This talk touches on the mysterious nature of awakening and realization. We go into detail about how this mysterious nature plays out along one's spiritual journey.
I recently found your channel, and I have started reading your book. I just want to express my gratitude, as the time has most definitely come for me to rediscover the living truth. When I was 17 years old way back in 1990, I had a spontaneous massive 'taste' of the living truth while in a very intense situation. What you talk about here - unconditional love was suddenly seen clearly as the only reality and my world was turned inside out. It was like I was literally born again, everything deepened, I couldn't believe how much colour, simple colour looked so much more vibrant and sound, and everything sung and I could go on, but I was given an answer that I had been seeking, and it was surely grace. I had no reference or way to explain what had happened to me, and I was so young that I didn't realize that it was only the start of the process. Later I discovered Buddhism and various writers and started to be able to put words on what had happened . But over time my selfhood snook back in and solidified into a suffering human being, but I always knew in the back of my being that there is a different way to live, a beautiful true and honest way of being that I had really only had a serendipitous dip in the ocean. Now I want to get back in and stay in, something is calling me and I want to surrender. I had become cynical and fully invested in the illusion of separation, and I still am, but it's old and I need to find reality again. You are the first living person that has inspired me to believe that this might be possible, and I just wanted to send my deepest thanks and deepest gratitude to you Angelo for writing the book, and being who you are. Warmest and kind regards from an old soul here in Ireland.
What you do - which is pretty unique - is talk like an ordinary human being who has apprehended the supra-ordinary, and is trying to explain it to friends. It's very grounding for seekers because it isn't all aspirations and goal-setting. Clearly you just try to describe what actually is, and what it is to *be* it. It's very helpful, and probably comes at some (relative) cost. Thank you for bearing it in order to assist us.
It has been a year of suffering and search for whatever that is , whatever that is you are trying to point to it is here , I can’t point a finger or explain , it was with me when I was 5 years old trying to fix a toy that broke in my hand, and I thought who am I , why am I here with this broken toy , at 17 it walked with me in a small town in a foreign country where I grew up , I felt different for something that is so natural , I am almost 47 years old now but the time doesn’t seem to make any difference , it has been 2 days of breaking through, I can’t put a finger on what is..thanks Angelo !
Thank you so much! I can feel myself understanding with something else than the rational mind, just an aha feeling. I love that about your way of conveying these things. So so simple and deep. Thank you!
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake :) I am listening to the recordings on the app daily at the moment. Helps a lot. So thank you for all the work you are doing! It is so appreciated!
Great talk!... Just realized when you mentioned wind that is the connection I've had my whole life...wonderment and awe of any weather phenomenon...I feel so deeply...live on the outer part of cape cod where there's constant change true reality and intimacy in all the senses
When my mind is getting lost in conceptualising this talk really helps cut that flow of pushing and pulling that seems so important at the time. thank you!!
Enjoyed this Angelo - It's starting to feel very much like a letting go "process" (don't like that word lol). You may call it acceptance or surrender. There's a "point" (don't like this word too) where you do start to look at the world and reality and all that entails quite differently. It is so easy to get swept up in the melee of "life" (social conditioning/human path) and completely forego what's actually happening whilst you get caught up in a false reality narrative. It does feel like a "psychological shift internally" with "emotional resistance patterns" being brought to the surface. I think it's all pointing to the same realization ultimately - like Neo, we've all been living in a glass prison for the mind. So this is the "slow deconstruction" of conditioning. Except it IS breakable right here and now. Always has been. Meditation has been helpful, if only to retrain the me to stop, being unconscious which I mostly have been. The mystery is the thing we all overlook, what and why is the mystery. An attempt is made to fill in the gaps. Illusions that bring about comfort and so we go on unconsciously thinking we understand the ineffable mystery. If we were forced to confront the prospect of "pretend this is your last day of life" thought experiment, the mystery would pop starkly against false belief paradigms. That's where faith would kick in. Ultimately, I feel surrendering to the mystery that life will always carry you is "key" (not that it is, it's just there's no other way to be). You're alive and that's all there is to know about it...
I was obsessed with having an awakening, the suffering was at its peak , thoughts were just so uncomfortable, that voice in the head always judging lol never accepting what is … after having an awakening, I wanna say 80 percent of suffer just went away over a lil time .. It was clear as day I wasn’t my thoughts and every thought wasn’t negative or positive it was just a thought ! I knew I wasn’t my thoughts but I still didn’t know who I am , I just know what I wasn’t ! I realize there’s a difference between awakening and realization, .. after the awakening Over time I’ve lost interest, suffering was definitely my fuel !
I read once in an Insight Meditation book that there are realms of happy beings who never cross over to true nirvana because they don't have suffering to inspire them! But I'm not advocating that you start being discontented with life as it has evolved. I have never thought I was my thoughts but I have thought I am the person who the thoughts are about, and the thoughts have often been very harsh. Also harsh about others. I have been turning to nondual teachers for a few years. I have been led to Angelo and am so grateful! A combination of great teachers has me feeling like I am finally moving towards more peace. His instruction and discussions feel so central to me now. They are the most cogent I have been exposed to. I would like to be able to participate in a retreat with him at some point, but I also know after many Zen sesshins and multiple retreats with other teachers that it's really more important what I do right here right now. These talks help me when I am not in a position to sit quietly and do inquiry or observant meditation.
Idk! But I came to realize that it’s just us against us, the universe is hallow and everything we do it bounces back to us depending on our label of consciousness!
So whenever I give someone advice on what I think will help them because it’s helped me in life… am I really just giving myself advice and not even realizing it?
