Meth psychosis is no joke. My best friend and roommate was on a 5 day binge one time, hadn't eaten or slept and had recently went through a rough break up with his girlfriend so he wasn't in the best state of mind to begin with. Suddenly he looked at me and said "who are you?" Thinking he was joking and not knowing quite how to answer the question I just smiled and made some sarcastic response but then I noticed he was holding a large knife behind him. He told me I had better leave now so I said no problem and quickly left the house and did not return for several days, and called to make sure he had gotten some sleep first. It was extremely scary but I realize it was the drug, not him.
This is so real and so dangerous. I didn't know until it was too late. Meth psychosis drove my little brother to suicide in April 2020. He was a father, a son , brother, uncle, friend. He had the most beautiful heart. Rest in peace Butch, I love you always!
Did you really edit to delete the part of him using “blue meth”??? Mistymyers, you seem like someone looking for attention. It’s pretty sick to lie about these things.
Hope you were able to keep going, god only knows how many times I’ve failed bc of withdrawals, I’d stay far away from any drugs if there weren’t any withdrawals to deal with, I’m way more functional than I used to be, started going out, talking to and hanging out with my family more, esp my sister, and completely cut off my friends who would do the same shit as me but somehow make me seem like the shitty one for not being able to kick. Life’s gotten better while still being a functioning addict, but if I could just go through the 2 or more weeks of hell I’d never touch another substance again, I’d even stay away from weed, I miss being happy on nothing, even feeling the bad emotions I just miss life before all of this bullshit. I know there’s nothing I can really do but deal with the withdrawals, I can’t replace one addiction for another, but anything legal to help me quit would help so much, thinking about buying some more kratom, I’ve had it before and it def doesn’t make it fine, but I can get through it easier
Thanks for sharing this. I'm close to two years off meth. Was a addict from 16 yo 18. Been in psychosis many many times. If your reading this and are an addict get help for not only you, but your family and friends that love you.
I think people don't realize how messed up psychosis is. I experienced it with a family member once, visited them in the hospital (mental ward) daily. Think of the most normal person in your life, the most reliable, sane person, now imagine that person running around the room while you're visiting, peeking through all windows and telling you that a man/woman/burglar/demon/ghost is walking through the hallways looking for them. While you're talking to them you look them in the eyes and they're quite literally not there, they're looking through you, not registering what you're saying, just pretending to be listening and continuing talking about the entities looking for them or w/e. It's so bizarre, the fact that a human can go from 0 to 9999999999999 in terms of behaviour. It left such a strong impression on me that I don't ever dare touch drugs. Some people are more prone to this. I was so scared that this was something permanent, but thank god, after two weeks the psychosis subsided, had to stay in the mental ward to come down and recover for the next 4 months.
I absolutely despise how relevant this is for me. It's actually shameful that I cant count on my fingers how much I've nose dived into psychosis with no care in the world. Jesus, thank you for this. Haven't had a episode of that in a while, nice to set in my place.
@@DennisAllen-qq7jhThank you for your comment and please stay safe. There isn't a day I'm not thinking about the event of those few months, it left the worst impression imaginable on my life's film so far. It's a literally 20 minutes away if your genetic makeup allows for it!! The cure however, ... not sure how far away that one is once you do dive into it again. You never know the true state of your mental and the ones of the people taking care of you! xx
I got psychosis from meth and I still hear voices a year later. If I would of known that could happen I wouldn't of touched the stuff. I had just started it and snorted a lot one night. Only good thing is they were evil but now they're like people who comment on you and your life, have conversations with you. I prolly couldn't survive if they were evil all the time. Lucked out in a way
I’ve experienced terrifying psychotic symptoms (visual and audio hallucinations) from possibly laced weed. Even though I am sober now, I hear voices at night and occasionally see things too. It’s truly awful.
@@Ethan-ee8rv “It's not real," I told myself for the thousandth time, eyes on the shifting yellow-black mucus shifting in the corner of my room. It simply writhed, the thick hairs on its surface moist and oily. The noise... God, the noise... Like a wet, gentle whisper licking against my ears. “You're not real," it told. I tightened the grip around the switchblade in my hand, softly sobbing, begging for it to stop. It didn't. It never did. Over and over, I heard the same voice; the syllables solid as reality to my mind. Did it matter? I could die now, off myself. But...would it really matter? ‘No,' I thought, eyes closing shut. 'I'm not real. None of this matters, so why should it matter if I live a little longer?' After all, this was all there was. I didn't believe in a beyond, and if there was, *that* was a clear call to hell. I couldn't. My shut eyelids stung from how hard I was closing my eyes, and I let my gaze open to the dim room. It was still there, breathing. Translucent body throbbing in waves. "...There is no meaning to this torment, is there?" I murmured, reciting my outcry to God. But in the end, all I could do was be thankful. At least I was still sane enough to distinguish *it* from reality... ...For now...
@@dniilii Not sure if this was a joke at me or not but if you wrote this, it’s amazing. I’m assuming it’s from a book or copy pasta tho- I love scary stuff.
one time i met a functional methhead at a gas station in the middle of the night with my buddies. he basically told us his whole life story and was mad chill. i hope he is doing well
Knew a guy in highschool who "fried his brain" with meth use, went from being a normal kid to sleeping in his mother's garage due to trying to attack her in what I would assume is a psycosive state. Scared the shit out of me, never touched the shit.
I could be talking out my ass here, but stories like this remind me a lot of mania. I am diagnosed with bipolar and this is probably the closest thing there is to untreated mania (thankfully I’ve never gone untreated) resulting in psychosis. The first days are fun, you have so much energy, you’re able to do tasks you weren’t able to do before. The comedown I imagine is like depression, but when people keep going and going and losing sleep, that’s sadly when things go very wrong.
Yes, i always thought a methamphetamine or even an adderall binge could be very similar to what a manic episode is like. The flood of excessive serotonin and dopamine and all.
Relatable when you mention hearing metal music and old men talking.. I used to spend a dozen hours at a time just writing down the lyrics of the songs I was hearing, putting on fans white noise machines etc.
Notice how you never hear a recovering meth addict saying "ya know what? Actually not too bad, im glad I tried it. It was an overall positive experience"
You know what's crazy is I've been sober for many many years now BUT I can still remember that feeling right before you score especially after having been off of everything for a long enough period of time. It's such a surge of adrenaline and serotonin that you already start feeling better. So weird how our bodies work and I'm glad I made it through to the other side in one piece and a free woman
@@Meggzilla Absolutely and thankyou! I've got so much more to lose now which has kept me straight pretty easily fortunately. I'm just happy I made it out alive, in one piece, and a free woman because that could have very easily not been the case
Meth is a scary drug. A methhead once broke into my backyard and went into my garage to "get out of the cold". It was like 70°f outside, and he left the garage door open.
I never really had any huge crazy moments of psychosis on meth because i wouldnt stay up past 4-5 days. I still was mentally breaking, but not as hellishly as others have experienced. What does boggle my mind is how my poor heart is still beating after the bullshit ive put it through on meth. I wonder all the time how im still alive. But holy hell for as strong as a hold as it can take on someone i wouldnt have escaped on my own, literally was looking to spend my last 20$ bill, the only money to my name at the time on another 2/10ths of a gram to get a couple more lines in my binge, i got nothing back from any of my dealers at the time, and im so glad they didn't reply. As a result i have not touched it, or any other hard drugs since about November 23, 2020!
Congratulations! Coincidentally, I have a similar story, had to be cut off to quit and have been sober from hard drugs since the same day 2020! Life is much better now!
good for you man im sure you feel alot better those drugs are not good when a drug makes you want to be high more often then sober you should stay away from it unless it really helps
My dumbass decided that doing coke/H together for the first time after being awake on meth for 2 days was a good idea. I thought "I've done all these before but this is just a different ROA". Pretty sure my heart skipped a few beats that night. I thought nothing could be more fiendish than snorting coke but I was so wrong. I had to do more every 30 mins until it was gone. The next day, I had the worst come down of my life and ended up in the hospital with drug-induced psychosis. They gave me Haloperidol and that stuff is much worse than the psychosis it's supposed to treat. All my muscles were cramping up and I couldn't walk. That's the only medication I have ever taken that I didn't research first. Dumped them in the trash after the first dose. Been clean from all that for over 2 years now.
The storytelling is amazing, it lets you create clear mental images of what they hallucinated and to some extent even feel what the person that wrote the report was feeling.
I never liked uppers. I was always a downer person. I couldn't imagine using uppers during opiate withdrawal. I can barely handle too much coffee. I couldn’t imagine being up for days and then that crash.
A life long friend of my mom who she’s known since elementary went through a terrible meth phase starting in their college years. I’ll call her C. C went on a meth binge and didn’t sleep for nearly 5 days in total, and near the end of her binge she went out to the bar with my mom and some other friends. While they were at the bar, a Little Person ((my mom said he was about 3 and a half feet tall, super tiny guy)) walked in and C started to absolutely freak out. She ran to the bathroom and locked herself in for about an hour while scream-sobbing about the “Midget trying to kill her.” She only came out once he finally left the bar completely, and then went home and tried to calm down by smoking more meth. C told my mom that she stayed up all night until the sun came out, and she was sitting in a lawn chair in her backyard watching the sun set come out over a hill behind her property. She started going through psychosis at this point and hallucinated an “Army of Midgets” running down from the hill out of the sunlight and climbing the backyard fence. She clawed herself all over her entire body in a meth fueled 5-day sleepless psychotic breakdown as she watched this army of little people hold her down and stab and cut her. . Since then, she hasn’t done meth again, but she is also eternally scarred by the experience and will hyperventilate and have a full scale panic attack if she sees a Little Person.
Me and a friend were using meth and heroin together every day and we got really close over the course of a few months. I would do yard work around his house because he had severe lower back problems and had limited mobility. One day I had $20 and he asked where i got it. Thinking he was joking i just said "i aquired it". I had actually stole it from someone else but just didn't want to admit that part out loud. He sort of snapped on me and accused me of stealing money from him. Called me a thief, which was true, but I never stole from my friends. I didn't know what to say and was feeling absolutely devastated. I was awake for at least 5 days at this point, and we were both deep in meth psychosis. This sent me over the edge and I sort of lost my mind until i crashed and got some sleep. I woke up still feeling hurt and angry and never went back. I stopped using meth but he continued. Then I heard through friends that he hung himself. I went back to talk to his friends and family. They told me they looked through his phone and saw i was the last person he tried to call, but my phone was broken. I wish I could have been there to answer that call.
After being awake for four days straight, I was was starting to hear voices. It sounded like people talking or watching TV in another room, but there was no one there. That was when I had a moment of clarity. I looked around the squalid motel room where I was staying with a bunch of other tweekers and thought "WTF am I doing here? Why am I hanging out with junkies and scumbags? They're not my friends. The only thing we have in common, is this stupid drug.". I said I was going to the store and I never looked back. I walked for a couple hours until I found myself near a friend's place and I went there. I told him what was going on and he let me crash on the couch. I slept for about 24 hours and woke up to the smell of a BBQ cooking up a bunch of meat. That was the best meal I ever had. He let me stay until I could get back on my feet. Within a month, I had a job and enough money to get into a tiny studio apartment. Things have only gotten better since then. I eventually moved out of state and now have a successful carreer in Hazmat and asbestos abatement. Funny enough, we clean up meth labs on occasion, after the cops raid them. That was about 25 years ago and I've never felt the desire to go back to that life. To anyone struggling with addiction right now, know this: You are not alone and you are stronger than you think. Keep your head up and press on. If you truly want to beat the demon, you will succeed.
This is so accurate that I’m sure for the people who never went thru it might think it’s exaggerated. I can tell you from my own experience this is 10000% how it really is. I went thru the same thing thinking someone came in thru my window. I could hear them on the roof. I saw them in the house. I actually called the police to my house saying someone broke in. Super crazy
I feel like these episodes are actually us going to a different darker astral realm, what you explained it like my alcohol DT’s and I am permanently fucked from mental shit. Psychosis is a nightmare
@@xSinphony Although I havent done meth or any super hard drug, I have noticed that withdrawal symptoms are extremely exacerbated from lack of sleep. Regardless of what drug youre coming off of, not sleeping makes the withdrawls 10x worse.
@@voltic7133very true, coming off of fake roxys, the lack of sleep makes the 2 or so weeks of withdrawal seem like double the time since you would be sleeping for at least a 1/3rd of the time, but without it the days slowly creep by, feeling the exact same as the mornings slowly turn into noon, then afternoon to evening, then laying down at night, only to toss and turn all the way until it creeps back up to morning. The leg pains, fever, sinus problems, yawning, endless sneezing, just all around restless and the depression is insane. You just want this to all be over, coupled with the fact that you feel like such a nuisance for being an addict who can’t quit, you just hate yourself and your body especially since the only one you can blame for this longing pain is you, it’s hell. Withdrawals made me understand why I can’t blame any addict for being in their position. Some are stronger than others, some have been using way more for way longer. I hope I’m smart enough to never touch another drug again, just to never go through that again
I had one experience with shadow people when I stayed up for 3 days off a bunch of vyvanse. I just saw a shadow figure in my peripherals and turn around for no one to be there. Happened a few times. That’s as intense as it got for me
@@eternal-emocean stand offs with shadow people? I've been in alternate realities running about an apocalyptic world with my mother savagely murdering people in great detail. Felt so real you wouldn't believe. My dad said I was just walking around my room mumbling gibberish, relieving myself on the floor, talking to beings who weren't there
I’ve only had severe paranoia once from weed… omg 😱 NEVER AGAIN‼️. Found out the hard way, no matter what strain, I’m allergic to THC. My gosh… it was awful 😢
Omg, me too! This is the first time I've ever run into someone who is allergic to THC, too! My chest swells up on the inside (if that makes sense?), and itches so bad to the point that I'm rubbing and scratching my chest as hard as I can. It makes me motion sick, what with everything spinning combined with a major panic attack!
I really felt this story and have found myself in a similar scenario with my ill-fated substance of choice. Replace "meth" with deep-fried lasagna fritters from Olive Garden and this was me to a fucking T.
They looked forward to that moment with joy, but without haste, not pining for it, but seeming to have a foretaste of it in their hearts, of which they talked to one another. But when they looked at me with their sweet eyes full of love, when I felt that in their presence my heart, too, became as innocent and just as theirs, the feeling of the fullness of life took my breath away, and I worshipped them in silence. Their children were the children of all, for they all made up one family.
Wow! Insane! Imagine coming across someone while you are just out innocently walking the dog or something. And they think you are the one coming after them. 😱 Scarey.
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I've spent years of my life in various states of addiction-based Hell. Thankfully, meth is the one and only drug I never really got the bug for. I did an excruciating number on myself with IV cocaine and heroin/fentanyl use, ,and running in drug culture circles I have known MANY people with meth stories this bad or worse. Drugs really are bad kids. My life will never be what it could have been. And FAR worse than that is the hopeless knowledge that no warning I could ever give someone can truly prevent their own trip through Hell.
This might have been the wildest story on this channel. Every time, I was already thinking "what the fuck" that guy went "but things got even worse from here".
great video as always I'm a month off stims and other hard shit and your videos really help me stay sober they really highlight that drugs and not all fun and games, keep up the fire work man
I've been meth clean since September I, 2018! Looking back, I will never ever do meth again and go down that road again! I won't even associate with family members who still does it. I'm truely ashamed of myself for trying it the 1st time that night. Nice way to be welcomed to a new apartment building, huh?!
Just to be clear this isn’t an over exaggeration. I’ve been there. And the new stuff is worse. This p2p stuff is insane. I was literally insane on it. Thank god I’m off that stuff. I never was addicted to it I just dabbled here and there but the hell with that stuff.
I wish I had thought to look this kind of shit up when I worked in a bad area (well, honestly, a bad town; the place was basically owned by the HA's and had a huge meth problem) and had to deal with meth addicts all day. I would have had a lot more sympathy having a vague idea of what it's like.
I can attest to the dangers of mixing THC with Meth, but at some point, I tried to recreate my own, personal psychotic experience and never could. Thank goodness.
Yikes. Thank you for this. I'll never touch that shit again. I've been off meth for close to 20 years. People have told me how strong it is now, I didn't believe them.
"Meth" or "Clear" as we call it today isnt the same shit yall had 20 years ago.. sometime in around the fall of 2019 the chemical makeup changed drastically and it hasnt been the same since. Prior to that you could do a small amount and be spun for days, now the shit literally makes you fall asleep, no joke. The problem is if youre addicted to Fentanyl the Clear will go hand in hand and its very difficult to only do one or the other, theyre definitely a combo drug
I ended up with psycosis due to meth and later, to methylphenidate. Fortunately I turned my life around and lived to tell the tale. Do not mess with this stuff, you are never in control, no matter how much you think you are.
Watching these videos makes me never want to touch drugs in my life. I've smoked a bit of weed and done ket but I don't wanna touch anything ever again. My dads side of the family struggles with substance abuse so that's scared me as well because I probably have a higher proclivity for addiction. My uncle is meth and heroin junkie who is diagnosed with schizophrenia and was having psychosis during my grandpas funeral thinking the police were after him and were spying on him. Was truly wild to see.
I’ve been twacked for weeks and hallucinated quite frequently but was never in fear because i knew why I was hallucinating. I got bath salts sold to me one time passing it off for crystal and me and my friend both did a shot and almost immediately lost our minds for about two days straight before I was locked up in the mental ward cause my father called the police. Truly a scary substance. It’s like tweaking while tripping acid but the whole time I thought everything was real. Also one time I ingested methedrone knowingly but ended up getting so high that I lost all motor functions for 2 hours the only thing I could do was lay down and watch a movie and talk fine but I was paralyzed. Every muscle in my body was twitching uncontrollably the whole 2 hours. Slowly but surely it wore off And it was back to business as usual. The weirdest part about it was it was all in my head. I would try to do something simple like take the cigarettes out of my pocket but I would freeze during the task and get stuck in the motion. Needless to say I’m glad I only partook a couple of times because it had some extremely strange terrifying effects it went from freezing during tasks to couldn’t move anything on my body but I could talk just frozen unable to move. Probably my most terrifying drug experience that really scared the dog poop out of me. Sorry for the rambling I’m currently watching bad speed experiences under the influence of speed. It’s methception.
Okay by the way you wrote you’re story you sound like a burn out and clearly have no Brian cells left you also need to go to sleep you’re not doing well you are mentally sick
@@Kota-ph7nc Stop, it was a perfectly legitimate question. The answer could wildly vary so if he’s curious then why not ask? There’s no harm in inquiring.
I lived with someone who had psychosis for a long long long long time. Family member and well he saw the moon fall from the sky and land in the street. I hate that crap and he ruined his whole life while trying to ruin mine within months and well he lost everything while I became blessed. Glad that horror story is over.
Everything Described in this Video is spot on. As an ex Meth user being clean now for a year and 4 months, I can confirm that yes cannabis will drastically enhance psychosis, And I used to inject the shit. The comedown is the worst feeling Ive ever felt in my life I believe that God got me through my last comedown because It wasn't like other comedowns that I had before the last.
Stimulants make opioid/opiate withdrawal so much worse. Like you're already over=stimulated withdrawing bc you slowed your whole body down for so long. I very much question the validity of that part of the story. Marijuana 110% will throw you into psychosis if youre going hard on the paint (meth).
It depends actually. Shooting up mephedrone I didn't feel heroin wds for 3 days straight, only came back when I ran out of drone. Other times smoking meth helped too
I once used Methamphetamines and Benzos to kick a 195mg/day methadone habit. After kicking cold turkey for nearly two weeks w/o any reprieve whatsoever, I smoked some meth and BOOM! the first shred of energy I’d had in weeks. It was the only thing that took my mind and body off of the never ending withdrawals. Stimulants we’re never my drug of choice, but I very quickly traded one addiction for the other. The meth and benzos combo lasted around 10 months, and when I finally got sober off of that I stayed clean for 6 years. Had a heroin and meth relapse that lasted just shy of 3 years, and now, by the grace of all that is holy in this crazy universe, I have almost 5 years clean again. Woohoo! 🎉
@@ianhornbeck Holy shit dude! That's crazy! I can't imagine kicking 195mg/day... I'm at 60mg because I am terrified of going higher, I actually wanted to keep at 40 even but I wasnt' confortable and still had cravings (1g EU #3 heroin a day for years, last 6 months I.V.)... I can totally imagine how easy it might be to simply switch to stims in this situation, especially meth... I'm not a big stims guy, even less so than before, but I always the energy meth/amphetamines give me, but the anorexia and my drops in blood pressure in the comedown when I I.V. them is scary as fuck (never I.V.ed meth tho-- IVing street amph and missing your shot hurts like a bitch and I hate it. Vasoconstriction makes all of this 100× worse) I'll stick to snorting or oral, or plugging even lmao Sorry if I said anything triggering for you in relation to your past drug use man, I see you put all that shit behind you. I wanted to say, and I know it doesn't really matter coming from a stranger, but I am sincerly proud of you man. I know I'm not the only one. May you enjoy life to the fullest, and also I wish for this new year to be the best and happiest for you and everyone you love. Peace and take care homie 🙏
As a former multi substance user, there’s no way meth will overpower anything but the absolute smallest opioid addiction. Also your sober girlfriend was on this trip with you and didn’t notice you on a mega bender? I have my doubts.
This video is literally like a forewarning for me, I’ve been clean from oxycodone for about 6 months and today I was offered meth by the same person who used to have me hooked on pain pills. Although I didn’t need to hear stories like this to reinforce the idea that I don’t need to try meth, there’s no chance in hell I’d even consider trying it now.
@@Aryzo Probably because they thought I was still that same weak person that I was before. After going through hell for 2 years I’m glad to say I won’t go back because I’m feeling better than ever now.
Wow crazy. In the 90s I used to take a LOT of X and went to raves all the time. One night I got 5 pills and over the course of 10 hours, took them all. They were full of meth...I had no clue. I was up for 5 days after that. Similar to this story I started seeing things like people looking through my bedroom windows but when I looked at them, they'd disappear. Then I started seeing dogs and cats and shadow people. By the 5th day I was laying in my bed, starving and exhausted, unable to move. At that point, I was seeing full on hallucinations of different people laying in bed with me, and girls looking through my clothes in my closet. One was wearing a Santa Claus hat, it wasn't Xmas though. None of the hallucinations disappeared anymore and they were all very detailed faces of people I've never seen. I knew I was seeing things, so didn't freak, but I feel like if I were up for any longer I wouldn't be able to tell the difference between what's real and not. That was the scariest thing, not knowing if I was going crazy and never sleeping again. Or having a heart attack from the stress. Luckily I didn't experience what this guy did, I can't imagine looking outside and seeing a drenched shirtless guy carrying a knife, or having that person be me lol. Glad those days are over hahaha
Accidentally being dosed meth instead of Molly was god sent for me. I’m now coveted with a new skin care product “sores” by amphetamine and have wild animal sex with every thing I find. Good bang for the buck if ya ask me.
Why the fuck do people even lace pills and weed with hard drugs that kill people daily? I wouldn't be surprised if someone laced a prescription bottle of ket with tranq at a rave
Dehydration and no food, too. But stimulants definitely have an effect, they can 100% cause hallucinations and delusions. Just a point to take care of yourselves and don't overindulge.
After being up for only 3 days on amphetines I saw the devil in the clouds after smoming a joint and long armed long fingers creatures floating around room. Also kept hearing my name
Did half a gram of meth once on accident after drinking fake Molly water on accident thinking it was normal water at a party. Long story short, staying up for a week straight and seeing shadow people is not fun. I was itching my foot and saw all my flesh coming off of it, did that happen, no. But I thought I lost my foot until my roommates heard me screaming, came in the room and then laughed at me haha. Bad times but it kept me off any drugs other than booze and weed atleast
I had psychosis multiple times from amphetamines and medications and manic episodes (I’m bipolar) and one of the most terrifying ones I was paranoid my bf was gunna call cops on me and get me locked up in psych ward again and he turned into a demon as he held me down and I was hearing sirens and heard the ambulance barreling down my street. I wrestled me way out of my bfs grip and got out of the car we were sitting in and I looked up to see the ambulance going 100+ mph straight at me and all I had time to do was brace for impact. And I got stuck in a loop of that. Everytime id peer up and look after huddling and bracing to get hit if see the ambulance flying at me about to hit me. I ended up having a seizure that night. I’ve had 3 grand mal siezures over the years after hallucinating. I experienced tactile hallucinations from medications the drs had me on. They were frightening. It was too real. Today I’m clean and sober. I’m off all meds and my bf is now my fiancé. We have a house and life is good. No matter how bad it gets you are always worth it. You can get better. I’ve died 4 times. Flatlined, full on coded and been in comas from suicide attempts and overdoses. I’ve changed completely and faced my demons and abusers. Life is worth living and you are much more powerful and stronger than you feel. You CAN do it!
Your last line here.. I think all of us recovered addicts feel that way. I saw things on Vancouver city streets that cannot and should not be real. Personally down to 8mg sub per day been on them 7 yrs now.. Whole life is different. It's the only link to the past but I fear being off them entirely.
Damn man, I get still being on it but you can definitely cut down lower than that. Just sayin. I do 1-2 mg a day.. you could cut that dose in half pretty easily. 8 mg is a lot. That’s what most people should start on..
I know this is a late response, but I saw your comment I need to tell you: do not cut down or get off of your subs until you are 100% ready and willing. It doesn't matter how long you're on them, they are saving your life. Don't listen to anyone telling you to cut down, only your heart and your Dr. Seriously.
@@lynna666 what a kind and thoughtful response. and a bit coincidental as last cpl nights I wake up after cpl hrs sleep and am having mild withdrawal symptoms. I saw my Doc 2 days ago and we discussed Sublicade: the 30 day shot. But he couldn't say why I'm having these withdrawal issues. I've been weening down. A hlf pill for 2 or 3 days then a full pill then back to halves.. but past cpl days I've been taking a full tablet and still having restless legs, anxious and uncomfortable overall feeling just out of the blue in the middle of the night. So of course I grab my phone and headphones to distract and see your comment. Can't help feel a sense of kismet and your kind words couldn't have come at a better time. So thank you very much. Your advice is well worth heading and I'm grateful. 😊🤗
Kids allways remember...if u ever wanna get down on it...just smoke a j, granted it's not particulary healthy but literally the WORST thing that can happen is u get hungry and go to zzzz...then u wake up some hours later. Stay safe out there guys.
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Cocaine and heroin aren't neurotoxic. Maybe do some more research.....alcohol and meth ARE neurotoxic/actually damage the brain In horrible and wacky ways
@Ryder Holmes i was very close to doing it. I did some other drugs and wanted to try meth cuz why not but decided against it. I will never even consider trying it again.
It's interesting to hear it from the user's perspective. I lived with someone who did meth and I had my share of experiences from the confused family member's perspective. She didn't sleep for days, sometimes a week or longer, barely ate, hallucinated all sorts of things like people breaking in, stealing from the sheds out back, her husband's secret girlfriend who didn't exist. And according to her she wasn't smoking, but it was the secret girlfriend that kept coming over. She chased a roommate around with a gun, accusing him of stealing and hiding a girlfriend (that he also didn't have). She even took a picture of one of her hallucinations for "proof" but of course there was nothing there. She started accusing everyone in the hosuehold of crazy things like hiding burglers, even me eventually. It got to a point I was sleeping with a gun under my pillow before I moved out because she was really freaking me out.
As a FL resident I immediately knew when you said where you where heading there it was bad news. As a ex addict I've tried every combination possible & have used every single form of self deception to prove that I was an exception to the rule that I could get off this with that,only on the weekends only Xanax one the weekends,only pain pills when I was in pain etc. Etc. There's a reason why we say : Ones to many & a thousand is never enough!
I suffer from schizophrenia now after doing a lot of meth. I no longer do it because of the voices i hear, as i do not want to make them any worse. But as a schizo, i can confirm that the voices do pretend to be cops, and in your psychosis, youll believe them. What's funny though is that once i pretended to be a cop saying "9-11 whats your emergency?" And one of the voices actually believed they were talking to the cops. Lol.
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