I CANT tell where I’m at. I can be good for like 7-8 hours and then all of the sudden I have like a flash of DPDR even if it’s only a moment & then everything is downhill. I’m looking forward to the day I feel who I am again 😄
I’m in between 3 and 4 I think. Yesterday I noticed I was feeling good for hours, as soon as I noticed, a wave of fear washed over me and lasted for hours. Till I went to bed.
I truly thank you for these videos. I'm just 15 and experiencing existential crisis. I used to search for answers on the internet and they just caused me more existential crisis. I was (and now too, I'm still recovering) constantly wondering why about everything from the big bang to the future (even the aliens 👽 - i was going crazy 🤪). I didn't feel like myself, I didn't feel human and even the thought of having an existential crisis gave me more anxiety because it sounded so bad. I've recently started embracing this new kind of anxiety and searching for positive andvice and videos on how to stop it till I found you. knowing that other people have had similar experiences and recovered brought me joy and hope. Now when such weird or scary thoughts about death and all come to my mind I just stop and remind myself that this is a thing that can happen to people and not whatever I think or read on the internet is real.
Hi! I truly understand you. I feel like your experience is very similar to mine. Even we have a very similar age (i'm 17). It's cool to know that you are embracing this experience. We are getting better step by step, one day at once.😊
I had my first experience with DR when I was 13. I remember it so well, i was sitting in my room and thinking existential thoughts when suddenly this wave of anxiety and DR feeling that I've never felt before washed over me. I was so afraid and I just couldn't let it go, time passed and I thought about it more and more often and it got worse and worse until one day it just knocked me over. constant anxiety, fear and thoughts. My parents eventually took me to a doctor but this was 18 years ago in Sweden so no doctor knew what was happening to me, they said that they didn't find anything wrong with me. This period in my life is the most traumatic that I have ever faced. I went through it all alone with no one to guide me and it was so painful. But... I recovered, eventually my mind just couldn't take it anymore, I was so tired and exhausted so it was like one day I was just fed up and didn't care, I'm just gonna go out and do what I want to do and this DR feeling can be there if it wants to, I don't care. And then like magic it went away. Until now, 17 years later (That's why I'm here). One day I remembered that awful period, I thought about it and like possessed by a demon the feeling was back , the fear and anxiety which over time got worse and worse until it knocked me over again. like history repeated itself, but this time there is internet and I learned that there is a name for this derealization, and there are a lot of other people who suffer from the same thing. My anxiety this time roots itself in that it remembers me of that period in my life and I am once again terrified of this DR feeling. though this time I know that I've been through it before and i got out. I believe that I am in stage two now, I'm passed the real hard suffering, I've just reached in to my past to find these memories which I had pushed away because of fear, I'm no longer fighting when facing these feeling and anxiety, I accept them and I allow myself to sit with my feelings and anxiety, sometimes it overwhelmes me but I'm not avoiding them so it feels like I'm once again on the right path, just bought a meditation book after watching one of your meditation video, I felt that it was something that made me really come to peace and relax
I hope you receive so many blessings in your life. You have been helping me so much in my recovery. When I’m having a very rough moment I play your videos for hope. Thank you❤️
I'm so glad I'm not alone on this journey. I was feeling like nobody understood what I am feeling. I'm 5 months in on this thing and I'm starting to have a little more clarity now. Some days are pretty good for a few hours. I'm learning to sit with the uncomfortable feeling. Acceptance... In the beginning I would just cry and go to the ER thinking I was dying. I suffer from Health anxiety. I stopped googling symptoms and fearing my health anxiety about 2 and a half months ago. I do PMR and 4,7,8, breathing everyday. I also use a massage gun daily as well. Eating better and exercising have helped me too. I'm down 35 pounds in 5 months. Good luck to all my fellow sufferers. Keep your heads up and face the fear. Thank you for this video. There's just not enough information on this subject out there. You're the best on RU-vid. 👍
Quick update a year later. I feel like a human being again!! I exercise (treadmill or weights) every other day, eat healthy, go to therapy, take a light dose of meds, and do my breathing exercises every morning. Life changing stuff. Just stop the obsessive behaviors and move forward. Don't let dissociation win. You got this folks! Hang in there. Take care❤
I’m definitely around 4, I have days where I still have DPDR but it doesn’t really bother me, I can still do what I gotta do, without it affecting me then the next morning I wake up and i’ll have such a bad brain fog and dissociation is much worse and it’s like if it’s a whole new feeling then I start going into forums and youtube to find out what wrong with me again 😂 but I haven’t had a panic attack since July so i’m definitely stronger mentally, I’ve learned how to keep myself under control without my mind telling me i’m in danger. I know when I drink tons of water, I feel better, also sleep is definitely important. I’m trying to eat better, sometimes it’s hard. I definitely lost a lot of weight, I used to weigh 377 lbs, i’m currently 330 lbs. Lost all of that weight since February of this year. It’s a crazy journey but I know will eventually get through it.
Congratulations! Have you tried a weighted blanket for sleep? I find when I use it I feel safe and grounded upon waking up. I think buying one will be amazing for you!
@@AT-wp8ri Definitely better, I have a full time job that I’m able to keep. Now I’m not fully recovered but definitely much better than before. The times I feel weird are when I’m not getting enough sleep or if I’m over loading my body with work. I just take it slow day by day, I wake up every morning without paying attention to how I feel. And I try to stray away from stressful situations.
I really love your videos. I am 16yo and you make me feel a little peace about my existential crisis. Currently I think I am in stage 2 so i'm trying to do things that are good for my mental and physical health, like go to therapy and doing exercise. I begun to feel a little bit better but I have moments where I feel bad or overwhelmed by my feelings or thoughts. But I think i'm getting better step by step. Thank you for all your videos and help, Robin❤ Btw: Sorry for my english hahah
@@christianc397 Thank you for your words. Yes, the support of people and people that is going thorough this is very important and validating. I read the other comment that you published and i'm happy that you are at stage 3. We are moving forward😊❤
Thank you! I've always felt like I am a different being than everybody else, that my weird personality is too weird at the core and I can't help this, but now I start to see it another way and hope for accepting myself and resolving my mental complications. Thank you, truly, you give me hope and understanding of what is going on.
I am fully recovered from existential anxiety,dpdr . Just don't lose hope. You will be totally fine. You will Live your life happily. I was also thinking like that I will never come out of this . But trust me you will become better version of yourself after coming out of this. Your recovery will be fast if you keep patience and take right steps. There is RU-vidr named "shaan kassam" He also guides very well. His Guidance helped me a lot. Again I am telling you will totally become normal just take anyones Guidance from RU-vid for taking right steps. I recommend shaan kassam.
Thank you so much for your videos. I'm finally getting my confidence back and that feels amazing. I didn't even know what DPDR was before your videos and I felt really relieved to be able to just understand my disorientaton and most importantly that I wasn't alone in the experience.
Ethan! That’s epic. Congrats. I’ve found rest is key. When you can cultivate safety in your body or even the attempt for safety things start getting better and better. Cheers!
You’re amazing! Thankyou for sharing this and helping so many of us. Having to go through something like this without guidance would be 10000x worse so I’m so grateful for you💜🙈
Robin! your videos always make me feel so good & confident. i think i’m on stage 2. super excited to keep going with everything i’ve learned from you. can’t wait to evolve and grow as a personal alongside anxiety. ❤
The only way u will get rid of the fear of your symptoms is when your busy doing your recovery and have a long term foundation of hope that this active stratergy is going to wrk and u also know your on the right track!! Hope is essencial
I want to share my experience. I have had derealization for 8 years.still have. During these years I almost didn't think about it, I lived my life as if it is not there. I have been working as a tour guide, been so successful in my job, gave information about history and the city where I live, answered the questions that the tourists asked me, had official guests from different countries, I made many friends, I had fun, I got IELTS degree, hatha yoga certificate, fell in love, married, I spent my pregnancy so calmly and I enjoyed it, then I gave a birth. Taking care of my baby. And during these years I have known that something is still wrong with me. My vision, not feeling right not feeling connected . IT IS STILL THERE. Why? Can anyone answer my question?
After meditating, I feel almost normal for 1-3 hours. But then I am very attached to the good feeling. Would you still recommend meditating? I am stage 2-3.
Hey nice video, I had same problems, but in India someone suggested me a unique meditation and yoga techniques 🧘♂️ after following him..i believe that I am coming out. The cause was: witchcraft practices done by a lady gang in Estonia 🇪🇪 (Country of witches).
hi robin❤️ can i just tell you, just by watching two of your videos today i finally have been able to relax a bit. i’ve been suffering for about 3 months now. when i first started experiencing dpdr it wasn’t that extreme compared to now. but at the time i thought it was extreme. it eventually started getting really bad and i could barley walk one step. i eventually started pushing myself now matter how scared i was and i started to get better. i felt a bit more connected and a lot less anxious. all of a sudden i started feeling worse again. i’m not sure if it’s worse than before though. maybe i just can’t remember? either way i feel more scared now and all that extreme anxiety is coming back. but i’m just pushing myself to get out any chance i can, exercising, eating healthy, and distracting myself. i feel like i have moments of more clarity but i’m always afraid of it getting worse again. i’m not sure what stage i’m at but i’m hoping it gets easier from here on out!
i forgot to mention that i have also been to multiple therapists and im on medication for my anxiety. i’m not sure wether it’s a good or bad thing that i’m on medication. i’m only 17 dealing with this :( i also get so scared that i throw up , almost every day. i hope i am in the right track
@@lacimartin467 I was in your same position, at the beginning every morning I kept vomiting because of the mental confusion but now I'm fine, keep going, I know it's hell and freaking confusing but it's all normal, you just need time. you are on the right track! I'm on medication as well but after 6 months now I'm lowering the dose, which was already low. you can do it, you are going to be fine, I promise you :)
@@lacimartin467 Now I'm in the last stage of setbacks.. to me all started last February, first 3 months were hell, end of April I decided to take meds and from July I'm back to work, I also went on holidays with my boyfriend that month, now I'm going out with friends almost everyday and I'm not afraid of dpdr anymore.. to get to this stage it took 10 months for me, but as Robin said everyone is different! it can end sooner.
@@micol5725 i can not thank you enough for sharing your story. i am so proud of how far you’ve come. i will soon be going on 4 months and it’s still hell. but even though im terrified 24/7 im still getting out whenever i get the chance. im driving and everything even though i literally don’t feel like im here at all. how did you know what normal felt like? i can not wait until i am no longer afraid of dpdr.
Hi Sundjer, I understand this comment completely, but maybe the better question to ask yourself is: what else am I going to do? Fear is in the body as you say, so by taking a distance and focusing on working WITH the body by attempting to rest in whatever way is possible for you, in stead of fighting against it, you slowly by slowly gain back control. Good luck to you
@@robinschindelka2117 Excuse me for one more question, have you ever had so much confusion in your head that you didn't know what you want or how you want it, that anxiety pressed you down so much?
Are negative thoughts a part of this condition? Like I'm worthless, lazy, bad etc. I've had this for 7 years and just don't know if it's only due to my past experiences or you guys also have these? They are so exhausting..
Knowing what the trauma is is not really essential for trauma recovery since trauma is healed with the body. But ofcourse it helps to know. I suggest talking to a trauma therapist. They will ask you the right questions in order to know. Getting diagnosed is also very helpful. In my case , I was diagnosed with autism at 19 so that clarified alot of my trauma (masking, not getting the right help, not knowing).@@ADORABEL25
@@AMH707 no not at all. a panic attack can trigger it. it’s like the last straw that breaks the camels back. there must already be a history of stress before it. the panic attack is just the tip of the iceberg.
