Thanks Island Turtle. I’m an Aqua Sun and this message is very accurate for where I’m at currently. I think when we’re used to operating from survival mode it can be very hard to adjust into a mindset of taking space and time for the self so that we can get our personal story straight and start to disrupt from an empowered, grounded place as opposed to a chaotic one. In my opinion the root chakra is a huge theme collectively right now. Personally, I’ve been called to explore genealogy, which is something I’ve been avoiding and scares me a little. Wishing everyone who resonates the best with exploring foundations.
I have a shadow cat. Her name is Celine, The Queen of the Night. She was my kitty for 20 years, and she passed away on my bed about 2 weeks ago. I felt her tiny little body shake, and all of a sudden I knew. She was gone. I felt her soul leave this plane of existence. But, she hasn't gone far. I keep seeing her tail everywhere, or out of the corner of my eye - the shadow looks like a cat. 24-7. I know she's on the other side helping us.
11:31 Like, I get that. People didn't value my qualities throughout my life, so I decided to not use them. By not using them, they fell into a shadow aspect, and I have to retrieve them and claim them. For them to stop bothering me in the 3D. I always was a people pleaser. So, yah. I was told a lot when I was a child to sit down and shut up. And, that I was lucky that I was pretty. Basically, that translates to - you have nothing to offer this world besides your countenance. As someone that only wanted to help the world, I took it to heart - when I should have laughed in their faces.
It's hard to be disruptive, and to also not be looked upon as bad by others. I have felt this entering my life lately. I know why I told it to go away. Back in the day, my friend's parents would say I was a bad influence. But, my friend's mom would call her a mistake to her face. I felt that was wrong, so I stood up for her. Of course, she labelled me "The Problem." Enough people do this to you in your young life, and you start to believe it a bad thing. Pointing out the truth - where others want to see a lie.
PLUTO!!!!!!!! oh my GOD!!!! oh my GOD!!!!!!!!!!! PLUTO!!!!!!!!! That's the craziest thing I've ever seen on a Tarot reading ever. I have been listening to this old song by B.o.b. called The Watchers. There is a line in it that I'm obsessed with - I keep saying it over and over and over again LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL "But, they can't stop me. I'm already there. And, you ain't seen sh*t, but you're already scared. I'm gone! High like fructose! Fructose! You wanna know the truth? Really you don't! You don't! It'll blow you out ya mind like a ufo! Ufo! I'm basically a resident of Pluto! Pluto!"
19:49 I was just wondering where I could find this grounding, and what my next step is. Then, you said "It reminds me of a Dungeons and Dragons die." I have to catch-up on my D&D, apparently. Thank you ♥ I watch Dropout, it is so amazing. If you haven't seen any of them - start with the fairy tale one. ♥
I received all of this. Literally had an epiphany at how uncomfortable I am with a peaceful existence, and that I’m committing myself to relaxing and enjoying the mundane. The astrology is ripe for it so I might as well give it a go. Thank you for the reading. 💕
10:14 I always really pay attention to my dreams. I've also been watching a show where they fight in dreams. And, this one priest that is very righteous can help others. I wanna be like that. Maybe I'm meant to be a nun.
You are so so so on point with everything you said. You are so gifted. Last night I had a dream like a fruit bat flew into my house and I kept trying to feed it berries on my porch to get it outside but it refused to leave my side. It was literally cuddling my leg like a toddler. Any insight anyone?
This not being solid on my feet is a theme since I'm a child and i always tripped and injured myself and i also feel people being uncomfortable with me.
I have been feeling all this. Yesterday, I was laughing out loud at stop lights that refused to change. I would sit for 15 minutes at a stop light. I was losing my mind. Everything that could possibly disrupt me, was. I knew this reading was for me. Aquarius is my Moon sign. Who I truly am inside. And, now I'm being bombarded with the true meaning of being an Aquarius. Bombardment. Interesting. I just ordered another packet of shroom gummies. That is how I deal with my shadow-work lately. A few days ago, my ex got in contact with me. Told me he broke-up with his gf. We messaged back and forth for a bit, but I don't like to give pics and he loves pics. So, I cut it off. Well, she messages me yesterday calling me a slut. So, obviously they're not broken-up, even though he said they were. I'm just trying to come to terms with what is meant for me right now, and trying to realize where that leaves me in the grand scheme of the entire world. I'm lonely. And, I need someone.
Wow! That last point about evading disruption by being disruptive and not seeing it as disruption but instead mistaking it for control was huge. Makes sense.
My feathers are getting ruffled so easily! You're so right! At every little thing. I have become a monster kind of. Like, I equated it to trying to use my throat chakra. Because I'm speaking up for myself. Also, I have a really bad cough. So, I can't get my words out. But, I work for DoorDash, and there's 3 new strains of covid - so, I proly got it from that. I'm taking a few days off, so I don't spread it - and I'm catching up on my Tarot :)
Everything I say, how I say it, is really harsh. I wish it wasn't so harsh. Like, the first thing I want to do is yell "F*ck!" then like, "Stop f*cking doing that you idiot!" And, I'm sorry - but that is just plain rude. I can't control it fully. And, it's kind of making me feel crazy.
Omg! Spot on! Cancerian sun Venus and mercury with rising in Aquarius & my partner is an Aquarius sun! We have been in heavy conflict due to his disruptive energy shadow wise! We are currently separated with no contact. Wow! You brought so much clarity! Its like suddenly my natural energy disturbed him ! Wow! Wow! Thank you!
Thank you for the supportive messages… it’s definitely been interesting lately. I have natal Venus/South Node in Aquarius and for 2024 Solar return chart, Aquarius Ascendant and moon placement. Which also puts my Capricorn 🌞 in the 12th with Mars and Pluto. I realized that 12th house stellium recently looking at my Honeycomb personal almanac and everything made so much sense. Even all the things that don’t seem to make any sense… btw I was too freaked out to mention it at the time, but I was clearing my energy and doing a little cleansing with a bottle of water on Saturday while I was listening to the Saturn retrograde live .I had finished and the puddle of water that was under my chair on the patio was almost dried when I hear you say “Where did all of this water come from on my notes?” Totally unexpected but sorry I think it was from me and my shadow. I don’t practice “dark magic” or anything. Nothing like that was intended I was just trying to alchemize my energy. Oops 🙊 lol 🕊️💜🕊️
Oh I 💜 the Strength card with the tiger 🐅 …and weird I paused to post my prior comments not knowing you were going to talk about the stuff I mentioned lol. I don’t even know why I’m surprised anymore, but again thank you for all of your support.🕊️💜🕊️
woww “full surrender into the feminine” resonates soo deeply for me rn 🤍👼🏼 a lot of saturn rx readings have been speaking on doing work ofc but im getting so much guidance to rest and incubate so thank u 🌸
Does Clyde go for walks?!?!?! Oh my gosh, I would love to see him on a walk ♥ That leash would fit my dog lololololol I love how big he is ♥ I wish I could hug him ♥
I never thought about being disruptive in my own life, to myself, before - but yes. I used to choose the wrong choice in situations just to see what would happen. To see if everyone was right. Just to do it. It would happen to me right before I started a new job. Noticeably. Every time. I would come to a turn on a road - and I would think "I could go right, and go to work - or I could go left, and get myself a smoothie and have fun time. I'm always terrified of starting something new, especially if it has people I don't know. I have PTSD, but before that I was shy. Extremely shy. I can remember exactly what made me shy. It was an out-of-body experience I had when I was very young. I was laying in bed, unable to get to sleep, and I looked at the clock. It changed from 1:22 to 1:23am. I started to rise out of my bed. I tried to scream, but I couldn't. I have since tried to relive the experience, and I feel shadow people around me. But, I don't remember that, it's a feeling about it. The next thing I knew, I was in my bed looking at the clock, and it changed from 1:22 to 1:23. I hid under my blankets and cried. I never told anyone because I thought they wouldn't believe me. I have spent many years wondering about my shyness, and this is the incident my brain offers up.
I'm just not sure it is an actual experience. I am skeptic enough to doubt it, but spiritual enough to give myself the benefit of the doubt. I *feel* like it was real, and that is why it is real to me, developmentally.
