Ur an awesome friend blitzwing even though we have been talking since Wednesday u know how I feel when u are bullied u can feel my pain from the bullying ur a good friend:-)
Whenever I'm mad at myself or at someone else or if I think about me being bullied that has happened to me in middle school I get depressed and start crying
(Tries not to think about the bad memories from my past but mostly the bullying in middle school you can tell because I'm tossing and turning and keeps on whimpering and even has that sad look on my face)
Yea the reasons why is because I always have perfect attendance which means I get to class on time I always do my work I always dress out in gym and I'm an a/b honor roll student
When I was bullied in middle school I would think of murderous and suicidal thoughts and it hurt me really bad and I hurt myself even more just by marking my left arm in 4th period last year
Now whenever I think about what happened to me in middle school the memories and thoughts of murdering and suicide come back and I just start crying here in my room
*a few minutes later I get tired and falls down face first on my bed* oh my lord I needed that so I can waste my energy I'm going to bed for school tomorrow good night I love u daddy I love u uncle random I love u to uncle hothead *falls asleep without my blanket covering me*
I think I will make myself even more depressed by thinking about all the bad things that have happened to me in my life I'm here by myself at my house anyway
I have been living for fourteen years I have lived with pain for thirteen years and lived without pain for one year (starts to get sad) why does this happen to me? (Starts to cry because the bad memories are coming back again)
If u came to my fifteenth birthday party on December 31st it would be a whole lot funner with u there u are my favorite decepticon and always will be ur cool :-)
Me and Roland are getting ready for trick or treating but Roland is going to wait until we get to our grandma's house which is in my mom's side of the family I already have my Jason voorhees overalls on I cannot wait until we start trick or treating *jumps excitedly*
YAY AFTER TOMORROW IT IS HALLOWEEN ON FRIDAY IT IS THE FIRST DAY OF NOVEMBER ON THE SEVENTEENTH IT IS MY MOM'S 41BIRTHDAY AND THAN THANKSGIVING IN DECEMBER IT IS CHRISTMAS AND IN DECEMBER 31ST IT IS MY 15TH BIRTHDAY I'M A NEW YEARS EVE BABY I'M SO EXCITED *starts jumping all over my room excitedly*
I have a friend named Penelope Perez I known her since second grade which is now 7 years we have known each other since we are in high school now people call her penny for short I call her mom because she is a year older than me
I feel bad for u one is in the 8th grade this year I have known him two years one is a waiter at IHOP and the other one is a girl that is in the same grade as me I known her for two years also she never leaves me alone