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When I was in psychosis and I thought I was Jesus it was a very different experience. It was a huge burden. Like I could feel everyone’s pain as if it were my own and it was my responsibility to take on everyone’s guilt and everyone’s pain because I was Jesus and that was my job, that’s what I do. Sacrifice myself for everyone else.
Thanks for sharing. I've had a similar experience where I thought I was Jesus and that I had to die in order to save all of the ESPs (mind readers). It is very scary when you go through it because it feels so real. I struggle with other delusions even today. It's not easy and I appreciate you sharing. Your comment helped me in knowing that I'm not alone. So thanks for that.
I am commenting because my mother is currently going through it right now. Doesn't necessarily believe in she's God. Just she's God's vessel. Satan's playing tricks on her. Pandora how they shuffle songs- she thinks that Satan or either God is talking through music. I'm just wondering how does it get better? What can you do in this situation? I have been trying to comply and be what she needs. This has been going on for over a month plus this happened 2 years ago. She recently got out of a similar experience a couple years back.
@@LucidGuts hi, I'm sorry about what your mom and you are going through. Being a psychiatric survivor of 33 years, the best thing I can only suggest, is to keep on praying for and with her & ask Jesus Christ for help & keep asking/pleading for her to be delivered & healed from this when you talk to him & to bring you both through this victoriously...God can and wants her free and to use you guys' suffering for something so much greater to bring glory to his name & kingdom & to help others come to eternal salvation. Also, have you tried to seek a pastor & church community that does deliverance ministry to visit her and to pray with you for your mom & yourself, and to be there and support you both through this, as I believe it will give you and her added strength and comfort during the hardest days and nights. I promise to pray for you both & I hope you are richly blessed by our saviour & that he gives you the desires of your hearts.🙏💓 Much love & respect to you both!❤️🌹❤️
This really needs to be acknowledged and talked about more. The same thing happened to my brother. He was NOT himself and in bad religious psychosis. He got admitted to Hospital, they did nothing and kicked him out after 6 days while he was still in a bad psychosis. He lasted 7 days and he is now gone 😭 he died on the same day Jesus died.
@@Falconing89 If you would be willing to share your experience as well, it might be helpful as my husband and I are experiencing extremely hard times and in spiritual crisis. Any guidance or just someone to listen to would help. Thank you so much 💙
This is brilliant the best one iv seen!! I went through the same thing a year ago and had very similar experiences. I thought I was virgin Mary and the town I live in was mine and I had to make the people see that the had to be better people. Got in a random familys car in my dressing gown outside of my flat. I was telling them that something bad was coming and this was when the corona was just coming in to the scene. They were about to take me shopping with them to Aldi I remember the man looking deathly white I must have scared the shit out of him. Well eventually they realised I was nuts and took me to the doc's. In there I thought all of them snakes and lying to me and eachother so the ambulance came took me to an early intervention team place where loads more crazy shit happened and about 2 months later I got better. But after you experience such a high and you come back to reality it hits you really hard, you become suicidal and depressed but It doesn't last forever. You will get better with the right meds and the right people to help you.
@@natasharomero6920 thanks for your post it really gives me something to think about and helps that similar ppl have gone through this. I'm finally out of the delusion of being jesus and am now batteling the depression and anxiety hoping that this feeling goes away
When I was psychotic I was calling myself white girl jesus as a metaphor and I really wanted to make collaborative art books like new bibles too and to this day I think that was kinda fucking cool and I still should do it
Yes, thank you. If you would be willing to share your experience as well, it might be helpful as my husband and I are experiencing extremely hard times and in spiritual crisis. Any guidance or just someone to listen to would help. Thank you so much 💙
I thought I was Jesus for a year durning my psychosis. Then eventually took meds . Now I hear Jesus instead. Really a part of my life . Still hear God and but when I seek out for him . 💜
@@EnvisionedBlindnessAny born again Christian can hear the Holy Spirit, if they humble themselves enough to listen. Pray and repent brother, Jesus loves you!
I’m 42 and bun crazy for 25 years. My dads bin crazy for 42 years. I’m doing 1200mg quitepine each day. I can hear voices constantly I thought I was Jesus for about 20 years. The symptoms are crazy I’ve had 1000s symptoms.
@@Nancy-ow9wy can see glitch after glitch of this fake pathetic alien prison planet. i've seen the truth an it's scary they've made us dumb so we are in bliss and just werk till we die. the news and disasters are fake the movies and internet are full of demons that use the (portal tv ) to move about. ive got 1000s videos of demons and cloaked aliens in most movies and the roads and city's they are everywhere. but our dna was interfered with so your ten pcent idiot mind ( not you ) wont notice. however if you do LSD and other (see reality drugs ) and enable third 👀 the matrix is so obvious. schizophrenia is there way of stopping a mad person from using any gift so they dumb them with pharmakia occult drugs that are spells if you say a tablet like"haloperidol " that could be a harry potter spell. anyway im fine hope your well
I think that the "Jesus" personality is near the core of the human psyche. Though it's essence is one of uniqueness and singularity, it might (or must) be available to all of us. An overwhelming experience of a distinct "father-ness" is what simultaneously manifested a "son-ness" in me. After all, only a son can experience a father. (I won't speculate on "daughter" because I'm not one.) That could be why in the bible Jesus says "no one cometh unto the Father but by me." That's not a mystery, it's sort of by definition.
Having psychosis is wild. I remember telling my ex about getting trapped by vampires in the mountains one time and he told everyone I was crazy. I felt so alone and scared, it was truly awful. I ended up in the hospital in two different states cos I was driving for hours and hours into different states trying to run away.
Love you guys so much. Listened to every episode of Coffee and Psychosis. Just like a Messiah, you are a light in a dark world. This has helped me understand the experience of a loved one. Your radical honesty and humor tackle these difficult earth-shattering experiences with grace. Massive thanks.
God bless you, buddy!!! Awesome documentary. I am going through the experience that is I guess similar to yours and the conclusion I came up to is that you are Jesus. Jesus is a state of consciousness and heartful emotion. If you do align both of those you can do miracles too. That is the potential that God has given all of us for as long as we are prepared to grow into it. That is the future of the planet and you are one of the pioneers (call it messiah if you wish). Keep your spirit up and keep talking to God, best thing that happened to me was to open my heart to Him. I guess what gets us down is the faulty belief that one has to be 'the' Jesus instead of becoming 'a' Jesus. It is all in your heart. We are all children of God. God bless. E
I loved this. THANK YOU. This kid is so wise and levelheaded about his experience. Both about how the experience of psychosis is misunderstood by Straights, and how it really can fuck you up too though, especially when everyone’s first order of business is to deal with you as a public menace, and not what’s really going on with you as a person. “It’s a good feeling, but it’s not a good way to be.” Also did anyone else notice that the crazy shit this kid did is the same exact kind of crazy shit Jesus did and got the same kind of response (time adjusted for barbarity)?! Jesus was bipolar! Bipolarity is prophecy! I’m just saying. This kid is me, and me is we, and we -are- the Jesus factor. I’m just saying!
is not is weird, having a psycosis we are going back to the origin. I was not jesus - my ex was... then he turned into evil - he cheated me and this triggered my psychosis. I was Maria and my lover was Joe - Joseph. ...I wanted to understand the things and I connected everything to the bible. - but if i look back i did understand 2 things. the good and the evil lives in all of us and we have to kill the evil inside us and open our heart for the good - even is sometimes painful - this way we can live a whole life. also I have leartn that i have to stay away from social media - it does put negative thought in my mind
I went trough something simular only i thought I was jesus and Tony stark I think I laugh at it now a little, but it was terrifying. I was talking to new people and even met someone new I thought i had intrest in and being in that state of mind and coming down ruined it all and I stopped talking to a lot of people out of that. Scariest time of my life.
I had a short psychosis last year (my first one) and was able to stop it by realizing, that i was destroying my reality-image. Basically i got saved by talking to a friend, because he reminded me. However, I regained control, but i had feeling confusions for almost 5 months. I was scared of my weird feelings, because i associated them with the psychosis. Later i found out, that there wasn't anything special about my feelings, i just somehow unlearned to differentiate them. Within my psychosis however i was convinced being a qubit able to save every possible life in the universe by switching to a 1. There were many parallel thoughts though. I feared being vaccinated in the future and watching a particular youtube video about a chess riddle, because then i would die immediately. But i also thought i have to commit suicide quickly, to get out of the great simulation and to reconnect to that qubit, which also happened to be god. And then i was god. Those thoughts were so random to me and developed all within the same day. I saw patterns everywhere and understood the entire universe at that day. Afterwards I understood my thoughts as a creative but strong suicide justification. My feelings were horrible of course. It was a full blown death anxiety panic attack, my heart beat was very irregular and my thoughts were loose and incoherant.. I was very overwhelmed and hungered myself down for weeks before that happened. The time right after my psychosis was like living on a cloud. Everything around me felt easy and fluffy and i needed longer to understand my environment than usual. So, i was joking around and played the amusement card. My standard post-trauma reaction. Of course i went to a clinic the very next day. I was so done, i needed a taxi to get to the clinic. Within the clinic however i got several normal panic attacks about accidentaly triggering another psychosis or developing shizophrenia. And it wasnt fun to only meet other people talking about paranoid shizophrenia. I felt like.. in a simulation again.. because of the consistency. Gladly i havent spoken about that, i thought. Anyhow, the clinic then said i would have paranoid shizophrenia like my twin brother. I got another panic attack. Then i went bipolar for a whole month until i decided to leave the clinic on my behalf and to quit the medication with a psychiatrist. It's been 1 month now since i quit the medication entirely and i feel actually normal again. And now i think i have just pathological anxiety to go crazy and remnants of my childhood adhd to treat. So i wanna go to a rehabilitation clinic this time.
Hi Sam. I'm sorry that you've endured all of that. I hope you are feeling much better...I'm curious to know what do you mean by, "killing my reality image" and do you know any resources that discuss this?
Yes, thank you, this was wonderful to hear! My husband and I are experiencing extremely hard times and in spiritual crisis. Any guidance or just someone to listen to would help. If anyone can please reach out. Thank you so much 💙
I grew up Christian. While it was imperative within the religion that no one dares to believe they WERE Jesus, *becoming* (like) Jesus was a key aspect. Becoming like Jesus by "dying to self" so Christ can live thru you. We were reminded that we had to become lesser so He could be greater. To be emptied of our identities to make space for Christ. In a way, if our bodies are Vessels and born again Christians believe that they have died and it is "not they but christ who lives" in them...well, you can see how it would get confusing. The thing was, what was identified as "Christ in me" WAS something real. It was my inner sense of goodness, truth and love. The problems with identifying this as a separate entity from me should be clear... Gave me a strong mix of spiritual narcissism and severe lack of confidence. ("God is in you" vs "you are a wretched sinner by heart" makes for a wierd fucking cocktail of personality issues) Something about deifying truth as a living disembodied person who will dwell in your heart if you let yourself die is just....not good
Hey brother - I came to Christ 2 years ago. Never looked for Him as was deep in new age and thought I was my own god. He shattered that lie by showing me how real He is. I can understand the confusion you experienced. We are all wretched sinners before Christ - after Christ you become a Saint as this becomes your new identity in Christ and you have put on this new spiritual identity because of what He has done for you by living a sinless life and therefore paying for your sins. You just need to place your Faith in what He has done to save you and this new identity (Love, Forgive, Peace, Joy) etc.. Generally when you sin after that you will feel bad because it goes against your new identity. So your new desires will be to do good and love others out of this new identity. Hope this helps. God bless you!
@@AugustinReborn no, sorry but you *don't* understand, as you are not me and don't know a single thing about how I approached these things For one, there was no confusion besides the confusion Christianity caused me regarding myself I was never "deep in new age" I grew up Christian, and tried throughout my life to have a relationship with Jesus. Before you say that I was just taught incorrectly, or that I had a bad experience in church, I had a wide range of influences and was taught to use discernment to find out what is true or false. I didn't lose my belief for lack of trying, or bad theology, there's just nothing there. If Jesus ever had showed me "how real He is" I wouldn't have deconverted. Me stepping away from Christianity is culmination of YEARS of trying to have a relationship with Christ and realizing that I'm communing with a void. After I accepted that I don't believe, I started to unravel the more intricate damage the teachings caused
@@AugustinReborn maybe it worked for you and that's great, but for most people, this idea that trusting in Jesus will allow him to change our hearts and give us a new mind is unreliable at best. I was taught to place my growth and maturity in the hands of an unseen presence, to trust that Christ would help me be more patient, loving, gracious, and kind. All this did was stunt me. Especially when I was told by Christianity that I deserve to go to hell, that I'm inherently selfish, that I will self sabotage and lead myself away from the truth. Sure, these might be true to some extent But you know how I've been dealing with it? By taking who i am into my own hands and working on myself. Not waiting for some invisible savior to "live in my heart" and change me from the inside. Believing that me being a better person was possible only thru "dying to myself so that it is He not I who lives" only helped paralyze my growth
@@AugustinReborn I'm sure you mean well, but in your excitement to share what you believe, you end up using a lot of empty words. To you, you are speaking truth and light. To me, I've heard it all before. I love how Christians always assume that those who don't believe just "didn't understand it right" or "had a bad experience" or "just never wanted to believe" I'm sure you'll read what I wrote and think something about how the "cross is foolishness to those who are not saved" or any of the other bits of scripture designed to convince Christians that they are right and everyone else is blind
@@AugustinReborn do you realize how many people believe they are changed, that they will no longer speak harshly to others, that they will no longer lose their temper, that they will stop being afraid, and start living the life they want, just as long as they "give their life to christ" and experience being reborn, just to keep living the same way because they never worked on themselves but rather put it in God's hands? You're a saint now, huh? Let me guess, "I still sin but not as much" or "I still fall short sometimes, but its different now with Jesus!" Ok... whatever you say...
@@praveenkumar-yo1xg I'm doing well. I own my own home and currently invest in the stock market. I don't have a job so I focus my time on being healthy (exercise and diet). Most people have no idea that I have schizophrenia.
This is absolutely fucking Gold. I've literally tried leaving a psych ward thinking God was gonna help and they just dragged me to a room and gave me a shot 😂
The Wife believes she’s God the creator of all living things . This is the most difficult think I every had to deal with . I won’t give up on her but she doesn’t won’t help and she actually enjoys it. Praying for all the People that’s dealing with this and also the people that has a spouse or a child supporting them.
Thank you for this... I knew my dad would talk to me. He died in 2013. Also, I am in direct contact with God. The hardest part is accepting it's not real.
My roommate too. It was awhile ago. He tells the story of how he was found in the middle, of a busy intersection naked. Directing traffic, and telling everyone GOD sent him. Today, he isn't running anywhere. But, he believes that God will stop sending his social security checks... If, he doesn't send the church, their tithes. Some other 🥔'y stuff. It's frustrating, dealing with someone with this mindset. ✌️
I was hospitalised and tranquilized too, also thought i had to rewrite the bible and that i was god, very similar experience was in there for two months
He's right though about them partially with the going to hell over valuables that are material. They'll be more than likely going through hell to keep them in nice condition and financing them...
A great honest presentation. The Christ archetype has meaning to it. It can make us feel less helpless and full of potential but the lows of it drags one through the pits of despair. The world is screwed up and having divine powers to repair it would be beneficial. It sounds like Luke was interacting with archons or Yaldabaoth at times, rather than the truest form of God.
For the past year, I've thought I was the Arch Angel Michael on two occasions. I've developed a personality and persona as if I'm the son of the devil and the son of God at the same time. It's a break from a reality I fear walking into now.
I had this exact feeling for years. I had to recognize that I'm simply not my brain, recognize the illusionary nature of life and understand that through Christ I am simultaneously here but not here.
This is what a Young Man creates when he's on shrooms without any coordination of his power, your Soul does travel, but where does it goes?... YEAH BRO JESUS
Well I guess there should be a second documentary: Christ conciousness without delusions...I thought I heard something like when we get out of our egoic mind we can embody the Christ mind escaping time and space...I think people can get there without it being a delusion.
What is this man’s name? I had the same exact experience in April because of heartbreak and drugs. I’d like to contact him. I burned a cross into my arm with cigarettes to prove it 😇
I didnt get schizophrenia until i got religious. My voices say im god the father. Sometimes lucifer or satan. Sometimes jesus. Ive noticed most delusions are religiously based. Turned me into an atheist.
same with me......i sometimes feel like all my mental predicaments are because of religion and wanting to know the truth,i mean growing up i have been introducede and exposed to so many beliefs.and i'm at that point in my life where i feel like i need to find my own truth and that what really messes me up in the brains......I guess the man inside me is just trying to find his true basis,origin and his own truth and my human brain can't comprehend.but whatever the case i remaine pure and true to my true self......Love and Truth and Peace
Jesus was in a psychotic state when he heard the voice of god telling him to go to his death. Do not worship a god who would use torture and death to work his will. Rise above the old religions and worship a Good God.
(Luke, 27-32) to a virgin espoused to a man whose name was Joseph, of the house of David; and the virgin's name was Mary. And the angel came in unto her, and said, Hail, thou that art highly favoured, the Lord is with thee: blessed art thou among women. And when she saw him, she was troubled at his saying, and cast in her mind what manner of salutation this should be. And the angel said unto her, Fear not, Mary: for thou hast found favour with God. And, behold, thou shalt conceive in thy womb, and bring forth a son, and shalt call his name JESUS. He shall be great, and shall be called the Son of the Highest: and the Lord God shall give unto him the throne of his father David: (Romans, 1:3-) concerning his Son Jesus Christ our Lord, which was made of the seed of David according to the flesh; (Isaiah, 9:6) For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counsellor, The mighty God, The everlastings Father, The Prince of Peace. (Psalm, 24:8-10) Who is this King of glory? The LORD strong and mighty, the LORD mighty in battle. Lift up your heads, O ye gates; even lift them up, ye everlasting doors; And the King of glory shall come in. Who is this King of glory? The LORD of hosts, he is the King of glory. Selah. (Psalm, 46:7) The LORD of hosts is with us; The God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah. (Psalm, 46:11) The LORD of hosts is with us; The God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah. (Romans, 10:11-15) For the scripture saith, Whosoever believeth on him shall not be ashamed. For there is no difference between the Jew and the Greek: for the same Lord over all is rich unto all that call upon him. For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved. How then shall they call on him in whom they have not believed? and how shall they believe in him of whom they have not heard? and how shall they hear without a preacher? And how shall they preach, except they be sent? as it is written, How beautiful are the feet of them that preach the gospel of peace, and bring glad tidings of good things! KJV
Why do people want to communicate that I AM A GOD OR THE SON OF A GOD. Decadent Ego projections. People strive for this nonsense so deeply that they cannot behold that the beauty of man lies on the humility, wisdom and reason of being. Jesus died young, a psychotic God, this what it creates...
I had similar experience with psychosis a bit over a year ago now when i was transitioning out of the military. Wasn’t able to sleep really at all for a few weeks and i started losing a grip on everything and started believing and seeing things just like this. For a while i thought i was the only one who had experienced something like this
I had a similar experience but the people in the hospital fed into my delusions and said only a woman can end the world and I thought people could see through my eyes and read my thoughts it was really scary
very insightful to the world of psychosis Luke. My delusions were that every leader in the world was in love with me and that CIA agents were tapped into my blood stream and can hear my thoughts. took the medication to take away my mania of thoughts and i have been in and out of hospitals five times... but i believe natural healing exists and turning points as you mentioned can bring us back to reality.
My brother has believed he is Jesus for over a year now. He has been hospitalized twice this year and still believes he is Jesus. He refuses additional treatment and is very aggressive. It’s enlightening to see that someone came through the other side of this
I had an experience where I met the light at the end of the tunnel and who I was was disintegrated in a painless cleansing fire/light like an ant under a magnifying glass and I'm having a life Review and I'm crying to the light, "please forgive them - they know not what they do! Please forgive me! I am one of them and I know not what I do!" I told my ex who I had remained friends with and he said, "what are you Jesus now?" and kind of laughed and my mouth dropped to the floor and I looked past him as my mind somersaulted over what was occurring. I said that automatically - was I Jesus? That realization was the ultimate mind fuck. I was an atheist. My brain couldn't even accept that the light I saw was that who cannot be named but that which the people labeled God anyway. I spoke Jesus's words automatically but didn't know they were Jesus's words until my ex pointed it out. No way, I'm not Jesus-Im a woman. I believed I was one of many reincarnations of Isis and I had a divine mission to resurrect the soul of Osiris as Horus and save the world and my friends from great cataclysms - an asteroid, yellowstone, a new great plague, I knew the stock market was going to crash and I needed to cash an inherited ira immediately. Then Covid hit. Medication for psychosis was totally ineffective and the side effects were worse than the psychosis itself. I had a crucifixion moment in the hospital too. The paperwork for it was weird. I was restrained, shot in the ass, passed out, given a sandwich and discharged. During the "crucifixion" I was screaming and...I don't know how to describe this...but it was like I was exploding with a psychic powers so great that when I screamed the fucking lights at the hospital would flicker and I could hear the hospital staff talking about the lights like it was ordinary for psychosis patients to have actual psychic powers. What finally pulled me out of psychosis was time, stopping the meds and going to church. I now feel like I'm a philosophical paradox where no I'm not a divine being but yes I am and everyone is God, everyone is Jesus, everyone is Isis, Neo (the one) not in actuality but allegorically, figuratively, and symbolically. It's year's later and I still question what really is psychosis -what really is religion-and what really is reality. I have so much more to say but I'll just leave it with a tidbit that psychosis taught me; 🤫.
Lots of people want to be Jesus. He was legendary and represented so much. A hero and a martyr. Transcendent love and and selflessness. The courage to speak up and create change when change was needed. I imagine its lucky we don't all have to die on a crucifix like Jesus did. Its no wonder people get mixed up and want to be like him. I can't really say there is much wrong with that.
I had three episodes within 6 months or so, been alright for a few years now but religion definitely came about because of psycosis/spiritual awakening. Brilliant video
You are profound. I mean people who wrote religious scriptures believe they talked to God or his angels. I mean how can that not been as psychosis? It's a very thin line between psychosis and spiritual awakening
@@LesegoMot I agree. I don’t think there is a difference. Spiritual awakening is just a justification of psychosis. When enough people experience the same psychosis, it’s deemed as “spirituality”
I fear that when Jesus will be back on earth, He will be put in a mental hospital for saying He is Jesus. However, I ofcourse do understand that only one can be Jesus, not all the other ones too who also say they are Him. But, if Jesus would be back today or tomorrow, how do we know that ignorant people won't put Him in a mental hospital? And, that said, how do we know that this didn't already happen: Jesus could be locked up in a mental hospital at this moment.
“For the Son of God became man so that we might become God,” St. Athanasius. Don't get confused, you're not Jesus but you can change yourself to achieve his Divinity. My psychosis brought me to Christ ☦️
@@kevobryant8047 very confusing and mind controlling, but we have to admit that we can't now everything, we are humans and God is omnipotent we can not fix everything out by ourselves
I relate to a this a great deal, having also been through psychosis (3 times). It's very honest, punchy and not at all condescending. Thank you for telling this story, to both the subject and the storyteller!
I genuinely am sorry for everything you endured and suffered, especially in regards to the loss of your dad and what you went through in hopes of dealing with his loss. With that in mind, I knew you hadn't read scripture the moment you said "anything you want, you can do" You cant just do what you want willy nilly. One of the biggest problems of our modern age is the disembodied online culture that turns practal wisdom from God, into mere subjective abstractions. There's nothing arbitrary or willy nilly about Jesus and his standards. The problem is that you never dug deeper than your feelings and emotions, which are a 'house on sand' as the Lord would say. I'd recommend reading the Bible, praying for discernment from Jesus Christ, and as a practical means applying stoicism in your journey. That's whats helped me understand and appreciate God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit, the Gospel, the Word. The further you walk in that direction, you will be blessed with not only knowing the direction that leads to the Kingdom of God, but the practical reasons towards that direction in your day to day life. I hope this helps and I pray that you are no longer entrapped by vague, fear based abstractions. God bless sir
Honestly, all that hype about Jesus Christ, Superstar always turned me off. To many over indoctrinated religious people become blind to recognize, that they are acting out their religious psychotic mind set - if you try to tell them - just stop it- ! many of those guys just get more irritated and kind of aggressive too....to much Jesus makes people drunk.
Next you should do a movie on the God voice, and take the number of people who report him as a voice as the topic. I have him as a voice. He appears true despite the highly deceptive medium he uses to communicate. Just saying, he says he likes to lie to people to have fun.
