Am I Christian OR Pagan? (The Unraveling Continues...) 

I can't thank you enough for this video. I consider myself a Buddhist Christian. I value the wisdom of both Buddha and Christ, and I have accepted Jesus into my heart. I am saved but I am open to the truth of the human experience. I have never really fit anywhere spiritually both in society and in churches. I am also open to the energies of the earth. Maybe that is why I have a BS degree in Geology. I just want to say that I support you and your journey 100%. You are awesome and its nice to see someone brave enough to speak their truth!! 💝💖💗

I paused the video at 11:16 to say I'm a Christian and I just subscribed to your channel. I am praying for you. My advice would be to ask God for wisdom and read His word. Big hugs! ❤

I’m a Christian and I’ve always loved when you talk about your beliefs on this channel. You once said “I want my church to look how heaven will look” and I’ve never forgotten that! I sometimes feel like it’s hard for me to fit into a group too. Thank you for sharing your wisdom.

You don't sound wierd at all! I'm a druid and know many Christian druids. Not that you need a box. It's just to let you know that your not alone. In the beginning of Christianity pagans and Christianity was very blended. I agree that there is so much overlap. Proud of you for sharing and I hope everyone will be understanding.

I’m so glad that I’m not the only person who feels Christian/Pagan. I’ve been struggling a lot with the idea of it even being possible. I was raised to be terrified of all things Wicca/pagan, especially tarot cards. Always wanted some, tho. 😅

The labels slapped on us by society are ridiculously limiting. I avoid them if at all possible. I have loved ones all over the religious spectrum and as long as they respect me, I respect them. That applies also to You-Tubers. If anyone cancels you for label overlap, IT'S THEIR LOSS.

JESUS is enough - period. Being Christian is enough. I think it's VERY important to be honest with yourself. If others want to be something else that's fine, but to abandon/muddy any percentage of your faith to somehow get/feel closer to ANYONE (children included) is SO hurtful to the one true Savior. I think it's also critical to keep in mind what you said when you opened your heart to Jesus and became saved. I think we can all agree that requires devoting 100% of your heart and soul...nothing less.

I have a friend whose ChristianPagan

You are a true believer in good and open to many ways. You are good and beautiful and filled with love and light. Labels are just words. Truth is in the heart. Confucius says? I sound like a fortune cookie MMMmmm cookies!!!!

i am so proud of you for being vulnerable about this, i cannot even put into words how special it is that you shared this. ive never commented on a video before, but ive been watching you for years and i just wanted to let you know how much you mean to me, and how much your honesty means to me. thank you for everything you do! ♡

Thank you for sharing. Even though I'm Christian I've always gotten along better with friends and people who don't completely follow a prescribed path. In my experience they are more open, understanding, kind, and less judgemental than those who are rigid. It's nice to watch your videos and know there are others out there who are similar.

Bravo Melissa! I'm a Christian witch too! Thank you for making this video. I have felt exactly as you describe, and I have a similar background. I mostly keep it to myself because it's just easier. I know this took a lot of courage, so I want to acknowledge your bravery. You have inspired me. Keep being you! Amen and Blessed Be!

That was so beautiful Melissa. I completely agree with you, the Divine energy is One and a milon at the same time. We just give it different names and alter the concepts but energy is energy. The only people I would cancel is the one who exclude and categorize others rather than embracing them for their true selvs.

Maybe that’s why I like you a lot because I understand you’re language and your spiritual language 😊 Anyway, I think that we need to be ourselves and you are beautiful like that 💫!!!! I am very spiritual too and when I talk about that people are a little bit scared 😅. I just know that there is an after life 💖!!!!!! I think that it is wonderful to let yourself be 😊!!!!!!

It's so wild that you talked about this when you did. I just started to embrace my own witchcraft journey a month ago and i've been struggling a lot with guilt because i'm also a christian. Thank you for making me feel less alone. I feel like i'm not crazy for being called to this spiritual lifestyle now that I see i'm not alone! I can be a witch AND a christian. I can call jesus my lord AND practice with tarot cards. Life is good! Sending all my love to you Melissa :)

I think for me 2020 really pushed me into my deconstruction. I was raised Catholic went to Catholic school the whole 9 yards. I never fully agreed with that system of beliefs and always struggled. Then I turned 18 and "rebelled" against my family and was saved in a nondenominational Christian church. Which a lot of family had a lot of big feelings with that. Even that church didn't feel like home. For me as a woman I tried so hard to pray away parts of me. (I am bisexual) and I made it my whole life's mission to get married and have babies because that was our purpose as women right? Then I met my husband and we found out that I am infertile basically. Which really led me to ask so many questions about my "faith," and why would God put this on my heart so heavily, and tell me that this was my purpose when I couldn't have children? Then in 2018 we did ivf and I was pregnant. Then that pregnancy ended in a miscarriage, that's when we discovered my uterus has a septum and it would be dangerous for me to have children. Then 2019 came and I lost my Papa to a freak accident when he fell and hit his head on the kitchen counter. When I tell you the depression that sat even deeper. I wanted to end things but kept going. Church was no longer a happy place for me either because politics had moved in and I could NOT agree with things that were being preached. So one day I am scrolling through Facebook and I found a man who was getting rid of his boxer puppy he had just got and my husband told me it was okay to get him. Well the man had found another home for the puppy while I was talking to him but in that conversation I did find out who the breeder was. So I contacted the breeder and he he had a female white boxer available, I told him I really wanted a male and preferably a fawn. So he said he would be in touch with future litters. Then the next day he got in touch with me and said that he had a male that became available. That also came with a warning that he was significantly smaller than the rest of his litter and he was a bottle baby. I say that is fine and we plan a day for me to get him. When this man walked out of his home with my puppy I was not prepared for how small he was. My 12 week old boxer puppy was the size of a 8 week chihuahua puppy. So we brought Loki home that day and my husband said he couldn't remember the last time I was that happy. What I didn't know at the time was I had found my familiar. Loki was born on the day we unplugged my grandpa's life support(brain activity had stopped) We brought Loki home on my due date for the pregnancy I had lost. I promised myself on the way home with my puppy I would work on getting rid of the negative thoughts. I worked on self care by January of 2019 I was ready to take on life, funnily enough 3 months later the world shut down. And the deconstruction really began to happen. I realized a lot of my own religious traumas and how much the church hurt me. The actual church not God or Jesus, I still love the mythology of the Christian faith but I have really opened up to other avenues of beliefs. My husband has watch me transform and is starting to subscribe to my belief structure, he isn't reading tarot but doesn't mind me doing so. I realize now that I have written an entire book it feels in your comment section. The point being is there are plenty of Christian witches out there and it's scary to come out of the broom closet. Mostly because society as a whole is judgmental. However you are right all religions are connected we are ment to be connected and find understanding and kindness and love in each other.

I’m keeping you in my prayers. I’m Roman Catholic!! Thank you for your video.

Thank you for sharing this with us! It definitely took a lot of courage. I’ve been watching your videos since I was in middle school and I’m currently getting my masters degree. I’ve been struggling this past year with my own mental health/idea of myself and your videos have really shown me I’m not alone in these experiences. Thank you for always providing a safe and accepting space to grow!

I’m a Christian this is a beautiful video!

Not the exact same thing but I had a similar experience when I came out. Like my Christan family/friends told me I couldn't be gay and be a child or God and my gay friends told me God wasn't real and I needed to undo that brainwashing. It took time but I found that they were both wrong lol. I can be gay and believe and trust in God and I believe He loves everyone...EVERYONE...no matter what. So proud that you made this video because I belive that religion like many other things are flexible and each person needs to figure out where they fit. And it's awesome to see people feel comfortable with hoe God made them!

I’m not weirded out at all. What you just said is what I felt for the past couple years. You’re about six months older than I am but we share a lot of the same spirit. I was raised Christian but have found myself lost because people use that faith to be ugly, mean, and hateful to people I love. They say they’re Christian in one breath and in the next condemn my child to hell for their choices. I’ve always felt connected to energies. I’m very empathetic I can tell what somebody is feeling just being around them. I’ve always been able to pick up on that sort of thing. I’ve always been able to associate sounds and personalities with colors. I’ve also been able to pick up on patterns and sense moods around me. While I’m not Wicca I have used cleansing candles and Sage. I arranged a Wicca wedding for one of my best friends in our backyard. Studied as much as I could so that I could represent all she believed in that space. Had an altar to the corners in a beautiful flower bed, bells and crystals hanging from the tree branches, and flower Wreathes floating in our pool. I’ve always said that one of the most important verses in the Bible talks about “one voice many mouths”. The other one is “as I have loved you love one another”. Christians forget that Christianity is a choice not a character trait. It doesn’t make you better than anybody else, quite the contrary, Jesus wanted us to humble ourselves not brag about our faith. I’ve said it many times, man invented God to explain what he could not. To have something to believe in. To foster hope. Times have changed now man uses God to foster hate. To force their will upon others. To put down what they believe is inappropriate. Our world is no better than it was in the 1600s when the king James version of the Bible was edited by a misogynistic and homophobic society. My spirituality is very personal. This country was founded on that. To worship as we will believe as we want. Thank you for making me feel less alone. I’m glad that I’m not the only one who finds themselves unraveled. As a creator I find that unraveling things allows me to create something new out of the livings. I guess that’s just what we’re doing now in our 60th decade.

That's all good, I'm following you from ireland for the last few years .I'm a Catholic and also follow shamism. Do you .There is a college here that does tarot believe it or not .there is a lot of Irish mythology that would link in with your beliefs .if your ever make it here ,visit the hill of Tara and newgrange .they will blow your spiritual socks off .

I’m connected so much to you !!! I love dolls and everything to do with what you just talked about!!! I feel so blessed thanks so much!!!

I'm personally agnostic and idk if there is anything out there but I don't really care to find out tbh. Either way I feel ppl should believe what they feel is real. It's not my place to judge.

Not weirded out at all.🥰 I think you’re amazing for telling your truth to the people who watch and listen to this channel.❤️

I grew up in a cult (the “Christian Church” NOT the same thing as Disciples of Christ). I’m slowly trying to break out. I’m not sure if what I believe about God but I study witchcraft.

My sister is both pagan and Christian , I'm wicca and we both accept and love each other and I really don't understand why people would shun someone for identifying with more than one thing. Let people live their life and their truth. I'm sorry that you had to go through that live your best life

This is a very wise video. Thank you for the education.

I’m the exact same as you in my belief system. You’re not alone! ❤

I used to call myself a christian, now I don't. I spent too many years in churches where nothing was good enough for anyone. So, if you asked me what my "religion" is I would say , Just Jesus! No church, no rules, no fancy clothes! It is important for you to be able to share your truth as we all probably need to. As long as you are strongly connected to God, you will be fine, he is truly our rock and eternal hope!

Your a beautiful love and a blessing 💕🌟

Thank you so much for sharing this video 💖🙏💖😊 ... and I love your make-up 💖

I definitely feel this video. I'm both. I grew up protestant but after a tragedy of losing my fiance, I converted to paganism. I wanted to believe in something more than heaven. I'm an empath and I take on energies of the people around me so I felt i needed something other than Christianity to believe in. My mom and I have also had premonitional dreams. I attend a very understanding church that is run by the lgtbqai+ community. So they believe in acceptance and love. They accept me as i am where as my last church patronized me. I battle constant pain and depression which makes my 30+ years of life feel meaningless. I had to start letting go of the things that were drilled into me growing up in a so sheltered christian life. My dad was a pastor that later came out as gay and was shunned by the church community. My mom wouldn't allow us to celebrate Halloween or watch shows like the Simpsons cuz she thought they were evil. As we grew up my mom could understand why my brother and i chose to be pagans. We needed something more than God after what happened in our lives. As I gave up on God at one point and had to find a balance to this. I read an article about how you can be pagan and still christian and believe in the Christian god. Now i meditate and pray to the goddess and to god. I am happier this way.

You are allowed to believe whatever you want. It shouldnt matter if you have 0 gods or 1000 gods. It shouldnt matter if your book of choice is the bible, the koran, book of shadows or any other book. I used to do wiccan stuffs as a teen and in my early 20's. I'm still interested in it, but I havent practice it for many many years. I dont have a god. My belief is that our bodies are just a shell to hold our souls and that when we die, the soul wander on earth until a new suitable shell is available. Sometimes the shell is faulty and cant hold the soul, which lead to an early death or a miscarriage. And sometimes the soul gets a shell that doesnt quiet match but isnt faulty, so we are force to stick with it. I belive in the paranormal. I also believe that we have a connection with aliens. That many of the gods mentioned in old scripts etc, was in fact aliens visiting us. That we also are somewhat related to them spiritually. We all have our own believes. And that is totally fine. If your christian friends turns their back on you bc of your believes, then they are not your real friends. Love you❤️

So, I'm of an age with you. I was raised Catholic, but I wouldn't say my family was super religious. We went to mass, but that's about it. In college I was a history major which involved studies of world religions. My personal beliefs are a combination of things, but Agnostic fits, mostly. I have faith in Jesus and God, yet I have this strong connection to this earth, our Mother. There's much more, but I'm sure you get the idea. Here's the thing. The majority, especially all of the big religions, all have 3 tenets in common 1. Be kind to others 2. Be kind to the Earth and 3. Be kind to yourself. All of it, boils down to these three things. How we as individuals go about this looks different, but it's all really the same outcome, you know? There is no one way.

Well done Melissa. Love you. I think you will find that many people of Faith have a number of beliefs under the umbrella of a particular main stream faith system. I am a Baha'i. Baha'is believe in progressive revelations. That we are all connected as one human family. My spiritual journey has led me to many things like Tarot, oracle cards , angels and I have a close love affair with Jesus. I am learning about all manifestations of God and want to learn their Sacred Writings. I hope the people in your life realize that Jesus wasn't a Christian. People who believe in Jesus are followers of Christ. All the other stuff is man made and made to divide us. We are all one family, forget the labels people try to put on you. You are an extraordinary women. Beautiful inside and out. We need to love one another, up lift one another, we are all on our journey to God. Blessings to you.

That is such an important thing to admit to yourself, Melissa. I struggled a lot with this. I learnt to be much more open to different views. And yes, all faiths are one, no need to battle each other. Let's try to find balance in life all together. (Myself, I am very much into THE FORCE. Star Wars, yes. I can be very much a divine experience. But I incorporated mostly the fighting Mandalorian aspect.)

This year has been crazy for me too I accidentally deleted the start of a 10k report for uni in January so I had to restart it. It was a close call it I was going to finish it in time I did btw, then my laptop needed a new battery oh the joy lol. I got my first job this year and caught covid. Yeah this year has been crazy. I appreciate you sharing your thoughts on 2022 and faith x. BTW God loves pagans and christians and anyone with a different believe xox

I am looking forward to more content about this in 2023. I happen to be on a similar path and can totally vibe with everything you said. It was great to hear about your spiritual journey. Cheers to 2023!

Ooooooooo how interesting I support u anyway ! 💜🖤 u are an amazing woman don’t worry about me and my reaction ❤always remember that I support you and love u and I love u we are friends and I love you Millisa And please tell us more so I can learn more

Thank you for sharing and feeling brave with us.

Thank you for your vulnerability. Sending you love.

This is a huge growth in your life. Thank you for being this vulnerable. ❤️

Want you to know I watched all the way through and can appreciate where you're at in your journey. I'm sure you've heard that Christ said he is (not was) THE way, THE truth, THE life. He repeatedly said follow HIM, not others. I will pray for your clarity and wisdom, and I would encourage you to invoke the name of the one son of God, Jesus Christ. I truly believe the holy spirit will reveal him to you. I don't mean to isolate you with these words, but our eternity is too important to be wishy washy on.

Omg Melissa I am sooo happy you opened this conversation I can’t tell you how excited I am about this 😭 at first I was like huhhh how can one be a pagan Christian? But your story and your approach and the way you explained how you feel truly makes sense and this is truly so important 💕 I’m so sorry the fellow witches you were around didn’t understand and same for the Christians. Your light does NOT deserve to be dimmed like that. I am positive there is a community for Christian witches and you will find your flock I just know it, you putting this out there makes all the difference! While you were talking I thought to myself “yeah, if someone is communicating w spirit guides or deities why couldn’t that spirit be God?” I love that you’re getting back into what makes your spirit shine!! That’s the beautiful thing of us all having our own path. From a fellow witch, blessed be to you 🤍 I’m celebrating your flame being reignited right here w you!!! Hooray!!! 🎉🔥