gone but not forgotten. this video is so well put together and coming from Soda who doesnt show the real emotions very much you can tell Reckful meant so much to him
Damn this hit me bad fuck why do the real ones have to leave us so soon man ive cried 3 times I hope soda can finda happy again 😔 rest in peace Byron you will always be loved
@@Craftee6Bet you thought your comment was clever. Nope, just insensitive and stupid. Leave this channel and don't come back no one, and I mean NO ONE. Wants someone like you here.
Its been a while since this video was uploaded and this comment will probably not be seen, but I just want to put out there that Byron was such a fucking inspiration to me. I remember being really fucking sad after coming home from school and listening to my parents fight, I didn't have a lot of friends in real life so i would spend hours on world of warcraft. I found Byrons stream and instantly fell in love with his personality. He was incredibly open about everything including his depression, which really helped me reflect on the problems going on in my own life. I don't think I'd be who I am today, or even be here at all if It wasn't for Byron and his streams. Its so strange how someone I've never even met left such a huge impact on my life, and I would give anything to just personally thank him for everything he's done for me and so many other people.
Your messege hasn't gone unnoticed. He will forever be in our hearts❤️ I trully hope someone out there is trying to finish what Byron couldn't. His game.
The last words I said to my Grandpa were “I’m going away for the weekend I’ll see you on Sunday, I love you”. Like you, I’ll be waiting for that day for the rest of my life. Rest In Peace to your buddy.
its so weird man. everything feels the same/normal until i find myself watching another one of these videos. i miss him, man. suicide is a tricky thing and there's often nothing to be done to save the person, but i just want to tell him that life matters and that HIS life especially mattered to so many. fuck.
He may be gone physically, but he'll always be here in spirit. He's at a much better place now, with his long lost brother, free from suffering. Just so extremely sad for his parents and brother, who have to suffer through not one but two suicides of family members. I can't even begin to fathom how hard it must have been for them.
Reckful and Sodapoppin were the first 2 accounts that I followed on Twitch. I started watching them when I was 13 and I'm 20 now. Byron and Chance both were people I felt I could relate to, and watching their streams helped me through some bad times. Although I quit WoW during WoD, I always checked into their streams to see how they were doing and I followed the latest drama and whatever was going on in the community. I still always watched every youtube video released on both of their channels. In fact, when I heard the news of Byron's passing, I immediately thought about Chance and how he was feeling. I knew this was going to hit him hard because they'd been close for so long. Immediately after I thought about Mitch, who made mistakes that unfortunately cost him friendship with Byron, but just because you don't talk anymore doesn't mean you don't have love for that person, and reflect on good memories from time to time. Stupid temporary things like women and money cause people to do things that hurt others, but once someone passes away, we realize how small these things actually are, and I know Mitch and Chance both felt that way. They both wish they could have one more day to spend with Byron. I thought that Byron needed help, and that his sensitive nature could cause him pain and take away his happiness. I wish he could've found some way to enjoy his life, because he helped many enjoy theirs. I thought that he was an intelligent person, who like me, has trouble getting out of his own head. It hurts to know that Byron felt so awful, that he saw no end to it, and no future where his life is worth living. I wish he could've held on. I know I'll miss him, and I never even met him.
@@AizensPlan You're too young to understand that you never forget the special ones in your life.. You'll carry them in your memories till the day you die. It hurts everytime you stop to think about them
@@AizensPlan The "Life isn't a Disney movie" sentiment gets used too easily, like an over-correction to idealism. It is far from out of the realm of possibility that he will remember that. Even if he does "forget" for many years it would not be hard to remember again. Even for much less serious subjects, admittedly only like 15 years ago for me, I can suddenly feel a strong connection to a past experience, and Reckful was a good friend of Soda's who killed himself. Remember that Disney movies exist in reality, and so Disney-movie sentiments exist in reality. Just something to add to the equation. And if Soda does remember it wouldn't even contradict the fact that life isn't a Disney movie, because I can't think of a Disney movie where someone's close friend kills themselves. Appreciate the good and the bad. Of course, the bench itself has a good chance of not being there. There's your life-isn't-a-Disney-movie fact.
Blindi imagine being this ignorant to not understand that some people have gotten through the darkest times of their lives watching soda and Byron. In other words they could’ve potentially saved a lot of people through their content. That means a lot. So yea if he breaks down I wouldn’t blame him. Who are you to judge. You clearly have no fucking clue what emotions are or how they can impact someone permanently. Go do something with your life instead of writing negative shit :)
I come back to this video whenever I feel like reminiscing of my friend that passed due to similar circumstances. I’ve never commented but today I will so I can remember how much times I’ve come back to this video. 2/10/2022 This wasn’t the first time I came back to this video but it won’t be the last. 18/11/2022 It was so easy and simple talking with you 13/07/2023 Nothing to say. I Just miss him. Ill always remember you Kuboh.
Coming back 2 years later to say we still miss you, Reckful. It's just hit 4AM on the 2nd of July for me and I watched this again. :( Twitch feels lonelier without you.
@@KLienne honestly, it's pretty crazy how impactful him being away from it really is, as much as it wa unhealthy and toxic, I always felt like people supported him enough to outweigh those streams where people told him to disappear n stuff :/
@@sonatarissoedits8822 There isn't any twitch streamer of his size who knew just how lonely it can feel to be a viewer. He tried his best to make us connect with each other, instead of making us connect only to him. rip
i've never followed reckful much so it never hit me as much as others that were part of his journey. But that last clip.. That last clip hit me just from a raw human emotion. Just this everlasting sadness of physically not being able to ever fulfil that promise or dream because the person is gone. Wish you all the best man and hope byron can rest in peace.
Just because he's not here physically doesn't mean that promise can't be fulfilled. I believe the soul of those we hold dear are intertwined with ours, beyond death. Always with us. Byron's passion will always live within us and it should set an example of how to hold close those we love.
I never realt watched reckful or any other streamer for that mater. But after he hit the respwn button i have invested some time in looking up what kind of relationship these streamers have and now this shit makes me feel those raw emotions too. Hope soda gets to sitt on that bench atleast
Byron and Chance in Japan was some of the most relaxing, wholesome content ever to be on Twitch. They brought us along for a true adventure and i'm grateful. RIP Byron.
@Blindi Thanks for your pointless comment my friend, being a smartass under a Byron tribute. You must feel so smart and cool, you got everything figured out! Maybe you'll understand when you're out of your edgy teen phase.
No life is wonderful. Life is what you make it, and we all die. Byron brought a ton a good to this world even if his time was short. THAT is what matters. The things you do and the legacy you leave behind is the ONLY thing that matters. And only you are in control of that. Life is complex. It has good times and bad. Sometimes bad times come with pain and suffering and it feels like those bad times will never end. They do in most cases unless you are terminally ill. The reason that suicide is cowardly and selfish, is because you are harming other people by your actions. Just look at how much suffering his actions has caused those that loved and cared for him. Many still suffer when thinking of him. That is wrong to me. Taking your life may bring you relief, but it does not relieve those you leave behind. Almost a transfer of the pain and suffering onto others. I cant imagine hurting my family and loved ones in this way, and this comes from someone who has serious depression and anxiety and has suffered for 2 decades now. I will continue to endure and accept the ups and downs, the pain and suffering that come with my flawed brain. I will continue to seek help and try to better my life and I will FIGHT for my life. Life is precious and short. If I continue to suffer, it is only a matter of TIME before it ends naturally on its own anyway. Maybe just a bit longer than I would like..
I always come back to this. I’ll never forget the first time I watched reckful and soda during their japan trip livestream. I was still new to twitch, and I had no idea who they were, but I tuned in everyday just to watch them. I will never forget all the moments reckful made me laugh. Rest In Peace Byron.
@@rabenkonig6348 people like u are the problem bud . u have no idea what hes been going through . Byron’s videos could have helped him and in a way feels connected to him? he’s allowed to cry
@@rabenkonig6348 Why does that matter? You can cry for persons you don't know. Many even cry for fictional movie characters. Also, Byron was a very compassionate and loving person (much unlike yourself), and that's what makes it even more sad, but clearly not to you, mr insensitive douchebag.
@@rabenkonig6348 hey dude I don't know what led you to be such an A hole but I hope you know I wish nothing but the best for you in your life. Including the person reading this, I too come here to cry because I lost a friend who committed suicide. We have our ways of grieving but it's what makes us human. Much love and respect
i know im asking the wrong place but does anyone know a trick to get back into an Instagram account?? I was stupid lost the password. I love any help you can offer me!
@Raiden Dennis thanks so much for your reply. I found the site thru google and I'm waiting for the hacking stuff atm. Looks like it's gonna take quite some time so I will get back to you later when my account password hopefully is recovered.
It’s 3am and I came back to this video because Reckful was a huge inspiration to me and still is to this day. He helped me seek help and get better with my bipolar disorder by watching him talk to Dr K and I’m doing much better now but I don’t think I’d be here today if it wasn’t for Byron. RIP You’ll always be a legend to everyone.
We need a PvP season for Byron. The Gladiator title will be called "Reckful Gladiator". The elite PvP vendor will be named Byron Bernstein. This needs to happen.
I like the "Reckful Gladiator" title, it even sounds "good" for those that dont know him. And to those that do, it has alot of meaning to it. There is already a character in-game named after Byron.
Current wow is terrible and Reckful hated it too, why do you think this is a good idea other than paying respect to him. Blizzard treated him like shit and even permanently banned him
@@DodoflyerGaming in blizzard's defense he did account share on stream which is against tos. they should still honor him in game considering how much of an impact he had on the game and community though.
Mate, losing someone so close is fucking heartbreaking, I lost my best mate 2 months ago to rona and we had so much planned. He wanted me to go and see the world, so I will and i will honour him and Byron every way I can, i'm so sorry for your loss brother ❤
@@coolboy9979 Dude shut up, you aren't cool by being a smart ass. Not everyone has to react the same way. This isn't the place to act like you're better than everyone.
In 3 months, it will be 3 years since his passing. For 3 years, I have only cried for two reasons. Byron's passing is the more soul-crushing of the two. I've lost my ability to feel, I'm in the same mood constantly, but there's something about this, man, that moves me to my core. I thought by now I'd be over it, haven't cried in over a year, but I guess this will be a soft spot forever.
What you are describing is called anhedonia. I struggle with it for over a decade and there were times I could feel again but it comes back. It's really hell and you don't feel any emotion at any time. I wish you the best
I always felt a calming sense of comfort from Byron’s streams and I’d always go in just to hear his thoughts and listen to him speak. I miss those days and I miss him. RIP Byron.
I know this feels like a lot to share, but I always wanted to share how I feel about reckful if I am being completely honest byron was the best friend that I never had or met, which is why this video always makes me break down in tears. I used to always tune up at his streams when I was feeling sad or lonely, and somehow watching him made me feel happy because of his unique and cozy personality. He made me open up on myself and my mental issues because he was the first to talk with dr K and start the whole AOE effect. Losing him was like losing a part of my identity because I resonated so much with so many things he used to say on stream. He provided me with a sense of community as an immigrant who was constantly looking for a place to call home, and even since he left us I feel like my world is torn apart. My only hope in life is that I can become successful to make him and my parents happy, I will forever remember you byron bernstein...... I want to put the date of this comment here so I can reflect on my feelings every time I come back to grieve you dear friend : 17/2/2023 This is a safe haven for anyone who wants to share their feelings as well, this is a safe space friends ❣ take care of yourselves
Merry Christmas, Byron. You're missed across the globe, thank you for all you you've taught us. Even though most of us have never met you, you've changed lives.
Remember: You aren't weak for reaching out You are strong for fighting for your life against all odds RIP Byron, you'll be on that bench in our memories
Here again, it's been a year since the passing of Byron and Blue622. I just wanted to say that, this is one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen. And I thank you for that. For a lot of us, we never got to know Byron personally, but he reached so many of us in so many ways. I hope that, wherever he is, he is at peace. Thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you for being you, for being Byron's friend, confidant, supporter. Thanks for everything. Don't be sad because it's over, smile because it happened. RIP.
I watched him everyday for years. He helped me through some of the saddest and loneliest times of my life. I threw my phone in disbelief when I found out 3 years ago, and I still ball my eyes out every time I get reminded of this. He did not deserve this, he was too young, I wish I was in twitch chat that day, and the people that were in chat and said those horrible things to a man already on the edge struggling you should feel guilt and shame. Rest in peace 🕊️ to this kind soul, may you find happiness in the next life, we miss you 🤍
Man, I never watched a Byron video, but now that I know what happened and who he was, it made me cry (btw I'm pretty bad at english) Edit: Rest in peace, Byron "Reckful"
that bench part actually hits deep.. i can more than relate to losing friends and family members... in fact it made me go on a night hike re-living memories with the people that were and now are no longer part of my life, Rest in Peace Byron, you wont be forgotten..
My friend lost his father due to an heartattack. I grew up with him being an extra father to me because my friend and i were (and still is) close. It’s scary how someone you met or talked to the other day just disappears. Keep your loved ones close ❤️
@@smellmyclock doesn't seem like he avoids him at all. They were together a lot. Byron was just very depressed and felt alone even with people. Its sad but there isn't a reason to put forth evidence that chance is a bad person. Chance was someone who was clearly good to him.
True Reckful has joy in these clips... regardless joy money for some is more important than human life. In video Reckful explained why these stopped in his view.
Makes me tear up and think of the movie Up. How the old man promised his wife they'd go to the waterfall and explore the world but she died before they could complete their dream. 😭
i come back here when ever im feeling down and remember all the smiles you and reckful gave me i grew up watching you and him back in the skillcapped days man i still cant belive he is gone RIP BYRON
Fuck man, this one really took me. 20 now, watched Chance and Byron since i was 11-12. Sure this will be for so many others aswell, Byron really saved my ass. His ability to be open about his mental state and talk about real issues like depression and anxiety got me to get passed the stigma of not being "okay" and admitting when you need help. Now changed my life for the better, god knows how many others he saved knowing or not. He truly was a gift. As shit as this is hope we can take it as a reminder to check up on your friends and family, most silent tend to be the ones most in pain. Especially to all the men out there young an old, we tend to tuck our true emotions down. Don't feel like you're less of a man if you gotta take a pill to get through a rough patch or even just to open up to one of the bros. Trust me they'll care to hear it.
I think the last clip proves that Byron never intended to commit suicide throughout his life. The lows overwhelmed him and he was unable to overcome them. I miss him and his personality so much. Praying for soda and everyone who knew him personally. Rip Byron.
Yeap, when he was in his happiest or at the very least not completely down, you could see what his mind wanted. He wanted friendships and he wanted to grow old and have nostalgia trips about this shit. But the manic depression was too much.
yes, suicide is irrationnal, once you have suicidal thougts if you overcome them you re good to go until the next ones, and unfortunatly one day it's too much and you feel like you can't take it no more that this is the solution and you commit the irreparable :(
As someone who deals with this issue on a daily, it is really complicated because you're of two minds. One part of me says to live on and see what comes of life, and the other says that it won't amount to anything and it'll just keep hurting. It's a constant battle, and you never know which one wins in the end until it happens. RIP and bless everyone else struggling, no matter what with or how hard.
It's a constant battle and the state of the world in itself doesn't help. Continuously fighting is the only option. It's not something you overcome, that feat is only momentarily.
Song is "The Divided Sky - Phish". If anyone is wondering. I saw them play it live in Watkins Glen, NY in 2015. It had just stopped pouring rain, and the sun was coming out from behind the dark clouds and literally "dividing the sky". Its one of my favorite songs. Highly recommend anyone to look it up and give it a listen. It obviously meant something to Byron as well.
thank you, i dont know what it is but i really want to learn the songs he played because it brings me joy. I remember one day he noticed me in chat while playing kinda like getting warmed up said my name called me dumb but in a nice way and smiled into the camera fuck im crying
I don't remember the last time I cried with actual tears. This was such an incredibly sweet and well made tribute to Byron. I want to thank you all for the memories that I've gotten out of watching all you guys for the last couple of years and I hope there are many more memories to be made in the future. Rest in peace Byron.
For anyone going through a hard time. I’m sorry you’re going through that. I hope it gets better. Breathe and take it one day at a time if possible. From one stranger to another,
Rest easy Byron. Whenever i came by and watched your streams they made me happy. I am so sorry that despite all the happiness you gave to so many, you yourself could not find your own. And although I hardly knew you and you certainly didn't know me you turned many of my lonely evenings into happy ones. So I say this from the bottom of my heart: Thank you and goodbye.
Watched him for 9 years or so.. since 2011 and early days of streaming... never met him but he was such a huge human being. Feels like losing a friend even if I never had many at all.. so damn sad how the great often go early :(
Watching their friendship grow from when I started watching at 13 to now 20 was amazing. I'm so happy they shared so many great memories together and with us, some of which I was there for in that very chat. Reckful is missed everyday and I'm sure Soda thinks about him a lot. We were always rooting for you my man, I hope you are at peace.
The last one is by far the hardest hitting! When you are so comftable with someone so the one letzs you into his future! Missing a friend is never a good feeling! Missing someone you made plans with is the worst! Keep that plan you made, made the promise real to sit there with 64. He has his Rest now! Lets do what he wants us to do the most - Do what we love!
The song is "The Divided Sky" by the band Phish. I am linking a nice live version with a timestamp for the part Byron was playing so beautifully. ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-oELbkPJKYa8.htmlm07s - Phish @ Deer Creek 8/13/96 This song builds to an explosion of happiness and gives me goosebumps when I hear a good version. It is amazing live, I can't wait to see Phish again. Like most of Phish's songs it is played a little different every time as Phish improvises a lot live. It is very cool seeing Byron was a fan. To Chance and anyone else who feels pain from his loss, my thoughts are with you. Rest in Peace Byron.
I've watched this video 15 times already and I cry every single time. Thinking about how when I was depressed I would turn on his stream after school and those feelings began to slip away. I would watch him for hours and every stream that I would tune in whether it was making fun of his bald spot, 11+4, or him doing something dumb for the day, he would always cheer me up. It's sad to know that he has touched a lot of people and that he will never know how important he really was. He could never see it but we all could and it's sad to see him gone. But even though he is gone I don't think I will ever forget you, and I hope that you are resting peacefully in heaven now that the pain is gone. Rest in peace Byron thank you for everything. Love just another one of your fans forever
I'm 4 years older than he was. Watched vods. I watched everything he did. I don't even know why. I thought he was cool AF. Then again, I didn't know him IRL but he never played a character on screen. I respect that. Never felt so sad before hearing about death. Byron I really hope there is another layer and you are happy now.
having the worst breakdown at work watching this, this simple melody, pure emotions blended with Byron's fragility are just too much to handle. I ducking miss this poor and pure human being. It always hits the wrong persons. Those demons. Byron will never be forgotten. Love you, man.
Nomad they took a photo shirtless together and Greek didn't want byron to post it. Wanted to save it until he lost a lot of weight so they could do a side by side again. Also byron bought him a jacket which was too small and told him some day you'll fit in this. But I don't think he ever got to give it to him. Heartbreaking stuff
"Don't forget." I don't know the pain of losing someone so close, I'm so sorry for your loss Chance. I looked up to Byron but I wish I could've met him in person he seemed like a genuine guy that wanted the best for others. RIP Byron.
