I have struggled for 12 years I know that disgusted feeling so well. It is so overwhelming you feel you can hardly concentrate on anything else in life I know it doesn’t mean much but you are handsome and seem lovely and I hope it gets easier :(
Your english is very good, first off. Second, I think you're very brave and strong. I want you to know that I don't see an ugly person when I look at you in the video, though I understand that BDD is awful and that you will have a hard time believing my words. But I mean it.
Oh my gosh. I love your voice!! It’s so calm and sweet and you’re accent is so charming. I’d love to have you read me stories lol. I’m sorry you feel that way about yourself. You’re not even ugly.
"When i look at myself i see only bad things and ugly things "such a painful words to hear,,,.... Looks like alot of trauma hidden behind Your BDD... You're not ugly, you need love you need healing..... And i hope one day you'll love yourself.... Believe me you're not even 2%ugly because you've beautiful face beautiful eyes nd everything,,, its definitely bdd nd self hate which is making you feel like this😢 and you're so brave that you came out of your comfort zone and made this video 🎉🎉i definitely relate to this,,, would love to see more content from you.
Wow! I have sooo much respect for you! To make a video when you have BDD, you are such an inspiration! I am so sorry you are suffering so much. You seem like a beautiful human being, inside and out. I also have BDD and even though it really feels like it is about our looks, my therapist reminds me it is more about how we feel about us on some other level. Although there is also research that shows people with BDD often have a different way to process visual information and might see less "whole faces". but tend to zero in on details which can make you seem distorted. I wish you lots of healing!
So accurate. Well done making this video to spread awareness and help people to understand and for the fellow suffers to feel less alone going through this awful mental disorder of body dysmorphia disorder.
I CAN TOTALLY RELATE TO YOU. I have bdd and its also RUINING MY LIFE. I think mine is very severe. And i think it was caused by being rejected multiple times by my social environments. It was really bad last year(my bdd). I have bdd about my nose. Im a girl so its worse since every pretty girl i see has a pretty nose. The only thing i focus on EVERY SINGLE SECOND is to press my nose into an upward position with my hand in hopes it would stay like that. So i gave up everything. I couldnt draw because i had to hold my nose with my hand, roller skating for the same reason and because i thought everyone who would see me outside thought i was ugly, dancing also because i couldnt look myself in the mirror anymore. EVEN when i sleep, i sleep in a position to press my nose upwards. I sometimes tie a rope around my head to keep my nose more up so i could for example play guitar in peace, a couple of times i glued my nose and considered cutting some skin off. Its WILD AND SICK. At times when its bad i barely endure sitting with my family at lunch cause i believe im to ugly to look at. When it was really bad, couldnt even shower properly, couldnt focus and write normally in school and even on the exams. Because of bdd i started drinking (and heavily, even in school), self harming and smoking. I was also very suicidal (still am but because of my life as whole) when i, lets say, “first got” bdd, i mean when the symptoms were getting fastly more severe. I thought i was not deserving of life because of how ugly i am. Now I’ve given up hope on everything like making new friends or life in general and that kind of made bdd easier on me. All i think about is rhinoplasty and sometimes obsesse over pictures of the results of people who undergone the procedure. I dont even want to look people in the eyes cause I’m scared they will realize how ugly i am, and also cant leave home without heavy makeup. I dont even wanna go out cause everywhere i go i see normal people with normal faces, normal noses, and i compare soooo much. In the beginning i couldnt even watch films, series or anything beacuse everybody was so perfect and normal. Now i can since ive kind of accepted my ugliness and given up on my life and i spend all my time in my room and go out in the late afternoon just to play guitar outside far enough from people. But even going out is VERY tiring. Constantly checking my appearance on camera, covering my face with hair, not letting anybody see my profile, and thinking if the random stranger found me ugly or even a bit attractive. And i subtly have to press my nose upwards without looking like a freak. Plus at times obsessing over my nose for hours in the mirror or going in the bathroom with the lights off so I don’t see myself in the mirror, + crying without being able to stop. I feel like my nose is the only thing that stopped me and still is from living my life. Also my life is ugly even without the bdd so it is very hard to deal with it, with a mess around me. I understand your feelings and your thoughts as i have them myself. I deeply sympathize with you. I wouldnt wish bdd to anyone. It made me HATE MYSELF SO F Much. Its really tiring to live like this, although living like this can not be called life. I dont know if you already did, but you should go see a psychiatrist or someone if you didnt already. 1.5 week ago i went to a psychiatric clinic (because i left school the first day and thats related to my mental health influenced by all my surroundings not just bdd), but i mentioned my bdd to a one doctor but i dont think she took it seriously. Soon (i think), i will have a talk with the other doctor so i hope she will take it seriously and myb give me some meds because i honestly think nobody can change my belief that im ugly. I rly wish you only the best! Keep fighting 💗💗💗💗
You're so brave!! I can relate to the disgusted feeling...felt it for so long and thought it would never go away. it's heart breaking... I can see the sadnesses in your eyes but you still have beautiful eyes with sweetness. How much i wish you can see it🍀
You are no where near the bluest person in the world. You’re lovely. I’ve seen thousands of ugly people, you are NOT one of them. Rest easy and know this to be true.
There isn't a whole lot that can be said, that you probably haven't already heard. Mental is a whole other level of struggle. Just know that you're enough, especially when you don't see it or feel it. Matter of fact, not so simply believed. But you're enough.
Wow I finally get to see you n you are amazingly handsome n I love your voice bdd is so horrible it took away all our lives 😔 im so mad I wish you could see how amazing you are. Trust all us. You are not ugly
this means a lot to me, i really feel the part about seeing something beautiful in everyone but not in myself. Your energy seems very comforting and warm i hope you are going to be free from this feeling someday:)
I found this on reddit and commented there but I just wanted to mention that for the past 2 days whenever I feel bad about myself I come back here for comfort. Thank you for making this!
Hi, I am so surprised you said the exact same way I feel about myself. I never knew somebody else could feel the exact way I feel about myself. I thought I was the only one. I’m not sure if it helps, because I know how hard it can be to deal with this but from my point of view I think you have a very nice face. You have amazing bone structure and pretty eyes. I wish I could give you a hug :(
Jag kan förstå allt som du säger och allt som du känner. Det är inte en bra känsla. Jag önskar, att du skulle kunna se att du inte är så ful. Faktiskt tänker jag att du är ganska snygg. Tack för att ha delat dina känslor.
You have lots of nice things. I hope you’re able to see them some day. You seem so wonderful. You don’t deserve to feel that way about yourself. Your brain is lying to you. You’re not ugly. I can easily list things that are attractive about you, it hurts me you can’t see any of those things for yourself. Your English is great btw.
You are so brave for making this video. Your english is very good and I could understand very well. I'm at a point im my life where I feel like the uglyness is taking over every aspect of my life. There isn't a moment that it doesn't cross my mind and the shame is making me so tired. Did you have therapy? And did it help? I've tried different kinds of therapy but there are also comorbide problems wich are making it so hard to fix what needs te be fixed. I wish you all the best❤ this life is hard
