Watching this video and I’m crying my eyes out 😭 Caleb you’ve said everything I feel right now. I just want it all to end, but I’m trying to keep going. Thank you for understanding how it feels and making music that makes me feel less alone. Music is the only thing that’s holding me together 🖤
on Oct 29, 2018, i went to go see Beartooth live at the House of Blues before the third to last song he played, he told everyone in the venue to shut the fuck up and listen to him, he gave the same speech but with saying it slightly differently. Seeing him live, and him telling everyone this. it was too emotional for me, i broke down crying to the point where i was unable to speak, all i was able to do at that point was hug my friend. That night was the best concert I have ever been to, the band was intense and amazing, but completely caught me off guard with this heavy speech, making me ball my fucking eyes out in the process. My only regret was that i wasnt able to meet him, i just hope i am able to in the future, i love you Caleb Shomo, may god have mercy on all of our souls.
I know I'm late to this video, but it's 9:30 in the morning. I didn't expect to be crying this early... Thank you Caleb. Edit: 2 years later and this video still helps so much. Long live Beartooth! Edit 2: I've been worse but I'm improving, I figured it's time I share my own struggles to some extent. When I was around 17 I first thought about killing myself, I knew where my Dad kept one of his guns unlocked, I was thinking about eating a bullet when they were out of town. That wasn't the end, I'd randomly consider crashing the car on the freeway, or other horrible shit. Tl,dr: Like Caleb, I feel this will never fully go away, but I know that does not mean that I am small, that does not mean that I am worthless! You are NOT alone. Talk to someone, talk to anyone, PLEASE. Edit 3: this is a mess of writing and formatting, I'm on my phone.
Chills, I’m going through a lot of shit right now I’m my head. Starting to understand myself that I am just an anxious, shy, introverted person that has a hard time conversating with people, even my closest friends and family. I don’t know why i feel this way but i understand now that if I’m open and honest with myself and others about it that it gets easier. It affects my dating life the most, specifically the fact that I was a virgin until 25, and the women I lost it to isn’t very attractive at all, she’s actually a hoe with no career going for her, no prospect of a life I would wanna live. I also have never had a relationship last longer than 3-4 weeks, multiple women that could’ve been around longer but i pushed them away, and i blamed myself everyday instead of trying to understand myself. Trying to not rewire my head but now instead accepting it for what it is. My latest fling she destroyed me, only about 2.5 weeks but I obsessed over her after she broke things off. Everything reminded me of her, the pain is still here it’s just numbed. The point I guess is that pain in life is normal, it’s not going anywhere, and the pain is only going to get worse. Caleb is saying not to give into that pain and those thoughts that arise with it. Be honest with yourself, find who you REALLY are, and live as who you’re meant to really be.
