This sounds like my state of mind right now. I've been seriously trying to get into college for a while and still no luck. It's like my mind is bouncing between giving up and holding onto what little persistence I have left. This style of music is helping me to calm down and try again
I feel if somehow people got into my brain seeing the world I live in and how I see it this is what would play as your walking through my brain. Seeing my hopes dreams. Seeing what crushed them. Seeing my fears. Seeing my violent urges and wishes. Seeing my younger self in a small area. Holding a purple monster doll. Watching them try to hide from the scary world that was fourced upon them. Seeing as they had to grow up too soon and them just desperately hold onto the thing that has been there with them no matter what. Most kids were afrad of the monsters in there room but those monsters were the one company this little girl had. They were the ones who guided her when the people who were supposed to failed. The little girl who learned to fear the outside and "correct way" and embraced the difference. Who let in the ones who were deemed monsters but were just outcasted because they took a diffrent path.
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