Am I Messed Up 

Some days are mellow Other days are bright Then when it's cloudy Thoughts full of doubt Life is the perfect possibility To always figure things out It's going to be alright 🎈🎈🎈😊

Haven't really had any sleep, I hope it made sense

Kevin I will keep Keith in my prayers but what I have to say to you is never mind what Keith did for you know, You need to be there for him. you just going to have to suck it up and just go,he maybe scare and really need his friend. God forbid if .... you would feel worse than you feel right now ..story, I have a girlfriend we r very close, very close like you and Keith and she told me how she never liked hospitals as we became friends so when I had my open heart surgery she was not there and I felt some kind of way about it but then I had to understand she explained to me over and over through the years that she doesn't like hospitals and just seeing me in that situation would have made of her..., but it wasn't about her it was about me but I understand, but every now and then it comes back to me that she wasn't there and it still hurts a little so do what you can even if you just stay five minute I'm sure u know " some times in life u got to do what u don' t want to do"