I was incredibly worried about my grandma passing earlier this year. She knew this, and after she got better, she started to make me a cookbook. A hand made cookbook with every recipe she made for me in it. I flipped to the last page, and I saw something that made me feel ok. She put in the back of it, under her picture “All I can ask is that you always think of me as someone who loves you.” I’m balling my eyes out just writing this. I love you Mimi, never change.
My Mimi died recently two months ago of cancer. I wasn't able to see her in person, but I was able to speak on the phone just a couple days before she died. I couldn't muster the ability to say anything more than "I love you forever", and I could desperately hear her trying to respond but she was ultimately too weak to speak. Sorry if this story is unnecessary, but you calling your grandma the same nickname resonated with me.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I know even the thought of my Mimi passing sends me into a spiral. You’re story is incredibly moving, and I hope both of our Mimi’s find peace.
I almost lost my grandmother who was very unwell earlier this year, too. On the way home after giving her a hug in her hospital bed, I felt this overwhelming state of sadness, anger, fear, depression…I wanted to die that very day. This album is so profound and powerful to me, and is my full-on fears of losing my loved ones in musical form, which made me reflect on that day when I listened to this album earlier today. I know one day Nanny will no longer be here, and it will hurt the most, because even my brother’s boyfriend believes like I believe that I will spiral afterwards when it happens. My mother’s passing is going to hurt even more so. As for the future, it’s looking bleak to me, because Poppy’s passing didn’t quite sink in, in 2011, and now that I’m older, I fully understand just how depressing and dark life is, and we are all heading towards the inevitable. There is no silver lining in death. There is no bright future or happy ending. We die, and enter the void forever.
Thanks for stopping by multiple times ! :) this video will always be my favorite one I’ve ever done, really thankful to have people like you return to it. Means a lot!
Fun fact: a few days ago when I first listened to everywhere at the end of time, I listened to it at night. I made it though the first 5 stages. But when the track “A brutal bliss beyond this empty defeat” played, I feel asleep. And I woke up when the terminal lucidity segment was playing, it was probably the most surreal moment of my life. I do wish I had the strength to get through all of stage 6, but it is what it is. Thank so much for this piece of art. Stay strong and take care.
Both lines of my family all struggle with Alzheimer’s/Dementia, and honestly for a long time I was scared. I couldn’t process losing all my memories forgetting the love of my life, my children. So when I heard about EATEOT I was instantly drawn to it, stage 1-2 scared me the most. Throughout the two I kept thinking that this could be me right now, full of life and joy only for it to be forgotten forever. I had to put it down for a couple months until a few months later where I finally decided to sit down and listen to it in it’s entirety. This time even though 1-2 still had that effect on me I kept going and by stage 4 I was hooked. At this point I wouldn’t or couldn’t stop listening. It’s funny because by stage 6 everyone that I’ve seen is sad..crying all that but it helped me find acceptance. Even if this horrible disease does take me, by the time that happens I will have had such a great and fulfilling life that I know I will have people that love me by my side till the end. If you read this all I truly thank you, and I hope for the best for every single one of you.
yeah. ive got some neurological stuff going on, perhaps neurodegenerative. my memory is already bad enough for me to really resonate with stages one and two, haha, and i'm in my mod twenties -- i talke often with my 82 year old stroke survivor grandfather about neurological stuff, and we find we have much in common. scared the shit out of me, but that's okay. its good to prepare yourself, you know? i've been visiting my grandfather twice a week, lately. my pa passed from covid, and my dad's dad is my only immediate surviving family except my sister. my dad passed a year ago, in my grandfather's living room, and my sister and i both realized how.... limited time truly was, and how badly we wanted to do right by our grandfather. i hope things go well for you. i know your pain, but you're right -- we have loved ones here for us, and bad times tomorrow don't undo good times today. cherish that time with them while you can. truly, it can be yanked away in a moment.
I listened to Everywhere At The End Of Time in its entirety during a recent trip to the west coast. At one point, sometime during Stage 4, I was driving through Donner Pass just after a bad snow storm. Nobody was around me and I was surrounded by utter loneliness. In Stage 4 the tracks really start to fall apart and the drone looms above everything you hear. I felt like I was disintegrating along with the music. I eventually made it through the pass and eventually completed the album but some small piece of my mind was left there on that lonely highway, the haunting sounds of the album corrupting my peace, dementing my very state of being. I'll never forget that. This album should come with a warning label. It will eat you alive if you're not careful.
Yea this song made me feel weird and then I disconnected to everything. My mind was tormenting me from just hearing this, showing me false memory's that aren't mine. So then I cried, and cried, and then I finally realized it's just a dang song why the heck am I even feeling this. And it stopped. It still lingers in my head tho.
My grandmother is in the middle of this process, somewhere in the middle of album 3 I’d say. I listened to the whole thing once, and it’s given me the ability to stay patient and calm when I answer the same questions over and over, day after day. She deserves that patience and love.
I’m a little late, but my grandmother passed 4 years ago from Alzheimer’s as well, two months after stage 6 was released. All I can say is cherish every moment with her, even through the frustration you’ll feel with the situation. Enjoy her presence and, as you said, stay patient - though she might not be able to communicate it, I know she appreciates it, and you, more than anything. I can’t express the regret I and my dad feel for the times we couldn’t be there for her.
@@MrBet1001yeah forgetting is hard… My grandpa got diagnosed with dementia and it’s scary… it’s not just the decreasing memory…. But his behavior and personality is extremely different from what it used to be…. He never used to be this hostile, depressed or impatient…. Luckily he is still lucid enough right now…. But… there may only be a few more years left of it…. And my memories of him will be corrupted by the horrors this disease will cause him…. It’s gonna be a long road… that’ll only end in death… but at least we have each other…..
@@RatsOnTheIce19 Sorry to hear about your grandpa. My grandmother died from Alzheimer's disease in 2018, after having suffered with the illness for 12 years. I wish I could say it gets easier, but that only really happens at the end. :( One thing that's helped me cope a bit by somewhat avoiding the whole "memories being corrupted by the horrors of the disease" has been to remember her as essentially two versions of the same person. My Grandmother... And my Grandmother with Alzheimer's. Still the same person, but still also... Different. Not to try and forget the bad, but make an effort to remember the good so it overshadows the bad. Or at least takes precedence over the bad. :) That way whenever I think of my grandmother, I remember who she was. Not what the disease turned her into. No idea if I'm making sense here, and sorry if I'm rambling. Anyways, I hope the both of you (you and your grandpa) goes through this horrifying process as well as possible. :)
I know I’m 10 months late, but the work put into this video has to be acknowledged. Some people don’t realize how hard it is to make a video this long and this high quality. This has to be the best EATEOT video I’ve ever seen. May the ballroom remain eternal.
fun fact if anyone reading this didnt already know: the cover artwork for “eager to tear apart the stars” is a distorted watch. the watch face is at the top right.
Hey Pad! Quick question, just saw that Everywhere at the End of Time is getting pressed onto vinyl! In stages 1-3 and 4-6, first three being £59.99 and 4-6 being £89.99. Do you plan on getting it!
I would absolutely kill to have those animated album covers as the background to my desktop computer. It looks incredible! I hope the artists responsible post those loops!
I’m impressed at the quality this video managed to keep for its entire 2 hour runtime. Shows true dedication to the craft. May the ballroom remain eternal.
You’re a wonderful grandson Pad. Don’t feel guilty because I’m sure every moment you spend with your grandparents is cherished by them and sometimes with family it’s the little things that make life worth living.
This is “Everywhere at the end of time: The Movie.” Everything from a personal story, symbolism, going in depth to composition of the artwork and music. I knew you wouldn’t disappoint with this video!
Pad, Your story about your grandmother is incredibly well done. You said a few times that you felt like you were selfish, or thinking about yourself only. And it seemed like it was a bad thing. But it's not. Dealing with death is a very personal thing and you didn't do anything wrong by thinning about yourself in relation to your loved ones. I just think it's important to tell you that just in case you are feeling negatively about the way you felt at that point. This video is great.
thank you for saying this. i think that humans are meant to help themselves first, to take care of themselves first (secondly others, of course). and people like to see their loved ones happy, healthy, and independent. i find this is especially true with grandparents, who are just happy to hear from you and see you smiling. pad, it was your "selfishness" that caused that embroidery to come into being. it was probably the catalyst for some of her final carefree moments. because of it you own a _priceless treasure_ of an heirloom, made from her own hand. i can't help but see any of that as anything except a beautiful, lucky thing to be cherished. cheers, and all the best.
The Caretaker also made some of the first ever vaporwave-esque music as V/VM. I recall listening to John Peel in the early 2000's as a young lad and hearing his tilted edit of Chris DeBurgh's Lady In Red, which blew my mind at the time as I'd never heard anything like it before. Took about another 7 or 8 years for the rest of the world to catch on to these concepts, with OPN later remixing the same track under the "Chuck Person" name. I've always wondered if he got the idea directly from V/VM aka The Caretaker.
Perhaps. Remember that plunderphonics predates both of them through John Oswald. Also, the V/vm stuff was more about confronting a certain music scene out of fondness for another one (Kirby was not a fan at all with what was coming out in the 1990s compared to the 1980s). Daniel Lopatin was not as confrontational. And maybe that was ultimately sparked the scene. And finally: post hoc, ergo propter hoc. Personally, I think of JLK as an important parallel to the vapour scene as there are a lot of intersections (yes, botched the metaphor but bare with me =] ). And this is why I think what has been happening is bigger than one individual or even a few. Just my thought … for now =]
I got his Lady in Red remix (called "The Lady In Red (Is Dancing With Meat)") on vinyl as a 7" a little while ago. I got the exact same vapor-vibes from it. Although the B-side was a completely busted-up cover of Lionel Richie's "All Night Long" (named "Butcher All Night") which sounded like a Merzbow demotape. Really goes to show the two sides of Kirby's music: Part recognizable and part drenched in static.
@@madspeterrommedahl4679 "The Lady In Red (Is Dancing With Meat)" is my personal "Scariest song ever". I always wondered how he managed to de-harmonize it that way.. I think it goes way beyond any vaporwave I've heard.
34:00 I think the last cover of "everywhere" is actually a painting surface that was never painted on. the the adhesive bands(the color of which implying easily removable adhesive) form a rectangle limiting the painting to a specific area, it's a common practice when you paint but don't want to fill the entire page. It's like the image has decayed so much all you can do is refer to it incompleteness.
More than that, all the previous covers were the paintings encompassing the whole frame. The last cover is you looking at the canvass from the bigger picture
May the ballroom remain eternal indeed. (Not gonna lie, Stage sixes ended almost brought me to the point of tears. I'm not ashamed to admit that, and I think it's a wonderful end after the ride you've been taken on.)
@@leomartin7409 It's like they always say, all good things must come to an end, that final sample from Stage 6 is like a goodbye, for us being to hear the 6 hours of our life. The Beginning was happy, Stage 1 and 2 was all joyful with some slight dementia in-between, Stages 3-4 was good, Stage 3 was good, Stage 4 was a jumbled mess, And Stages 5-6 are sad, Stage 5 was still the same as Stage 4, in music. *Stage 6 however, was really sad, it's like The Caretaker died of dementia.*
Well, that's it guys. This is it. No one can ever make another EATEOT video. This is the ultimate exploration of this masterpiece. Besides the brilliant video itself, actually talking to Leland makes this something you can't get anywhere else. This is your magnum opus Pad.
I listenened to this when i was going through a really bad time. My depression was taking over at a fast pace and gave it a listen during Winter, when my mental health always goes down to suicidal levels of bad. Even worse is i was on my 3rd day of not eating anything and listened to this during the night time which made things much worse. When i finished it, it made me realize i shouldn't take life for granted. I started trying to better myself and now im doing okay. I might listen to the album again some day but it really left a huge impact on me.
Never have I related to a comment so personally. It kinda, slapped me awake in a way. I was in a stupor to cowardly to end my life, to sad to fix it. I was sick, stuck on my bed and then in my recommends I see that everywere at the end of time album. I heard it was really good, so I bit the bullet and watched it while reading. it was an emotional ride to say the least and I am very thankful I listened to it
I finally got around to getting off my back with my depression and got medicated last month. I never thought i could feel... normal. Just... level, ya know? It feels so weird to not be depressed all the time, and part of me wants that back. "Depression is like a wet blanket. Its cold and heavy, but you keep it on. Why? Because you know that it will warm up eventually, and taking it off will take effort and leave you cold and uncovered, even if only for a little while. So you deal with the discomfort just so that you dont have to deal with a new kind of discomfort".
I applaud The Caretaker for convincing thousands of people that noise music is good actually. Including me. I don't know how, but Stage 5 just reeled me in somehow. May the ballroom remain eternal.
I weirdly kind of enjoyed having parts of stages 4 and 5 playing in the background at work? They're most often said to be the scariest from what I've seen, but stage 6 was the hardest for me.
I absolutely love how you managed to turn every album cover into an animation. It makes everything look so real and I think it’s amazing. I especially love how you did Stage 3’s cover, and made it look… alive… like the plant it’s supposed to be. Amazing job
When I listen to this album, I feel like I'm literally in the 20s. I'm young, but I feel like I miss days that never happened. I feel like I'm supposed to remember something I don't. It's amazing what music can do to the mind. May the ballroom remain eternal for all.
I feel the turning point in this is Sublime Beyond Loss...the seedy vibe of it is so unsettling and you feel like the character is drinking themselves into oblivion to temporarily ease the pain of loss of their faculties. Either way, cool video! EDIT: Also I feel that Hag is the pot from Stage 2 but it's exploded like you said and is going everywhere.
First off: May the ballroom remain eternal. C'est fini. Secondly: Pad, this was one of the best videos I've ever seen that's come out of your channel. This video not only introduces someone to the world of The Caretaker, but it also makes people aware that Kirby has done so much more than EATEOT. I gotta hand it to you, Pad - this is a video that just needs to be experienced with others. Great job, man.
@@PadChennington It fits the shoes, thematically. The Overlook Hotel, being an entity encapsulated by one fragment of time, on a more ontological sense. Though even physically possessing itself as an era frozen in time, that being the Gold Room and the various peoples of the hotel.
he was actually comissioned to make music for "Room 237", a documentary about The Shining. leyland is such a big fan of the shining, so he must have been very excited back then
The album being discussed in this video is downright terrifying for anyone, but especially me. I'm 21, and have always had heavy struggles with my memory, even at a young age. To see what it could be like if I do end up with dementia or Alzheimer's brings me such anxiety and genuine terror for the future. I can only hope to live a life well enough to grieve fully as it fades.
Me too and I'm 34 now and it's gotten worse. Not only that but my grandma passed away from dementia a month ago and in 2 days I have to put down my dog who also has dementia and cannot do anything anymore. This is the absolute worst way to go and it's horrible and I hope I don't end up getting it but I just decided today that if I do I will start making videos as soon as I'm diagnosed about my memories and the disease as it progresses until I physically can't anymore and die
EATEOT has always made me incredibly upset and depressed. but this video added a lot of context, comfort, and humanity to this album. the album is now a lot less scary to face and think about. thank you for this analysis. may the ballroom forever be eternal
Pad, I may not have watched your content before and such, but I've watched through the entire 2 hours, 21 minutes and 15 seconds of it. YOU DID SUCH AN AMAZING JOB, DUDE. I MEAN IT. I have never seen this entire moniker be so well-detailed and explained, all the way to the ART ITSELF. I am also legitimately AMAZED at the fact that some of the most well-known parts in EATEOT haven't been mentioned at all, if nearly *at most.* And to that, I want to say a HUGE thank you, dude. I mean it. Seeing the whole sample finding process be finally properly explained was also just- Man, I don't even have words for this. In my time in the Caretaker community, I've also made friends with a few of the sample finders, and seeing them be mentioned here for their sheer hard work, be it directly or indirectly, just makes me so proud of them. All this time you have dedicated to this video was entirely worth it. (ps: i may or may not have been one of the inspirations of "Nowhere At A Different Millennium", and seeing it also be mentioned really made a good chunk of my day) (pps: Awwwwh, that ending! My sincerest condolences to your grandmother. May she rest in peace, and may she rest happily.) May the ballroom remain eternal.
bit-ghost's reaction to the vinyl literally gave me chills, not only because of the unbelievably beautiful music but because of the sheer joy and excitement of discovery. it's unbelievable that a single record could have become this important to so many people, it's fucking amazing.
people are alive until they are forgotten, and you've really helped your grandmother live forever in some way through this. love this album/the history but your storytelling was absolutely the highlight. went through a very similar time with my grandfather and I'm truly feeling for you
May the ballroom remain eternal I think this is, hands down, one of the most important electronic works of the 2010’s if not the 21st century. This shows me that music has many different ways to be listened to and experienced. The grand depth of everything in this 6 1/2 hour long work is overwhelming and the details can be learned about for years. It was important for me in my own personal experience because of what one artist could do with this and creating something original like this.
What are your thoughts on Everywhere at the End of Time? Any other albums or projects you’d recommend for others looking for a similar experience or sound? Let me know in the comments!
I would recommend How To Dissappear Completely if you haven't already. It's similar to EATEOT but a different premise. A Bucket Of Jake did a good video on it
I think it would be great as an art installation, but it's the kind of product that works better on paper and concept than reality. Though enjoying it is definitely not the point, I agree that it's profoundly overrated, and somewhat pretentious. I'd recommend Stalaggh's "Gulaggh" for a more intense and disturbing experience.
My grandmother recently got cancer, seeing her hooked up to machines made me want to cry when I saw her, I don't know how to put this into words but it was depressing to see, and also comforting. The thought of her getting better and thriving kept me from bursting into tears once I saw her, even though I knew it was unlikely. There were so many things I could've payed attention to while I was with her but I never did, I regret it so much. She's always let us take old toys from her basement to our house, and I got many toys from her house, most importantly, Barbies that I played with alone, a lamb plushie that helped me fall asleep when it was dark, and a Christmas dress that no longer fits me. These objects are so important to me and I can't imagine losing them in the middle of the night or just while I'm out of the house, at school, with my mom, anything. I don't want to lose these items, I don't wanna lose the memories of her. I want to cry but I can't, I want to scream but I can't, all I can do is sit and reminisce about her, the stories she told, the times we visited her, the things she gave us, anything. I cling onto those memories like my life depends on it, I want to be happy with her but I feel this constant dread around her and it won't go away, because I know she's going to succumb to death someday, and she won't be with me, but that's ok. It's ok that I'm gonna lose her one day, it's ok that my kids might never meet her, it's ok that I won't have her around me anymore because I'll have those objects in some way, mental or physical. I'll miss her but I'll know that she loved me, and I loved her, I'll know that she tried her best to make me and my siblings happy. I'll feel sad for a little bit but I'll be able to move on, along with everyone else. She'll be with me for as long as I'm alive, as long as I can remember. I don't want to see her die but it will happen, and it's something I need to accept. Writing this helped me so much with dealing with the sadness of possible loss, I feel the need to thank someone for allowing me to do this, but I'm not sure who, but just thank you. Thank you for helping me, and thank you for letting me talk about my worries. Love you, grandma. Have a nice day, reader.
i hope you will be alright and that you can get over that loss without any pain , you can do this i believe in you , no matter how much time it will take , all my condolences towards you and your family , 💗
I understand all too well... thought I was going to lose my gram last year. She raised me and I'm in my 30s but I'm not ready for that. I suppose we never are though... Gram survived uterine cancer despite the hardships of the hysterectomy and difficulty cancer treatments afterwards but last year she had a bone infection in her spine. She came home rather quickly after surgery, she was able to get up and get to the bathroom on her own and everything! I was trained to give her her antibiotics through her PIC line at home and a nurse and occupational therapist were going to come weekly... but the second Sunday she was home, she couldn't stand up. She had this pain in her hip that was unbearable and she ended up in a rehab for months. She didn't have any new hip issues, the pain she already dealt with had just gotten unbearable while her body healed from surgery. But while she was in rehab there were various issues... Random UTIs, cognitive reactions to certain antibiotics and pain medication, depression, anxiety, and one night she woke up from a dream convinced she was late for a wedding and tried to stand from her bed only to have a bad fall afterwards. She told me about the dream a week later, it was crazy all over the place, but she was on a lot of medication and seeing things so I can't tell how much she really dreamed. She'd have these lucid moments where she knew how she sounded and clearly thought she was developing dementia. I kept reminder her we all get loopy on those kinds of meds but I also knew that some elderly people develop dementia in reaction to some antibiotics. She didn't need to know that though, it would've just made it all so much harder. Thankfully she recovered, though she's not as steady on her feet as she used to be and she's more forgetful. She's not out of touch with reality at all for now. She's very scared that it's happening and all I can do is tell her how forgetful I've always been and no one remembers everything after 7 1/2 decades of life - that's a lot of life to remember! It's hard to know if she's more forgetful from the stress or if she's in those beginning stages but for now I still have her lucid and here. I'm not ready for that to change, but I have to focus on what we have now and spend time with her. She likes to watch me play video games, it's like more interactive TV for her and she loves farming sims as much as I do. I try to spend as much time with her as I can, though I'm dealing with my own health issues (sleep apnea, in the process of getting a CPAP so I can actually get restful sleep) that have made that more difficult lately. Hopefully I'll be better soon so I can watch her soap opera, share a smoke on the back porch, and play games for her regularly again. It's so scary though. In spite of all our family struggles and generational trauma, she's the closest thing to a mother I have. Now I feel like thanking you. It does help to put it out into the world, to stop hanging onto it and share it with others even for just a little bit. So thank you, internet stranger. Sending my love💕
I would usually say “I hope things get better” but I’m not sure what to say. I just hope you can heal with time, it sounds like an incredibly rough situation. have a nice day, that’s all I can think to say.
My grandma died when I was turning six due to cancer. Obviously, me, a dumb six year old, was not as sad about it as I am now. Especially her cookie recipe, and everything she did. Hope I'll see her in the afterlife with those cookies. I had been in the hospital the day she died. I had been to her funeral. I saw the coffin. I should've stayed home but my parents were fine with it.
may the ballroom remain eternal And Pad! This is the kind of dedicated and sincere work which elevate it’s creator to a new level. So congrats on Level Up my boy! I wish you the best!
Not gonna lie with that, i really wanted someone to really going deep with this stuff. Like, not only with EATEOT, But more like the caretaker, and also other projects made by kirby and this video...you did a perfect job. Im so thankful for the work you put into this video, and you totally light up my day. Wish you all my support and positivity in the future! (little note down here for others: Everywhere in the beginning of nowhere is a 9+ hours work, similar to EATEOT. The creator of the project was 14 at the time, and he made the project dedicated to her grandmother. I think it's totally worth to check it out, if you like this stuff. )
Thank you so much LavendarCake! And I feel ya on that, I wanted to create something that explored as many possible avenues of Kirby and his work.. took a long time to make but I'm so happy I took my time with it.. thank you for stopping by, watching, commenting and showin some luv!
I know the album is a living portrait of dementia... It is raw and cruel and beautiful at the same time... However, as you said at first, it hits differently for everyone. My best friend passed away so many years ago... We were still children, and she was suddenly diagnosed with cancer. I was never allowed to see her at the hospital, my mom told me that children were not allowed to visit, so she never took me when she was joining her mother for visiting day. The day she passed away, I was very sick, and I remember seeing things around me like I wasn't there, like I was a person watching a movie from the outside. I remember my mother telling me that my best friend died and yelling at me not to cry, me crying out of rage and sadness, but still numb inside... Many years later, when I was supposed not to mourn anymore, I was told the things my best friend lived during her last days, and it hurts so bad like I knew I had to be there for her... Listening to EATOF brought me to picture her last days before she was diagnosed with cancer, and picture her last days at the hospital... All those emotions brought back to life: anger, frustration, and finally, acceptance... Thank you very much Pad Chennington for making this video and #maytheballroomremaineternal
Without going into details, I relate to this. Adults do not always handle kids and grief/ loss together well. I hope you are doing well and hope you do not carry guilt. Out of your control and not your fault xx
I love the video. Thank you for treating this horrible disease with utmost respect. My grandmother passed away from dementia a few months ago. She’d had it for 5-6 years. This really put it into perspective for me. Appreciate it.
My friend, thank you so much for stopping by! Can't even stress how much I've learned from you regarding the community, sample hunt, lesser known details about EATEOT, other Kirby works... was an honor working with you bud, keep up the amazing work over at the wiki! :)
Watching this after my grandfather passed away from Alzheimer’s this past June is bringing up lots of feelings and memories. A beautiful deep dive into an incredible piece of work. Thank you
This mega album has really hit me hard. My grandpa is currently going through Dementia, and it's been really hard to deal with. I've been listening to this album everyday while I do computer stuff, and I'll turn it on as ambience to sleep to. I sincerely hope that one day we are capable of curing diseases like Dementia, it's such a horrific and unfair disease. May the ballroom be eternal.
I'll edit this when I have watched it all but just know that I audibly cheered when I saw this. Congratulations on finishing this project! Edit: It took a while (2hrs to be precise) but that was incredible. The analysis, the cameos and the fact that video was just so well paced really just demonstrates your talent in writing!
You should do an essay about the nightmarish noise rock album "you won't get want you want" by daughters. It's my favorite album of all time. It's harsh and effect-ridden guitars, pounding drums, and industrial droning atmospheres serve as the perfect platform for Alexis Marshall's harrowing storytelling, lyrics, and vocal performances as it depicts the story of a man losing his mind as he becomes disillusioned with the manotany of his mundane life and eventually breaks and returns to the scene of something that he once feared
May the ballroom remain eternal. Regardless of how many times this series has been discussed, I remain intrigued on all the opinions and studies that has comes into fruition. My mom recently passed earlier this year and her battle with dementia was one of the hardest experiences I've had to witness. I still struggle to this day to believe she is gone as I miss her dearly. This series personally hits me hard as I cannot go in without tears falling immediately. Not for the fear it can cause or emotions it brings alone, but how closely each stage mirrored my moms life and the constant progress of symptoms until her passing. Every day was another song towards the end. And the haunting beauty of the ending perfectly represents her story coming to an end. You did a phenomenal job of properly representing this series.
When I first listened to this album, it really negatively affected me. I think the thing that was scaring me and fueling the paranoia and depression in me is the fact that my mom is probably going to be like this someday; she may not even remember me at some point in her life. I might just be a total stranger to her, and the thought of that is honestly terrifying. Her choices in life and genetics make her more likely to experience Dementia later in life. But now, after putting it down and then picking it back up after a little while, I’ve come to a realization; just because my mom may forget me someday due to Dementia, that doesn’t mean that I’ll forget. I’ll be able to remind her, and tell her stories of her life and mine. It’s helped me to kind of live my life in the moment, making as memories as i can, so i have as many stories to tell as i can. I don’t know if that makes a lot of sense, but i do hope that my words can comfort someone else who may be experiencing the same feelings that i have. May the ballroom remain eternal.
My grandma passed away very recently and I had stayed with her my whole life. So, I was there to witness ever stage of the dementia setting in. Although I'll never be able to understand the receiving end of what that was like I feel this album did such an amazing job at describing it more me. I was able to put myself in her shoes and see how it went from her taking care of me as a child to me taking care of her and eventually just watching her lying on her bed unable to talk and barely look around anymore. Although there was a sort of relief when she finally went. That through all that pain she was finally able to rest. I definitely feel like the process of going through dementia is more terrifying than death it's a long process of rot and just surviving unable to process what's happening around you and things or people that you see everyday make less and less sense until you just have to sit there and let the world go by without you, so quickly you don't bother to question it while it still remains the most frustrating thing you have to spent the rest of your life with.
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All the friuts, dry fruits, most of the grains [except wheat, gram or cheakpe] , all the lentils (except pigeon food or masoor dal) [ pigeon food means masoor dal not tuwar dal so don't be confused and avoid tuwar dal because it is inflammatory too] and all the vegetables(except green leaves ) and all types of vegetables oil(except mustard oil ) act like poison for a very sensitive pneumonia patient or a covid 19 affected patient(only in some cases because some patients' body act overwhelmingly on covid 19 virus ) because these things are most inflammatory and the main causes to make humans body inflamed . So avoid these things for some days if you get affected with covid 19. Covid 19 may affect you and you can face all types of it's symptoms , but it never be fatal for you if you follow these natural tips for some days after being getting affected. 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You morons cause more deaths than the VIrus, New COVID variant, R.1, now circulating in Georgia Mutation is one mechanism of life... as long something alive is constantly duplicating in huge numbers, then starts to mutate to something else. as long you give space to the virus, it will mutate with or without vaccines. @👁 👁 👃 This series of recordings is one of the most profound experiences of my life. I'm 60 and it has managed to tease out stuff I didn't know was there. Many many tears flowed but it was worth it. I didn't listen to the whole thing, and I don't think I'll ever have the time to, but I have skipped through to some parts and I'm in tears. My Grandma never had dementia, just the usual forgetfulness that comes with age. She had lived through the second World War, beaten breast cancer and cared for many kids, grandkids and great grand kids in her lifetime I can't imagine how awful it must be, knowing somewhere in the lifeless body of a late stage dementia patient is someone that you knew. Your mother. Your Grandmother etc. I'm thankful that my grandma was spared from something like that, and I can't put into words the level of sympathy I feel for those who suffer/know someone that is suffering through dementia. @greedy first algorithm last #73 Years here. Discovered this series this year. I fear Algorithm sent me RU-vid Old Folks Needs to Die your wasting Young People's Dreams. The Young Hipsters calls us 'Boomers" which is a Elitist Slur, how many times has some young Tik-Tocker publish some Hate Troll Attack on Old Ass Fools: Boomer, STFU. I am 100 % Certain these are Propaganda to Cause Old Ass People to Die and Free The Internets for Really Kip and Cool People, Beautiful People with Brazilian butt lift surgery overcome the effects of genetics by reshaping the buttocks and surrounding . Haw Haw Haw ""You thought it was the most profound experiences of my life?"" LOL nope, it is Propaganda designed to Kill You, sorry to be blunt. If you think about it, you will see that I am correct. Can you still Think for yourself? Can My Thinking precede your wrongness which will lead you into Death Seeking? Do not fall for Suicidal Secret Mind Tricks. *"JEDI DEATH MIND GAMES"*
Dementia and Alzheimer’s have hit my family hard. This album shook me intensely and, at the same time, brought me a sense of closure; I felt at one with my great grandparents one more time. I don’t know if I could ever listen to the whole album as one again, but I am so very glad I did once.
This honestly might be the best youtube video I’ve seen in a while. I’ve been in love with Kirby’s works ever since last summer and even though I’ve listened to many of his works (including this album) many times, I still find something new to appreciate each time. I dearly hope everyone who listens to EATEOT gives James’ other albums a chance. Rest in Peace to your Nonna May the Ballroom Remain Eternal…
I love the fact that you also gave Kirby’s backstory and especially the story of your grandma. I’m sure even though you were busy, she treasured every last second you spent with her. The quality and consistency in this upload alone is amazing and certainly earned a sub! May the ballroom remain eternal!
Who the hell gives this video a thumbs down??? Amazing documentary on this masterpiece. I look forward to repeated listenings of the album as well as this video. There's so much info to take in.
This is amazing work. I work in a nursing home and have always been both fascinated and shocked by the decline of my patients. Even after 14 years I still wonder what goes through their minds as they banter to themselves, speak incoherent, broken phrases, wander aimlessly with a flat affect on their faces and address people both real and imagined. As fascinating as it is is is truly sad and heartbreaking to see them go through it.
I once helped arrange activities for people with dementia, and was often astonished and moved to see people otherwise ‘lost’ come to life when they heard the music of their youth. I saw a man who had lost the power of spoken language burst into song in front of his tearful wife. I saw the difference cats and dogs would make to the mood in nursing homes, too.
I'm on chapter 6 and all I have to say is you're doing a really good job, going over everything. I've learned things I didn't know also the amount of times you've played my favorite track B2 An Autumnal Equinox made me so happy personally!
may all those who lost their lives to such an awful illness rest easy, and may the loved ones who grieve them find peace as well. this album is lifechanging and it makes me smile to know how much awareness has been spread because of its influence. it's so important to cherish your loved ones, but especially elders. may the ballroom remain eternal. c'est fini.
Pad this vid has absolutely incredible, I can’t wrap my head around how much time and effort you put into this, I was hooked throughout the whole thing, and may the ballroom remain forever eternal
I discovered this album by accident on RU-vid not too long ago. I think when part 6 came out. I'm going through marital issues right now and this piece of art found me again... May the ballroom remind eternal Great job 👍
On a lighter note, those stich art things are surprisingly fun. Like 1000 piece jigsaws or paint by numbers. Also thanks for making this, it's amazing someone put all this into music, which is not easy. Caretaker is very talented, hope he is still making stuff. Definitely an artist to keep an eye on
There's a reason why I watch your channel, Pad and it's effort above all else. Note that all my project are based around these musical gems you've introduced me to and I use as inspiration. Thank you for your contribution to my writing, my musical culture and overall to my writing! Never cut your diverse musical palettes out of your life. Keep on searching, listening, sharing and inspiring. Much love
This one video was hyped up in the eateot community for quite a while. Now 6 months later i look back on it. This one album related to me so much. I had a late grandfather who had Alzheimer's for 14 or so years before passing away in May last year. This one album haunted me for a while. But now i use it for sleeping music sometimes. I have made many friends from this project alone, and have even managed to make a few projects of my own. I even managed to help find a melody to a sample (Contemplation of wagroar) which was really a highlight in this year so far. Thank you for this video dude. I love this project with all my heart and soul and this really made me reflect on all thats happened to me.
You should talk about that new genre called Liminal Wave sometimes in the future, greatly influenced by that majestic and profound release of Kirby... But by far, my most favorite take on EATEOT might be the nightcore bass boosted remix of the release, that really adds something and gives this impression of "Speedrunning memory loss to the point you actually forget you forgot".
I’m really glad you talked about NATMOS, its a work I like just as much, possibly more than EATEOT, especially its equivalent to Place In the World Fades Away: The Rest is Silence.
Stage one, for me personally, is about an old person looking back at the old days and remembering their youth. 'Burning memory', and other songs, having altered versions of themselves throughout the album represent the main character forgetting memories and grasping onto whatever piece of the memory they can find. *After all, how can you forget when you don't have any memories to forget?*
Finally got the chance to watch. This was so well done and a great personal dive into the meaning of the album. I love the personal stories involved in the video and thanks for sharing.
This has been sitting in my watch later for months now, and as I've moved on from this peice I have forgotten what I left. I'm glad I happened to find it yet again, May the ballroom remain eternal.
I have no words to describe how beautifully put this video is. From the topics, the wide range of featured guests, and the amazing editing. This is by far one of the best videos you have put out there, Pad! And props to everyone who was involved with this magnum opus! Kirby will forever go down in one of the most memorable and impactful independent musicians in the last decade or so, and I'm really glad the man is finally getting the recognition he deserves. No matter what musicial alias he goes by, all of his work has been impactful to me and many others too.
Pad, I just finished watching this absolute behemoth of a video, and I can safely say that this is video truly is perfect and your hard work has paid off exponentially. The writing, the editing and the audio are all just perfect. I can definitely see that you put the same amount of passion in this video as Kirby did with his music. One more thing, may the ballroom remain eternal.
OK then. I don't think this is going to turn into a novella. But you've known me for long enough to know that it's going to be quite substantive. I actually first became aware of Leyland Kirby when he started to put music out under his own name. I think it was because, at the time, I was already familiar with various experimental and ambient artists. I also have a soft spot for ambitious works. When you have an album that totals four hours in length, you begin to take notice. What I didn't realise until a few years later was how eerily timed it was. I know you touched only briefly on the music released under Kirby's own name but I find it to be mostly on the melancholic side with some divergences here and there (Intrigue & Stuff is kind of a darker and more original take of V/vm; there are some jubilant moments in Sadly...). 2009 going into the 2010s would be a very trying period in my life personally. I had personally uprooted myself from where I had spent most of my life to a place where I had little to no roots. Before leaving, I actually broke an engagement, which itself partly became about as I was dealing with the confusions and emotions arising from my first serious relationship. The first few years living in Massachusetts were rough: trying to find stable employment, trying to deal with inconsistent finances (and yes I am to blame for this), trying to build a new social network and having it mostly blow up in my face, .... Music making, which was part solace and part challenge, became daunting as I sensed a changing landscape that would have marginalised me even more than I already was. (I was also drawn more into filmmaking and thus my focus shifted. But still.). What kind of seemingly sealed the music-making hiatus was listening to JLK's We drink to forget the coming storm. It was a three-hour, 40 track digital album made to celebrate his 40th birthday (and it's not lost on me that I'm less than a year crossing that threshold myself). The arrangement was very simple: piano, strings and choir (even then, it's clear to me these were layered parts to where the piano and the others are other layers depending on key and velocity). The mood also leaned on the melancholic. However, there were some cuts that sounded like, to me, perfect reflections of who I was at the time. 10 and 31. When I heard it, I thought to myself: "What's the point of me expressing myself musically when it was already done for me?" On a slight side note, I actually told JLK about this - as I"ve been one of his many supporters and well-wishers - and he actually reassured me that I still had a voice. At the time, I honestly didn't think much of it. Looking back on it, I'm really glad he told me this. So this went on for a while. Then in 2017, after getting disillusioned with filmmaking and with other things in my life, I also began a slow reawakening. This started with a trip out to Pittsfield, Vermont. Then it was hearing Steve Roach's Quiet Music for the first time, which provided an aural recreation of what I felt when I was up there for about twenty-four hours. And a few months later, JLK would drop We, so tired of all the darkness in our lives, and it provided even more "reflections" of my state of mind, specifically in the tracks "Collected light", "Solid mentality" and "Tinseltown". But that's when I began my dive in this thing called vaporwave. All of these things helped me to remember why I wanted to make music in the first place: why studied it in college, why I chose to keep my ears open for unusual and interesting sounds, why I even ended relationships. Calling the first album as キラヨシ Reincarnated Resurrection described exactly what it was for me personally. I returned and I returned in a new form. I brought to light several ideas that have existed in my personal archive. But it was also in the hopes of moving forward in new realms. And it even demonstrated that even if JLK did indeed "got me musically", he is not me and I am not him. I rediscovered my own voice as well as the confidence in having my own voice. And what timing that a year after I released it out to the world, 100% Electronicon 1 occurred, which is easily one of the best days of my life. To make this absolutely clear, I am *not* saying JLK personally or directly discouraged me from making music. On the contrary, he is very supportive and has a very generous spirit. In the end, the decision to stop making music was my own, just like returning to it was my own. So what does this have to do with Everywhere at the end of time? Well ... even I had access to the parts as they were released (again, due to providing some financial support for his works), I waited until it was all released as I suspected that this was most likely the way it was ultimately meant to be experienced. So I carve out some time during the weekend and engaged in the six-and-a-half hours. And ... yeah, it was definitely an overwhelming and intense experience. In my mind, the first three stages feel like a peaceful and cool autumn day. And then comes Stage 4 and everything becomes upended. But interestingly enough, when I got to Stage 6, I realised there was perhaps a deeper significance at play here. At this point, you are hearing a formless purity of sound. While some could take it as some void or nothingness, I think it's a return to where all things originate. Therefore, death is not so much the loss or disintegration, but rather a return to a point of origin. It's perhaps a pure communion with God. How apropos you have a cantata taken from Bach's St. Luke's Passion at the end. If I were summarise all of this, it's that making art is about reflection. Making the best art is about reflecting truth and beauty, especially in a world that seems to revel in the opposite. We only have so much time in this World. Make it count, even if it fades to dust. Or as Orson Welles observed: "A fact of life: we're going to die. "Be of good heart," cry the dead artists out of the living past. "Our songs will all be silenced, but what of it? Go on singing."" Finally: my grandmother died last November. She was 93 and lived about as full of a life as she could. She was able to see on a number of occasions her great-grandchildren. It wasn't a shock to me given the age as well as her having some close calls beforehand. But a couple of years prior, one Thanksgiving, I gave her a call and spoke with her for about twenty minutes. It was in large part an update on my life thus far. But it was also when I had finished Reincarnated Resurrection and thus I could tell her I returned to music-making. She told me that she always knew that was what I wanted to do. And she made it clear that I should pursue the things that make me happy and fulfilled. I did thank her for this blessing. This was all I needed. Raise a glass for you. Enjoy yourself. May the ballroom be eternal.
