I'm so sorry to hear about your nan Gabb 💕 She would be so proud of what a beautiful and extremely talented person you've became☺️ My thoughts go out to you are your family at this difficult time💜
First of all, I am so sorry for your loss. After hearing in your previous vlogs how close you were to your nan, I'm genuinely sad for you. My thoughts are with you and your family. Now she's resting peacefully, and that's all that matters now x Second of all, don't feel like you need to justify that you're not 'sad enough'. We understand. You're human after all. If you don't feel up for vlogging at the moment, don't feel like you have to. We will support you no matter what! And finally, just remember that you are a wonderful human. It must be difficult to share these personal things that are happening in your life to the world. I appreciate that you're honest and sincere with us. Stay strong lovely :-) xx
My grandad dies last year and I was scared to see him too, sadly he passed away before me saying goodbye and I can only blame myself, I will never forgive my self for that. Gabby you are a very strong person and I admire you for that if I was like you I'd be very happy. Just think,ur nan is in a wonderful place now and feels happy, Right now she is watching this vlog and saying to herself "Gabby is a wonderful person, this is the girl who made me happy and I love her to pieces, best luck on your channel gabby, and see you.. One day". I love you gabby ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I was in a similar situation to you but with my nan, I never got to say goodbye😭 My nan passed away 2 years ago and I didn't see her for loads of weeks before she passed away as she was in hospital😭💕 She came home one day but got really ill again so was sent back and then she went into intensive care😭💕 And then they couldn't do anything else and they had to turn the machine off😭😭😭 She was only 59 years old and I miss her so much😭😭💕💕 xx Hope ur okay Gabby💕💕💕 I know how it feels so loose someone really close to you(as I was very close to my nan too)💕 Stay strong Gabby💕💕 ly xxxx
Gabby, I know you won't see this because everyone is being so supportive. But I promise it gets better. I'm 18 and both of my parents have passed away, within a year of eachother. I promise you things go up, things get lighter. Days will feel like the world is pushing you down, trying to flatten you, but just remember they're bad days it's not a bad life. Is there anywhere else I can message you? There's a lot I want to say without putting it in a comment. Keep smiling X
awww gabby it'll be ok! you've taken care of your nan for 10 whole years, you cant say that you werent there for you ! Stay strong gabby, we're here for you ! love you soooo much
R.i.P she's not gone gabb she's just not visually with you. Her spirit and the memories you shared will forever continue to live on through the rest of your life, she sounds like a very special lady. I love you gaby, best wishes to your and your family x
Oh Gabs, I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. Hopefully vlogging will distract you a little bit but grieving is a tough thing to go through. It sounds like your Nan loved you dearly and I'm sure she was very proud seeing you start your life in Brighton. Sending loads of love and hugs. xxxxxxx
She would be so proud of you. I've got the feeling that she might waited for you to settle and start a new chapter in your life, gave her some satisfaction that you were okay, and strong enough to live your own life.
i know the exact same feeling, gabby. my grandmother died when i was eight during my best friend's communion. i had said bye to her in the morning, expecting to see her later. when i came back, she was gone, and so was her bed and all of the machines (we had in-home-hospis for as long as i can remember). she had severe alzheimers, but she never, ever, forgot me. and i never said a real goodbye to her and i can't even deal with that. but gabby you have to know that you were there for your grandmother. even though you weren't physically there with her, she had you in her heart. it's a rough thing to deal with because you carry a lot of guilt, but you were there for her. please, don't put yourself down, gabby. we love you and we're here for you every step of the way.
I'm not going to say 'I know how you feel' because I don't... No one does. Everyone grieves in their own way, I lost my Nana just over a year ago, and I had lived beside her all my life, so 15 years.. Watching this has brought me to tears, all I'm saying Gabby is to go home, go spend time with your family because their all grieving her passing. Also as you said keep yourself busy, your gran is now watching over you and protecting you and she would be so proud of you! Just take care of yourself, sorry for the long essay but yeah... Ily Gabby ❤
I think you're right, she loved you so much and knew how much you loved her. She would have wanted you to take the steps and move out after a year caring for her, because if she hit her low before, you probably would never have gone. I am sure that she was the most proud woman ever knowing you're her granddaughter x
You absolutely did not let her down. She probably lived for as long as she did because of the help you gave her when you were caring for her. I'm so sorry you're going through such a difficult time but you will eventually be stronger for it xxx
Gabby! don't worry about vlogging!! If you don't want to do it, or you feel poorly or whatever... Just take time to yourself and go with friends or your family and talk about how you're feeling. That's the best therapy, talk a lot with people who loves you and cares of you. And don't worry if your vlog is sad or not, I mean, of course your granny is far away more important than a vlog. Hope you're feeling better soon and a little tip, don't stay at home thinking to much, go for a walk and relax... or go swimming... everything helps!!
This was really touching! I am crying right now, almost the exact same thing happened earlier this year to my grandma. Thank you for sharing this personal story with us ! You are lovely, keep strong! xxx
Your nan will be the brightest star in the sky, always shining down on you with a beautiful smile, because she's always going to be so proud of you Gabbs!! I know how hard it is to loose someone you're ever so close to my auntie and grandparents are all up in heaven, but I don't feel like they're gone because they'll always be in my heart💖 All the advice I can give you is to just cry and cry, you will feel better afterwards. My thoughts are with you and all your family hunni👼👼👼👼
We're always here for you Gabby, no matter what happens :) You stayed so strong filming this. If it was me I would have been bawling my eyes out! Hope your feeling better Gabby. Just know she's in a better place now :) xx
Sorry for the loss Gabby! Stay strong, we all have that someone who we are so close to but that time always comes, send my love to you and your family 😘xx
Gabby! Take as much time as you need and don't feel like you failed you Nan she knows how important she was to you and thank you for being honest with us, a lot of people hide all this away - which is understandable - but thank you for taking the time to explain everything, it really does mean a lot! Stay strong lovely and I hope you have a fabulous rest of the day! BIG LOVE FROM AUSTRALIA!!!!!! (sending ALL the hugs and kisses)
And this also nearly made me tear up bc my nana died on the first of June this year and she has dimentia arthritis and so on me and my nana were really close and I miss her a lot I actually am tearing typing this so I'm just going to leave it here I love you a lot gabby stay strong xxxx
This made me cry, cause my biggest fear is when my grandmas time will come. I like in Virginia and she lives in California (total opposite sides of the US) and last December was the first time I saw her in 4 years. She's having surgery at the end of this month, because she has skin cancer and needs to have more skin removed, this time from her face and I can't go to stay with her because I work full time and don't get anymore days off, thankfully my grandpa is there with her. But I'm terrified for when her time comes because I dont get to spend enough time with her, and she's my best friend. She got my brother and I out of foster care when we were being sexually and physically abused by our foster parents and we lived with her until my dad could get custody of us again.
Your nan knows that if you could have been there you would have been there. You will always be in her heart and you helped her so much towards the end of her life. She had a happy life because she had an amazing family around her. Love you so much Gabby and best wishes to all your family. M xxx
Gabby I really'd like to dm you, if you want to, @brightonzalfie x x But gabbs, you must understand that you honestly were there for your nan, you in no way 'failed' her, you were one of the most important people in her life, as she was in yours and just because you weren't by her side in her final days or times doesn't mean anything, you said it yourself that you wouldn't have made it in time anyway. I really want to hug you, trust me I know what your going through, it's happened to me twice and I nearly lost my grandfather earlier this year so believe me I know the sort of situation you're in. Please please please don't be upset with yourself, your nan must have been so proud of you, and we're all here behind you. RIP, and we love you gabb xxxxx
(when I say dm you I mean to support you and try and just be comforting, I don't mean this in a self promotional way or to try and get you to follow me, there is a time and a place and now is definitely not one!) Xxx
It's not your fault that you weren't there for your nan. You had no idea she was going to fall so ill when you moved to Brighton, and as you said you wouldn't have been able to be with her anyway once you found out. It was completely out of your control and you shouldn't feel down on your self for not being there, don't blame yourself!
Never think of yourself as a fail Gabby! Your Nan will be looking down on you with the biggest smile on her face and she will be so proud of what you've achieved xx
Oh my dear Gabby, I could not adore you more. Hearing you open up this way is so beautiful and touching, and it helps those of us who have been in your shoes know that we're not alone. You have so much love and support being sent to you from all of your subscribers, friends, and family. I figured I'd give you my story so you know YOURE not alone! Last year my grandfather passed away also. It was one of the hardest situations I had ever gone through. So a little background, my mom and her father (my Poppy, the one who passed away) didn't get along, they weren't speaking and hadn't in a few years. I however still saw him every so often, for holidays or on the off chance I would go to his house to visit cousins and he'd be home, but not nearly often enough. About a year before he had passed I saw on Facebook a family member had posted to pray for him because he was starting chemo, at this point I freaked out because I didn't even KNOW he had cancer! When I asked my mom, she made it out like she had no idea what I was talking about and that maybe it was about someone else in the family. So the next day when I got on Facebook to look at the post, it was deleted. So honestly I didn't think too much of it, I should have, but I didn't, skin cancer runs in our family so I didn't really realize the severity of it. A few months later I had to work during a family party so I couldn't see anyone. When I asked my mom how it was she had said it was really sad because Poppy was really sick so spirits were low, to my confusion, I didn't know what she meant! To my knowledge FROM HER mind you, he wasn't sick at all! Her and I got into an argument because she tried to say she had told me and that I knew already, which I didn't, she had told me he wasn't sick, and no one else had brought it up so I figured it had been a misunderstanding before. The next day I wanted to visit him but I had to work, on the second day he passed away. I can not tell you how guilty and how awful I felt, and still feel. It is extremely difficult to feel like you could and should have done so much more. I hope you find peace in knowing that you're not alone and it isn't your fault. Love you Gabby, I hope this helped, or at least let you get to know me some!
I'm almost crying :( just remember we are all here for you and don't feel pressured to put up videos if you don't feel like it because everyone will understand xx
I am so, so sorry for your loss. I can tell how much your grandparents meant to you so you shouldn't feel bad for not seeing the go, as they know how much you love them and how much they mean to you and they would have understood why you weren't there. I hope you and your family feel better soon x
Gabby, your nan had been through a lot and you said that she had been given a few hours to live several times. You have seen her a lot and she knows in heaven that you love her. Maybe the she did wait until you moved, but that just shows how much you meant to her and how much she loved you x
Gabby you made me cry :'( And dont you feel like you've failed your nan, im sure shes looking over you now thinking how proud she is of you and just cherish all the time you spent with her, all the good memories you had together and pull yourself through. Love you gabby and i hope you're ok xx :')
You haven't failed anyone. My grandma pretty much bought me up, was so bright, writing a book, up to date with technology and so on the ball, then she had a stroke, lost a tiny bit of memory, couldn't come back to the house she'd (and I) had lived in, went into a home, then another stroke. We were best friends. It was like she waited for me to be happy in life before it was like 'her time' you know? I was there when she died, but I really believe she would've understood if I wasn't able to be, you haven't failed ANYONE, you're bloody lovely xxx
gabby i am so terribly sorry for your loss:( this is the sadness news and I hope you are doing well and your family aswell. keeping you all in my thoughts. stay strong beautiful girl. shes in a better place now
Your grandmother is such a fighter! I can only imagine how amazing she was! My great aunt just passed...and it's been really hard. Just...thank you for this vlog because I'm going through something similar and it's hard to explain how I feel, but I feel like you understand.
God bless you Gab! Your nan would be so proud of what you have done and how much you have accomplished. Although it might seem like a weird concept, she is better now. She will always be with you in your beautiful heart and soul. And keep living your life not only for yourself, but for this lovely role model who was such a massive part in your life. Although it might feel like she is gone, she will never be lost. Her soul and joy will be kept in you lovely heart. God Bless You And Keep You.
I am so sorry for your loss Gabb X I think it is so special you shared this with us. My thoughts are with you and your family! Your nan would be so proud of you Gabb, she will always be with you in you heart XX
Gabby, you did more for your Nan than many of us would have the strength to do. Do not doubt that she was so proud of you, and was so thankful for those memories you gave her xxx
Gabby listen/read you done as much as you could and your not a failure to your grandma you did as much as you could and remember she's looking down on you now and saying/thinking "wow I am so proud of gabby she has accomplished so much and she is amazing. "Gabby remember were here for you no matter what xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Awh gabby I'm heart broken, stay strong beautiful you will get through this my thoughts are with you. I love you so much and were all here for you and your family are there for you a well xx
Awwwwe this is so touching, I'm actually crying right now, don't blame yourself, we all loose loved ones at some point of our live sand your nan was obviously very strong to go through all of those things, things will get better, love youu💓😭
I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss gabby. please don't feel like you failed your grandmother because based on all you have done for her she knows how much you love her and that you would have wanted to be there in an instant. she probably didn't want you to see her that way as well. and you didn't fail your grandfather because he also knew how much you loved him. you're in my prayers
Gab you where there for your nan she trusted you to be her carer so make sure you keep your chin up I know how you feel losing someone and being so far away and your videos really cheered me up and we all love you !! 💕💗
I cried. I love you so much! I am really so sorry to hear about your nan! I remember the day my nan passed away. My mum asked if I wanted to come with her and see her, but for some stupid reason I didn't go with her. And when my mum came home she crying because on the way home my nan had passed away. And I regret not coming with mum that day sooooo much, one of my biggest regrets in life. My mum told me that when she was about to leave, my nan asked if she could stay a bit longer. It was like she knew she was going to die really soon. But mum had to go home. And me and my nan was also so so so so so so close (best friends) and it breaks my heart and I burst down in tears just thinking of her death and how stupid I was not taking evey chance to see her. I have an omder brother who lived with my nan for years and he was also so heart broken and I love him so much and it all just makes me so sad. I wish you and your family all well and hope that you are as OK as one can be with a loss of loved once. I prayed for you and ypur nan and I'll keep doing it! I want to hug you and bee there for you and support you. I love you so much!
my nan waited for me and me parents to get to her before passing away, I feel like older people know what their waiting for so I'm sure your nan doesn't feel like you failed her. you cared for her, that probably meant the world to her. all my love goes out to you and your family xx
oh gab dont blame yourself you cant control how the world works your nan will always love you no matter what you need to remmber that you was the one there for her through the hardest time off her life. it takes alot to be a carer at the age you are its a lot to deal with but you still did it. im 22 and care for my partners neice and nephew and also my own two children and having to deal with my nan whos also sick. your so strong dont care about what anyone thinks you are a super women and a credit to your mum and nan. keep doing it for yourself but also for your nan :) your a superstar x
it's so hard loosing a grandparent, you're so strong and brave to talk about personal subjects like this infront of the world, love to you and all you're family Gabbi, you're nan will be looking down on you, feeling extremely proud, love you Gabbi, stay strong
When my grandma passed away my mom didn't want me to see her because she wanted me to remember her alive and happy, and I think she was right I mean as much as I wanted to say goodbye sometimes is better to remember people how they used to be before. Hope you're doing alright gabby I love you
Aww gabby ik it must be hard but we are all supporting you 💕 I guess heaven couldn't wait for her and yea they've gained another angel 👼 rip!! 💭🌸 we love you gabby!! xx
My heart goes out to you Gab, i can relate because i never got to say goodbye or even see my grandad weeks before he passed away, but in a way im glad because the last time i saw him before he passed away was at his birthday party, and he was cheerful and himself - and thats the memory i will hold of him. Just think, you have 135 thousand people who are there for you :) xxx
Gabb, you lit up your grandmas life all the way until the end, she needed to finally rest and I believe that the strength of your grandma is the biggest testament for your life, apply it, be as strong as her and make it a positive experience. Remember that you did not failed her in any way possible, you did the complete opposite and you will be blessed for it. I applaud you for making this blog and not cry, not a lot of people can do that. Sending you a big hug and all my condolences!
I know how you feel. My grandma passed away a year ago in November and ive now made a promise to myself to be there for my grandad. Take all the time you need, we all understand xxx
Please don't think you failed your nan, because you truly didnt... you cared for her for such a long time and that's something I'm sure she's forever grateful for. Also don't feel bad that you didn't vlog, or if you miss a couple of daily vlogs... We'll be here when you're ready to get back to vlogging whether it be now or later
You haven't failed your nan in the slightest,she will have wanted you to be happy and wouldn't have wanted to see you upset she will have been thankful for all the time you spent looking after her and she will have appreciated that with all her heart and wouldn't have wanted you to see her before she passed away,she will have wanted you to remember her how she was before you left! But all my love to you and stay strong Gabby!💖
You have been there for your nan Gabby! You helped her through so much and you know she appreciates that so so much! We are all here for you, we love you so much Gabby! Xxx
Aww gab! :( everyone can see how much you truly cared about her, and she probably knew that more than anyone, so don't ever fail like you've failed her! You had such a special bond that no one can ever take away from you. I know it's hard now but you'll learn to accept the fact that she's gone and be happy about the memories you shared. Stay strong you beautiful girl, my thoughts are with you and your family. RIP gabbbbs nan xxxx
My Lord, that woman was a fighter! I have never met her, but just hearing stories you share I can tell how close you were and how alike you two were. Always remember that you WILL see her again. Your family is in my prayers.
I'm so sorry to hear about your nan. I don't know you in person but I feel like we all got to know you through these vlogs and from what you told us about your nan and you taking care of her you didn't let her down at all. Don't let yourself feel like that because it isn't true and even though i don't know your nan i'm sure she would never feel like you weren't there for her. I love the fact that you shared this with us because we are here to support you no matter what. Take all the time you need to handle this situation and remember that we will always be here for you and we will always have your back!
Grandmas are angels on earth and I'm so sorry for your loss. I have no doubt she knew how much you loved her. Please don't it feel like a failure. Remember the precious moments💜I hope you find the strength to get through this trial in your family and friends.
please dont ever be afraid to show us how you really feel just for the sake of not showing weakness ok gabs think of us as family, we love and care for you and were here to listen. Youre nan would've been so so proud of you. I love you to pieces
Your nan would be so proud of you and all ways remember that she is in no more pain now and she with your grandad again and they both watching down on you we love you gabby stay strong beautiful
you have not failed her one bit! she'll be so proud of how successful you are, not many people this age are able to move to brighton on their own and be doing something they enjoy. please don't think you've failed her xx
your gran sounded like an unbelievably strong lady. im so so sorry for your loss gabb, it must be awful to lose someone you were so close to :( sending love xx
You were there for her Gabby don't make yourself feel guilty because you were there when she was unwell and out if that you gains a great bond with your nan. I am so proud of you with all this stuff you've recently been through. You've done so well and amazingly well with your RU-vid channel. You are a lovely person!!
I'm so sorry for your loss Gabby, I hope you'll get better soon, and we all know how strong our nan was she is such a soldier! Rest in Paradise Gabby's beautiful nan xxx
Gabby, You are so strong! You don't ever think you let your nan down, from what you said you couldn't have done anymore! You loved by the sounds of it so so much! you cared for her, and that must have taken so much courage! Some times it is just taken out of your control! I love you so much xxx
No way did you fail your nan! You were there for her the whole time it seems like, and she would have wanted you to live your life. It seems like she loved and admired you and you must know how much she would have thought of you for looking after her as much as you did. Grandparents adore their grandchildren whatever they do and you went the extra mile with her. Please be so proud of yourself for that, you have nothing to regret. I just felt the need to tell you this because I can relate to the love you feel for your grandparents, they will always be the most amazing and lovely people. Stay strong x
I lost my grandma a year and a half ago and it was really tough. She was the only grandparent I had been close to and losing her was one of the hardest things I've ever dealt with. Know that you're not alone Gabby. We're all here for you and many of us have experienced this and we know what you're going through. Take comfort in your family and your friends and talk when you have to, cry when you have, be alone when you have to. You're strong and you'll get through this even though it's going to be hard.
So sorry to hear you lost your gran gabz, she sounds an amazing, caring, strong willed lady! I lost my gran last month - I'm 29 & this is the first grandparent I have lost, although I lost my mum at 18 I consider myself very lucky xx memories are precious, fragrant and sweet, to treasure, to hold and forever to keep 💞😘xxx
you made me cry again😪. gabby im so sorry for your loss i really am. just remember we all are here for you and we always will. its okay to cry. i love you gabby stay strong. 💖
