Mom: shut the f### up with all that japanese sh#t!! me:~its korean~ mom:WHAT DID YOU SAY, YOU LITTLE- (i think i'll end it there) *-* ~yes, this is like me EVERYDAY :( but also xD
Imagine He let go of your hand, strode ahead of you, walking quicker, further away. Confused, you chase after him, scared. Negative thoughts rushing into your mind. He then halted. You stop as well. He softly smiled. "Im sorry y/n. Sorry for leaving you. But, i knew it was the right thing to do. When i saw you walking in the rain that night and saw a car about to crash into you? I ran, i ran and died for you. So stop blaming yourself, love yourself, okay? For my sake." ••• Tears streamed down your face as you remininsced the moments you had with him as you walked sedately in the rain. and stood in front of the crossing that incident happened. And you cried even more. Then, you felt a hand on your shoulder, a familiar scent swept over you. You look back to see a faint glimpse of jin, your dead boyfriend, smiling tenderly before vanishing into the air. "Happy 5th anniversary, Jin."
Imagine You had the worst day of your life and now ur feeling depressed. U went to a BTS concert and all the members saw u but they hated u. U got surprised by their rude behaviour towards u. But only one member comforted u. He said that they are just being mean and annoying. U 2 laughed and got to know each other for the past few years. You started to develop feelings for him until u saw a scene that will scar u forever. You were walking to his house and saw him and BTS talking crap about u. They were doing a Vlive as well but didn’t invite u. After they ended the V live they went with their girlfriends which u surprisingly didn’t know about. You followed him to his girls house and overheard their conversation....”so u are ready to do this then ur gonna have to tell ARMY I’m pregnant after we do this ‘thing’...”. U covered ur mouth and broke down while closing ur eyes quietly sobbing. “You are first and last person I want to do it with because I will love u till the day I die” he said. You quickly ran to ur car and drove home. When u got home u grabbed a knife and ran to ur room. You had mental break down after u watched the V live. You placed the knife on your heart and pushed it down with all ur strength. And that was it. U couldn’t hear anything, see anything or feel anything. A song was playing on ur phone. A song u would never forget. And that song was called Epiphany. Sang by the love of ur life and ended up being broken by... This is for u and try not to cry:)
[A story of mine for anyone who cares] The Epiphany Of Happiness After a well spent days with friends wherever we went and whatever we did, it always ended the same. I alone in the back seat of the city bus, listening to nostalgic music as I watched the world in its naked shape. The rain may be pouring hard, I always found myself getting off at a few stops before mine. And as I walked on the damaged pavement, I always experienced an epiphany about the rollercoaster that is my emotions. The unknown reason to why I feel so lonely and alone though I know I have many loved-ones ready to catch me when I fall. The unknown reason to why putting on a smile is easy-so easy that I found myself used to it. Used to the plastered expression and used to the feeling of numbness. And while I completly loose myself in the now bittersweet memories of cherry lip balms and fast food, friendships and relationships, my face ends up wet from a cocktail of rain drops and tear drops. Before I know it, I‘m face to face with my white front door, drenched and tired, hair sticking to the side of my face and fabric to my body. But being happy wasn’t easy. Not until I fell to my knees and got up, looked at sadness in the eye and smiled. Smiled at the change I’m willing to make, the change to now love every millimeter of myself, every flaw and every regret. The change to love myself. The epiphany of my happiness.
PLEASE STOP THERE ARE SOME REALLY DEPRESSING COMMENTS HERE! Like people always compare rain with negative, sad, depressing things. I could run through the rain listening to this knowing that 7 strangers ive never met before, who doesnt even know that i exist, telling me that i should love myself and love me the way i am. I am happy and all wet.
It's that day of the year again. You know it is. You can't stay at home, you force yourself to visit him. You have to. It wouldn't be right not to. You're walking alone in the rain, umbrella in your hand. You hear something. It sounds like him. Could it be? You start running, expecting to see a small concert like there once was. But your led to an empty park. You were delusional. "Of course," you think to yourself. You feel foolish for thinking he'd be here. You know he's gone and you know he won't be coming back. You sigh to yourself. "Happy birthday, Jin...I wish you were alive to celebrate.."
Where in NYC? Cuz I live in Brooklyn and its quiet af but whenever I go to Queens for school it's louder and those rare times I go to Manhattan, *I make sure to bring headphones its so goddamn loud*
- HerTearsWereMyLight - Ah, NYC is very beautiful. The amount of people there are massive. Though I live in Texas, I have been to NYC one time. It was very crowded, especially at the Times Square.
It really is beautiful in Times Squares, especially even if its crowded there in Manhattan. Although, I want to go to Texas and other places...I've never been out of New York
Yesterday, Jin broke up with you without explanation. You feel a little numb. But okay. You imagined all sort of wrong thing in your relationship. Is he with someone else? Are you not beautiful enough for him? You wanna scream at him but he didnt pick up your call. It's raining. You open your umbrella. Then your phone is ringing. It's Jin. He sent you a song. And now you are walking in the rain. While listening to the song. And crying, realizing how horrible you are to him all this time. How you take him for granted. And you are crying..and crying..and crying, realizing you have to let go of him. And let him be happier. Without you.
Perhaps it was better this way. She put the hood on her head and ran outside her apartment. It was raining. It reminded her of their first date. He had came to save her from the dreadful rain with an umbrella to hold over her head. She’d been happy, she thought. Or was that all in her head? She cleared out her thoughts and stopped running. She picked up her phone and hit shuffle. Epiphany started playing. She didn’t even realize as she took in the beautiful vocals that she was crying. Crying because she had never fully took in the lyrics. And how it hit her. The answer to her problems was there all along. Maybe it was better she left him. The happiness she thought she felt was all fake. It was only a matter of time as she finally smiled. “I’m the one I should love”
*IMAGINE* Soaking wet from the rain u clutch your bag in your chest as the coldness makes you shiver Shivering through coldness u stop by a cafe with this song playing inside Your whole body and mind is numb But the rain is not the one to be blamed You are.... You degraded your value You were caught up on listening those people *Judgemental chants* that you believed u were not good enough and that what made u now crying over your life . And YOU you are *ALONE* ... no one by side . The rain had stopped but u were still there going deep down on the song with your hand clutched tight on ur bag . Have u not given yourself some treat have u not have degraded yourself so much and *LOVED YOURSELF* then maybe these outcomes could be avoided....... . *YOU REALIZED* Probably late but you were gonna start over again and this time U were sure you will learn to *LOVE YOURSELF*
A shitty imagine: You skipped out into the street as the rain came down. You didn't have a coat or an umbrella to cover you, but you didn't need it. You looked back to see Jin running out the door after you. You giggle and begin running through the empty street to the park nearby. As you run around the park, being chased by your husband, you slip and fall face first into the grass. Jin slips trying to stop running and falls beside you. Both of you lie on the grass laughing, being soaked by the rain. He hugs you tight and you suddenly hear a song playing. It was Jins song. It was coming from a store. Both of you smiled and most likely got hypothermia.
imagine ; staring up at the sky that once held both you and your boyfriend's dreams, you slowly smiled before a tear dropped from your eye. " oh .. why am i crying? j-jin? is that you? " and there he was, the brightest star in the sky, always, even when he was no longer beside you,, you knew he would be up in the sky, praying that both his and your dreams would come true.
(I know this doesn't really go with the video I just thought it was a good concept, just imagine this as a movie scene between you and Jin and this song as the background track) Stopped in the middle of a busy intersection stood a girl and a boy. The boy was taller then the girl but kept a tight grip upon her shoulders as he yelled directly at her, the words fumbling from his lips as he hurried to get this over with before a car would surface again. "Listen to me, y/n. What good is it that your letting everyone put you down. Just promise me you will except yourself and,love yourself for me please?" His voice seemed like a cry he wished for nothing more then his friends saftey and now that he had to leave her it made everything even more difficult then before. Headlights illuminated the pair, leaving there shadows silhouettes upon the road. Her heart began to beat faster as it slowly drove closer stopping just as it collided with her body frame. A sreak escaped her lips as she collapsed to the floor her friends eyes filled with tears yelling for help. Running briefly desperate to get his friend help, his body becoming completly soaked from the rain as he scrambled all over Seoul in hopes of saving the girl he held tight in his arms. Her breathing slowing as he continued his search thinking that if he didn't do something so stupid as to tell her that he wanted her to love herself, when he couldn't even love himself. In hopes of it all he found a place for her to be safe and sound but he couldn't stay with her all he could do was watch them take her inside as he was left there his freezing figure being left in the drenched rain as he fell to his knees. His mind be dragged back to the present as he sat on the grass next to a concert stone, roses; her favorite, Cluched in his hands silence filled the air as he placed the flowers in front of the stone letting a tear slip from his eyes as he spoke one last time. "I'm the one I should love, i didn't realize it until that night I lost you, I told you to love yourself when you had no idea I loved you, I miss you so much I can't believe your gone."
*Imagine* You’re watching a video that has Epiphany playing with rain sound effects added in the background and reading a bunch of depressing comments.
Imagine Walking in the rain but then you see Jin and you smile widely and run towards him fast. You make it there but you accidentally step on Jin’s foot. Jin stares at you in the eyes and then grabs you by the shoulders and throws you on the ground and walks away leaving you there shocked. Shouldn’t have stepped on his foot.
Imagine .warning : written with my own experience. Its raining outside, it has been weeks since you went outside. You were too overwhelmed by dark thoughts poisoning your life. Nothing has changed but you decide to give the outside a try, rain fit your aesthetic anyway. You put your earpods on, close the door behind you, and drown yourself in Jin's voice while the rain pour on your head. You are walking, escaping from your thoughts, crossing by people. Unconsciously looking at them for pity even tho you don't want anyone to ask you if you are okay. But at the same time its like your whole body is asking for it, asking for love, recognition, validation. Your mind goes crazy, you want to run away from your feelings, from people. But there is one person you'll never be able to run away of. YOURSELF. You stop walking, take a moment to breathe, and its at this moment you realise the music is still on. And for the first time you are not only listening to the music, you are realising the lyrics. And your life start changing when you'll be living the lyrics. I mean simply living.
IMAGINE: It's a rainy, foggy day. You spent last night with your boyfriend and it was one of your most beautiful experiences ever. The relationship was like a dream come true exactly like you imagined it and wished for when you were little. Unconditionally love is what you liked to call it. But this morning you woke up by the raindrops crashing loudly against the bedroom window. The weather was as depressing as the first thing that rushed through your mind. Today was the day you had to leave for college. Go to a new country, miles away from your, until now called, ~home~. Your luggage was already waiting in the hallway for you to pick it up and take on your trip. You are opening the frontdoor and it seemed like the rain still hadn't stopped. Your boyfriend gets the keys for his old car, in which you still remember having your magical first kiss with him. He drives you without saying a word to the airport, where you say your last goodbye. Your eyes red from crying and filled with tears. Tear drops running down your rosy cheeks, forming a bigger tear at your chin. Your face was soaking wet, even though you couldn't tell if it was the rain you were drowning in or the waterfall, that came down from your eyes. One last time you kiss your boyfriend, hearing your own heartbeat so loud...so loud like you've never ever heard it before, and time stands still, before you open your big umbrella, pull out your earphones and walk into the, with strangers filled, airport. "I like being alone, but I hate being lonely.", you whisper silently, so nobody besides yourself can hear you.
Imagine: It’s been a long day.. You got fired from your job 10 minutes ago and you are now walking home in the rain. You sigh as your makeup is ruined remembering that you have a date tonight as you walk into your apartment building hoping to fix this mess on your face. You are ready now and all pretty with your stunning outfit. You walk back out into the rain with your umbrella in your hand. After walking down the street you reach your destination to the little café. You wait outside and then you see your date. They looked beautiful as always. But they weren’t looking at you. You freeze as you realize your best friend runs up to them. Your date drops their umbrella to pick your best friend up and swing them around. They looked like re-united soul mates. You can see the way they look at each other and realize that your date won’t ever love you like that. Your date puts your best friend down and they began walking towards the café. You stand there, frozen as they look up and see you. Your date checks their phone, realizing that they had made two dates on the same day. Your best friend looks confused, until your date calmly walks past you and into the café not looking at you once. You long for your date to hold your hand like he is holding your best friend’s but you know that they are meant to be. You walk back home in the rain after glancing at your date’s umbrella still on the ground. “They must really love each other” you thought. You make it back to your apartment building and walk inside and reach the elevator. You get in the elevator by yourself and press multiple floors because you have broke down in tears. You calmed yourself down but your eyes are still puffy as you reach floor #3 which is our stop. The elevator doors open and you walk out and down the long hall of your apartment building. You take out your keys but just as you were about to unlock your door you see your neighbor Jin walk out. You stop and look at each other before you break down again. Jin gives you a warm and tight hug as he invites you inside his apartment. You talk about your worries and insecurities together and you realize something as you two look at each other. There is a certain chemistry and I’m sure you both have realized that as you look into each other’s eyes. Jin pulls you in for a kiss and you kiss back. He gives you a warm smile as you two fall fast asleep knowing that tomorrow will be a better day.
Imagine: Jin singing on stage. He is crying so much while he sings "I'm the one I should love." Now you cry. Go on. *gives a hug* there there dear reader it's okay
Im crying thinking about how my parents work their ass off to keep my sister,cat,and i happy..😭go hug your family and tell them how much you apreciate them..spread love..
this is bad but ok You hop in your car one late night after work During the drive this song comes on You glance over to the side and you see a familiar figure You quickly swerved to the side and hopped out of the car- to be met with nothing Tears pool down your face as you remember the events of last year "I'm sorry jin" "I'm sorry I didn't love you enough" "I'm sorry you didn't love yourself" I'm sorry this is bad i'm gonna go delete myself
agh i'm getting chills imagine actually walking around a small town with shop lights tinkering around you and just hearing this, that i'm the one i should love in this world. ugh. thank you.
imagine going out to eat 10 years from now. the sky is pouring, you scroll through your phone trying to find a company. at the bottom of your playlist, epiphany's there along with everything else. memories flow through - cant be helped. reminiscing our good times back then, wondering if the boys are still happy and doing great just like you do.
Imagine _You have suffered from depression, anxiety and lack of self confidence for as long as you can remember. You forced yourself to face going to work because you need the money and something to take your mind off of what is making you sad. You work as a photograhper at a modelling, agency. All day long you are surrounded by people who are percieved as 'perfect'. Your self confidence begins to lower with each and every model that you see._ _It is finally time to go home, but just as you are about to leave the building, you start to think about the last time you were happy. That was when you stanned BTS. Their lyrics, videos and speeches always inspired you. You start to remember that box full of merch that you still own and smile._ _It is raining outside so you put on your coat and grab your umbrella. You find your earphones at the bottom of your bag and start listening to Epiphany on repeat all the way home. The whole journey is full of flashbacks to when you cried listening to it, reading the lyrics and started gaining self confidence. Tears start falling down your cheek, and that is when you say out loud "I'm the one I should love in this World"_
the thought of not being able to love myself, even though i'm trying my best to tell myself everything's okay, i'm okay, i'm normal & beautiful is the most painful thing to feel.
Imagine: Today was the BTS concert in your city, but you couldn’t go. You didn’t have enough money. You were so down and mad about it, so you grabbed your umbrella, and headed out. You were probably the most unluckiest person in the world. You heard a beautiful, familiar voice. You ran everywhere, trying to find the source of it. “I’m the one I should love” You ran and ran, closer to where the voice was, you then stood outside the concert venue, but still heard his voice. You started sobbing, because he was so close, yet so far. You climbed up a fence and tried to get a good view. You then saw him. Standing there with all the army bombs surrounding him. You grabbed your army bomb and swung it in the air as it flashed different colors. Jin then suddenly looked towards you as the song started to end. “I’m the one I should love.....” His voice trails off, and he waves at you. You smile to yourself and wave back. Maybe you weren’t the unluckiest person in the world. Bonus: After the concert was over, the streets were filled with rain. I told my hyungs to hurry because we would have to be traveling again the next day. They followed my order and went outside. I followed behind them and went to the fence area where that girl was before. “Jin hyung, where are you going?” Jungkook asks me, but I keep walking. I climb up the fence, and see the view of the now empty arena in the distance. I look to my side, and see the umbrella the mysterious girl had before on the fence. I pick it up and chuckle. “Atleast you attended the concert.” “Jin-hyung, are you okay?” Namjoon asks me. “Don’t worry Namjoon, I’m fine.” I say as I grab the umbrella and jump off the fence.
I imagine you listening loudly and proudly while walking through a light drizzle. A group of six girls pass by you, one realize you listening to epiphany and stops you surprising you in the process. Fast forward two months, all of you become pretty much like a family and the same exact senerio occurs, one late night. At the end all of you go running and dancing in the rain, singing epiphany at the top of your lungs.
waking up next to your smile. you brightening my days when i was sad, hurt. listening to you sing. watching you dance. the day you asked me "be my girlfriend?" i will never forget. watching you compose songs. glancing at you when we studied together. your soft voice when you read out loud. our hands never seperating. our lips colliding together. *at **11:11** am (b/n) was found dead in his aparment, it was said to be suicide* those days never happened, because you left the world behind. you left me behind. *that could've been us...*
Finally you were done with this life....you decided to take a walk for rethinking about everything...slowly when you walk you see all these stores.. sadness and happiness kicks in your mind. You took a deep breath and cried a bit while smiling and you finally reach the garden filled with flowers and you sit on the swing and jin sits next to you and says Well you finally did it....
so, imagine. it’s been months, probably even more than a year and you’re stuck in a toxic relationship. you really think you love them even when they always make you cry and you usually feel heartbroken besides them. one day, after a really big fight you tell them that it’s tome to break up, rain pours outside your window but you don’t really care. you close the door still being able to hear their screaming, and you keep walking, you ignore them. you start hearing this song coming from a store or something and you listen to it, the whole thing, even tho you’re crying and can barely see anything because of the tears. and only then, full of an unknown feeling and sobbing, that you realize that it wasn’t love. you’re finally free to find real love, to love yourself.
Pov: It's 2 AM and your boyfriend of 3 years came home late again this time not even bothering to leave the girl attached to him at the bar. He doesn't even notice you grabbing your rain jacket and phone. You slip on your shoes and walk out the door. You slide your earbuds in and take a deep sigh before walking away from the one you used to love but you physically can't do it anymore. Every fight, every tear every broken promise takes more and more of your soul. You think to yourself how you've managed to last this long with him. You've know he's been cheating for awhile but he had the decency to atleast hide it but tonight he made it clear you're nothing to him. You finally start listening to the lyrics of the sing and tears start pooling in the corners of your eyes. You think about all the things you love and notice that you yourself isn't even in the top 100. You decide you're going to change that. With that thought in mind you change your direction and head towards the train station, you get a ticket to the heart of Korea 'Seoul' when you sit down on the train you decide to text your brother yoongi asking if you can crash at his place for awhile. He being the loving brother agrees but says he won't be able to pick you up because he's working with namjoon in the studio. When you arrive in seoul you look around for your brothers hyung, when you see him he gives you a reassuring smile. "Hey, I don't think we've properly met, my name is kim. seokjin"
*IMAGINE* you're crying after a bad day at school. the other kids were teasing you. the rain starts pouring to comfort you. and you hear a muffled voice from the pink haired handsome guy who visits the piano store. no one is there to teach him. it's just him messing around. it's jin of course. you'd recognized the voice anywhere. he murmurs everything will be alright. you cry some more. he can tell you're trying to hide more tears. he says crying isn't weak. your makeup is starting to come off in black streaks. then he lists 27 things he love about you. and gives you a soft smile as he combs through your hair. the glimmer in your eye is back. you laugh softly. you end up falling asleep together hands held. the light from the morning sun seeps into the old worn house.
Imagine~ You're alone, you think there's nothing else in the world for you. But really, there is... Hope. You turn over your music and this starts playing... You listen as it continues playing, without realizing you had tears strolling down your face. You then whisper "I'm the one I should love" And a smile appears as you finally begin to give life a go.
*Imagine:* You are walking out after you quit your horrible job. While you walk home alone in the rain, you notice someone is possibly stalking, but choose to ignore it. Suddenly you stop and turn around. You come to find it's your boyfriend with flowers and giving a warm smile to comfort you. A smile creeps upon your lips as you rush to hug him. He then whispers in your ear, "It's going to be okay."
