Ima Virgo and boyyyy you are on point on my read and what you said on Sagittarius reading. This is exactly how he acting toward me and I feel that exact way you said
Hello! You're pretty spot on! New Subscriber!!!!! You came up in my feed some way some how. I finally got a chance to listen and with no hesitation I subscribed. I normally don't subscribe right away. Pretty accurate for Gemini. I'm not the sneaky one though.
♈️: #longpostalert #long post #NOTSHOOTINGTHEMESSENGER# This was a heavy 😢. Very #hurtful comments to hear. But I hear them. So to address these rumors and my sexuality being questioned I'm not gay, not a lesbianism, notbisexual, not bicurious. I Don't desire a woman in any way shape or form that I do a man. I know how people feel, because it's so easy for me to converse and interact with women and they think I'm checking them out #not #idontwantawoman. However, people feel like you can't interact with men or you clam up and shy away from talking to men. You don't ever have anything to say to them or you not all in a man's face. Let me just address this : And I don't care how people feel about what I have to say. Because it's past time I speak up for myself. When you're not groomed or shown how to have balanced, healthy interactions; Conversations and engagements or made to feel like it's ok to interact with the opposite sex growing up You have to teach yourself! I get it's on me to do this shit! That takes a lot of time and patience with yourself first and foremost Because why? I'm #learning to #unlearn toxic and faulty mindsets and that's not easy to do. Like interacting with men and being made to feel safe and it's okay; and realizing that all men aren't really out to get you or are bad. Or trying to use you. Debunking myths through my own experiences that they don't all want to just sleep with. Some are really good friends or have been. I'm still learning how to healthily communicate and interact with men. As opposed to having these negative connotations .#retrainyourbrain. So no I don't fit in. I'm not like your average female. I'm not perfect, I'm not stuck up or fake. I've learned to see thru alot of bs at the same time and so I don't fall for the typical okie doke games. On the flip side there are experiences as a child of being mishandled/inappropriately dealt with, that only up until I about 7 years ago I had the courage to address in counseling. Why am I saying all this? Because, there is a painfully realization that people don't know how to take the time and build a connection that is GENUINE and get to know me. These "past" people 😑 have yet to get to really know me as they sound like they so expertly do. They don't have my phone #. There are no text messages or phone calls between us. And if there was. Yes! I cut it off because I realize it was bullshit. It wasn't going anywhere. They weren't single. I wasn't willing to be a side piece or a mistress. There were times I thought whatever they had going on would end, but omg! I got slapped with reality multiple times and painfully and rightfully so and cut it off. So to wonder why?!! That's it. I'm not shallow and I don't see the need to continually bare my soul and emotionally cripple myself irreparably for those that would be more than satisfied with me doing so. I've had experiences where I been taken advantage of, dragged in a very exhausting and painful marriage and as well as not married. And sure people will say" nobody told you to marry him" or whatever the point is. I refuse to repeat it or have certain feelings again. I'm not new to relationship life and all the drama that comes with it. For me it doesn't take 288+ relationships, situationships, quickies, one night stands, talking situations and whatever else to understand a "walking waste of time". For what??!!!! To have companionship, to not be lonely, to prove I'm not Gay??? I don't think so!!! I know myself, I'm very aware, of my surroundings! I know I'm not all that well received where I am. But I have obligations and responsibilities changes have to be well thought out and planned because other people's lives are at stake. And I know I'm irritatingly shy and reserved. I get it that I can come off as playing mind games and being coi. I'm aware of the fact that I am emotionally immature a bit. But these changes take time. Yes I need to grow up. But how does putting myself in situations that are -only going to hurt me and cause emotional scarring that I have to then take more time to heal from -yield a healthy experience. How does that grow me and change me for the better? However, since I've spent so much time alone, and further more liking someone doesn't equate to being in a relationship with them. As it's being setup to believe. I'm taken, I'm married, #bullshit I'm cheating #bullshit. It doesn't go anywhere. Being by yourself, you learn, yourself, you see your own flaws as well, no one told me I was emotionally immature. That was a realization through self reflection. It's easy to cut people off that aren't any good for you when you're not emotionally attached because of sex. So yeah, might like you but if it's not going anywhere what am I holding on to. And I agree, if two people haven't came to an agreement to be exclusive it's fair game. It keeps you from getting your feelings hurt.i hate to go in like this. But I can't hold back anymore I hear to much shit and I don't address it and it's just long overdue. I don't discuss stuff like like this but I have to just meet people where they come to. What hurts about these perceptions is that you're being viewed as shallow, greedy, and all about my business.....am I supposed to fall apart because I can't or haven't mastered the art of having a social life. Ohio Edison Don't care about me not having no man! Life goes on, and things get addressed and worked out over time. But I can't fall apart and hold up my life for people who trying to destroy me. I'm also criticized heavily and judged brutally for it at the same time. Like how are you inspiring and they want to make money together and all this shit but you ashamed embarrassed by me at the same time??. 🤔 But you a good look for business??FOH And I got ulterior motives???whose really shallow and greedy? And superficial? I've never fit my whole life. Didn't even grow up in my own family. Didn't fit in as a kid. I was reading on an 8th grade level in the first grade. I wasn't really all that desirable in school, but once I got into a relationship in middle school it lasted until my sophomore year of college. I regret choosing college over him honestly. #realtalk Speaking of lonely an only child. I'm used to it. I'm over being judged and mislabeled by everybody. People are #cockblockers and wonder why you single. How do you tell someone to keep it shallow??? I also eventually went to my mom and was raised by my step-dad and they both couldn't read. Like I had an usual youth. And all that being shielded supposedly from boys so you wouldn't be a teen mom and I had a boyfriend the whole time. I just hid it !😂 But step dad was super hard on me care giver super hard on me and gave everyone else kid gloves treatment. Like it's a challenge and has been a challenge to not feel like you don't deserve but everyone else does. So I think the real question is" why do you have so much audacity"? Why do I hold back emotionally? Because, I've been repeatedly rejected. It's really hard to keep picking yourself back up only to get humiliated all over again. And yes, opportunities come when you least expect them and
I'm dumbfounded, discouraged, low key over it, because I just get the same results. I'm dragging because u been thru it repeatedly and it just isn't all that exciting Their compelling enough to get your hopes up. But you just can't do it in a timely fashion . I need to take my time and go slow but nobody wants or understands that in this day and age. I like and need direct communication Direct conversation. No subliminal, . I don't communicate subliminal and I don't care for it. I understand it but "you know what I mean" and "you know what I'm trying to say" don't cut it for me. Talk to me! Plainly! Take a risk! #kindahard if a guy not genuine.i get it they fear rejection too! But that's why building a friendship leads to a connection where both are comfortable That takes time. And both people have to feel safe. But if I'm not given a chance how can I give man that? (A single one)😂 . I'm just saying I don't want a secret relationship or a taboo situation or are fwb or anything like that , however if I'm spending time with someone and we're getting to know one another and we're getting closer does that not naturally at some point lead to a desire for physical intimacy? Why is it demonizing of me to catch feelings why is it a one night stand? To me somewhere wants a one night stand knows exactly how to get what they want and gets it and don't give 2 shots about how someone feels or views them. That's not me! Like I'm tired of being made to look Hella whitish and contradictory. It's painful, it hurts . I have struggles this shit ain't it. I'm #learning to #unlearn and I don't care no more. Already alone and Hella people don't like me or trust and I'm aware of it and I know to pick my battles Cuz people dying for mento get out of my #character and do the most. People love to push buttons. They want to see you go off and get angry. It's just time for me to speak up! And I wish people really wanted to genuinely connect but I get it. They don't even trust you. But rejection is #protection and the person that's truly for me ain't #scared to connect with me. So whoever needs to see this here you go cause I know you lurking, watching and stalking. You ain't stopping nothing! ✌️
Look, this is nerve jangling as hell for me to say but I really do like you and have alot of admiration for you. I feel like this an opportunity for me to grow and face my fears. I'd like to get to know you better. If I was closer, I'd buy you dinner.
