My girlfriend went through years of abuse after she came out to her family. According to her, it was her father's way of "fixing her". She cries herself to sleep a lot. Other times she has nightmares. She won't tell me the whole story, I don't think she can bring herself to. I don't think I can bear to hear the rest of it. I hope I'm giving her the love she was denied and giving her the proper affection she deserves.
You're a good boyfriend man and I hope she's okay tell her that she's loved and one day she'll be confident in herself keep loving her I hope you and your girlfriend the best of luck
Though I am not able to relate to this audio, My heart goes out to anyone going through this or have gone through this. No one deserved that. You're so strong. Stay strong loves💕
Cardlin, this is...gosh, I can't accurately put my feelings into words. At the beginning of this audio, I didn't think I would get emotional. I hardly due when it comes to my father. But when you got into the details, a symphony of buried emotion and tears just bubbled out and I couldn't stop it. I'd have to say the best part of this audio is how angry you sound. When I was younger, and a very angry teenager, I lashed out at my father for all the abuse and pain he caused my family. For every tear, bruise, and quiet night we had because of him. I was always shunned for it. And I'll admit it, I still get scolded when I make the rare bitter remark. I've always been told to just let it go. Don't think about it. Don't talk about it. Don't waste energy getting angry about it. I still feel ashamed when I start breaking out in hives when my father is in the same room as me. Or when I cried myself to sleep. Like I'm not supposed to be angry or hurt or scared. I'm supposed to be indifferent. But to hear how emotional and angry you were...I really don't know how to explain it. It just felt right. Like that anger was right. So thank you, thank you so damn much for this. I really can't say it enough. Thank you. I got to let out some pent up hurt (you always find away to make me emotional somehow) and it feels a lot better. So thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. P.s. Thank you so much ❤
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This audio speaks a lot to me...a lot....more than any movie or any song I’ve ever seen or heard...my father was never a good guy....he did unspeakable things to me that affect me to this day.....and for years I encounter other men who did the very same thing...this audio is extremely powerful..and I almost felt like I couldn’t do it ...but as I listened I realized I let my past make me stronger and this audio reminds me of how far I’ve come....I’m not a victim...I am a woman & my past doesn’t define me...I truly appreciate you adding the links up above for comfort ...I know this wasn’t a easy audio to do..but I’m very glad you did this Cardlin; Anybody that is still hurting I’m here for you!! ❤️ You are amazing & you are more than your past...Thank you J for submitting this ...
Bea Torrefiel 😊 god bless you !!! *hugs* thank you so much!! Your words mean so much to me !!! You don’t have to idolize me I’m just like you; everybody has a story and some have more bad then good but we are all the same . 🤗 🤗
Essence Cherie' any time. If you need someone, I'll be here to help. Just contact me on Facebook perhaps? Or Instagram. Actually wherever you're comfortable
Hey, me too and honestly don't blame me for wanting my "father" dead but he is still alive and still hurts me and effects me. He is deported and in Mexico while I live with my mom and I'm 14, my boyfriend helps me through it. And my mom doesn't know what happened that day and I don't want her to know. Only my brother, my friends and my boyfriend know. And they know I don't want anyone to know and I'm glad they haven't.
I did this at my father-in-law's grave. I was so angry with him for physically, verbally and mentally abusing him as a child. It hurt my heart to hear what he did to him. Cardlin, this was me talking..oh man this hurts.
Holy shit, that got REAL. Outstanding job to you, for that performance, and to J, for writing it. God damn. I feel like someone punched me in the gut. I could relate on some levels to the subject matter, but not quite to that extreme. Thank you for doing this, Cardlin. I'm sure it means the world to some of your listeners. It takes a lot of guts to give yourself or others a voice in tough situations like this. I need to go watch some "try not to laugh" comps, now lol.
It's sad because there are people who actually go through these things and are too afraid to speak up and get help because they fear of the consequences. My heart goes out to those who have been abused in any sort of way because I thankfully grew up in a good home filled with love. I pray that anyone in these kind of situations can find someone they can have to help them get out of these situations.
This is a unique audio to me. The most unique one you've ever done, I'd have to say. I dunno, something about how it's not a son going to visit his father about his sister or whatever, or the daughter going and crying and yelling about it herself. It's the man who really loves her that needed to tell someone about how pissed off he is, and what better person to go to than the man who pissed him off himself. Something about the fact that her boyfriend went to vent about his actions gives me a new kind of vibe. And I love how he is emotional about it, whether they be angry or sad or just neutral. I just love that about this audio. Great job, Cardlin!
This is one of the best things out there right now. I as a abused and neglected child I always flinched when someone raised there hand at me because I would always remember getting hit. I was always a easy target in school because I was bullied so much I almost killed myself. Thankfully I got some therapy but still to this day I’m neglected at times. Now I stand tall on my own and show the world how badass I can be without anyone ever hurting me. It took some years to finally face reality that I didn’t wanna be like a total loser so I changed. Thank you so so much Cardlin for making this. Your the best ever.
J....you really packed a punch with this one. Its real good and...I know, Cardlin, that you warned us not to listen to this if you're dealing with these sensitive topics but I couldn't help it. Honestly, I can say I've been through most of what was mention and still suffering from the damages done. Hearing what was told not only open some old wounds, but also brought comfort. I'm not trying to put myself or anyone else at the spot, but things DO get better. It may not come today, or tomorrow, or even the next day. But IT DOES COME. You are stronger than what people think and/or say. Thanks for tackling this, J and Cardlin.
Hey, I just wanted to say thank you for putting the links in the description. It means a lot. [Edit: To anyone else who can't listen to todays audio, I am here with you. I love you and support you, no matter what. I'm so proud of you. 💙]
People always talk on here about how something comes at just the right time. I never thought that would happen. But lo and behold minute I get off the train on the way back to see my own dad. This pops up. And thank you for it My dad was in no way as bad as this... but you said how she didn't know which ones was going to come through the door I cried. Because that was me and that still is me. I related in ways I never thought I could. Because I do love my dad and I do try to forgive him, but I still text my sister ahead of time to gauge what mood he is in and how to respond. I know my grandad was a piece of work and that my dad is unlikely to change, but I, like her, still yearn for affection. I hearing this gave me strength, just from knowing that someone else is going through this and that someone else (even if he is fictional) cares. And would you know it today... my dad told me he loved me... for one of the few times in my life. I dont know if this is fate, or just luck. But Thank you. Just Thank You.
This took me lots of pausing and unpausing, and a few moments of self reassurance, but I am so glad i watched. I grew up with my mother for most of my life, and she was always rage filled and neglectful. The neglect led to so much sexual abuse, anxiety, and depression, and i can scarcely remember a time where I wanted to be alive, so this hit pretty close for me. My mother and I are currently seeking mental help, and I will be on meds (Thank goodness), so i am okay now. Just, thanks so much for this, Cardlin. And for those who are suffering in bad circumastances, I know its traumatic, but i also know things get better.
I wasn't hurt like some of the people here. But my upbringing wasn't picture perfect. I can honestly say that this is my absolute favorite video of yours, this is so comforting to me. Thank you so much.
This touched home for me. Hard. Even tho I didn't get this type of abuse, I did and still getting mental and emotional abuse. It all started when my parents got divorced when I was 4. He just left, and I didn't know why. I still see him tho. As elementary school began, all I had for friends were books. No one really was my friend, and I hardly ever got invited to parties. I was bullied almost every day. My dad was taking drugs for his depression and anxiety. Whenever they saw each other, it was always fighting. And when middle school started, that's when mom began to change. Her soft smooth hands became hands of cold hard steel. Her hugs felt like chains, and every sweet word felt like lies. She put all the household chores on me. I felt more like a maid than a daughter. A little while later, she had an accident with her knee. She had surgery for it, but she got even more of a perfectionist. Down to the last detail she judged me. Day in day out, even when I had a good day, she kept on saying I should be better. When thanksgiving came along, my mom's best friend started to not answer texts and calls. So one night, we went to her house. I went in while mom stayed in the car. When i found her friend, she was lying on the floor. I checked her pulse, and gave her chest compretions i had learned the day before. But it was too late. She died in my arms, and when mom came in, she broke. After a while, she became even more and more bitter. There was a phrase she said when I didn't do something the way she wanted it. Down to the last detail. That made me realize that the mother I knew was not there anymore. "This is why you don't have friends." After I heard that and many others, my heart broke. More and more of a master than a mother. I began to do some stupid stuff. When I started to have boyfriends, all they wanted was my body. I'm still a virgin thank God. And when I got cyber bullied, no one could help me. And I still get cyber bullied. I was never shown real love. I thought my dad was my savior. But he just wants a perfect Catholic girl that will be wearing pretty dresses. Just like my mom wants me to be the perfect angelic princess. They never showed me true love. I have found some true friends, but my parents still don't understand. When I try to talk to them, they wouldn't listen. Or even pay attention. I would cry myself to sleep every night. I have been having panic attacks and depression lately. I have a huge amount of stress I'm carrying. So much that I'm to my breaking point. All I got for comfort were lies and words from my parents. Even when I needed a hug the most. This may sound silly to some people. And it probably is. A privileged girl, complaining about her life of loneliness. Sometimes I wished I was homeless without parents. I wish I could trade with one of the unhappy. I know that my story is not really important when there are so many other people out there who are more unlucky than I am. Sometimes I just feel like I was put here for nothing. Everything I do is a mistake. I, am a mistake. I was the reason my parents split up. I've talked about this with my trusted friends. But it's not enough they say. And I believe them. But cardlin, ever since i discovered u and ur channel, I've been introduced to something glorious and new. Audios that help me sleep at night. Audios that make me feel like I'm worth a damn. Even though sometimes I feel like I'm not. So thank you. For understanding. Understanding a teenage girl, who's lost in the dark, cold, water. Where she can't breathe. I love my parents deeply and apreciate them so much, but they are just too much.
My mom CONSTANTLY compares me to my younger brother. I remember something that witch said so fucking vividly “Stop being so weird” is what she said. And now that fucking bitch has the audacity to tell me “Why aren’t you as energetic as you were when you were younger?” That once energetic young girl fucking died
Thank you for this... Especially with the links. I don't think I could've faced my father without this. I just got home from the house I lived in as a child. You gave me the strength to confront him and tell him how I felt. Anybody dealing with this, I know it's difficult. Especially to admit - I get it. Don't be afraid to speak up, and speak out about the issues. The ones who've abused you deserve zero respect. My father was in the Army, and - as respectedable that may be - he became an alcoholic and terrible abuser. His past is now tainted by his actions of the aftermath. There is NO excuse for this, and you must tell somebody. Tell somebody about what's happening, even if you think it falls on deaf ears. Thank you, again, Cardlin. This made dealing with trauma a lot easier. I love you ♡
This is the first audio I've listened to from beginning to end without pausing. Even though it was hard; it was worth it. I can relate to everything in this audio. From hiding in my closet to hurting myself to bullying to having to be protected from my own mother to being rejected to being fondled; to my husband going to therapy with me. Thank you for this. Thank you. My heart is so full. I know, heartbreakingly so, many people can relate to this. Thank you for validating our hearts.
I thankfully have loving parents, but to all of you who relate to this and can't listen to the audio because of it, I just wanted to say that your feelings are valid and the fact that you're still here and are reading this just proves how strong you are, no matter what you've been through. ❤️
Thank you J for writing this beautifully and amazing script and thank you Cardlin for uploading it on your channel. People deals with this kind of stuff in their lives... In fact ... I've been one of those people. It wasn't like beating me with a belt or touching me in a way I didn't want to be touched... But I was the one who had to watch it everyday since I've been 6 till 12 ... It stopped after my Father got sick with a brain bleed... Where he could've died in front of my eyes.. I was the one who witnessed him screaming in pain... And it was because of the drinking. And when it came to drinking everyday after work... There would be the abuse? But the "abuse" would be from being drunk, but I still had to witness one of the few people that I love get hurt because of my drunk Father... (I placed quotation marks around the word abuse because... I really don't know what other word to use for fighting, hitting, yelling, and etc... But don't worry... I am fine and the person that got "hurt" is fine.. we are a happy family and doing well!) But PLEASE, if some of you guys deal, get hurt, or even watch the ones you love get abused... Please find professional help that can help you to get through the harsh lives we got. There are people out there that are winningly to help you! Thank you, again. 😄😁💕💕 (Sorry about my bad grammer at the end... 😂)
A tiny piece of my heart goes to your father, I assume he could have dealt with it in a different way. And between you and me >.> I can't spell well O.o ...... I am sorry that all happened though.
My mother and father both went through abuse ... my mother came from Mexico my father came from Iraq. My fathers family left because of the war, but my mother came to get a better life. Now my mother is still ghetto from this but my father is the sweetest, funniest , guy you ever met they both bonded over their past. Now they are a loving couple and and even everything is not perfect they still go through hell and back together.
This is so healing. My father tried to "accidentally" drown me when I was 3 months old and many also suspected other abuse when I got a bit older. Thankfully those same suspecting people quickly got me out of the situation, but he tried contacting me the second I turned 18 and was no longer under the protection of the law. My fiancé speaks of him just as you speak, and damn, it's so healing to hear you talk like that. It's frightening how common this situation is. This is a gift Cardlin. Thank you. Edit: Honestly, it feels like you've been sent from heaven at just the right time.
I know this has been out for some time, but, as a survivor of sexual assault (not by my father, thank the universe, but by my mom's boyfriend) this really spoke to me and made me understand how other people, like my dad and my boyfriend, really feel about my story and how mad they are that it happened to me. Thank you so much. And this helped me further my trauma work a little bit more and that's a huge step. The whole little bit about dissociation and how sometimes self-harm was a way of coping with the trauma is such a real thing and I used the harm as a way to dissociate, and it was a rough time. Those times are still there, but, now I talk to people or pet my cat or listen to something like this. You're such an amazing person and you deserve the best from life. Thank you so much, Cardlin. You're doing so much for people who are struggling and just going through life with difficult situations.
Mich Aguiluz I think having people in your life,like your dad and your boyfriend, who care deeply about you, and yes, feel angry for you helps. Sometimes when I try to minimize what happened, someone else is angry on my behalf and reminds me that it's ok if I'm angry too.
Please, anyone who's suffering from this kind of abuse or any abuse, you're not alone. There will always be someone to talk to, a hotline, a friend, whatever. Make sure you're comfortable enough to talk about it, don't force yourself to do things you absolutely don't want to do. You are loved, please remember that.
We are more than lucky to have you Cardlin. Thank you so so so SO much for being you and being there for us whenever we need someone, you’re amazing ❤️
Essence Cherie' thank you. Those bullies actually made me depressed which led me to having absolutely terrible grades in the second term. It was a really hard time. I was crying myself to sleep each night because of them.
Hugs from sri lanka...I hope the bullying is over now...Mostly people bully when they are insecure when they see you as a threat...so take them as indicators of your potential .😙😙 All the very best darling!
I haven't been sexually abused, but I've experienced every other abuse from my dad. This is terribly relatable. I was sitting with my mouth dropped open at the points that hit home.. Thanks J and Cardlin!
I’m glad you made this because my friend has been going through this for many years and I was there with her all the way through. I showed this to my friend and she’s been listening to your audios ever since I showed her so I’m happy you made this ^_^ Also if anyone else is having these problems, people are always going to be there for you ^^ no matter what
This.. this is deep. Thank you for doing this- this needs more recognition. Cardlin- you are amazing. This strikes a chord deep in my soul. My dad is not even CLOSE to as bad as this. I just feel like he doesn't love me sometimes. My parents are divorced, and when this happened, it.. it changed him.
The first time I listened to this audio it was so hard, I didn’t know why but I felt something so strong, like the biggest hug I’ve ever received. But now I know. Last year I started remembering what my brain tried so hard to hide from me: I was a victim of incest for 4 years when I was a child. Today i’m listening to this audio for the first time since my memory came back, and I just wanted to say thank you for taking about this topic 🫶🏻
You saying how she's "damn near unbreakable" i started to cry. This hurts in a good way because one day i want to fibd a man who loves me as much as this. To stand with me and face my parents telling them they have no right to be in my life. But from that point through the end hit close to home and Thank You so very much!
This audio. It makes me...both happy, and a bit sad. My father, he’s emotionally and mentally hurt me so many times. But I don’t think he ever realized what he did. He doesn’t know he hurt me. He doesn’t know that the things he said to me, is one of the reasons my self-esteem is so low. But I can never never tell him. He acts as though he didn’t hurt me. As though he never said anything wrong. Like he never told me I was the R word. Like he never doubted me. Like he never said anything wrong. And it hurts. This audio. I love to think about someday leaving my home. Starting a new life where I can make my own decisions, and not be desperate for his approval. This audio. It makes me think about finding someone as loving and understanding as you. Who can make me happy. The sort of man who won’t tell me such things, and who will lift me up, instead of bring me down, or make me upset. I love my father. But I hate the things he does, so very much. Even today at 18, I still find myself, wondering. And hoping. That I can make him happy. I hope someday, I can find someone as sweet and loving as you...
I honestly have no words to express how much this means to myself and alot of others. Thank you J for the making this script and bringing awareness. And of course, thank you to Cardlin for doing amazing portrayal of this and (I just can't explain how much this means to me.) Just thank you.
That hit me hard...the nightmares from school, the missing memories, not wanting things but not saying no, picking up unhealthy habits to cope. I wake up sometimes with full blown panic attacks. I’m still dealing with stuff from when I was little and with classmates. I still think about and have had blackouts because the stress and anxiety from it all comes back. I’m 17 and dealing with things that if I had spoken up about would’ve changed my life completely. Thank you for this so much. Much love to you and the writer ❤️
I'm really impressed by all your work 👏🏻 Thanks for this, thanks for existing, you're helping me with a lot of things such as anxiety, major depressive disorder and borderline personality. I also have problems with my family, it's probably not as much as horrible as what you describe, but it reminded me of my mother. Especially about the bullying and the self harm part. Anyway, I'm glad you're there for us, thanks Cardlin 🌹
Thank you Cardlin and J... thank you soooo fricking much for this audio. While I can't put my feelings or gratitude into words I'll say this... You two voiced my entire life from front to back and Goddammit did it feel soo good to pretend as if I finally told someone my story! This is the most emotional audio I ever heard and Cardlin, you did an absolutely amazing job for acting this- it felt so real as if you knew me! And you did this at such an amazing time too... right when the memories and the pain came back and i felt like giving up once again. I still endure this type of pain every day and probably will for the long run so thank you for giving me something to hold on to till it all ends. 😊
Creepypasta Echo if you scroll through the comments, you'll see it's the same story as many of us here. I don't know if it helps you, but knowing I'm not alone has helped me. I also can recommend the RAINN chat. Their volunteers have had better training than some hotlines I've dealt with, even though there is often a long wait.
I’m just now listening to this and I’m crying because Cardlin is describing everything that’s happening to me rn but I have my escape with Cardlin. So thank you Cardlin listening to your audios makes me feel 10000% better
This video is perfect, I can't even find the right words.. Cardlin, you acted this out beautifully and J? Wonderfully written, I'm going to start crying because it hits home so hard.
Every time my dads birthday comes close, i always come and listen to this because it feels like you were getting out what i never could. Thank you, just thank you.
I really appreciate all of the audios like these. They help us coop with everyone.. everything that had happened with others. It really makes all of us know we have someone and have a right to say "No". Thanks cardlin. It means so much
thank you for posting things like this Cardlin Edit: After listening to this, though I may not have the exact same scenario, I cried my eyes out because this could have been me, and thank the lord it wasn’t....but I still want to say that if anyone else suffered from this, I’m sorry you had to go through that. No one deserves that type of treatment.
The fact that I’m able to relate to everything you just said brings back the memories but thanks to you I’m able to feel calmer about this. I am able to feel like I’m not the only one whose been through this pain... so from the bottom of my heart thank you.
Wow intense audio! For the ones who have been through this I'm sorry. I've been here for so long now... a fan of your channel. And wow how you have grown your audios are amazing cardlin! Thanks
Damn this was heavy on the feelings I never experienced any of this but I truly feel sorrow for the poor souls who experienced this kind of mental torment
Wow.. this.. This was perfect.. I was scared to listen but I am glad I didn't leave. I honestly didn't know I needed to hear this. Cried so much from fear and joy there's this. (Saving this) Great job cardlin and J ♡
I'm 15 right now and I can relate to most of this and this video helped get out a lot of negative emotions. thank you for being you and making the content that you do because it dose help some people and this is all some people need. your RU-vid account is amazing keep up the good work :)
This is amazing. As always, you did an amazing job. This is a tough topic and all my love and thoughts are with those people who went through this situation. Greetings from Chile
I was prepared to hear about the things that defined my childhood. I was prepared to listen to someone else rant about the very things that have destroyed my life. What I wasn't prepared for was to hear so many oddly specific details that matched my experience perfectly. I might not be able to finish this one, and that's probably for the best.
I can't describe how this reflects on the life I've lived with my step mother cause I've dealt with her bullshit and I cant even tell anyone how this makes my emotions trigger but I stood through this audio with my head held high and tried not to break down in my own room in front my family and boyfriend
This audio means alot to me. At a very young age and i mean at a VERY young age, my dad was so sexual with me. At age 4 it got worse and he decided to add in physical abuse to that. He left when I was 7 but I still get flash backs of what he did to this day and i am much older now. To anyone who went through this or is going through this just know that i knpw how you feel and no matter what, someone will always be there.
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