An Emotional Vlog | Weekly Vlog | Elle Darby 

Seeing that massive smile on your face when sitting in your mums car is everything 🤍

Elle holding it together but putting tears in everyone else’s eyes 😭 how are you so strong and brave 😫 love how your face lit up in the car x

Elle sitting in the car and saying "mum, how do I do this?" broke me. Even though she was smiling and happy about getting her mum's car back, it just made me think of all the things in life that you need your mum's help with. You're so strong, such an inspiration! Sending you love

I can’t imagine how immensely proud your mum is of you and Katie and all your achievements. Stay strong queens 💖

This was a lovely tribute to your mum Elle. Well done for not only documenting this but allowing us to see it, I know this is going to help so many people. You are a lovely strong young lady and Conner is a great support to you. See you on the next vid. Big love 💕

my heart aches for you Elle. you’re such a strong, positive soul and I think it’s incredible that even in some of your darkest moments, you still manage to shine so brightly, and bring comfort to others. a true angel🤍

You’ve reminded me to not take my mum for granted, I barely see her I sadly moved a good 30 minute drive away from her and I don’t drive. If I got a bus it’s over an hour and I have a toddler so it’s just a nightmare, I had a think to myself there and thought ‘if my mum died right now what would I think/say to myself’ - I would regret not spending more time with her, not taking that hour long journey to sit with her, not texting her everyday and mostly not telling her I love her enough. I’m 23 and she’s 53 so similar ages to you and your mum. Thank you for that reminder, I think of you and Katie a lot 💖

Lost my dad two years ago. He had a stroke about 15 minutes after I left his house. I always cry on his birthday and it's always at a really random point of the day. Grief is a weird thing.

getting through the first occasions (birthdays, Christmas’, the anniversaries) are always the hardest but I love how you celebrated your mums birthday, she would’ve been so happy you vlogged it 🤍 my love goes to you and Katie 💗

When u look and it was 11:11 that was a perfect moment of your mum saying hello. The lighting everything 🦋

Thank you Elle for allowing us into your mums first heavenly birthday. I lost my father out of the blue when I was expecting in the hospital I still work in. My daughter was born on the day he passed away. Sending you so much love darling. Your mum will always be smiling down and know her two beautiful princesses are still continuing each day knowing shes with them. X

Your smile when you were in your mums car, I bet she was sitting right there in the passenger seat with you all proud 💖

There’s a beautiful white butterfly that visits my garden every morning and every time I see it, it reminds me of you and your lovely mum! Much love to you 👑😇

Absolute shivers all over my body. Your mum was with you all day and sat beside you in the car and it was her that made you listen to her cds so you could smile and remember to good times. Xxxx

The moment you sat in your mums car, omg, such a beautiful moment. Sending my love to you and your family x

There were butterflies on your dog walk! Seeing butterflies shortly after losing a loved is a beautiful sign that the spirit of your loved one lives on. Sending light and love from North Carolina USA! LOVE YOU GUYS!

The car would be a lovely gift to Katie when sbe learns to drive, getting her mums car as her first car🥰

You are so strong Elle. Every time you talk about your mum I get so choked up. Can’t even begin to imagine how hard these past few months have been for you. ❤️

I’m 16 and my dad suddenly passed away November 2018, I think you using your platform to talk about how you are feeling with complete honesty is amazing💞 if you or anyone else needs someone to talk or relate to through the unbelievably hard and seemingly impossible times of grief I’m here :)

It might sound strange but I really appreciate you sharing such a sore and sensitive experience with us. You have no idea how many people that this will help. It’s so relieving to know everyone has those days where they can’t function properly and to just accept it. Embrace the days where you can’t do what you need to do and do stuff they loved doing. Live their life for the day and it helps you to feel closer to them. I’m so glad you went and drove her car, ate her favourite foods, met up with her best friends, went for a walk in her favourite places. It shows that she is living through you and it is amazing to see. You are such and angel and I adore you. Love you girl

Your face when starting your mums car had me bawling my eyes out just the raw emotion and happiness in your eyes...you're such an inspiration and lucky to have con by your side as he is lucky to have u to xxxxxx

Your face when you sat in your mums car 🥺 you had me crying at many points in this video. So raw. So beautiful. Your mum would be so proud.

The joy in your eyes and face when you talk about happy memories brings me so much happiness for you. You are the kindest and bravest soul and you deserve so much in life. I know every day must be hard for you but you truly can do it 💗

How can someone be so pure and genuine, your mum must be so proud of you and Katie. Keep slaying angel because you’re doing an amazing job at that!🤗♥️

I’ve lost both my parents & i’m so happy you’re talking about your grief and how you’re dealing with life without your Mum. You don’t realise how much comfort you’re providing to people going through similar experiences! Sending so much love to you & Katie 💕

I’m 21 and lost my mum last October unexpectedly, it’s so refreshing to see someone celebrating an anniversary without feeling guilty in doing so, Thank you Ellie💗

Sending hugs to you and Katie, when you sat in your mam's car your face said a thousand word. Take care Elle xxx

I don't understand how you don't have millions of subscribers. Your so genuine, funny, loving and talented. Love you Elle xxxx

I just can’t get over how incredibly strong you are. You really are a credit to your beautiful mother. Never deny how you are feeling beautiful 💕💕💕💕

I think it’s really great that you document the moments that make you feel emotional. It’s really important for everyone to understand that moments like your mum’s birthday will make you feel emotional so that we all see that it’s okay to just let ourselves feel those emotions. We shouldn’t worry about what other people might think. Sending you and Katie lots of love and hugs x

Oh Elle, you've made me cry again...in a nice way....my mum's car is an extension of her...so I just wept when you got in it .and spotted the old toy..I'm glad you have it xx Thank you for sharing darling xxx I think you planned the day right xx And if Katie was here you might of worried about her more .than your own grief...so you did it..first anniversary XXX

The glow on your face at 21:16 when you said “just wish her happy birthday”, she was there with you. She always is. She is watching you grow into the amazing woman that she raised. So much love to you all🕊🤍

This is so helpful Elle. My fiancé and I found his dad dead last year and I've never really known what to do for him on those particular occasions as he never really talks about it. Vlogs like this help not only people who are struggling with their own grief, but friends, family and loved ones who are trying to help on the outside. Thinking of you and Katie this week and thank you ❤

Thank you for sharing Mums Bday day with US. She would be So...proud of how beautiful inside & out you are.....When u mentioned mums Memory Box my tears were rolling. The Beetle such a lovely thing to do. One brave daughter xx

Elle, I have lost my mum too. It is extremely hard when you pass birthdays, Christmas & Mother’s Day. I release balloons with messages on and see them float up to heaven for her to catch. She’s with you everyday💗

The smile on your face when you sit in your mums car, wow! This video is so raw and really captures the heart. I wish I could give you a big hug. I’m sorry you couldn’t be with Katie and your dad and other family at this time but my god I’m so glad you have Connor. You’re truly amazing Elle, really you are. Your mum will forever be so so proud of you and Katie🦋🦋

Literally just wanna give you a hug 🤍🤍 just remember she’s high in the sky looking down and celebrating every second with you each day 🤍

Without a doubt those butterflies were your mum. I sob every time I watch you and you make me want to cherish time with my parents. Well done for making it the most positive day and making it the most special ever!💗

Elle, You’re so brave! You’re angel for Katie, Mom is proud of You.

You and Katie are making your mum so proud! I wouldn’t know myself how to cope losing my mum, but you see Katie are incredibly strong! Keep your head high your mum is always looking over you!💕

I’ve got such a weird feeling that once you and Con are a bit more settled, your mum is going to bless you with a baby. I hope you’re okay. It’s awful but it does get easier, slowly but surely 🧸🤍

You are so so strong and brave Elle 💗 Grief is still something I am straight with but seeing you document and openly speak about your grief really helps and sends a reminder that I'm not alone 🥰

It’s my mums birthday today as well and she’s been gone for nearly 5 years ago now it’s doesn’t get any easier you just learn to live with it better one day at a time . It will be ok you will heel it just takes time and you will put it in a place where u feel comfortable with it. It must be lovely to have the car so many fun times to think of . X

I love seeing these kinds of videos where you honest and sharing so much with us! We’re so happy to see you posting what makes you happy. Your mum would be so proud of your growth during this season of life. I love that you were able to get her car! So happy for you and that you have con there for you, he seems so caring for you! Love you 💞💞

Gosh Elle, you’re just amazing. The way you made such a hard day so special and clearly a celebration of your mum, I’m sure that’s exactly what she’d have wanted. Sending lots of love x

Loved this. Your mum would be so proud of the kind of person you are. So pure and kind ❤

Darling girl, your so brave and so open which you don’t realise helps so many people! Your mum would be so proud of you! 💓

Your face in your mums car had me in tears. You are honestly so strong elle and i ADMIRE you. Your journey with grief has helped me cope so much with losing my grandparents and you are honestly amazing💗 thank you so much and we all love you 💗xx

My heart breaks for you Elle, it truly does. I’m just getting ready to go out for dinner with my boyf and I’ve just finished my make up and couldn’t hold in the tears any longer. You’re amazing, you’re incredible, you’re a true inspiration to so many girls. I feel like I really know you because I’ve been watching your videos for so long, way back when you were doing bikini competition prep. Hope you have an amazing day angel if you read this. Sending all my love to you, always❤️

I think its lovely and a positive step in your grief journey, losing your mum is really hard but I think she's very proud of you and how your handling it, she will always be with you and shes shining down from the sky with all the other mums watching over their daughters with pride xxx

Been thinking a lot about you this week Elle. Sending you and Katie all the love in the world. You’re so strong and I admire you so much. Your mum would be so proud of you and Katie. Love you so much xxxxx🤍🤍🤍

Oh Elle😭 you are so strong! Your mum is looking down at you now and she’s more proud than ever💖

I cried so much when you said happy birthday mum. I hope God gives you the blessings you and your family deserve xxx

We were thinking of both you and Katie this week, your mum is so so proud of you both. Sending you so much love ❤️

In tears once again! I love how much you can open up about these things, it must be hard doing it off camera, let alone letting all of us in! You’re mum would be so proud of you, so genuine and warm hearted xxx

I'm in bits 😭 What a lovely day and to get your Mums car on that day too is amazing. Such a beautiful touch xxx

Your mum would be so proud of you, you are the sweetest soul ever, a true angel 🥺❤️✨

recently your vlogs have been really long and tbh I’m here for it!!

Elle, your words when speaking about your mum were absolutely beautiful🤍 she will be so so proud of you and is watching down on you always. As I opened my door to watch this video outside a white butterfly flew past me - she’s definitely here xxx

Hope you’re okay Elle honestly I love you so much and you call us angels but if we’re angels you’re the god! You’re always looking so pretty so cute no matter what even without makeup I love you and if you see this I just hope you know that you are worth it and you’re so pretty and you’re personality is just so cute😍😍 love you Elle thankyou for being a god to us angels ❤️❤️✨✨✨

I've only recently found your you tube Ellie and all your content about your Mum is so refreshing to see. I lost my own Mum to cancer when I was 17 so seeing someone else go through it and being honest and raw is so important. Thanks for sharing something I know is so hard to share xx

Your mum did orchestrate meeting up with her best friend - she’s always with you 💞 Even in the simple things like 11:11 and the white butterfly. I hope in time you can hop in the car with Katie and Con for road trips here, there and everywhere singing along to all those old classics together!

Your face when you first saw your mums car was so lovely to see, just pure happiness! Happy heavenly birthday Deborah Jane Xxx

I lost my dad to suicide when I was 6....I say it's harder when you are older. On the flip side you were blessed with many many years of love and memories. Praying for you. Stay blessed 💕

😪 Elle I’ve just caught up with your video. Watching you has bought back so many memories for when I had to endure the first year after losing my mum to a brain tumour 4 years ago. I lost her when I was 31 and I thought I was the only one at that age to lose a parent so young, but you are right, there are so many young girls going through the same journey. 4 years on and I still dread special dates and some days I find myself wondering who I am without my mum (like I’m totally lost) listening to you is how I feel a lot of the time, and you are right, give herself permission to get up later and do those things that make you feel close to your mum. You are sooo strong Elle 😘 I may have cried through the second part of your video, but to listen and watch you helps me to cry and release my feelings, because as a mum and a woman I feel I have to be strong all the time. Thank you 🤗 xx

I lost my dad with in 3 months of being diagnosed with cancer and 7 months later lost my sister with a brain bleed so I understand the feeling your going through.. much love 💖💖😘

Your strength is so inspiring Elle, I am sure your mum is looking down on you smiling and sending you signals to tell you how proud of you she is. ❤️ Meeting her best friend, butterflies, feathers. ❤️

Aww elle this video broke my heart, wished I could just jump in the screen and give you a big hug. You mum is so proud of you angel

Again I’m in awe of your skin! Your beautiful mum blessed you with not only good looks but a lovely personality!😌

HANG IN THERE, i WAS 23 WHEN MY MOM DIED UNEXPECTLY ONE MONTH AFTER MY DAD DIED AND 2 MONTHS AFTER MY SON WAS BORN i WANTED TO DIE, BUT i AM 66 AND STILL HERE, BE THANKFUL YOU HAVE YOUR VIDEOS, BECAUSE i REALLY CAN'T REMEMBER WHAT M,Y MOM SOUNDS LIKE, IT WILL GET EASIER, BUT YOU WILL ALWAYS MISS HER. HUGS

You are the most genuine and beautiful woman, inside and out. Your mum would be proud at what amazing girls she has raised, you are a true credit to her 💕

Omg ellie now u have put me in a predicament . Just got sorted to start tackling the garden something I hate then I see a notification from u.now I'm like sugar do I continue the half hour vlog or do I do my garden that I hate but if I sit down with a tea an biscuit will I actually get bk up an go do the garden. I don't think I will 🤦🏻‍♀️.but your looking stunning as always girl xxx

Hand on my heart you are one of the strongest people I've ever come across. You're an inspiration Elle, your Mum is so incredibly proud of you and Katie 🧡

Last October I came home and found my Dad died in his bed overnight, it shook me to my cor will never ever be the same, crushed my soul so deeply, right then and there part of me died instantly. Never thought at my age I will never be able to have the honor to say "DAD",again, not in the present tense, would give the world to do so!! Hug & appreciate your parents, they are a blessing..... close your eyes, try to picture your life without seeing, hearing or hugging either of them again, it is a billion times worse in real life.

The white butterflies on your walk 🦋🥺🤍 she’s with you, always. Every time I see them I think of you. Thoughts are always with you & Kitkat 🤍✨

When I heard lights up by Harry styles playing in the background of Zara I freaked out

I cried just watching your smile in your mums car. She will be so thankful. You are so strong and you have been the best sister to Katie xxx

Never been this early

It’s your year of firsts without your mom and it is truly so admirable that you have allowed yourself to show vulnerability during these difficult moments. Take care of yourself the best way you can. I think she’d be incredibly proud of you and Katie❤️

24:06 it sounded like someone said something in the background idk it might just be me🤷‍♀️

Sending lots of love ❤️ I don’t know how you kept it together in this video because I’ve just sat and sobbed at it. Your mum would be so so proud of you ❤️

literally 99% wont see this but, god bless u and stay safe during these hard times read my name btw❤️

Thank you for documenting your experience with grief for those of us who have lost parents at a young age. Once you get through the ‘firsts’ life feels easier to face. Your love for her is clear and I’m sure seeing the strength you have in you would make her feel so happy and proud. Sending love 😘 xxx

Oh Elles, this made me so emotional. Your mum will be so immensely proud of you beyond words. You are the most kind hearted, beautiful soul. Sending so much love to you, Katie and all your family and friends 🤍 xxxxx

Shed a few tears 😢 you’ve been so strong throughout all this my lovely. Keep going. Your mums always watching over you ❤️

You’re such a beautiful soul Elle, how you shared your tribute for not only yourself but for others going through a similar experience. I am sure your mum is so proud of you. You’re very kind and brave xx

Elle Darby I love you so much your courage is beyond anything I have known,to make a video and turn it into opening up your heart and expressing your feelings is so hard to do at any age but especially for someone so young, it’s the worst thing ever to miss someone so much .I strongly believe you will be helping many people in the same or similar situations that you are dealing with it’s not easy every birthday,family occasion , every photo yer it’s heart wrenching. The look on your face whilst driving the car away broke my heart. God bless your dear heart I’m pleased you spoke to Katie she is a little darling stay strong and treasure each and every memory you have of you precious mum. Take care ❤️

You’re an inspiration to us all, stay strong ! Your mum will be looking down on you smiling at the beautiful kind daughters she has raised. You make her proud every day x

Oh Elle! You are so strong, your Mum will be so proud of you, and of course KitKat. When I saw the butterfly on the footage from your walk around her village it made me well up. Sending lots of love to you and your family. Take care of yourself. Xxx

Thank you for sharing this day with us Elle, safe to say we are all rooting for you 💘 you really are so strong. All my love to you and Katie xxxx

I love how honest and raw you are in your videos, I really respect it and it really helps your followers connect with you. Keep doing what you’re doing Elle xx

I lost my Nan who was like a mum and Elle just now how much more normal you made me feel watching this. Some days I can cope and get on. Other days I’m a mess and didn’t know that was normal. I just hide it away. You’re so strong and you help me more than you’ll ever know xxx

Such an amazing video. I’m 25 and lost my dad 10 years ago, thank you for being so open. Anyone who has lost someone special to them and carried on is the strongest person there could ever be. ❤️

Wow, what an amazing tribute to your wonderful mum, I’m sure she would be so proud of you! You’re incredibly strong. Thank you for sharing this and helping others at such a difficult time. Sending so much love 🥰❤️

You're so strong Elle and a true inspiration for any young people going through a loss. I love that the butterfly followed you on your walk x

Literally sobbing the whole way through, my heart aches for you but I admire your strength and the way you can honour her memory. She’ll be so proud of the way both you and Katie are coping💗💗

Sending hugs to you Ellie, thankyou for this video , I lost my dad 11 years ago and every birthday I sit and just remember him. As I’ve got older different memories have come back which is comforting but it is always hard! You’re such a strong woman, thankyou for sharing your life :) x

I can totally understand what it was like for you I lost my mum 3 years ago her birthday was the 1st aug I sobbed, you did so well vlogging this day and holding things together, it was a joy to see your smile when you saw your mums car, and paying tribute to her birthday and the memories you hold so dear. Always remember if you see a butterfly or a white feather, or a single star in the sky your dear mum will be close by. Love you guys take care, Elle. xxx

Elle can I just say how incredibly proud I am of you!! You are such a strong and amazing person who didn’t deserve this at all! They always say the worst things happen to the best people! Lots of love xx

i don’t know what it is about the way you talk about her but i get so so emotional when i watch any videos about your mum. you’re amazing 🥺