He couldn't open the door because you can't open the door. Once you have experienced trauma, it stays with you forever. You can't "save" yourself from it, you can manage it, and you can give it less power over you but in the end, it is a part of us, you can't cut it out. I think that moment when he slides down the door is that moment of acceptance.
I agree with you. Even if an extreme trauma is from about 5 or 10 or 20 years ago, you'll never get over it, you'll just learn to live with it. Unfortunately, it stays with you for as long as you live.
I agree with you, something similar crossed my mind before reading your comment, for the most part. I also thought that the room is the amygdala, so him inside and lying down at the end could also be a representation of the trauma being left with less power. Because like you said, once you've had trauma it stays with you.
Suga spoke about his accident a couple of times and even mentioned it in his lyrics (first mention in 2016 I think) but to have a visual representation of it is just another level of a heartbreak.
I think the "your" in the lyrics "I don't know your name" refers to the audience. He recreated the memories he wanted to hide and didn't want to remember through the MV. Imagine acting out his trauma for everyone to see... What this means is that he's gotten over the trauma now. So he seems to be saying that since he did it, you (the audience) can too.
I think 'you' is SUGA/AGUST D....the one who was previously experienced traumatic things in life (his accident & his parents being ill), the person who got scarred by all the hates of the world....the person whose anger was the driving force behind his AGUST D & D-2 album, but who is now (D-Day album) no longer there cause he (as he told us on IU Palette) has changed now cause he no longer has that anger anymore in him, he already forgave the haters & live in present (peace). Thus, he no longer remember his name anymore (already forgot the angry version of him) who then now asking "how is he doing lately?" (Based on his amygdala/traumatic past)
@@heroturbo76”Imagine acting out his trauma for all to see” - Simply reading these words made my heart rate spike & my panicked brain go “no no no no no”. I honestly don’t think I ever could. It takes an entirely different level of bravery on top of writing lyrics.
My take on the almonds. 1. Amygdala in latin means almond, in greek it was ἀμυγδάλη (amugdálē), as these two clusters of nuclei in the brain have the shape and size of almonds they were named amygdala. 2. in the book Almond the boy's mother gives him almonds to eat because she thought it would help him develop his amygdala, finally letting him feel things. 3. The Last - Agust D, here Yoongi mentions that he went to a psychiatrist back when he was around 18, he assisted with his parents, the doctor in that track asks "have you ever been (censored)?" (we infer that he refers to being su!cidal, or if he has thought of hurting himself or others, bcs if you have any experience with mental health professionals this is one of the first things they ask you), he says "I answer without any hesitation that I have". Once you say these words to a psychiatrist, they usually prescribe you medication. So the pills that you see in the MV are a reference to that. Now, why use the pills and almonds interchangably? Because while the almonds in "Almond" were used to try and make the boy feel something, pills are usually used to regulate your emotions and make you feel less, but also, as amygdala means almond, we can also take it to mean that Yoongi is consuming "amygdala" after "amygdala" trying to try and fix his own which is hyperactive. The song destroyed me, but the MV completely shattered me. I've had a rough life, Yoongi is the one who I relate to the most because of it, he, in some way or another, always manages to heal a part of me with every album, song he makes.
i saw your comment and I thank you for the explanation because in my country amigdala (how we write it) is something completely different. Yoongi was always the one I looked and listened to the most. I also had an accident and injured my shoulder badly to the point of having an addiction to pain killers to hide it from everyone (I was 15). That combined to the hard childhood, discrimination and genetic mental illnesses that I have made me take measures and decisions that I am not proud of today. Because of his music I decided to seek help and better myself but those feelings of depression are always there and when I fall again he releases a new music that picks me up from the floor. Thank you for saving me Yoongi
Thank god it's all in retrospective and Yoongi managed to stay with us and eventually heal through making this album. He has just finished a weverse live which he ended with "i cant change the past. and you need to forgive yourself. and for the past thats bothered me, i needed to forgive myself. that's why the title of the album is d-day"...because the time has come. Yoongi is so so so strong oh my god. He also said in different interviews that Agust D may return at some point, but this chapter of the story is over.
I cried a lot when I first watched the MV. Something that striked me is that I think in the making of of the MV he said how he wanted the scar to look fresh. So if you consider Amygdala the genesis, then you go to Daechwita where there is a scar but a little healed, and then to Haegeum that the cop's scar is almost 100% healed and the "robber" yoongi, his free version doesn't have any trace of the scar. So I feel that in that moment is when he finally felt like he could deal with everything. Everything is still inside his mind, but now he knows is all in the past, and that he did the best choice he could.
This song keeps haunting me. It feels like he ended with the beginning. I never knew how to describe accurately staying still, doing nothing and having your mind invaded by dozens of thoughts, memories and your heart racing as if you very running. Yoongi just did that with this music video. His voice in the chorus is like a cry or a yell, I don't know but it is incredibly powerful and painful. If feels like he released Haegeum first - although it is the conclusion and it reassures us that he is now in a stable mental place - so as not to makes us worried and shock us even more with the origin stories of Amygdala. Seeing him smile a lot more lately and enjoying life become even more meaningful. Not everyone is strong enough to overcome certain challenges and painful experiences. After all the pain he went through. I am so proud of him and thankful for sharing this with us. I could not help thinking that that maybe this song can help so many out there, including me. I wrote this before listening to your thoughts so as not to mix my thoughts with yours. Thank you and take care!
Suga mentioned when he was still a Big Hit trainee, he also worked as a delivery boy and was hit by a car during a shift and he was diagnosed with a dislocated shoulder in 2013. He hide this problem from the company at first because he was just a trainee back then and afraid to be kicked out as an idol to be. Shoulder pains continued as was already a BTS member until he was further diagnosed in 2019 with ‘posterior labral tear of his left shoulder’, which means that the cartilage around his left shoulder joint has been torn. Since then, he has continued to receive various treatment to prevent his injury from affecting his activities. Suga underwent surgery to repair his torn shoulder last 2020.
Sé que BigHit estaba en una mala situación al comienzo pero ellos contaron que casi no tenían para comer, BigHit siempre los explotó para que lleguen a ser Idols de éxito, entrenaban hasta desmayarse pero ni siquiera les daban alimentos que los sostuvieron, como mínimo. Nunca les importó la salud física y mental de los chicos
BTS is on a whole different level when it comes to making music. They compel people to think, analyse, deep dive, get into psychology and philosophy....and so on. And they pass on very important life lessons and comfort that we can carry with us lifelong. Their songs r not seasonal to be enjoyed once n forgotten when a new song comes in. And they do this with the most beautiful melodies and rap. So we learn and grow as humans while also enjoying music. I am older than Yoongi (and RM and other members) but they all teach me so much that i can relate to and use in my life.
Hi Guys, I saw the MV last night and I literally burst out into tears.... Knowing that everything that happened here is true with Agust D, Yoongi. SUGA describes his past in this MV and it as well identifies how "WE" as individuals have been going through... Hence he was saying to RM that their music speaks to ARMY and that is WHY we are here, and that is WHY he writes music.... I could completely resonated into each & every lyrics he wrote and sang, I was so heart broken. The MV is as GOOD as what he is displaying it to us so wonderfully with his raw lyrics... Thank you for sharing your past with us SUGA... We love you and appreciate you.. Thank you for your reaction Daniel. I always love your analysis on their Videos 💜💜
So some context about the motorcycle accident, I hope I have my facts correct here but please correct me if I'm wrong ARMY! When BTS were still trainees Yoongi had a job as a delivery boy to help support himself. On one shift he was knocked off of his bike by a car, being quite badly injured and dislocating his shoulder. At the time trainees at Big Hit were not allowed to have jobs, so Yoongi thought if he told Big Hit about the accident he'd get kicked out. Because of this he didn't tell anyone about it, and lived with that dislocated shoulder for years (whilst still doing idol training!) without getting help. It was only years later when he was more settled that he told the company and they helped him get treatment, however because of their busy schedules they were forced to just manage the injury as best they could with injections and medication. Unfortunately it all came to a head when the medication stopped helping, and some days he was in too much pain to move. This is why he took a few months off a few years ago, so he could finally get the surgery to fix the injury, after almost a decade of constant pain. The hardest thing for ARMYs was finding out about the surgery after it was over, and realising that there were multiple performances in recent months where he couldn't even move his arm on stage. He seems to have really blossomed since that surgery, and he seems so much healthier and happier, and it makes me happy to see. Music like this is the reason he's my ult bias, and he inspires and drives me to work hard every day.
During one of the B.T.S. Documentaries, they were in their cups and he casually mentioned the accident in detail. The other Members sobered up rather quickly as he detailed the accident.
Yoongi family is poor. Yoongi grandparent took and rised him. Heart surgery need lots of money.That why hes father work hard for medical costs and when he find out yoongi into the music he get worry. Cause make music in not easy life. He afrid the yoongi become like him . Becaus of hes parent work hard too make a better life... Yoongi feel lonely without love. Hes father never bring him play outside if im not mustike. Sorry my grammer is poor. As you can see... Yoongi in is teen is so lonely. Being told to study hard for better future over and over againd. And make you forget the think you love (music) is so hard and sad. I want to say more but my engs is so so poor. 😭😭😭😭
When you find out u father have liver cancer after the fight for the dream u choice, feeling guilty ,sad,angery and every negative emotion max all together. I dont know what to call that . What yoongi been trough in his life ?i can imagen the burden in his shoulder. I dont know what to say... I pray for you happiens and im glad you made it... 💜💜💜
윤기네 가족은 가난하지않아요. 보통의 가정보다 잘살아요. 다만 진로문제로 아버지와 대립이 있었음. 아버지는 기자가 되길 바란걸로 알고있음. 윤기는 적극적지원을 받는 대신 미래가 불확실한 음악을 선택했기에 돈이 늘 부족했어요. 이 이야기의 출처는 윤기의 형과 친구인 사람이 자세하게 적은글. 부모님이 가진 두 대의 최신형 자동차와 돈이 꽤 드는 음악작업실을 집에 만들어준 일 등등.. 하지만 윤기가 본인의 길을 가기위해 수많은 고통을 겪은건 사실임. 배달사고도 그 중 하나. 회사에서 쫒겨날까봐 말도 못하고 ㅜㅜ. 나는 그의 깊은 통찰과 박식함, 선함, 개방성에 반해서 그를 방탄소년단 에서 가장 좋아한다.
yoongi gave me the courage to look at my traumas from the perspective of a survivor. I think that many of us are the lotus flower... thank you for your interpretation.
You've given a good breakdown of the relationship between all three songs: Daechitwa, Haegeum, and Amygdala...that is now in full circle, sitting in the back of the mind in summation. Suga has overcome and left the major lesson from these past experiences: Life Goes On. And we move on to the next chapter....
Yeah, he's an amazing artist to create such an honest filled song. And I can very much relate to Suga's life. I had my own "Amygdala" (Amygdala is one of two almond-shaped clusters of nuclei located deep and medially within the temporal lobes of the brain's cerebrum in complex vertebrates, including humans. Shown to perform a primary role in the processing of memory, decision making, and emotional responses (including fear, anxiety, and aggression), the amygdalae are considered part of the limbic system.) Like Suga, when he was born, I had my own issues. Its hard to let go of those memories but one step at a time if we work even more harder like in the video, Suga can breakdown that door. We will see him in the future how strong he will be. Its also the support Army and the rest of the members give. He definitely can get through it like how I am working harder myself. Its tough but we definitely can. And I like how genuine you were when reacting to this. I still cry everytime I listen to this song. And music is definitely a therapy. It reminds me of how BTS has helped me fight through a lot when I was constantly hospitalized. And DG, you are doing an amazing work with your reaction videos. I really like how you react to the music videos and also take time to explain everything in MV. This is amazing! My cheers to you for doing great stuff in the future. 😊
This is personal to the extreme. Suga is strong and extremely brave to firstly even speak of these but then even a whole mv of visually representing his battles is crazy. I didn't think I could respect him more but here we are.
DG, I appreciate your channel, your commentary, your compassion and insight! I cried within this song, with the mv, with almost every reactor…. But only those who are genuine, like yourself, do I make it all the way through them! StayGold DG! I have #YouNeverWalkAlone tattooed on my arm to help remind myself… It’s True! Thank you my OT7 Loves! 💜🙌🏻🪷
Thank you for your in depth analyses. Youre the only reactor who delve deeply into the message that Suga is trying to tell us. He opened his fears, sad experiences and emotions through this song. And yes it is not about breaking records but rather finally breaking out from his past and looking forward to the future. The trilogy has been completed and Yoongi is now relieved of these past experiences and he has overcome the depression and challenges
I've felt these things and this is a perfect depiction. I keep crying. I'm glad he won. Glad he's alive. He just said on a live that he almost made this the pre-release track... Which, wow, that would have been a choice. I love that he's a survivor, and that he's not trying to say that it's easy. He's singing from the middle of it but not without hope. I feel so seen. And I wish I could hug that man or make him soup or something
This is why I love watching reactors. The true ones. They make you feel like you are talking with a friend. Your insights are all coming from a sincere and emphatic heart. True that we can't do anything with our past, but isn't it more bearable if a loving soul holds our hand as we walk through it? Your kindness shines. ❤
This song and the mv had me in a chokehold. Not only did Yoongi's acting get MUCH better (and he was already literally a pro), but the entire cinematography backs it up. The song is a banger, no doubt. Haegeum is a traditional instrument, but it also means release from prohibition. The mv is so fascinating. In Daechwita, he killed the blond Agust D because he was too corrupt with anger and resentment. Agust D couldn't take it anymore. But in Haegeum the Agust D scar ended up as corrupted as the blonde Agust D. It's interesting that the new Agust D basically started the mv by killing a person and ending with the memory of it. Agust D is a trilogy because Yoongi was finally able to unite with Suga and Agust D. They are no longer apart because he learned to embrace all of his feelings. In this MV, the new Agust D. is a vigilante and violent villain because that's what Agust D is. But instead of just killing the scarred Agust D, who in this narrative, is a corrupt secret agent, (as happened to the blonde Agust D), he ALSO burned the money scar that Agust D had. My interpretation is that this whole mv revolves around FREE SPEECH, which may not be correct. 🤣. Finally, cheers to SUGA for yet another unique work of art.👏❤
You're really genuine and authentic with your reactions. You give every video you react to the respect they deserve. I respect you for that and thank you so much. I hope and pray you're doing fine personally aswell. Thank you for the hard work.
I have chills everywhere on my body every time I watch this mv. As someone who went through very dark and violent times, this speaks to me in such a hurtful but familiar way. I had a bit of hope when the agust d on the motorcycle ran to the agust d trapped in the bad memories and bad thought (aka the dark room), but that tiny hope crashed when he didn't manage to let him(self) out and he just surrended to all those bad things. This shows how hard it is to get rid of such dark thoughts, even if we want it. But the fact that he is with us to tell us his story is enough to say that he is still my hope, just as you said at 9:30, that was my train of thoughts in those dark times. The hope I first had for him to feel better, now I have it for myself, too. I wish for every army to feel the same hope.
I’m a Psychology Professor in UK. It’s understandable if your heart feels heavy but, shows he’s now at peace & able to share it, as it was. I’am proud as a Psych. I hope all we talk to, no matter how long it may take, they come out the other end & don’t give up. Anyone struggling use this to help heal, he’s not just done this for himself, to let Army in but, to also send the message don’t suffer in silence. I cried when I watched this & so proud of this gent. Stay blessed all🙏💜🧿
I just have to say how much I love your reactions - they are like a breath of fresh air. Depth of thought and compassionate analysis is rare. I have to say that Suga is probably the artist I have paid the least attention to whilst getting to know BTS but after watching the trilogy my opinion has radically changed. It takes so much to challenge authority, challenge societal norms and to challenge own's own identity. We are witness to his exploration of self as an artist and person with this intimate glimpse into his self-expression. Suga, Agust D, Yoongi all the same but born out of different facets or versions of self. Pain does shape us, trauma changes us and now that he has fought for his freedom of self-expression and solo-artistry he has chosen to be vulnerable. He is definitely being generous with everyone here in letting us in - it takes courage and strength to show yourself even if it is multiple versions or identities of self. Beautiful artistry and support, we are all helping each other make our way through this life.
The lotus flowers blooms by pushing its way through the mud, rising toward the sun's light but at nightfall they will close up and sink back into the water or mud. I think yoongi is still in the process of making himself better or feel better thats why the mv didn't have a happy ending cause he is still in there but slowly trying to remove himself from that position
When I first saw the video, I didn't realize that I'm tearing up... And since my head and my heart hurts a lot, I paused at 1:30. This is the reason why we shouldn't belittle anyone's painful experiences; as you didn't know how deep their wounds and scars are... you cannot change them with a blink of an eye, nor snap of your fingers... Every people has their own battle with their shadows and demons, who slowly eating them alive untill they completely engulfed Into the darkness... But at least we can all change for the better... A better life for those who suffered the most. Anyway, thank you for reacting to this masterpiece. God bless always!
As usual your insight is incredible. This song was amazing and the MV had me crying from the beginning. Yoongi is sooooo amazingly talented and strong! We can all bloom like lotus flowers!!🪷🪷🪷💜
I just love how he takes us on this intimate ride to his personal journey, he was being open and vulnerable but also so clear in his story telling! And to know that he actually planned this whole trilogy and this song being written 3 years ago (if am not mistaken) proved that he is a genius! He is a story teller as well as producer, rapper, song writer! Is there anything he cant do?? He truly deserves everything this world can offer! A precious and super interesting person!! Love and appreciate your essay once again!!! 💜💜
This was such a heavy mv and song, Yoongi baring so much to us, his parents' illnesses and his accident, and the WAY he sings it, it's just heartbreaking. But I'm glad he's feeling well enough to share this, even if I know this wasn't easy by any means still. He's just such an admirable person and such a genius. Thank you for reacting to this song, for researching so much beforehand, and for being so respectful and appreciative
Thank you for this amazing and thoughtful reaction and analysis, Yoongi was so raw and brave with this album and its wonderful there are listeners and reactors out there like you to bring more light and understanding to it 💜 thank you
Everything is said. So what remains is to say thank you Yoongi for telling and showing your feelings to us. And thank you Daniel for this reaction. Always the best one.
The worst part is that the car accident had been tormenting him for 10yrs. In 2019, Big Hit Entertainment revealed that he was diagnosed with a "posterior labral tear of his left shoulder," which means the cartilage around his shoulder joint was torn, an injury that was caused by the car accident during his trainee days. He had been performing and touring constantly, getting shots in every city because of the pain, until in 2020 his shoulder gave out, and he had to undergo surgery. That's why he's absent during the promotions for the BE album, and even when he got back, he mentioned having to go to the hospital weekly for his physical therapy sessions. Yoongi is so strong.
TODAY YOONGI IS ALREADY DIFFERENT, MORE SOFT, MORE SMILE, MORE CONTACT!!! TODAY'S MIN YOONG IS GOING TOGETHER IN HIS PERFORMANCES! AFTER THE OPERATION HE OPENED SO MUCH THAT EVEN KNOWING HIM FOR SO MANY YEARS YOU THINK IT'S THE SAME JUNGI, AGUST DEE SOMETIMES!! SO MUCH IS SO MANY YEARS THAT YOU HAVE BEEN SUFFERING AND HIDING YOUR SHOULDER PAIN AND PERFORMING FOR SO MANY YEARS!!! Yoongi is a standard of beauty, honor, wisdom, devotion, love, comfort,!! HE IS SO VARIOUS AND GENIUS THAT THERE IS NOTHING EVEN TO ADD!! THIS IS OUR GENIUS MIN JUNGI, OUR AGUST DEE, OUR SUGA!!! FAVORITE OF MILLION PEOPLE!!!
I actually keep crying for 2 days after watching the mv, especially when the motorbike accident keeps playing over and over again. It hurts so bad thinking that it's haunting him for years.. and I understand how the bad memories keeps playing in your head even if you don't want to.. it's all too familiar. But. He just went live last night. And he said that the past will always be there, but he now forgive himself. Also on the documentary on disney+ he explained that he wants to tell this story so we know that he is okay now and hope that this help us who is going through the same thing can forgive ourselves eventhough the past and the memories will always be there, we have to move forward. He is there, always there, to comfort us so don't be afraid.
The best Amygdala reaction I watched, maybe the best reaction I ever watched in general. Thank you so much for it, I enjoyed every second. The research you did, amazing. Found your channel through this video and its an instant subscribe. You're amazing!
This prequel part of the trilogy is amazing. I can't be more glad and happy to yoongi for expressing himself not only for himself but to maybe help others
I admired Yoongi for his strength to overcome all his pain and struggles in life. I want to thank him for sharing his vulnerability to us through his songs. I wish him all the happines in life. Thanks for your insightful reaction. You never failed to impress me.
Hi, i am back. Good reaction, ty. Such a good song. Pls pause as much as u want. I love hearing your thoughts. This is my fav song from his album. My 2nd fav is Snooze. I love all the songs though. But these for some reason made me feel more. When i heard this for the 1st time i smiled. This MV speaks his truth. I am glad Suga talked about it more. I think the more u speak about it the easier it gets as the years pass. I am sorry he went through so much. I am sad he did not reach the door. I think this song is tricky. I think the MV enhanced the song a lot for me. Good visuals. Loved the feels. I am an empath so i take it in. Suga was sharing his trauma, his painful memories right. I was not aware his mom had heart surgery or that his dad battled cancer. I wonder if his bike accident occured in the same year as everything else. We know Suga survived it was a miracle. Yoongi dealt with so much pain for so long. We were all so glad he finally had the shoulder surgery. They are so strong all of them. They are our strength and we theirs. Hugs tight DG. I was finally able to cry for him at last. My therapist said I am not afraid of death. I faced my death already dealing with cancer. So his truth was not that shocking to me. But still I wanted to cry for him because he can't. Borahae. -NY USA 2019 Army 💟 I Purple Jimin 💜said on 4/25/23 People with PTSD have the same issues with their amygdala. Not being able to process emotion and trauma properly. People who suffer with PTSD in multiple forms would understand this mv straight off. Its the whole process of nightmares vs flashbacks. Flashbacks being more of a process for PTSD sufferers. I have Complex PTSD and hypervigilance so i understand this mv with all its little nuances. I respect Yoongi so much that his been able to be so open with these issues. Alix DriftwoodDragons said on 4/25/23 I think the trilogy is about slowly recovering from trauma... the Amygdala MV explains the key to understanding the other two MVs, in that it shows that the scar is a mark of a character that is acting on their trauma - Yoongi has been slowly healing over the years. In Daechwita (D-2), he replaced "blond Agust D" from the first mixtape (he was blond for the MVs he released in 2016), who was a king who ruled out of anger... in Haegeum, a new Yoongi who DOESN'T have a scar, he's healed from his trauma - or at least has learned how to have it not continue to hurt him any more by self-inflicting wounds in response to it - and Haegeum Yoongi replaces D-2 Yoongi whose scar is old but still there, and is ruling in a civil manner but perhaps too caught up in the flexing aspect (the fancy suit, the slick image). I think Haegeum is the end on a note of Yoongi being free, and living the way he wants. Amygdala is needed to explain that key though - what Yoongi had to go through mentally to get to that point. The fact that he's sharing this with us, to me, means that he's reached a healthy place where he feels strong and recovered enough to share the story. Even if he can't put a firm happy ending on it, because you can't do that with mental struggles - in the latest episode of Suchwita, he even tells RM that he gets low every 2-3 years, but has learned how to handle it better as time has passed, and now RM thinks he's the most positive person on the team. Really, Yoongi is absolutely amazing. I love him so much and he deserves all the hugs in the world. @charethiebeldad8303 said on 5/4/23 His trying to save himself, but failed so he just accepted the other side of him wholeheartedly and later they both find healing,. MIN YOONGI /SUGA/AGUST D was indeed a genius! Thank you guys as always! 🤗💜💜💜💜 @Drifty-Alix said on 6/13/23 I really appreciate the interpretation of "green Suga/almond-eating Suga" because I honestly didn't know how to interpret that character and what Carlos said makes SO MUCH SENSE and also gives me closure for the MV, when I didn't feel like it had much closure before. I always felt like Yoongi storyboarded these MVs the way he did for a reason - that they can touch on both his personal journey, but also the problems with the industry/society that he sees. I also loved Carlos' comment about Yoongi putting himself in both the hero and villain role, as a commentary that he's also part of/a product of the society/industry that he's criticizing, but that just means he knows exactly what he's talking about. Anyway, great discussion!
And left him for dead without helping him, I wonder how that person lives with their actions, no police investigation has ever been conducted, they have to live in their own prison every day
I think there's also a piece of it where over time, these kinds of memories warp and you blame yourself for them. Whatever the truth is, this is what it can feel like. But yeah I also hope that person can't sleep at night
then at the end of the tour at "The Final-encore" he finally opened the door and walked out smiling, after performing amygdala so many times during the tour, I want to believe he had a very needed catarsis from all those emotions.
This trilogy is so strong and it gives so much look inside yoongis past and that he shares it with us and everyone wasnt an easy decision for him for sure but a part of his healing to "scream it out into the world". I never thought i could feel and identify with bts and their members as individuals more than i did before but what they are all doing on their own right now shows their human site and it makes me sad and proud of them but also more sure about my own being and what im going through and that you have to face things to control them in some way - but that you can't control everything and its important to accept that too. Besides those very touching and meaningful lyrics and mvs coming out at the moment i have to say that im very thankful that you look into the meaning before, while and after the mvs to get a better understanding of what is going on. Not many do this and im really happy to see this here and that makes me come back to you always first when i look for reactions because you're just putting it in the right place and with the right thoughts. I really can't with people watching the mvs and just saying "i don't get what they're talking about but sounds ok." and me always kinda screaming:" Just look it up because those lyrics and mvs mean more than just making a new hit!" I just want people to appreciate and recognize that its more than music and that it's actually helps so many people in their own lifes and feel more seen thanks to those guys. I hope everyone gets what i mean - no bad blood against anyone of course! So, thank you so much again i really appreciate you and your work here on youtube
Please take care of yourself and know that your subscribers care for you and wish you well. I appreciate your openness and thoughtfulness, and have very much been enjoying your reactions to BTS and other groups. Suga just finished his tour and I was able to see the Tokyo performance in a theater and live stream all the shows in Seoul. Amygdala was the last song on the set list and in each show, his final position was flat on his back on stage. Four hooded figures then carried off his inert body. He came back to an encore of D-Day ("Everything is gonna be okay"), Nevermind, and The Last (about initiating therapy) before walking offstage without saying goodbye (because it is never the end between us). However, for the last show he walked to a white door, turned and said goodbye, and then walked through, shutting it behind him. his enlistment was announced the next morning. Everyone felt the relief for his finally being set free, and the pain of our separation. This was after he himself became so emotional that he was crying during the last three songs (Snooze, Dear My Friend, and Amygdala ) to the point that the audience was singing them for him. He went live after the concert to explain that the whole past ten years just became present to him, and it was too much. Finally, before singing the final encore he took off his jacket and finally showed where he got the "7" friendship tattoo he'd been coy about revealing (the other guys showed theirs off a year ago). It's on his injured shoulder, above the surgery scar, like some sort of protection. Cannot tell you how emotional and cathartic the whole show was, and how it intensified the love and respect we all have for him.
Glad to see someone had the same psychological reaction to this that i did ......this makes me be able to relate to suga more ...and understand his personality more.....i thank him for opening up and allowing us into his heart and soul . This is the most impactful video i have ever e perienced ...
🇰🇷Suicide & depression stats are the highest globally. Mental Health is still a very unfortunate taboo subject, that it shouldn’t. This MV raises awareness. My opinion as a psychology professor in UK, this shouldn’t have a trigger alert warning.
4:16 noticed that Suga wearing Hoodie on the side eating "almond" a reference to the book "ALMOND" too, the character used to eat almond there thinking it'll help his small amygdala to grow. 🤧
I can totally relate to becoming a brash, hard and cold version of oneself as armour against emotional pain. It was also constructing a fortress around myself for awhile. That version of myself used coldness, cuss words and hardcore gangsta rap blasting through town as a defense mechanism. I refused to feel. It hurt too much. I've shed some of that shell thankfully.
Thank you. I think you did a great job interpreting this and appreciate your candid comments. I'm sorry You have had to go through so much also. Glad you found this to be inspirational and not just tragic.
I also recently read an article where he wrote this song with the theme of suicide and self harm. Yes, you're right and that's why he created these personas. I can really relate to this song and Suga's personality so well as I went through a personality syndrome myself. He created this song to not only tell about what happened in his life but to make everyone aware of these mental health issues that could turn a person to a dark side. So this is why he created this persona so he can go through everything and overcome everything through music. I agree that music is definitely a therapy.
suga took us on a very deep emotional personal journey, this video was an artistic masterpiece. i loved your commentary and reaction to this song. i personally had to go back and listen to the songs 'huh, 'dawn, and 'snooze. after reading the lyrics again i think, i received the total storm message ''of completeness'' from yoongi, suga, agust d, as one whole' person. this was an amazing video that was breathtaking and should be a psa for all to see. we all need help and suga gave us 'himself'. thanks again for your reaction.💜
I think the deepest part of this trilogy is the fact that the scarred persona dies at the end. We all have that version of ourselves, the one who is plagued by indescribable hurt. But in that hurt, if we do not heal from it, it causes us to make bad choices both towards ourselves and towards others. You have to have compassion for that part of you, they are the tortured one, but in the end the only way to rise above the things that have happened to you is to kill it. To say no, I have gone through these things, but I refuse to let them define who I am. I am not that person anymore, that hate and pain has no space in my life.
Musically it has nothing to do, but somehow it made me remember the song Scars by Papa Roach. And like half Linkin Park songs. It's the sad and the beacon of hope at the same time. I love your talking about the reason behind the songs, analysis and all that. It's hard to find people willing to speak about music and life like you.
This is a really simple video compared to Daechwita and Haegeum MVs for sure, but it's so powerful, and a genuinely hard watch. I couldn't rewatch it right away. I think I need to be in a better headspace first. But I'm seeing if I can rewatch through reactions for now without becoming a wreck. So far...it's a no. 😅 But I really appreciate how raw it is, and how open Yoongi continues to be about his struggles. When I see stuff like this I feel a little reassured. I think being able to create this means the artist has done a lot of processing, and a lot of work to be comfortable enough to express this part of themselves. It's brutal, but therapeutic for the artist too. And him being so open is so helpful for the listeners too. I'm sure he knows to some extent, but seeing someone else be truly open about their struggles can be so comforting for others. Like at least I'm not alone in feeling this way, yada yada. So yes, trauma track, but a comfort too.
It was either last year or the year before but a delivery driver spoke out about how Suga ordered food from the service that he worked for. It was raining heavily and there was no way for the driver to be contacted so Suga wrote on the delivery instructions "it's a rainy day, be careful - I don't care how long it takes you to get here"
I agree with all your points. I had another comment somewhere and it disappeared so I'm just going to go into the thoughts I had on the ending. It was a little confusing because I thought he would make it out of the room but now I'm thinking maybe he wasn't able to get out that room or into it from other side because he doesn't need those thoughts anymore and he can finally end that chapter by closing that door and leaving his old self behind...just a thought I had
Amygdala how the scar came to be. Deachwita both characters have the scar, finally in Haegeum the thief doesn't have the scar but the cop has the scar but it has somewhat faded and the non scarred character became victorious=Yoongi said D DAY is the day that he has freed himself from his past trauma
This song is incredibly powerful and I understand how it is overwhelming so many. I’m sorry you have had so many exceptionally difficult challenges and I hope this song helped you and helps others. It’s giving me a way to explain to myself how I feel. It’s raw emotions yet hopeful. He’s come out the other side. He’s better now he’s healing. We can too. 💜💜💜💜
I watched the mv only once yesterday, I hadn't been able to rewatch it since. I was able to watch it till the end cause I feel safe here. I loved your commentary, thank you
he first talked about his mother's heart surgery in bts song - Moving on- song in 2015 "(For the first time in my life in my mom’s womb, I used to count the days until my first moving; Vague memory, the cost of my moving was a machine in my mom’s heart and a big scar)". i can't even imagine him talking about all of this out loud, it must be hard. All of the memories were stored in his amygdala and he said he kept re-remembering and re-living them to write this song. This album is the healing album for him. he will stop using agust d as a peesona now. he even said that all the anger, hate and rage he had back then is now healed as you can notice comparing this album to (Agustd, D-2) albums. I love his healing journey ♥️
Sobre el mv , es cierto , min Yoon-Gi dijo que es una ayuda para los treiner nuevos y los idol de la industria, que espera que sea útil para ellos , todo el álbum da esperanzas a que puede ver lo que Suga , Min Yoon-Gi quiere transmitir y tomarlo como referencia en nuestras , luchas . Es dificil de decir pero en estos momentos ha sido muy muy muy bueno para mí , estoy pasando una situación muy parecida a lo que él paso , no es en mi persona , si no en mi hija menor , y se que con mucha ayuda de Dios amor y guai profesional ella saldrá de esto .
Thanks for this reaction, this is a very powerful song and mv. Also for connecting it to Daechwita and Haegeum. Even though it is outside this trilogy and it is BTS Suga - the other song/mv was Interlude: Shadow (it is part of another Jungian trilogy with RM - Persona and J-Hope - Ego) and it seems to be connected here. Also, this song seems to be about emotion and memory, particularly traumatic memory that traps us in endless loops. The hippocampus is the center for long-term memory and the signals from the amygdala have a lot to do with what memories are lodged in the hippocampus (at least this is my understanding). This is mostly perfectly fine - we can't remember everything and things that are given an emotional charge are more likely to be part of our long term memory (for instance, people can remember exactly what they were doing on September 11, 2001, not so much on September 10). But when there are certainly traumatic memories that we have to learn how to forget, or at least neutralize.
I think the I don't know your name line refers to the Alexithymymia one gets from an impaired amygdala. That is an inability to describe or distinguish emotions / feelings. Your amygdala can be affected by trauma. I understand it to be a reversible condition too. So don't lose hope.
And by the way. It's not that bad that video ended that past Yoongi can't open the door. Maybe it means Past can't get into present Yoongi s life. He don't live past anymore. Isn't it good. Even if he suffers now, sad or upset he don't let past influence on him
