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There was a period when I was 14-15 where I didn’t go to school I just shut the blinds and stayed in my bed for months at a time. This song would constantly be on repeat because it was the most comforting thing and the only thing that would help me sleep.
I was 15 when breaking dawn part 2 came out. I pretended I was over “it” because I was always made fun of by my family. 23 and Still not over it! Lol my kids know this masterpiece. (Of course they can’t watch this) I regret not watching part 2 in theaters. I would of yelled when Carlisle was decapitated.
It's so strange. For all their problematic elements and cheesiness, the Twilight movies are some of the most comforting and cathartic movies, especially when I'm experiencing deep depression. I can never quite nail down what exactly it is about them, maybe it's a combination of the aesthetic, Bella's intentional relatability, and the killer soundtrack. Maybe it's the way I can vicariously experience unconditional love through Bella. Maybe my brain just turns off when I watch them and that's why it doesn't feel so bad for a while afterwards. All I know it's it's 2:51am and I'm sad and having a therapy session in a RU-vid comment section. If you know me IRL- no you don't. You didn't see this. Anyways, good playlist.
The story is so goddammit beautiful.. ppl call it cringe because they have no hope for such a love. Keep the faith. You fight for real love ..even if you cannot see who your fighting for yet.
Not for nothing, but this chair rotation passage of time sequence is/was the best representation of what life feels like when you're depressed, and what made me realize at age 12 that I'd been depressed for a long time. When you're muted and slow and disconnected from everything around you, and life is just going on and on. It just goes on and you're still there, like a rock that's sitting at the bottom of a river cause it's too heavy for the current to pull it along. And then that's what life becomes, things going on and passing by but none of it moves you, and you just see yourself sinking deeper into the mud.
I know exactly how this feels and am going through these same feelings right now-however, I am starting to realize maybe I'm in the wrong river. It's hard for me to get out of my situation, though, but I have some hope that a current will be strong enough to pull me out. Maybe I'll be the current that pulls myself out, who knows?
This is a two year old comment, but it speaks to me. My mom had a stroke that had her going from cheery and active to completely mute and quadriplegic. Life is just moving and I'm still stuck repeating that day in my head. What I could have done to help. It's been 6-7 months now. I laugh, but nothing fills this lurking hollowness. I'm just here.
The twilight saga is such a amazing group of comfort movies for nostalgia, this playlist is literally so relaxing and has the same effect that the movies do (or at least the first two movies lol) this is literally taking me back to watching the first twilight movie in theaters with my big sister, god I feel old 😟
The first time I watched all the movies I never truly grasped the true meaning of them all. I never understood Bella’s uncomfortableness around people, her awkward faces and personality. But then I became older and truly understood what it feels like to have social anxiety and wanting, choosing to be alone then going out. And then her Edward walked into her introverted, awkward self and chose HER. Chose to love her, and he loved her so much, he left her because he thought it was best. Seeing Bella’s depressed state really hit me hard. I’ve never been in a relationship but I know what the numbness, emptiness felt like. I hope to find my own Edward. Someone I can rely on and be my antisocial self around. I just hope he doesn’t leave me for my sake (lol) This seems awkward writing. But I’m glad I did because the whole twilight series is so relatable. Through Bella’s perspective of corse. Thanks. :)
i related to every word you said. i have never dated someone, but the more i think about it, having someone as a partner like edward just seems so wholesome and i would love for someone to make me feel the way bella feels with him. im very antisocial, awkward, and introverted. if i had a person like him my whole boring anxious life would turn around. i wish you the best with finding you edward, it will work out, i promise love
@chloe Glad I’m not alone in being a wallflower. I find it difficult to express and talk to people face to face but with writing, I can better express myself. You are very kind. I hope you find your own Edward and happiness in life. One thing I’ve recently been reminded is how incredibly short life truly is. And with that, im trying to not hold back how I feel or what i believe in. I hope that way I truly live. Wishing you all the best, friend. Sincerely Lydia :)
@@lydiatheblondie6554 aww. your kind words truly went far into my heart. i know for sure you will have a wonderful precious life. life truly is short, so we need to spend our time wisely with the ones we love! i can agree with you on writing instead of talking face to face. it just seems i can truly say my thoughts and feelings more when im writing than out loud! wishing you the best of everything too, friend. love, chloe
17:32 this scene in twilight haunts me. My mom was never really a mom to me and mentally manipulated me throughout my life. When I was older I knew what was happening and kept holding on to her even though she was breaking me. She gave up on me and abandoned me around 5 years ago. She just left. I’m 18 now. I have a great boy friend and sometimes I think about what happened with my mom and I’m afraid that one day he’ll just leave and disappear like Edward.
Rachel Amber I had also a distant mother and I suffered through my childhood too. I clinged to all of my boyfriends whether they were hurting me or not bcs all I wanted was for somebody to love me. But...I learned to be self-suficient and love myself instead of seeking that love from somebody else. Learn to be with your own company and never ever cling to anybody. Wish you peace♡♡♡
i'm obsessed with this playlist ahh! the way you have the scene of the camera circling bella that symbolises her depression in the background while songs that are so fitting are playing is beautiful!
"PREFACE I FELT LIKE I WAS TRAPPED IN ONE OF THOSE TERRIFYING nightmares, the ones where you have to run, run till your lungs burst, but you can't make your body move fast enough. My legs seemed to move slower and slower as I fought my way through the callous crowd, but the hands on the huge clock tower didn't slow. With relentless, uncaring force, they turned inexorably toward the end-the end of everything. But this was no dream, and, unlike the nightmare, I wasn't running for my life, I was racing to save something infinitely more precious. My own life meant little to me today. Alice had said there was good chance we would both die here. Perhaps the outcome would be different if she weren't trapped by the brilliant sunlight; only I was free to run across this bright, crowded square. And I couldn't run fast enough. So it didn't matter to me that we were surrounded by our extraordinarily dangerous enemies. As the clock began to toll out the hour, vibrating under the soles of my sluggish feet, I knew I was too Late-and I was glad something blood-thirsty waited in the wings. For in failing at this, I forfeitedany desire to Live. The clock tolled again, and the sun beat down from the exact center point of the sky. "
Me: lying under blankets, looking out at the rain, vibing to this playlist, reminiscing on my beautiful dark Twilight days Ads: PLAQUE FUCKING PSORIASIS!?!?!!!!!??!!!!!!
I remember when I first read new moon, I was 13 and had just devoured twilight in a week, having received it for christmas. Back to school was approaching, I was particularly depressed in my school and when I read the beginning of new moon... I thought I was going to die, I was crying so much... This book marked me deeply . Today Twilight is my comfort zone.
you posted this 2 years ago but thank you cause i'm rewatching twilight and I LOVE THOSE movies... gonna admit that it's not for the toxic relation ship but the aesthetic and ambiance i love!
this is my fav playlist ever. i wrote my courseworks to it, i studied for my alevels with it, now im listening to it in my uni room writing an essay. 💗
i was 5 when I watched Twilight for the first time, it’s been 13 years and i’ve had a forever fluctuating obsession with everything twilight going from non stop watching and spending all my parents money to not watching for nearly 2 years and selling/donating everything. I’m now 18 years old with adult money and no responsibilities and back to spending all of my money and time living a romanticised twilight life in sydney winter reading books and absorbing every rain drop and melancholy twilight playlist i can get my hands on
This playlist has single handedly rescued me from my nursing workload while I study (and usually anyyyyy bit of noise distracts me but somehow these songs r totally okay) luv u maeve!
I'm not sure if it was engraved in my blood to love twilight because I was named after Alice but there's something about the movies and books like I love. they make me feel at home.
listening in south Korea😉 I can’t speak english well,,, anyway,, I loved twilight saga since 2008. Twilight saga is my youth,, This playlist reminds me of the smell and feeling of my teenager days… (I was more familiar with twilight saga ost than K-pop😅) This playlist and Autumn make me sentimental••• I miss my teenager.. I miss twilight saga.. 사랑한다•••
It’s funny the actual movies and plot are so corny and cringe but the aesthetic is so beautiful I love it so much. And it was a big part of my adolescence I will forever love these videos and twilight haha.
Me enamore de esta playlist por los sonidos de fondo y entre al canal a buscar otra y me di cuenta que es el unico video :((((((((((((( hermana, necesito mas. Me encanta, soy fan
I fell in love with twilight again when I joined a few facebook Sh*t posting groups (the memes are amazing). regardless, I found a group that shared a lot with me and brought out my inner child. ANYWAY. I love this playlist; it makes me sad and productive LOL!
As much as I hate the message of Twilight or the weird cliches, I can admit that I love the aesthetic of it all. Rainy, foggy days with forests and sweaters... idk I just love it. (I think it’s also worth noting that Kristen Stewart was also my bi awakening, so I may also love it for that reason lmao)
I think most of us were teenagers when twilight ws out. We were innocent that's how we connected to Bella and of course wanted a possessive bf. It's raining right now n im smiling. Love to all my Edward and Jacob lovers
