*lyrics* I was pulling out my hair The day I got the deal Chemically calm Was I meant to feel happy that my life Was just about to change? One life pretending to be the cat who got the cream Oh, everybody said: "Marina is a dreamer" People like to tell you what you're gonna be It's not my problem if you don't see what I see And I do not give a damn if you don't believe My problem, it's my problem That I never am happy It's my problem, it's my problem On how fast I will succeed Are you satisfied with an average life? Do I need to lie to make my way in life? High achiever, don't you see? Baby, nothing comes for free They say I'm a control freak Driven by a greed to succeed Nobody can stop me 'Cause it's my problem if I want to pack up and run away It's my business if I feel the need to smoke and drink and sway It's my problem, it's my problem If I feel the need to hide And it's my problem if I have no friends and feel I want to die Are you satisfied with an average life? Do I need to lie to make my way in life? Are you satisfied with an easy ride? Once you cross the line, will you be satisfied? Sad inside in this life Unsatisfied, praying Sad inside in this life Unsatisfied, waiting Are you satisfied with an average life? Do I need to lie to make my way in life? Are you satisfied with an easy ride? Once you cross the line, will you be satisfied? Black, white (are you satisfied? Are you satisfied? Are you satisfied?) Black, white (are you satisfied, are you satisfied?) Black, white (are you satisfied? Are you satisfied? Are you satisfied?) Black, white (are you satisfied, are you satisfied?)
"are you satisfied with an average life?" this line rlly hits too close to home. when i was younger, i had a spark in me, i believed i was going to be a famous artist in the future. so i was constantly improving my art, never really satisfied. but as i was growing older, ironically enough, the unsatisfaction with my art gradually became worse and worse. so in the end, i didn't show any of them to the world. art is just a hobby for me now, a thing to kill time. but when i see my old art, i get reminded of that once hopeful and naive kid, drawing non-stop in class. so i would ask myself, "am i satisfied right now?" and i never really had an answer for that. all i know is that if my younger self were to see me right now, she would be sad and disappointed. i just failed her.
Don’t Lose hope! You can do it. I believe in you! When I was younger I had this dream of getting famous on RU-vid. I have more subs now but I won’t call my self famous. But if I can do that than you can too! I’m a hot mess and I still haven’t lost hope! Maybe you can make your own art style or something like that! That would be so cool! I would love to see that! ☺️
@@hllo6152 aww i was actually feeling down and when i saw your reply it cheered me up, thank you! i did a little self searching these past months. i stopped comparing my art to others and i think im mentally better now! even tho no one else sees my drawings, i still feel happy knowing i drew them, and that's enough for now. im satisfied. i'll just strive for fame when im ready ^^ anyways, thanks for making my day, i'll sub to you 🤗 keep being awesome!
Saely same at one summer i started to draw excesivly but stopped because of the fear of failure not only that i jad many things i had fear of failling top it off my mother she just wants to break me over and over my mind and heart are now dust
this one's for everyone who told me i was smart as a child which made me believe intelligence is something you're born with so as soon as I got to high school my grades dropped like crazy EDIT: Hi besties I was brought back here by a random response so I thought might as well leave a fun fact. This was experimented actually. They gave children simple tasks. One group was praised for their effort, and the other for their intelligence. Turns out the intelligence group became more prone to giving up because they believed their value was in inherently being able to do things right! Crazy.
I was a kid who’s knowledge was ahead was ahead of the rest of my classmates. Look who hates school and hates the constant repetitive schedule and can’t keep track of time now. Thanks, parents and teachers who boosted my confidence when I did good, and pushed me to overwhelm when I was struggling to work because of my autism and anxiety.
/TW: Depression?/ I had depression episodes every time March to May since from 2020. Last year i had horrible grades but was tortured for it by my own parents but this year, i thought it was going to be no depression but it came and just as of today i got 2 B's and the rest of them was A's I have never felt myself be proud and disappointed in myself. Disappointed because my mental health was very low and i did this for an online grade? It feels so useless and horrible to me, I didn't learn anything, just life lessons. I think you guys are doing great, but please just relax and take care of yourself, the simple nod of approvement from your parents and peers are not worth it, take care of yourself!
A little vent here: To me, I relate to this song so much. Too much. As an Asian kid with average looks and a slightly overweight body, I always feel so self-conscious when standing near my friends, all of them are slender, big-eyed, basically look good in almost everything. Knowing that I lack so much when it comes to my body, I always try to fix it by making myself as close to "perfection" as I can. Taking up all the sports I can to lose weight and try to make it to the A team for all of them, taking first place in as many competitions as I can, improving my academic achievements to the best they can be, improving my etiquette. This all is stressing me out so much but I never feel accomplished enough. It always feels like I'm not enough. I'm never enough, and that there are so many more excellent people who can do even better than me who's got an amazing body and fantastic looks. The worst part about this is that when people look at my achievements, they just call me "naturally smart'' or ''naturally polite'' because I'm Asian. They think that I was born smart, born polite, born never to be angry, and what they don't see is my huge amount of effort behind them. Because I'm the Asian stereotype that is "meek, timid, smart, good child". I hate it so much. Sorry to spread the negative energy here, please forgive me and have a lovely day.
There will ALWAYS be someone better then you. It’s okay to just be you. People will find that amazing enough and one day someone will fall In love with the real part of you. Please don’t lose it. Give yourself a break, there is no ranking system to fall down on. You are perfect the way you are, you just need to see it. And that’s hard, but you can start by giving yourself more credit. You are doing amazing, you don’t have to overwork yourself to feel accomplished.
I don't have much thing to say. Just be who you want. Someone you want to be that'll make you satisfied/happy. Because no matter what there'll always be someone who's better than you. Sometimes they don't actually better than you but your brain make you believe they are so like I say, there'll always be at least one person who's better than you in something.
I used to be THAT kid. The asian girl who flew through math like it was 1+1. the girl who got 100 in all her exams. I was always good and I only got better when I started prepping for secondary school exams. I surpassed everyone's expectation and got into the best school in the country. That was when everything started to fall apart. I was still good to begin with, or I thought I was. But the next year I ended up in a low set. I believe this was the teachers mistake and I suffered from it, learning nothing in a year. All of the things we did were too easy and I was super quiet in lessons and never got moved up. Eventually end of years moved me up to the middle set. I've missed out on so much and to this day I resent the teacher who placed me in that set. I'm stuck in the middle maths set because I'm just not that good. No one acknowledges me as a smart kid anymore. I've hit my limit. I was still good at English in year8 but now I've lost that too. My end of year exams were a catastrophe. I don't have any work ethic and I have no extracurriculars. I'm not even grade 2 yet on harp. My friends are all grade 8. I'm telling myself that I'm in the top school in the country and even if I were rock bottom I'd still be really good. It's not working. I wish I was a genius like that girl. Or I worked hard for hours after school like that girl. Or I won medal in sport or played 6 instruments. I wish I could be THAT kid again.
haahh i relate to this song way too much i started reading at three. i could read fourth grade books in kindergarten. every single spelling test in elementary school i took, i got 100% on. sometimes i would spell a word wrong on purpose just to make the other kids feel better. throughout elementary school, i read books like crazy. i would get five books at the library and have to return them the same day. math was the one thing i sucked at, and i still do. but once c*vid hit, i lost ALL my motivation to do anything. all my grades dropped because of online school, especially my math because i couldn't figure ANYTHING out because im so stupid lol sixth grade, i wasn't reading at all. my attention span had become the size of a goldfish's. math was hell for me. i can still spell, and read really fast, i just dont read that much anymore. i dont know what happened. when i was little, i was so perfect. i was an actual good kid. but now that im in seventh grade, im basically a disappointment
Hey, I know this is late but I can honestly relate with you. I was so good at writing in middle school and had very good grades(I never got anything below a 70). But Online school really messed me up (especially my relationship with my mom) and im honestly scared to go back to school. But hopefully things will get better for the both of us! Anyway hope you're doing better now!!
dude same I was getting trash grades in online school and instead of encouraging me to do better my family would insult and yell at me. All the motivation I had was yanked out of me and I started having self harming thoughts. Still do but I'm trying to get through it
@@ivetheartists8977 yeah I am! School started up again I'm doing good I'm trying to be a A and B student atleast and I can't believe I love being at school instead of being at home. Most of the time I just distance myself though so they're not doing anything
Damn this song really hit me way to close to home 🥲 I have good grades, good parents, amazing friends, am in a relationship, and yet I constantly feel unsatisfied with myself feeling I either need to do more or do less. I hate that I have high grades because that means people have high expectations of me and I hate that I have an “Average Life” because I feel it makes me boring and I always feel the need to “Lie to make my way in life” and I hate myself even more for lying! I feel as though I can’t complain about anything because people always have it worse than me and my problems are irrelevant, I mean what problems do I have anyways my life is still good just- I’m just never satisfied…
You don’t need to have traumas to deserve to complain about things. also it’s okay to have a “good life” you just have to learn how to be happy by yourself and with yourself and with your life. I know what it is to lye but be safe sweetie it will be okay
@@misskayla._4167 It’s unfortunate that not everyone has a great equal life with the same resources given…but it’s perfectly valid for ANY person to be feeling unsatisfied or any other feelings outside of happiness. So please don’t invalidate this person from a paragraph summary of their life on this earth. But I do hope and am praying to the universe gods that your life turns around 🙁🙏🏼 - the both of you.
this song's lyrics literally reminds me that I am not alone about my choices, ideals and preferences.....there are also people out there who don't think they are arrogant just because they want to be different and fast achiever than other people....
vent: it's almost as if this song was written about me. i identify so much with it. from an outside glance, i have everything. i have high grades, i'm musically talented with piano and vocals, i go to a good college, and i fit conventional beauty standards. but despite all this, i constantly feel angry and dissatisfied with myself. my self-esteem could not be any lower than what it is right now. i am always comparing myself to other people and i focus on the things i'm lacking. then i exhaust myself by desperately trying to compensate for the areas i'm faulty in. sometimes my physical health suffers as a result. it's like i'm putting extra pressure on myself to be perfect and flawless in the eyes of others. speaking of others, i also have no real friends. i've been focusing so much on myself that i've pushed people away. and honestly? i won't lie, i'm kind of mean too. i have trouble empathizing and connecting with people and can be insensitive. i don't know. i'm so self-centered. i hate feeling like this, i wish i could just love myself. i also wish i had people to love me too. i'm tired of being so lonely and unhappy. this constant struggle to be "the best" is hell.
Quick vent: Ever since I was younger I always got good grades and was smart and tried my best at everything in school and in sports. I'm now in 10th grade and I join so many clubs. But I'm honestly such a bitch and I feel terrible about it. I always get carried away in anything trying to be better than everyone that I don't realize how mean I am sometimes. I have an extreme fear of failure. I used to have a friend group but I put my grades as a higher priority than them and stopped hanging out with people all together. 😕
You don’t have to be perfect to be good at something, your efforts will still be appreciated even is you are not perfect, if you realise that you might be doing something wrong then good for you, because acknowledging the problem is the half way through solving it. Please try not to pressure yourself much, people will still love you even if you are imperfect, stay strong I believe in you 💕
A little vent: Here in Mexico, i started going to school with masks and stuff, i thought it was gonna be cool and talk to people but it was the exact opposite, my "best friend" started ignoring me and not taking to me, and she changed me with her other friend, everyone ignores me, in always left out, I'm the second option, the replacement or the therapist friend, they only know my existence when i talk to them, or when i text them, the only thing I want is for things to be like before, being social, talking to my friends, not being in the phone all the time, now I'm antisocial, i overthunk so much, i think my friends hate me, and that they're fake, I'm on the phone most is the time, i just want this COVID this to end so I can be social again, i always pretend I'm the perfect girl at school
My parents call me an "control freak" and I wanna do what I want and I try to be my best all I get in return is "Could have done better" "Be more like your friends" "Listen to your brother" "Blame your self" "Clean up" "Be more positive" "Debbie downer" "Get up your fine" "Be stronger" "You don't have depression" "You don't have bi-polar" "Be better" "We know you can do better" "You don't have insomnia" I wanna do what I want with my life but my mom and dad make me feel like I can't it's like a have a goal to be a high achiever.
I used to lie about my life in elementary-early middle school. That was the only way people would pay attention to me. I didn't want to be the girl people would only come for homework answers or have one sided conversations, I wanted to be acknowledged. But ever since my grades dropped no one talks to me anymore, and my family/councelers say "oh you're a smart girl you can do this if you tried" but tbh I'd rather be stupid and have people that care about me.
I’ll be honest. I did to. I lied about my life back in elementary school because I wanted to be interesting. I wanted attention because that’s what I craved. I felt bad for not being interesting and I wanted to be acknowledged for something interesting. I’m not good with comforting and all l that but you aren’t alone I’m also feeling almost the same thing. Everything will be alright! I hope everything gets better for you!
Venting: Im a great lier, all my lies are so good that people would never suspect me , i lie for a lots of things to get attention from others, if i didnt lie i would probably have a completely different life, i want to stop lying but its impossible, i want to be in another life in which ill be happy for real and my life is not a completely lie and i have the stress that my lies have to be perfect and im never satisfied with anything, I just hate being like this, I wish my life was easier and honest, I really want to change lifes to other people, all my friends are happy and honest, my family always says that I should be like them, i hate this, i hate school, my friends, my lies, my life and everything in general, i just want to be honest for one time in my hole fuck1ng life. The worst part of this all, its that im just 11.
i used to be always number one in school always got high marks on every subject from kindergarten till now (except math,yes i suck at it)I believed it when everyone told me i was smart and better than everyone. Entered highschool and fuck, everything went downhill from that. And you know what sucks more? Having smart older sisters who's finished in highschool and had really really high grades and now my parents are expecting nothing less from that and i honestly don't think i can finish highschool before it finished me lmao. I feel exhausted what happened to me? Why can't i be like before? I used to read a LOT of books, i can finish 3-4 books in a day as a kid. I wished i didn't try so hard as a kid and set the expectations for me so high. "What happened to you" "Where did you're old self go?" Honestly i have no fucking idea too lol.
Vent warning: This song hits too hard to home I was labeled “ the smart girl” or the “gifted girl” everyone came to me for questions, loads of people ask for my answers and stuff. But to my parents I was never enough. One time I got a 95% on my test and it wasn’t good enough. I got an A on my report card, “why didn’t you get an A+? ”. It got worse and worse when I finished middle school. All my grades got worse and worse each year. My parents (especially my dad) were so disappointed. I have 3 years left, but I always feel like I’m not enough, I’ll never be enough, I’ll never be satisfied
hey!! ik this is pretty late(im sorry)but i just want u to know that whatever grades u get, im proud of you for trying. try your best, and keep going! best wishes :D
I love how almost everyone relates to being a straight A student and it isnt easy being one. Ive never gotten straight As before and i keep trying but my mental health keeps getting worse. Now that i am trying to get some good grades i barely have time to do anything else or hangout with my friends and if I skip one day of class, i dont understand the whole topic. Its almost like my grades and marks matter more than my health now. Please take care of yourself! stay safe
high achiever family baby, nothing here is free I live with some control freaks always full of greed and succeed but no one will stop me 'cause it's my problem if I wanna pack up and run away it's my bussiness if I feel the need to cry and fight and yell it's my problem, it's my problem if I feel the need to hide and it's my problem if I can't find a friend and feel I want to die
Português: Eu estava arrancando meu cabelo No dia que consegui o contrato Quimicamente calma Eu devia me sentir feliz Por minha vida estar prestes a mudar? Uma vida fingindo ser A dona da p*rra toda Ah,todo mundo diz "Marina é uma sonhadora" As pessoas gostam de dizer o que você vai ser, não é problema meu se você não vê o que eu vejo E eu não tô nem aí se você não acredita É problema meu, é problema meu Que eu nunca tô feliz É problema meu, é problema meu O quão rápido vou ter sucesso Você está satisfeita com uma vida mediana? Eu preciso mentir pra fazer meu caminho na vida? Bem-sucedida, não vê? Meu bem,nada vem de graça Eles dizem que eu sou obcecada por controle Movida por uma ganância por sucesso Não podem me parar Pois é problema se eu quiser fazer as malas e fugir É da minha conta se sinto a necessidade de fumar,beber e dançar É problema meu, é problema meu Se eu sinto a necessidade de me esconder E é problema meu se eu não tenho amigos e sinto que quero morrer Você está satisfeita com uma vida mediana? Eu preciso mentir pra fazer meu caminho na vida? Você tá satisfeita com uma carona fácil? Uma vez que você passa pela linha Você estará satisfeita? Triste por dentro, nessa vida Insatisfeita, rezando Triste por dentro, nessa vida Insatisfeita, esperando Você está satisfeita com uma vida mediana? Eu preciso mentir pra fazer meu caminho na vida? Você tá satisfeita com uma carona fácil? Uma vez que você passar da linha, você estará satisfeita?
"It's my problem, it's my problem if I feel the need to hide And it's my problem if I have no friends and feel I want to die" this songs gets everyday more and more relatable.
so- im a scholar student but i got a C's and D's in 3 subjects recently, for the first time, and im pretty disappointed, but i think i should try better, im just worried my mum will hit me and say words to me- i havent told her yet
Here are the self-demanding ones who can no longer do anything without feeling that it is terrible (and if I talk about myself, my self-demand is so much that I can no longer live in peace without feeling that everything I do is terrible)
As a kid I was so talented at art and music and I was the smartest in my class and even though I didn’t have many kids I was doing great. I made my parents happy and they got so used to it. And now I feel like I can’t do anything. Im not special anymore. The world caught up to me and I wasn’t ready. My parents expect all A+’s and I keep them that grade but im sacrificing too much but no one can tell… im not happy… or maybe I am? Im happy when I get awards. But is it supposed to be this hard? Or was it always supposed to be this hard and I just never knew…
I really want to work so hard on school to the point I'll pass out from the lack of sleep for the past few months and get hospitalized so they finally take care of me and learn to shut up for once. I'm expecting the song to be this when I wake up. I would love to fantasize me in the hospital and feel the love, care and affection I ever wanted and needed. I'll wake up and hope to God their faces are devastated and full of sorrow. I really hope no one reads this, this is just a rant but I wish this could happen, at least this once. Well, that could cost a lot of money, so nevermind lol
I know there are a lot of comments similar to this but... I relate way too much to this when i was in pre-k, i was a bright 4-year-old who loved learning and buried themselves in books loving to learn. I was also a fairly popular little guy with a perfect body (as a little kid lol). In kindergarten, not much changed i grew smarter everyday, bye the end of the year i knew 2nd grade math and 5th grade geography. Then 1st grade came. I went to a new school and was scared. When i walked to class for the first time, there was one person i knew there. 1st through the beginning of 4th grade, i was doing just fine in school, then COVID hit when i was just about to turn 10. thats when it went downhill, i was getting bad grades, i got fat, and i was eventually a nobody. In 5th grade (september 2020 if anyones lost), it was so weird coming back in person. 5th grade was a disaster. Bad grades, small attention span, addiction to youtube/tiktok, it wasn't good. 6th grade, things god better, but because my grades were rising, everyone expected me to do as good as i did in kindergarten, so there was a lot of pressure. Now it's the middle of 6th grade, and i have good grades but high expectations and lots of pressure and im fat :(
this hits a liiiiiittle too close to home ngl 😭 it's strange being a truly middle class kid, with a truly normal life, except you have no truly real friends. it all feels fake.
I used to be happy before pandemic, it ruined my life, i used to have high grades, my parents was always proud for me, high honors, high scores, happy life, alot of friends, when pandemic started everything changed, Anxiety, depression, stress, i lost friends, always on my phone i have no one to talk to, low grades, my parents are disappointed, low score, no honors, i try to pay attention at school but alot of things distract me: ')
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