Birthday Footage & Blues 

You're so pretty, happy late birthday! 🎁 🎂 🎉

1st. Happy belated. 2nd. WOW love your new channel picture. 3rd. I've been there. I haven't lived your life, I don't know all the specifics of the things that you've been through... but that want. that desire to find that one person. the indescribable pain that hurts worse then anything else just because they aren't here yet to look over at and just smile with. I've been there. this may not be the last birthday you feel these feelings, But I know, that you will find that person. and this isn't a faith thing or a "sending prayers thing" in anyway. it is a fact. And I'm a trivia channel so I take my facts seriously :D - You are too good of a person, too intelligent, interesting and.. attractive.. (I'm married so I'm obligated to put that at the end of any qualities list towards someone of the other gender lol) ...to not find the one that eases that pain, that melds the feeling of a torn soul. Your other half IS out there, looking up at the same star and asking the same question, waiting for the same answer. sometimes, the darkest night leads us to the brightest days.

Happy birthday again!!!! I don't know if there are any Krispy Kreme's around where I live, so I went to Dunkin Donuts for my birthday weekend because coffee and donuts are great haha. I like to keep myself busy and distracted for my birthday (and I mean normally I have a quidditch tournament so it lets me run around and tire myself out without really being a 'birthday' event), but things like this cross my mind too (I've honestly gotten a lot better at birthdays though, so now I do spend them with more of a celebratory atmosphere). When I struggled through high school I was like "oh, but you'll graduate and things will be amazing" and even after graduating both high school and college, I am back at square one. No relationship, no dream job, no place of my own, etc. Anyways, my point of sharing all that was just so you know you're not the only one who struggles with things like that and that I understand a little bit as to why you had the birthday blues. I get frustrated and feel low from time to time about not being successful in those aspects of my life yet, but I also kinda believe that when things are meant to happen, they will. I think even when we aren't successful with these things in a year, we're still learning and taking steps (that do feel like VERY small ones sometimes) to get there. And hopefully if we have to wait around for them for so long, it'll be even more amazing when we finally do accomplish them. (I apologize for any unbearable optimism, I normally combat any of my negative thoughts with positive ones and I know that's not for everybody, but in case it helps, that's how I view things!)

happy birthday!