I never know why childhood, memories or innocence makes me so sad. Nostalgic and resentful somehow. But imagining it through my character in mind, it seems happy.
Oooh I love this. I'd love to have a conversation with younger me because I'm sure we'd have so much we could teach each other. Any reflection on childhood is time well spent!
i recently found your channel and was genuinely blown away. i wish i had found you sooner. i love love love philosophy and there are so little “asking you philosophical questions” videos and all your videos are just like that and so perfect! Yes, i watch asmr to sleep but also just as entertainment. after each of your videos i get good rest and know a little more about myself. i appreciate what you do so much 💞 your voice is so good soft spoken/whispered and i just love these questions ones. they are so creative! 👏👏👏
i really like your videos 😍 especially the ones with questions and writing answers on a keyboard, i love your fast typing and i think tomorrow i will listen to one of your videos and actually write stuff down :)
when i was in early highschool i had already purposefully repressed childhood memories (and unintentionally repressing memories unrelated from the ones i originally wanted to forget), bit this brought them back to my mind. thank you 🫶
I am really sorry if this triggered anything but if it did, I hope there has been enough space and time to revisit, process, reintegrate and heal. Sending a lot of love
wow not only was i able to relax quicker than usual, i also get an extra credit point in english since you said quintessential (one of our vocab words)! thanks floontz!!
Memoir of Alienated Potatoes. 01. What I remember, I cried a lot. And have a hard time doing my first handwriting. hometown 02. Jakarta (I still live in the West till now hahaha) (West, South, North, Center, East) 03. Describe? National Capital City, Everyone says Jakarta is a land of hope. There are so many homeless problems here, unsolved till now they came from a small village, hoping they can change life here, some of them are successful, the failed ones become Jakarta's burden aka Homeless. 04. Cities. 05. Terrain flat 06. Climate: Dry season and Rain season 07. Population: A lot hahaha, 10 mil people based on Wiki 08. Do i know where i live? sort of, more of acquaintance 09. Why do I like my hometown? One of the best cities in Indonesia (but it's very hot, not recommended for easily red skin) 10. National Monument, we call it, Monas. 11. Holidays, I only celebrated Chinese New Year, Vesak's day, Eid Mubarak (you can't hide, biggest population is Islam), Christmas, and New Year. (there's a lot, i'm gonna say, what i remember) 12. Main street is a business area of tall office buildings, hotels, monuments, lots of traffic, and pollution 13. Change of the town, the land keeps getting low to water. In some years we're soon gonna drown 14. Area i avoid is the prostitute, in Jembatan Genit, which is near my house in Grogol. (Till now, even some say there's good fried rice there. I won't tried it) 15. Benyamin Sueb, I believe.. (He was an Artist, Actor and Singer, in Betawi/Jakarta) 16. Address, secret, same road different house.. I won't share it hahaha (But i tell the fun stories, I lived in my childhood house till the end of 2009, and then move, but coming back again in 2011 but a different house) 17. Exterior and Interior of the house: I don't quite remember. But we don't have a basement and a garage. Small house, with little terrace, living room, 2 bedroom, kitchen, and small tunnel where i practice rollerblade The exterior is just a light blue house. 18. My neighbors are English teachers, Electronic fixer and Passion fruit syrup maker (I believe there's a doctor but I don't quite know her) personality 19. ppl see me as a troublemaker, a little bit too serious. What i see myself is introverted troublemaker, why i call myself trouble maker bcs i like to break things, my stuff or ppl stuff accidentally or in rage. 20. Good one: I was a handsome, and ultra cute baby, everyone likes me.. Even my uncle's wife says, I could be a superstar, or become a kid actor. But my mom I don't like the idea of a kid actor (to be honest i like to become actors, but i'm not as handsome as when i was a kid.. HUHUHU 🥲) Bad one: I am almost getting adopted by my richer aunty, my mom's sister. But the sixth senses ppl say if my aunt adopts me, my father and my mother will divorce.. So yeah, no more adopting. 21. I don't know, probably 1 yrs old, My first step. I saw my 1 yrs birthday pic i already standing, my mom holding me, maybe before. 22. I don't remember, my first word possibly DADADADA (father) or some unintelligible word. health 23. 2006, I lost my first tooth at home using the traditional way, door one, pull it myself, or lose it in sleep. (no tooth fairy here hahaha) 24. Panic and fun, but mostly I pull it myself. and then fall asleep, the next day i dont feel any pain anymore. (never use braces so now i got crooked teeth, oops!) 25. Health as a child, Better than now, I got a lot of energy and absurd inspiration when i was a kid, and many weird romantic script in my mind. but never write it. (Now i easily got cold. Lower immune system or lacking some sun, oops!) 26. Home remedies when i was sick, is chinese medicine syrup for cough and cold, paracetamol, and Cool wet towel in head when i got fever. And the red medicine liquid for the curing wound, the painful one.. and band aids (hansaplast) 27. Only normal sickness, like fever, cold, cough, sore throat, no voice throat, diarrhea and skin change Skin change in 2007/2008 by washing hand using dishsoap, all my skin flaky can be peeled. foot, hands, not smallpox. Healed with lotion on almost the whole body for months (that's the scariest one. not life threatening. It's cured btw) 28. Never, but when i was young i always fell in the gutter or drain. Smelly 29. Surgeries, no, but stayed in hospital when i was baby due to Diarrhea.
school 30. First day at school, uncomfortable and cried. possibly sh** in pants 31. Major memories of school, is to bully or get bullied (bullied one hehe), unrequited love, helping friends(or older ones to get new friends), hoping school will end as fast as possible. Bad scores, not the cool friend who got everything, I'm just existing. Till now. 32. Languages, Computer, Sports, and Music. (I started to love math when I was in high school as I was developing my computer skills 14+) 33. Scouts and Mathematics 34. Trouble in school (stealing everyone pens and pencil, so no one can write. as revenge for bullying me. 2007) (some who are kind to me, not too kooky i dont steal, but sometimes due to klepto i steal them all.. bad habit, luckily i lose that bad habit) (and fighting in class 2009 , no teacher, everyone's fight, i join, i'm the only one who got into trouble. HUHUHU) 35. Morning routines, Wake up at 5:30, take a bath 5:45. Nicklodeon 6:00 to 6:30 (spongebob) + Cereals (or just drink milk or instant noodles) just before go to school.. Go to school at 6:45, school starts at 07:00 (only 5 minutes walk to school) 36. Bedtime is 22:00 or 21:00 (now its a mess, I sleep at 01 AM and wake up at 7 AM, or sometimes 6 AM to watch your new uploads and then start my morning routines) 37. RC Car, but the last one i still own to these days is Hot Wheels. first friends 38. Imaginary friends, Yes. Tons of them. who hugged me and cheered for me. I'll tell you my fav ones. (Girl who is younger than me, cute and lovely. who affirms me whenever i'm at the lowest.) (Boy who is the same age as me, weird but caring, who tells me to be strong and brave) (I never meet them anymore. the warm feelings are gone. But i'm a better person now) 39. First real friend (he is called J sh** i forgot his name, nice friend who helped me with homework, and better score) 40. Crush, I got many unrequited love. 41. Chess, Uno, Soccer, Basketball, Lots of computer games. 42. Playmates (oooh my online games friend, school friend too. No we stopped being friends. Even when i see some of them in the street they stop waving now. shiii) (Some chat, some forget) 43. They're taller, cooler, got the newest thing and kind friend (outside), who will come whenever they need support from me. But use me as a scapegoat whenever they have problems, I started to realize it a bit late. (if you remember "challenging thought" video one, i tell you blamed one hit the most bcs of this) 44. Some of them are successful, but we lost contact. only how are you chatting sometimes. spirituality 45. I'm Buddhist, whenever I have free time, after homework or chores. I have been doing meditation for 1 hour, the longest one for almost 2 hours. And fear of doing wrong things 46. Theravada Buddhism or Confucius. 47. Not very active in a temple or monastery.. Mostly we pray at home to the Gods and Ancestors (fun fact i used to be active in church as a computer/visual guy, highschool) 48. Yes, but mostly by myself or with my brother or friends. 49. Nice and recharged. Sometimes sleepy. 50. Some monks. yes. I forgot his name. 51. Weeks, yes. I went to a Buddhist temple every Sunday, and continued with the free Mandarin course. 52. Christmas, I didn't celebrate it until high school (Only enjoy some Christmas discounts at the shopping mall) 53. Quite satisfied. activities 54. Boy Scouts, in school. Yes. (I don't quite enjoy it) 55. Scouts too.. Cooking, and Making tents. Problem solving. 56. Basketball(center guy), Soccer (goalkeeper), Badminton too. food 57. Dino Nuggets + rice and Cereals 58. fav Lunch: Chinese Chicken Soup, Sweet and Sour Chicken, Crispy pork rice bowl, Fried Chicken and fries, etc. I can do this all day. 59. fav Dinner: Steak and mashed potato, Pizza, Meatballs soup, Fried chicken w/ rice, Spaghetti, or saving money mode (Instant noodles) 60. fav Desert: Ice cream, Puddings, Cheese cake, Chocolate cake. (Ironic one, sometimes Pizza and Pancakes is my dessert. this is a secret hehe)
home life 61. Bored with old house, need something new. 62. No, I like moving. Moving away from bullies.. (Theres some coincidence, i'm moving way closer to the bullies home. Luckily just 1 yr, pheww. Scary time, 2010) 63. It's always hot in the afternoon.. without a heater 64. Imaginary answer: It's the best feeling ever. 65. We sleep together with separate beds. 66. Quiet, Awkward and sometimes Relaxing. (Often birds sound more loud than our talkin sound) (Or loud sound when my parents argue or fight) 67. No just my father 68. Both of parents 69. Daycare no, What about the caregiver? Imaginary answer: She's pretty and kind.. but she is in some young forever cult by drinking b***d (The Babysitter) 70. Parks and Playground.. different cultures. We don't play in the old house. Many old houses in Indonesia are haunted. 71 Yes 72 Buying candy or saving for buying some Yu Gi Oh Card. 73 Collecting Stickers, Music Magazines, On some occasions to catch up with friends I collect Yu Gi Oh cards too. 74 Encyclopedia, Comic and Dictionary. 75 Oooh this is the best part: In chinese household, If i misbehave i get screamed, If i do it again i get slapped by flip flop or Feather stick.. Bad grades grounded no phone, tv, music player only books and Pianica allowed. 76. Mom 77. In childhood no.. now yes. since my dad died in 2022 78. Cleaning dishes. 79. Weekend: watching Vcd or Dvds. Or my parents take us to the shopping mall for refreshing. Or just a small shop to buy some chips and candy😁 80. Sunday Cartoon Marathon from 6Am to 12Pm in Indonesia (It's not like it used to. Now it's just 7-9Am in some channels continued with Gossip, Celebrity s***). Saturday here is loaded with morning cooking shows. I woke up with this every saturday bcs my Mom loved watching the cooking show appearance 81. We use the same uniform here in school, Saturday scout uniform, I dress normally at home. Sometimes no shirt cuz it's ultra hot here. 82. I like it, and most of the time i have no choices 🥲 83. Bcs they buy it for me. They approve. As long as it's proper they approve. 84. Keanu Reeves Speed hairstyles 85. As long its short they approved. Or as if they approved i got longer hair. The school will make our hair bald. If the wetted hair hits the eye. (Boys only, Girls must use hairclip) 86. I feel a bit overweight but tall, my hair looks quite nice. childhood friends 87. Mostly in schools. If i meet them in malls or other places, they act like they don't know me 🙈. But i remember theres three girls friends and some of the boys who were always so happy to see me.. 88. Eat, play, sing, and guard. 89. Yeah but i forget what it is. 90. HAHAHA! I have that kind of friend. 91. Theyre nice but change 92. Yo wassup bro. Oii. Lu apa kabar? (Lu is you. Cooler you) (Apa kabar is How are you?) 93. Opposite ofc. Blushing red face. Handholding is so cute back in the day.. No kissing.. (Again a different culture again hehe) 94. I'm not sure.. if i cherished it. I bet my friends don't 95. Cake and presents. (But my birthday cake is always shared with my lil brother because we're both September) 96. My mom cooked me my fav meal.. It's vegetables. I don't know the plant name in english. And give me a grounded pass. Which i dont grounded anymore 😊 97. No my father doesn't like animals. But i personally like cats and dogs. 98. Secondhand Serenade, Owl City, Bruno Mars, Avril Lavigne, and MCR 99. I wish. But my parents can't afford it.
Tragedies 100. 2004 Boxing day Tsunami, 11 Sept, Bali Bomb 2005, There's a lot happening. 101. No.. never.. in my childhood. (I had earthquake anxiety since 2018 when I was almost 21. Its January) 102. I'll skip cause I don't have one. 103. I'll skip. Warning is always a bit late here in Indonesia. 104. I'll skip. Some of Aceh's ppl home got destroyed by Tsunami's. Only one mosque stays strong. misc 105. I got pranked hahaha. Wait I'm successfully pranking my brother about the pricey banana fritter. But buy him a normal price one. But he didn't realize it for almost 2 years, that was fun~ until he knows 😅 106. babysitting no, never. 107. Hide something from my parents yes. I believe its my bad grades sheet or my stickers I buy way too much. So i don't get grounded. 108. My mom found out my sticker stash and my bad grades, She knows where i hide it, now i get grounded. 109 Being lonely in almost all my life. My pressence is never needed. My help always needed. After that they go.. I'm fine 😊, I mean till now my friend is still in contacted me just to ask a computer things. 110-112 Thank you birthday sis.. for the nice videos.💕
@@FloontzASMR 1) i guess so yeah, or stay till the end. 2) No.. but i still avoid that area till now hahaha.. 3) My old home yes, but it is being rebuilt by new residents.
The earliest thing i can remember was when i could barely walk, and my dad carried me and put me in one of those toy cars that you could drive. But there was a spider in it, and i freaked out and cried for my dad to take me out cuz i couldnt get out myself lol
i refuse to miss any questions this time ! ❤ Here are my answers 🙏Hi Floontz! might be a bit heavy im not sure part 1 1. my 5th birthday party, my dog , my preschool bestfriend i lived in the blue mountains NSW they were mountains, huge river in the middle of town with a bridge and lots of trees, it was rural and small many people were on drugs or poor, climate was very very hot or snow around 10,000 i didn’t talk to many people because it was dangerous outside i didn’t like it at all hahahah there was a huge river that is one of the biggest in my state we would do a carols for christmas, i hated it it was just a street, very boring it’s become busier and way more safe, lots of new houses and it’s becoming a tourist spot yes!!! even my front yard was out of bounds hahahaha my neighbours had a meth lab 61 was the number and it was at the end of a culdasac it was one story, and had lots of mould, we had a tin roof and tiles with old 50s style carpet, we had a pool and a trampoline, a few trees and a huge hedge one died, the others were imprisoned and once one of our neighbors left their baby out on the gutter and we had to call the police to get it, they were all horrible people . we moved for a reason autistic, awkward, creative and determined to follow my beliefs i would always refuse to wear shoes i was a barefoot girly HAHAHAA no idea no idea i don’t know but i think it was mama i lost them all in the span of three years really young i kept pulling them out they kept them … LOL very healthy and playful, mostly mental issues we would drink lemonade for sugar and liquid intake when we had fevers i drowned and had to be resuscitated twice, after that i never drowned again yeah but i never really badly hurt myself , worst injury i’ve had was a popped out knee- i popped it back in and went to lunch at ikea and after couldn’t walk for three months hahahahha it was fun ! being isolated and bullied, being a horrible kid who always caused trouble too
i liked my highschool teacher, he was my english teacher and was very inspiring ! i hated most teachers and math a lot, because i couldn’t get it at all. still can’t do basic math lol i got in trouble for sleeping allllll the time i had a tantrum and mental breakdown every morning for years as a child bc of undiagnosed issues which caused me to feel anxious i didn’t have a bed time i had a stuffed leopard called bed buddy no id just talk to myself my childhood bestfriend was not sure but i don’t think so i liked playing cooking games with dirt and stuff we haven’t because they went their seperate ways organically the same type of crazy energy wouldn’t have a clue i was extremely over it all lol, did not believe in god i thought it was dumb going to church christianity, which we left when i was around 11 yes, and it was a cultist church sadly lol i had no friends and got bullied, the adults were mean too. later we found out there was THAT stuff no HAHAHAH yeah but i never participated i sat on the kids church rooms couch all night and day community events and a christmas lunch yes and i still am satisfied with the fact if he is out there i don’t like him lol (no offense intended)
we don’t have scouts in australia but i was in a few sports teams and a choir , i was in a bunch of shit i can’t remember it all i really liked the taekwondo tournaments and lessons and i hated the gymnastics evaluations i was versatile (heavy on the was) nothing pasta and apple black current juice snitzel ice cream too much crime i was very happy to leave ! we didn’t have heating we had bar heaters on rarely i hated it i would literally freeze to death back and forth from sharing and my own normal, very average yes! both very talented and cool my dad and mum both did and my sister and brother i did, for 7 years i went morning and night everday i HATED them , they always man handled me and yelled at me (i probably deserved it i was evil) i played in my room alone on my ipad HAHAHAH no when i got money i would buy online and games and stuff i was heavy into drawing and getting better at art i loved manga of all sorts physically, they’d restrict my ipad time lock me in my room or not feed me both were evil lol (i love them still) only later on when i was older, we all sort of helped i was the bathroom girl church and house cleaning i wasn’t allowed to go out or have sleepovers for safety reasons till i hit 12 years old i loved cartoon network
we had uniforms, skorts and a polo shirt, on weekends i wore casual comfy clothes nothing flashy i had choice but i never felt comfortable no matter what i wore yeah they don’t care lol ponytail for dayszzzzzz they have always been extremely for self expression, i’ve gone many colours and styles they’ve never once stopped me i felt fine, sometimes worse than others sometimes better idk school sadly we didn’t do anything outside of school stuff because i hated them so much yes!!! i swear half the time people were overreacting to a kid being a kid tho smh i was that friend i just wanted to be seen and heard my childhood bestfriend was very good to me we would have inside jokes but i dont remember much i’ve always been fluid i never cared about gender or sex i honestly don’t care at all about romance in general all the people i thought were alright sorta faded out of my life with time naturally my childhood bestfriend made it fun for me! i cherish her memories parties sparing no expense !! it was horrible, that’s when the accident happened after 12 i was never the same but as an adult i’m way better now his name is mr chow he’s still alive but very old, he’s a fat tom cat . i also had a dog now deceased called pepper , a pit bull staffie i liked katy perry i did lol i was a singer !? so random lol
bush fires ripped across the nation in a biggggg country wide drought that killed a lot of people and farms yep!! the sky was so orange and ash was falling, every tree turned black and i still?!?!?!? had to go to school… i have no idea but in my country and state maybe like 10 yes we were fine it was everyone else that was wrecked in the floods it was, badly yeah i used to pants ppl sorry to my sister for that tbh but it’s still funny to this day i never needed a babysitter nor did i ever babysit yes i stole their money HAHAHAHA they did find out every damn time i did it i was diagnosed with disordered type shit bc of childhood neglect and traumatic events , not that deep though anymore now that i’m an adult
