I can totally relate and feel the same way. I grew up in a very religious Italian catholic home. I questioned religion my entire life. When my 16yr old got diagnosed with Ewing’s that started to change. I’m not sure if it’s a sense of hope or guidance but I know having faith and prayer definitely made me feel a sense of calm.
Faith exists for everyone regardless of our background. Since cancer, I've taken up the belief in the guidance and protection of a higher power. Before that though, I still had faith in my body and mind as I went through treatment, the professionals that cared for me, and my loved ones. There's no right way to approach faith. I'm very glad it helps you feel calm, it does for myself as well. When things get really hard, faith is sometimes the only thing we have. Thank you for your support, wishing you and your child the best in the fight against Ewing's x