Badflower - Ghost 

Some people say that lyrics about suicide encourage those feelings. For me, it made me feel like I wasn't alone and the struggle I was going through was valid. This song honestly helped me a lot. Suicide is a huge problem that needs to be talked about. It's only a problem when shows like the one that lists 13 reasons why suicide is a good idea capitalize off of glorifying the act for drama. To whoever's reading this, you're not alone, people care about you and there is a light at the end of the tunnel; depression is just a cloth over your eyes that keeps you from seeing it.

"The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked" . That fucking hit man

"I am afraid that all the blood escaping me won't end the pain and I'll be haunting all the lives that care for me" is basically what keeps me around.

The lyric, "This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one", hits me so hard

I remember when I first heard this song I had to pull over because I burst into tears. If you struggle with depression like I do just know that you are not alone. It gets better I promise.

I lost my beautiful teenage son to suicide. I was driving to the cemetery this morning to visit him, something I do a few times a day, when this song came on the radio. I have never heard this song before, but it hit home with me... I didn't get a letter, all I got was unanswered questions, a broken heart, and a shattered life that will never be the same. I will never heal or understand why this happened. I had no hints, I had no clue. I woke up to find that my son had decided he was ready for his next life. A day I will never forget... If anybody ever needs to reach out, do it. You do matter to several people. Please reach out!

My son took his life 3/29/21. He wrote out 4 lines from this song to me 10 months before that. This is "his song" when I hear it. "I should have told my mom, mom I love you like a good son, but this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one"

Knew him back in kindergarten/early elementary. So excited to see him and his band are having such success!!

“maybe I’m alive cause I didn’t really wanna’ die..” it’s been almost two years since my battle and I still relate to this...

This song has really hit home for me. My husband and I lost or daughter to suicide 7 months ago. Everyday I sit and think about my baby girl. I think about the last month of her life. What did I miss? Was she trying to tell me something and I just didn't listen. Did something happen and I didn't pay attention. Did I not talk to her enough...hug her enough? Laugh with her enough? Question get aboutwhat was happening I her life enough? Show her I care enough...love her enough?!!! I go crazy thinking about what I did to make her want to leave. She said good night and I love you too...went up to bed and was gone the next morning. No note no words of the pain my baby was obviously feeling. This song is the closest thing to What I imagine my daughter was feeling. It acc scares the shit out of me to think about how many kids and adults feel like they have no hope. That ending that beautiful life is the only way to make the pain go away. Most mornings I can barely get out of bed. I have no more tears left. My husband children and I hurt so bad and miss Krystine so much but we go on. For her and each other. I know I'm going on when everyone is just trying to listen to a song. Most won't careabout my story but I beg that if one person is reading this and thinking about taking their life just know that it does get better and there are people who love and care for you and can't imagine life without you in it. You can get help even if you have to scream at the top of your lungs to get someoneto listen. I'm a mother who lost her child. I would trade my life for hers in a second but I can't. I'm left here with the pain and questions. Please don't leave your mom or dad or family with that pain. Ask for help.

"I should have told my mother that I loved her, I'm a bad son." It just hits like lightning into my soul.

this song explains exactly how i felt when i attempted. my dad cut me down and sat with me in the hospital asking me to explain when i couldnt speak yet. thats when i wrote my letter. first time i ever saw him cry and those tears are the only reason i stayed long enough to have my daughter. i wish i knew this song then

Now the band Ghost needs to release a song called Badflower.

"Nothing very special ever happens in my life" and "This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one". I feel both those lyrics with every fiber of my being

To my younger self, I'm glad you were strong. I know things were so hard. You are so strong now and so happy. Thank you for hanging on. The pain goes away, I promise. Keep going. Keep going! ❤

"This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one" , "the cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked" - these fucking hit home

I lost my son to suicide 7 years ago. He was almost 29 years old. I didnt know he was so depressed. It still hurts so much. I just heard this song today and thought I would cry. But I didnt. For some reason it makes me understand more that he just didnt want to be here anymore. I love and miss you Brandon. SO MUCH.

The last line... makes me cry. “This life is overwhelming and I’m ready for the next one”

My son is the reason I breathe every day. He is now 21. Thank you for this song. It has kept me alive. 💜

Every line of this song is genius.

Waited there forever and no one even looked up. This line hits a nerve with me.

"Maybe i'm alive cause i didn't really wanna die" gives me goosebumps every single time...

Songs like these are proof that EVERYONE struggles, gets depressed, etc. Depression isn't picky, it'll catch anyone it can. Musicians that write songs, such as this amazing song, are beyond brave and honest for writing lyrics about their struggles, suicidal thoughts, etc. This song truly does hit home for me. In a way it's nice to know that even some of my favorite musicians relate to how I feel, but sad at the same time because they're struggling with depression as well.

This song helped me through a hard ass time..... I'm forever a fan. You saved me.... Michigan

In high school, music like this made me feel less alone, in quarentine music like this is getting me through again

I listen to this song both when I'm truly considering it...And when I know I don't have the strength to follow through. Omg are the lyrics ever accurate to many who have attempted before. But life gets better. I love badflower for the true emotional honesty in this song. You've helped more than you will every know

Your music helped save my life, Badflower. I'm only 13 and I'm glad I lived to be a teenager. I'm going to your concert on Wednesday 4/27/22 Thank you so much

Wow, I am an older rock guy who doesn't really like new music (get off my lawn) but I heard this on the radio and I was blown away. Fucking incredible song.

I don't think the band realized exactly what they created with this song. This is probably one of the most raw songs I've ever heard in my life. Damn.

This Band is in a category of their own. As I see them, real talent from real souls. Eventually, most good bands will die out. I feel fortunate to have lived in the era of Badflower. Thank you for sharing your emotional song with us.

"the cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked". Felt that

“Suicide doesn’t end the possibility of life getting worse. It eliminates the possibility of it ever getting any better.” -Unknown

My brother sent me this song last month, 2 weeks before he died! This song is his life, exactly what he felt. RIP Christopher Neel, I love u brother!

Hey if you're reading this and hurting, know I am too. You arnt alone. We got this.

My best friend Jordan passed recently. We met in rehab and he showed me this incredible song. It's very emotional to listen to now since after his overdose it has a whole new meaning to me. RIP JORDAN ROBERTS 08/03/2023.

where the hell did this band come from with pieces of my soul

Bands like this, Evanescence, Iprevail don't glorify our feelings of suicide, they make us feel like we're not alone, that maybe someone understands what we are going through

5yrs later and this song still makes me want to cry.

man that face when he 1st gets in the car is brutal. Its not "sad", its like this calculated cold - but somewhat content look and it depicts depression painfully accurately. Its fucked.

Lost my brother jeremy 10 years to suicide ....all I know he's in a better place now....thanks to who cares

Music like this is exactly what keeps people alive. Thank you for your vulnerability 💙

I cried the first time I heard this. This is how I feel today. This life is overwhelming and I’m ready for the next one

i tried to OD when i was 14 just to get away from my parents, the neighbor found me, i woke up in the hospital 5 months later my father nearly beat me to death, broken jaw, factured skull, black eye, concussion, dislocated shoulder, broken arm, multiple broken ribs, internal bleeding, i spent a few months in a medically induced coma because i was too small to give enough painkillers to keep me from screaming. but i survived, and met a man, a US Army soldier, who could never get a date because He had scars all over and now we're married, He's the kindest person in the world, He doesnt care if people are afraid of Him, because im there next to Him, clinging to Him because Hes my teddy bear never give up, the universe has a plan for everyone, but sometimes you need to go through hell to find where you belong

I lost my brother last night. Heroin overdose. This song will always be apart of me

Every time I listen, I hear something different: Take the BLAME away from me. Take the BLADE away from me. Take the SHAME away from me. Take the PAIN away from me. The sad thing is that they all can apply to the song. No one should ever feel like that.

RIP brother. you were loved and maybe u didn't know that. I miss you so damn much it hurts. RiP Christopher

I think it's so refreshing to have a sonf about suicide that doesn't use cutesie words and metaphors for suicide. This song spells it out straight up. It seems from personal experience, that when you are depressed for a great deal of time (more often than not), people, even those closest to you will become desensitized to it and eventually, as the song says, "no one even looked up." My family barely cares, if at all anymore because they've seen me so depressed for so long (including hospitalizations and plenty of scars on my wrists and marks on my face) that it has become normal for them. They've no idea the level of seriousness of how I feel right now. Maybe if anyone gave a shit they would take notice? Suicidal ideation is beyond difficult. Most people think it's a "cry for help" and all this other bullshit, but there are people in such deep pain out there...it overrides their natural instinct for self-precervation...Keeping yourself alive is one of the strongest instincts we have...can you imagine the pain someone must be feeling to be able to ignore that genetic imperative? I am so sorry to all of you that go through this because I do too. You are CARED ABOUT, at least by this stranger. Love to you all. You're better than you think...

I hate that so many of us can relate to this

I come back to this song around the same time of year RIP fallen brothers. This song has a very powerful message and reminds me why i have to fight the fight everyday.

"This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one." Truer words have never been sung! And yet, they're also the most inspiring to live the best, most authentic, life I can live.

At first I didn’t notice the lyrics, just liked the song. Then I saw this video and listened a few more times. Chills. Just chills.

Whoever directed this should be immensly proud. Such a good music video.

what a message at the beginning. "suicide doesn't end the chances of life getting worse, it eliminates the possibility of it ever getting any better." I heard recently from someone battling addiction and how they made 10+ years was that all they tried to do was survive one more day and not worry about the rest. just survive one more day fighting for that goal and keep doing it. eventually you'll find another reason to fight for happiness.

Best new band I have listened to for years! Epic and quickly becoming one of my favorites. Seems to have honest energy and passion in their music !

So many comments about being suicidal, knowing someone who has committed suicide, etc. It is truly sad how normal it has become. It is truly sad how many people really struggle with depression and other mental illnesses. I want all of you other survivors to know, i am happy you are still here and that you are never truly alone!

"I couldn't tell my mother that I love her, I'm a bad son." When i was planning to overdose i remember visiting my mom at work. I smiled, hugged her, told her i loved her and left feeling like a horrible son for the way i lied to her. This lyric hits me really deep.

My friend showed me this song in rehab awhile ago and ever since he overdosed this song has such a special meaning to me

This band is so great and underrated. That drum fill at 2:35 is so amazingly simple but sounds sooo good

I'm so glad these guys are just so unapologetically raw with their music. If anything I think this is the perfect "suicide song" for lack of a better term because it's so rare to come across a song that tackles the subject of suicide this well. It gives such a hauntingly accurate depiction of the thoughts you have going through this shit I'm sure anyone who's been in this position can agree, but at the same time it really exemplifies just how pointless suicide is and in my opinion it's almost acts as a warning to those who know people living with depression etc that this is the shit that goes through your head everyday at a million miles a second.

He should be an actor. His expressions are on point. Drives the lyrics home. I wonder if there is any personal experience behind this song.

You're actual music saved me

This whole song hit hard. The first time I heard it, I was in my car; it grabbed my attention so intensely, I actually had to pull over to listen. And it was worth every minute. Musically, it's brilliant, IMO. Simple as that, it's brilliant. The music carries you along with the story. It can grab you by the head and the heart and just help you see it, I help you feel it. Because of that, coupled with the lyrics, I actually can't listen to this too often. And that upsets me, because this is really good. I would love to be able to listen to this more often, but I have to be in the right head space to do it. That's my problem, not anyone else's. This can start a conversation, a desperately needed conversation. Just talking about suicide does not necessarily encourage it. Not talking about it, that can. Indirectly, but it can.

As a suicide survivor, I do not think I have ever heard a song that so accurately encapsulates what goes through your head and heart during those most overpowering and dark moments where you feel compelled on to act on your pain.

The sheer amount of loving people who are reaching out to those in need in this comment section restores my faith in humanity. It is struggles such as these that seem to be bringing us together. It brings tears to my eyes hearing about other peoples struggles and just seeing how many people, despite not knowing them personally, care enough to let them know that they ARE worth it and they should survive. Seeing people just being loving and caring for each other to this extent is part of the reason I love the rock community so much. It just makes me so so happy to see that people care. People do care. You are all lovely people and deserve the world.

This song is gonna be great forever! The way I see it- lyrics about suicide do NOT cause suicide, period. Listening to this unbelievably great song, can help people who are really down on life, people who think they have no reason to go on💪💪😢🙏! I feel these lyrics straight through my heart, it speaks to my feelings 😭😭...I have never actually tried to commit suicide, but have wished I was no longer alive- hundreds of thousands times.. to me, this song and other similar songs are therapeutic. Badflower is a terrific group, and their song writing is brilliant- thank you guys!

This song literally saved my life

" But this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one. " I know exactly how this feels.

I think of my son... RIP my Angel Jon 1/19/2017

This song speaks to me in ways I cannot begin to explain.

This song spoke to me on such a deep level when I was at the darkest, lowest point in my life. It described how I was feeling so perfectly that it felt like it was written for me. I was stuck in this all consuming pit of depression and despair, I didn’t really want to die but I couldn’t see an end to the pain I was in. And this song still resonates with me now, after surviving and pulling myself out of that hole, but in a different way. When I listen to it now it reminds me of the darkness I was able to overcome and the strength it took to do that. “Maybe I’m alive cause I didn’t really wanna die”

This life is overwhelming and im ready for the next one. Ooof preach.

googled suicidal songs cause i wanted to destroy myself so much then i bumped into this. it's just good to be understood. i am not alone, we are not alone. if you are like me i just want you to know my heart is with you

The part that says ( I waited there forever but nobody ever looked up) is my life with the ones I keep around me. The ones I had that understood me are gone they have passed away. I put this song on repeat so I can feel like I at least have one person there, and no judgement casted.

Beautiful! Both my son's have wing's in heaven today! You continue their legacy through your music. Thank you for the love ❤️😘

Not many songs bring me to tears but this one always does. Such a powerful song and such an amazing insight into the mind of the suicidal. I know Bad Flower got a lot of shit for this song, but for the wrong reasons; it doesn’t glorify suicide it epitomizes the pain too many people feel everyday

they say suicide is a cowards way out...but when life is so overwhelming, it doesn't matter how strong of a person you were. it's not a "cowards" way out, it's someone who gave up because all the strength in the world couldn't hold them together. when you have the balls to take your own life, then someone says that was a cowards way out...you have no idea the strength that person had and the fight they had to battle...but it's not about strength, it's about pain, and until you've lived in that persons shoes, experienced the things that they've experienced, then don't call them a coward, cause someday you may feel that same pain and wanna take your own life...and I honestly don't believe a coward would be able to take their own life...it takes an extremely strong person to do something like that, and though it ends their pain, the pain it causes their loved ones is imminent, and that's why they're called a coward...but the fight they had to battle was obviously overwhelming...but a coward just simply gives up, the person who takes their own life was fighting for a long time...and cowards don't fight...the person who took their own life was actually a warrior...but was overcome by pain they couldn't win.

So underrated 🔥🔥❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

If this song had been around 10 years ago it might have changed a few things I did. For those still struggling, it DOES get better. I'm living proof. Happily engaged with our 2nd child on the way. Stay strong, fight. Happiness does find its way to everyone eventually.

"Maybe i'm alive cause didn't really want to die." Some massively deep lyrics that make me think of a line that Brent Smith once delivered: "the will to live will always be stronger than the ability to die"

"I couldn't tell my mother that I loved her like a good son" 😢😢😢

"I shoulda left a letter but I had nothing to write about" is where i am at.

Great track from Badflower!!

So, I wasn't the one to discover this song, it was my boyfriend. I had recently attempted, but he stopped me and I was put in the hospital for a while and after I got out, this song came on his playlist. And we both just sat there listening to the lyrics and he started crying and I asked why and he responded with "I don't know how you must have felt to try to do what you did, but this song gives me a good idea" and that just kinda hit me.

I wanna hug that guy. He seems to have been through some shit irl 😭😭😭

I've never been suicidal but I'm crying and like, I don't know what it's like, but now I think I know because he said it so well...

I find comfort in this n i have already accepted emptiness in the end

2 years without any suicidal thoughts after i started having them since I was 12 ✊❤ I'm now 20 and my last failed attempt was when I was 17 . I'm gonna go on . I'm gonna stay strong

Lyrics I tried it once before but I didn't get too far I felt a lot of pain but it didn't stop my heart And all I really wanted was someone to give a little fuck But I waited there forever and nobody even looked up I tried it once before and I think I might have messed up I struggled with the veins and I guess I didn't bleed enough But maybe I'm alive because I didn't really wanna die But nothing very special ever happens in my life Take the blade away from me I am a freak, I am afraid that All the blood escaping me won't end the pain And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me I died to be the white ghost Of the man that I was meant to be I tried it like before and this time I made a deep cut I thought about my friends and the way I didn't give enough And I should have told my mother, "Mom, I love you" like a good son But this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one Take the blade away from me I am a freak, I am afraid that All the blood escaping me won't end the pain And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me I died to be the white ghost Of the man that I was meant to be, yeah I tried it once again and I think I might black out I should've left a letter but I had nothing to write about My blood is all around me, I get dizzy if I stand up The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked Take the blade away from me I am a freak, I am afraid that All the blood escaping me won't end the pain And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me I died to be the white ghost Of the man that I was meant to be I tried it once again and I think I went too far The man that I was meant to be I cut a little deeper and the pressure stopped my heart The man that I was meant to be I couldn't tell my mother, "Mom, I love you", I'm a bad son This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one

This song is such a amazing expression of some bottled up feelings

I saw these guys live in 2017 and the energy and fun was out of this world. This song is a extreme stark reminder to me that life is to damn short. As a 2 time survivor myself, this is always at the top of my playlist.

I just lost a close friend of mine to suicide a few days ago. I was the one to call the police at 2 in the morning, unable to get to him because I live an hour away. I spent hours with my best friend sobbing, throwing up, trembling, waiting for the officer to call me back to tell me he was okay. He was found alive but did not make it out of surgery. When listening to this song... I just wonder. I knew he was struggling, I did everything in my power to help. But some things.. I try to take comfort in knowing that he saved seven people donating his organs. That somewhere on the same time zone, his heart is still beating. I miss you. There isn't a minute that goes by that I don't think about you, about what could've changed. 'Til we meet again.

i love how every one in the comment section has a different verse that speaks to them. Just shows to prove how relative these words are... for me its "i am afraid that all the blood escaping me wont end the pain.."

I am beyond ready for this life to be over.

As a person with suicidal ideations this is a great song that has helped me through some times where my mind was telling me it's over. The line about him being a bad son hits me and reminds me no matter how hard I feel it will hurt my parents even more.

"But I waited there forever and nobody ever looked up" Imagine standing on a ledge a couple hundred feet above the concrete. All you want is someone to look up and acknowledge your existence, for someone other than yourself telling you "itll be ok" To anyone that has that feeling in their heart I can say, Calm down, Come down, Itll be ok.

I overdosed September 14th 2014 and God gave me another chance so this song really helps me remember why I'm so greatful to still be alive.

a few years ago they played together with the same concert shinedown did. Had a rain out so bad flower lost a song, but shinedown gave them his time so he could come Back out to play this song! Us bad flower fans was so Happy! Shinedown rocks! My first concert and it was Amazing! Seeing shinedown and Papa Roach in a few days in Bangor Maine can't wait!

After the sudden death of my husband, I was totally devastated, depressed and withdrawn from everyone. But this song helped me slowly regain my strength to move forward.

This song is my family legacy. As for me, I have been there, tried, and failed. I came close to succeeding - it was touch and go in the ICU for a few days, but somehow I’m still here. My sister has been there too. She’s tried multiple times but (luckily) never succeeded. Our father made several attempts to end his life. Unfortunately, he got his wish after his final attempt. There was suicide note, no goodbyes - he just left behind three devastated daughters who didn’t know how to handle losing him. Suicidal depression is no joke. People like us can’t just “snap out of it”. There’s something fundamentally broken in our souls. When meds don’t work and therapy doesn’t work, there are two options: we can choose to live and suffer or we can choose to stop existing. Some of us simply stick around because we don’t want to destroy the people we love, not because we actually want to wake up tomorrow.

I just cried my eyes out after hearing this on the radio. I've had clinical depression for 23 years and am a survivor of multiple suicide attempts and this hit insanely close. Thank you for this.