve got a problem with different substance I can completely relate to what you’re going through I can see it in your eyes. All the best mate

I see a lot of myself in you and the stuff you say man. I've only just started to really admit to myself that I have a problem. Power to you, keep strong

Sober for 6 months. I’ll share my story in the hopes it might help you bro as well as anyone else out there who’s still struggling. Near the end, I was putting down a fifth or more of vodka a day. I kept throwing it up so I had to drink more. I couldn’t even keep water or coffee down. My body wasn’t functioning properly anymore and I kept getting bruises because my kidneys were shot. My hair started thinning because I was so malnourished. Not a good look for the ladies! Luckily it grew back! I started getting gout in my right ankle, yuck! I ruined relationships with people who I really cared about because booze turned me into a raging asshole. I pissed myself once and slept in it because I didn’t have the energy to clean myself up. I was spending over a grand a month on alcohol plus whatever garbage food that I was ordering. That’s a shit ton of money I could have used to go on a vacation, buy a car, put a down payment on a house, etc. I developed a sleeping disorder which I still have and average maybe 3-4 hours of light sleep a night. I got high blood pressure from it. It will bring you down everyt time. Miraculously, my liver is ok but I know quite a few people who weren’t as lucky and got Cirrhosis. That’s NOT something you want to get or pancreatitis. Withdrawal was an absolute nightmare. Bro, you’re still a young guy. Please DO NOT let yourself get as bad as I did and some of the other lovely folks who have been brave enough to share their stories here. Learn from our mistakes, not yours. We (alcoholics) are physically built differently than others. From birth, our livers secrete a certain enzyme that makes us addicts. As someone else here said, don’t beat yourself up. Every day is a new day, and don’t feel ashamed of getting help. I tried quitting on my own hundreds of times but it never lasted very long so I started going to AA. My life was becoming unmanageable. You’re still a young guy, you’re good looking, intelligent and I can tell how badly you want to stop. I’m rooting for you brother…you got this, and you’re worth it!

I'm sober 2 days, got married this past February, relapsed, been drinking since. I need to stop the hangovers and fights. 🙏😞

It’s never ending, it’s more about running from the low than chasing the high.

You GOT THIS BROTHER/ HOPE EVERYTHING GOOD WITH YA.. STAY BLESSED!!!🤜🤛

I haven't drank in 6 years. I woke up one day and quit smoking and drinking, it was wonderful. That was in 2018. What really helped me was eating a really big breakfast in the morning because I knew having a full stomach wouldn't allow me to get as drunk as I'd like. After that, it was a breeze.. Haven't touched it since.

Been there. One day at time my dude. Dont be too hard on yourself. You'll get there when you're ready. I got 8 years dry in January 2025.

I am 22 and i got diagnosed with alcoholic hepatitis like 6 months ago and instead of stopping i just started drinking more, so honestly i wouldnt be surprised if im close to, or already have cirrhosis but i hope all these other youngings knows this aint a game u cant exactly win. Stay sober out there tbh ive been feeling like shit this whole month. Throwing up blood and all types of nasty shit. Wish i could start over.

Just went through this recently myself brother, prayers go out to you man. Best of luck 💯

Thank you so very much for posting this. I just discovered your channel and I will be watching everything you post. Rooting for you! I too was an alcoholic drinking a fifth+ of liquor a day, throwing my health away. I’m 27 and coming up on two years of sobriety. Life is amazing and I’m excited for the future. Wishing you the absolute best and excited to watch your journey to successful sobriety! You’ve got this!!

Life is so much more enjoyable sober. It is a lot funner doing things you really enjoy and not just dumb drunk fun

Yes my friend. Do a FAST.I have done about 5 day fasts in the past,and all I can say is that you could be in a different world after just 5 days.One where you wont have any desire to put a poison in your body. If you get hungry,slowly chew on some raw veggies. Fasting is a powerful tool to get you from A,to B.

You can do it brother, I just made 11 months. I attend a lot of 12 step meetings and they help me tremendously It really helps being around other men that are striving to recover and live sober. We’re praying for you sir God Bless!!

awesome video. i drank around the same amount as you did at the end and was ready to end it all. i was so tired of that damn disease and the dependency on alcohol. it helps to remember that forever is a long time. all we have is today, this very moment. it’s all we can control. keep your head up. sorry for you and thanks for documenting this.

Listen to this ive been drinking heavy over 32 years, and last year I did 14 weeks clean due to a health scare with my throat and 12 weeks the year before that during covid. Then stupid me thought I would have 4 cans when I got the all-clear thinking I was in control. Silly me was wrong. I was hooked again. Now I'm on my 7th day, and I'm taking 1 day at a time not putting to much pressure on myself. Start again you got this 👍

Sober since Dec 21st, that's about 6 months. My stomach is less bloated, more energy, happier in my skin, and getting a lot done. I'm 48, and at this age, every drink may be the last. Do I love life? is it without struggles? surely not... but that doesn't mean I want to drink myself to death.

Got diagnosed with ptsd and learned my childhood was abusive. I had forgotten it. But mental health required me to stop drinking. It was hard. But memories surfaced. Then I went to therapy and realized my life had been objectively hard. Drinking was an escape. Now that I’m healing this trauma after acceptance of it; alcohol is just not it. I do not want it; or have issues craving it. I know why I did it. Now I can focus on that instead. Life changing.

I don't think you're back to ground zero. HealthyGamerGG (RU-vidr; psychiatrist; former monk) says with depression, our brains perceive negativity over positivity. If you can, look at the positive of the situation and how many days you went without alcohol! It's incredible when you think about it! Alcohol is not my drug of choice - weed was... and I am 30 days cold turkey/clean after smoking daily for decades. You got this!

New sub. Your honesty is inlfuencing me to be honest with myself. Thank you.

Here's where I'm at with my recovery from alcoholism (6months, which is the longest stretch I've had in years). I have to immediately shut that voice down in my head when mentions alcohol AT ALL., which is often enough. I also have to remember what that hell was like, both the bottom and the newly sober...it was bad bad. The last thing, for me, is remembering that the first drink always leads me back to that dark hell. Maybe this will help you too.

Thanks for this. Weird how similar my habits and recovery attitudes are. Drinking while watching sadly but I recognize all the thoughts. I'll keep trying. Thanks for being so open.

Stay strong buddy. It’s so difficult but you absolutely can do it. Also, your cat is so beautiful.

I love this! Love your honesty and your attitude to tackling this disorder head on. To anyone struggling with alcohol reading this right now, please remember that alcohol is an extremely addictive substance that is actually marketed to us to within an inch of our lives - it isnt your fault so dont let alcohol diminish your self worth - I find that is the worst part of struggling with alcohol, its the shame and feelings of low self worth that really gets to you. Also, our brains are wired different to those with no addiction problems - we simply need to find other ways getting that dopamine release and basically do those things as much as we can! Exercise is a great one! I've even found playing some addictive games on my phone a great distraction in the evenings and helps get rid of cravings ( I recognise playing games isn't the healthiest, however it is much better than drinking!). Also make sure you are nourishing your body with good food and lots of fruit and vegetables as well as taking care of your gut - try and eat fermented veg, drink Kombucha etc - a healthy gut has been found to really help with mental health!

My 32 year old brother died of cirrhosis of the liver 6 months ago. He never drank hard liquor just beer and it killed him. He turned yellow and he was gone

This guy is bold, encouraging and inspirational.

I did it too man. Back to seven days

Bro I appreciate this guys candor and honesty you’re pushing me to push through just like you man keep posting I need these videos more than you realize

After a couple of weeks of Binge-Drinking I will go down to AA- Tomorrow. The Nightly sweats, anxiety , lost of Money, no excersise and the List goes on. I truly hope It will stick this time because I cant live like this anymore. I don´t want to either! Alcohol is A Terrible drug in all aspects imagineble.

Be strong brother. You are loved and highly valued. GOD loves you. I am praying for your sobriety and continued health and wellness. Be strong. Love from Indiana/Texas USA

Please go to rehab, or an AA meeting. You don't have to do this Alone. One Thing at a time. One day at a time. Good luck!

Glad I came across this... not by chance I know in my heart who needed me to see this and understand. Most can't go it a lone. A long hard road it will be. But those who try will most likely succeed... ❤ Keep pushing. We are all worth it! ❤❤❤

You seem like a genuin , honest handsome man.I will follow your fight Love from Norway❤

Hey bro, firstly, I commend you for being so candid about your struggle. It's not easy to talk openly about these things and I truly admire you for that. I say this as someone who struggled (silently) with alcoholism for almost ten years. I can tell you things do get better. I celebrated two years of sobriety on 22 May 2024 and I can honestly say it gets easier with time. Thanks for sharing your story. It resonated with me as I'm 33 years old myself and am in NZ (I'm guessing you're a kiwi).

I had the blackest soul blackout that is such a weird shame trauma months later I still just embrace it as fuel to stay sober. Too weird, I don't want that ever again. A binary switch flipped in the soul and a deep seated realization of the alcoholic matrix that's infected an unnatural lack-of-nature lifestyle modern society so deeply.

I'm 30 from the U.S and I just started my journey towards sobriety as well. Like you I have too much to lose! However we both have so much to gain by getting sober as well! I'm in it with you brothers! Stay strong

I'm with you on this i was a alcoholic for 25 years now I'm 49 an I feel brilliant for nor drinking , just left my boyfriend for the same thing just don't want to be near it keep going x

Hey bro. I’m a alcoholic. It’s been a rough decade for me since I turned 21. Before that it wasn’t an issue. Just sad that this is where my life went. The last decade I over drank. It got especially bad between 2021-2023. Since October of 2023 to now May 2024 I’ve only drank 6x total. That’s 6x too much. It’s a lot better then before. I use to get drunk 3-4x a week but now I’m a lot better and so proud of myself but I really do need to eliminate it all together. It’s a struggle. I just went out yesterday and drank- was dumb. Oh well- day 1. Here we go.

Found my best friend of 34 years dead in his bed on May 20/2021…his mums birthday. He bled out after relapsing after 4 years sober. He knew what he was doing, he told me so…he just gave up. Docs told him he’d be dead in 6 months if he began drinking again, took him 4 years. He got sober in the hospital on 6/4/17 and we buried him on 6/4/21. He left me his home and all his possessions so now, every morning, I walk out of my bedroom and look right into the bedroom that I found him in….i don’t have the heart to leave this home…it’s all that I have left of him yet, it tears my heart out every single day. I hope he is at peace, I hope he isn’t suffering anymore with the shame and hatred he had for himself….i miss him but I don’t miss that fucking disease that took him away….love you all, keep your head down and your faith up…keep trying♥️ I miss you Marco, rest now my friend ♥️

I'm 34 years old dealing with alcoholism myself. When I woke up I say I'm not drinking today then the uneasy feeling kicks in and I gave in. Quit my job 3 weeks ago cause I didn't feel good doing it anymore. I don't go out anymore cause I feel uncomfortable now. I hate it cause I let it control me.

You did well getting through January and no doubt would have learned some valuable lessons during that time. These lessons will help you going forward on your sobriety journey.

Complete surrender did it for me. Every day at the foot of the cross. Seeking humility

Good luck man! 27 here from Canada... I'm working on this myself as I do have much to lose.. I was also thinking of recording my journey

My wife put herself into rehab last November. Sober over a year. Relapsed last week because she doesn’t think she has a problem. She can handle it, but she can’t. She doesn’t drink the hard stuff anymore just hard seltzers, but over the weekend she got drunk and had 4 tonight. I’m trying to stay supportive, but have been dealing with this for over 10 years. We were just married this past March. I don’t know what to do. I feel so alone, hurt,angry and depressed. I loved when she was sober. So much laughter and no fighting. That’s gone.

It took a cancer diagnosis for me to stop. You can do it, it just takes the right kind of “motivation”, for want of a better word. I was literally too scared to drink after that so I guess you could say it was easier for me. That was over 11 years ago and I can honestly say I haven’t had a single drink in over a decade, and I believe that decision has literally saved my life. Never give up trying to give up! You CAN and you WILL succeed. All the best. 🥰

That was such a great video. Really helped me through this evening. Hope youre still staying sober. I'm at almost 48 hours through a bad bout of alcohol poisoning, the symptoms have been absolutely frightening and im not out of the woods yet. I am determined to stop now, I simply can't and won't go through this hell again. All others suffering just believe we can do it.

the only thing that works is to avoid that first drink and don't replace it with drugs you are not just giving up drinking you are giving up a lifestyle that was the hardest part for me giving up the lifestyle that I loved living. but hey man the dead know only one thing it is better to be alive I can tell you this just by looking at you if you keep going the way you are going you will not live to see 50 or you will have a bad liver trust me I am 63 years old 11 years sober with cirrhoses and every friend I had that drank heavy and some that only drank beer is dead and gone I don't know if you have children but man when they watch their father or mother die from alcohol or drugs it Fs their minds up for life I have seen it so many times. semper fi wishing you the best man you have a long hard road ahead of you but you will get there if you want it bad enough you have to want it and you have to respect it when you get it. I sure hope you can trust yourself. man I sure wish I could start over fresh at 33 and all my dead friends do as well .semper fi.

After living a life with escapes being my existence, its soo hard to just be clean! But you know what, it is probably the BEST buzz you will ever have. I just fear straight, as do you. But being clean would be the ultimate because we are ALWAYS addicted to something. The key is controlling BOREDOM and your thoughts. Good luck my friend. I feel your pain.

Have you considered going into treatment? I’ve been sober for 13 mos and the ONLY way it was even remotely possible for me was to get outside help. There are millions of people out there just like you and you don’t have to do this alone.

You got this....im a recovering addict and I have relapsed many times. The first step is admitting you slipped. I was a fentanyl and meth addict and anything I could get my hands on pretty much. I died many times due to overdoses and the last one really hit me hard. I lost my best friend to her addiction. I have faith in you and I think your head is actually in the right place. You have to want it . I think you really want it this time ❤ giving up on yourself is the only way to fail. You got up and made a change and thats big 😊 I'll be praying for you ❤