@@tesscakes1517 I felt the same thing when looking at him and his body language. I really feel there's more to this. I have felt that way since it happened. I could be wrong...and I hope I am.
I love that April said Cheslie deserved credit for fighting a hard fight against her depression. Depression is an insidious maze of emotion that can lead anyone into the pits of despair and sometimes unable to see a way out. God bless Cheslie and her family. This was a great interview.
It’s literally a fight daily.I know because I suffer from depression myself,one day everything is good,and the next those voices are taking over your mind 💔💔💔 only people keeping me alive are my children,and the therapy I’m receiving.
@@mariehill6427 oh wow it must be so hard one day at a time is all u can do my ♥ goes out to you and I wish u all the best and always remember your beautiful children needs u
Any brain disease that can involve suicidal thoughts (depression, bipolar, schizophrenia) should be regarded as a potentially-terminal illness...surviving depression is brutal and takes a tremendous amount of courage every day...this brain disease convinces people that they are not loved, that they are alone and that their suffering will lever end...this is a national epidemic that is not getting the research support and attention it needs due to ongoing stigma around suicide...love and admiration to her parents for honoring her legacy
@@lifestraight I'm so sorry you are going through this. I'm praying Jesus sends someone to show you His love for you. You are so loved. Hang in there.❤
I love her mother’s words… she deserves credit for staying as long as she could. That sent chills through me. I suffer with anxiety and depression, it’s a day to day- a lot of times, moment to moment battle. I’ve heard everything from “just stop stressing out “ to “ try and be positive”. Unless you live this, you don’t understand. Those comments don’t help. My heart is broken for this beautiful young woman, and her family. This has me sobbing, because I get it. 😰🙏🏻
I suffer from it too. Its a everyday fight. Some days are good, some are okay, some are hard and some are just plain brutal. That was a very "chilling phrase"....
@@pocahontasreese1423 The mom should have spoken to WHOM years ago? NOT to the public. A depressed person doesn't want to be outed publicly by their parent...or ANYONE else that they have confided in. And THEY DID try to get her help when she attempted suicide previously.
@@sharon4951 If bringing the problem to the light will save a life, I advocate for the revelation. What are we doing now? We are asking people who stuggle to get help. Perhaps stepping out of the eye of the public (pretending to be well ) and doing whatever it takes to deal with the root causes of the depression would have given us a different ending. If indeed Cheslie jumped to her death (which I don't believe) we have to step up our game. The Church has a greater responsibility to care for Christians. This piece of the puzzle must be placed properly. I am thinking about the next Cheslie. Bring the issue out of the dark. The light will play a huge part in the healing process.
*Quite touching interview. I appreciate that Rachel didn't hold back her tears and that they were not edited out, etc. Those are genuine tears. This story has gripped me like for no other public figure...*
When Whitney Houston died and experienced the same emotions. I just ask, how many more of these tragic and painful experiences must we live through? I call out to Jesus even now.
As a person who's battling depression and has attempted suicide when I was in my 20's I can honestly say that it is a constant fight, that others will disregard. Call you crazy. I'm doing so much better now, I no longer wish to take my life, but sometimes I still find myself alone in my room......... It's okay to talk about it!!! Your feelings are real!!!! You are not crazy!!!!!
It truly is. If it weren't for Jesus Christ, who knows I may very well have went through with it in my own life. He is the answer. Without Him its so much harder
I literally cried for cheslie. As someone who's struggled with major depression most of my life I understand her pain. She just wanted relief. She was tired. She looked at her past and saw no end in sight, no escape from it in her future.
She basically had everything! Beauty, brains and seems nice so it’s hard to understand the depth of despair this women struggled with. Depression is such a hopeless and insidious disease 😫🤦🏾♀️ joy is the greatest gift we can have. You see how people who have absolute nothing can still have joy and it challenges you to rethink everything you think you know about what matters in life.
Such a sad story. I feel so bad for her and her family, that her life was cut short like that. But as someone who struggles with depression, I understand the feeling of wanting to end it all. Hopefully the people that love her can find some peace in knowing she’s not suffering anymore.
I’m so sorry you struggle, I do as well. I understand you. For me, it’s not that I think “ I want life to end “, it’s more “ how do I keep living life like this?”. I have beautiful people in my life, I have my precious dogs… I can’t leave them. Let’s hold on together. You’re not alone. I don’t know you, but I love you and I understand you. 💜
It is sad. I learned about depression in middle school. I know it can effect friends and family after someone dies. Therapy, church, and movies help me deal with depression. Comedy and faith base movies.
I read a comment from a story on RU-vid a while back wherein a person suffering from depression and having suicidal ideation realized they would not actually stop their pain by committing suicide but instead they would be transferring their pain to their loved ones; the person noted this realization kept them from taking their own life. I hope you think about the people that love you so much that it will shatter their world if something like that ever happen. I hope you’ll continue seeking support from your loved ones, and mental health provider.
Don't give in. Don't give up. I live in Africa, in poverty BUT I refuse to give in to the devil's lies that life is not worth it. I chose to believe in a higher power, God, and He sustains me moment by moment, day by day LITERALLY. I live hand to mouth. But I choose to live. I choose life. Choose God, choose life.
The sadness in their faces is so hard to see. This woman seems like she was a sweet person. It's so unfortunate that she struggled with depression and it overtook her.
Wow so tragic.I've suffered with depression and suicide ideation.I attempted suicide once and was unsuccessful.I thinks its very important to have a support system.Avoid being alone for long periods of time.Adopt a pet,volunteer to help senior citizens or people with disabilities.Always keep a joournal.Develop your spirituality.Last but not least pray!!
Beautiful interview. This person that interviewed her knew her from Xtra and was obviously grieving for her friend. May God wrap His arms around you all and surround you with peace. Cheslie's heart was so big.🌾💗
Yes she was in tears. I still can't wrap my head around why she did what she did and the way she took her life by jumping off of a building. Who could muster up the courage to do such a thing. If your life is too stressful walk it back quit your job downgrade find a less stressful job. If your friends are toxic dump them. That's what you should muster up the courage to do not kill yourself
@@2sense110 That's so ignorant. Depression is not a joke. Every day I suffer with it. I wish I'd die. It's not that simple. Even being a stay at home mom now. It's not enough. My life is not enough. I don't know about her but I was abused by my own father for most of my life. People can absolutely change your course with their actions.
@@janeabailey8889 I assumed this young lady had what a lot of us don't have and that is money and with money you can make moves. Some of us are so broke we can't even pivot. I myself suffer from depression but I guarantee if I had her money I would find a way to ease the stress and burden of life
@@2sense110 I agree that you can make moves with money but it does not make everyone happy. Money settles many things in the moment but it does not fulfill loneliness or pain. There are thousands of people with money that STILL commit suicide. I pray you receive what you need to ease your stress and burdens that you speak of.
@MadgeMackles - yes, it can be hard for people who don't suffer from depression to understand what would lead a person to take their own life, but I've been depressed and it's such a heavy feeling, and even though Cheslie was able to get out of bed and work, and go about her life, there are those who struggles for days and weeks just to leave the house because they are so depressed, and I think that it's those moments where an individual might reason "what's the point of this if I'm going to be living with this pain every day?' For some people therapy and medication can work, but for others who can't seem to find a way out of the darkness in their minds, suicide seems like the only way to resolve the situation.
As someone who struggles with depression daily, I am wrecked by this. I pray her precious soul is at rest now. Her mother is my hero. Her strength is beyond amazing. ❤
Do you know Jesus? I am wondering how much more Christians can help those who struggle with depression. This is a wicked and cruel world. It is difficult to endure so much pain alone. She should have alerted more than just a few family members. Her soul is not at rest if she took her own life. If her mom really thinks this is the case, as a Christian, she should be mourning the bad decision that Cheslie chose to take her own life. It almost seems like the mom is at peace with the choice. Life is precious and only God must take it. Whether it is a newborn, elderly, or any other created being, we are not authorized to take life that God has given. Living in Darkness will keep you bound. Shed light on the problem and face it head on. There were so many that could have helped Cheslie. There are many that can help you too, Meca Hunter.
@@pocahontasreese1423 I use to believe the same their soul doesn’t rest.., I now do not believe that to be …depression is a disease (the person experiencing depression has no other way out) they take their life .., I believe she will make it to heaven it’s just going to take time!! God wants us to be with him and he will fight for us if you believe in Him… I’m praying for this beautiful Soul and All those that deal with Depression !!! God Bless
@@staycb.8623 Are you a Christian? The Bible teaches us that Jesus is the only way to heaven. Moses and Abraham looked forward to Jesus. Read Luke 16: 10-31, the Parable of the Rich Man and the Beggar. Jesus speaks to us. Depression is just another illness and we must respond like we would others. You cannot take your life because you are unable to live according to your own will. Do you know of any disciples in the bible who took their own life? Only Judas, the evil one, the deceiver. Life is tough. We have to sustain ourselves and live by the word of God. Our Careers will not give us the eternal peace that we seek. If Cheslie was so mentally unstable, she never should have been in the eye of the public. Perhaps she should have focused on her mental health more. Her parents hid her illness from the public. This was wrong. It could have been much worse. Cheslie could have taken more lives. She could have jumped and injured innocent bystanders. I pray for her mom because I know hindsight is always better. If given another opportunity, I think the family would have taken a different approach and helped Cheslie. Mentally ill people must be cared for in a different manner. We should never hide this dark secret.
The resilience of her mother is beyond admirable. I can't begin to imagine the depth of her pain. Thankful for her candor and willingness to share in such a personal space. I wonder if one day she'll discuss what if anything began Chesley on her path of depression. Was there any childhood trauma or was she just born with this insidious perspective that her life wasn't worth living.
There's nothing a suicidal person wants to hear more than the validation that they fought as hard as they could for as long as they did. It is not without horrific agony that suicidal people choose to leave their family. It's almost always the reason they hang on as long as they do, sometimes the only reason. And it would be endlessly comforting to anyone who could hear their family members still be able to smile when they talk about them, and to appreciate how hard they tried to give them all the years they had in them.
Just goes to show just because someone is beautiful, has a great career, accolades, accomplishments, lots of friends, etc and "appears" happy or "to have it all" doesn't mean that they do, or that they don't have their bad days like the rest of us. Depression is that enemy, that demon trying to tear all of us as God's children down. I've been through it, suffered anxiety during my teenage years. But now I'm 33, not even close to half of the thing Cheslie accomplished, but one thing I always tell myself is this life is temporary, it's an illusion...... getting money, success, a spouse, this and that is all created by the world, which puts pressure on all of us to have by a certain age, etc. Our happiness shouldn't come from things, but rather just who we are and GOD. God is the centre of it all
She wasn't suffering from depression. Liars better repent because eternity is a very long time. People claiming to be victims of racial oppression in USA are being judged harshly. Genesis 12.
@@freshstart4423 who is saying it’s about racism. Go troll somewhere else. You should never try to undermine how someone else feels. 🗑🚮 of a human being. Have compassion.
@@aishariel9924 Chesley spread lies claiming to be a victim of racial oppression in USA. She wasn't depressed, she sabotaged Jesus ministry. Go back and watch her interviews and posted messages. Genesis 12.
Her mom is hiding something. Ur child doesn't just text u that (how convenient it was a text,) u don't see any prior signs, or anything & she supposedly leave a S-note, that merely says..."I leave everything to my mother?" Her mom doing all this press, is SUS alone. But seeing how accomplished she was....If I was the mom I would be asking a million QUESTIONS. I just learned about this but the mom, something is up with her.....I feel it.
That girl didn’t self delete no way!!!!! High functioning depression my ass . I refuse to believe she took her own life and to jump from 29 stories???? Sorry!!!! The narrative they are pushing to the masses isn’t going to go past me!!!!!!
It has been 3 months since she passed and I am amazed how strong her mom is, how she is coping with this loss and giving comfort to others who grief with her
She was such a beautiful young lady and was always so full of energy. You just never know what people are dealing with. My thoughts and prayers are with her parents and everyone who loves and cared for her.💙
i love how they continue to talk about her, acknowledge her struggles, and remember her impact. most jobs, the person is gone and they replace them the next week or at least try to. you can tell cheslie was really a force to be reckoned with, she was a flame, a hard beating heart no one could ignore or surpass. she was always the moment, and will never be replaced or forgotten.
Cheslie was such a beautiful person and inspiration. It is so heartbreaking that she experienced so much personal pain. I hope her and her family are at peace. 💕🌹
Still can’t believe this, she was a great, loving and kind person. Always smiling and everything. I went to high school with her and her brothers . Still a tragedy , prayers still continues for this family
Listen. I struggle and my family has no clue. No one knows. They think im just a lil down. But boyyyyy oh boyyy the things that run through my mind. I get so close. I fear one day i may slip too.
I pray the dark clouds will be removed and happiness will take over your life. Stay strong! You got this. Yes, life throws curve balls, we all fall short, but just know, it will get better. Talk to your doctor about how you feel, ALSO, talk to someone you trust (family, friend). Keep positive words and energy around you. You're worth the effort it takes to get stronger and better 💪💖
Lots of people that laugh, smile a lot are hiding lots and are usual sad inside, feeling less than. We are admonished not to envy others. We don't know what they're going through.
Oh my gosh. Such a loss of a vibrant young woman. Saying prayers to her family for their loss and navigating life trying to understand their new normal. ❤
I realized after reading chelsie kryst story I am confronting my own mental health issues, I broke down in tears crying over her story. Im deeply saddened by her death. But I also want to say thank you to her mother and father for publishing her story its going to help so many like myself that have kept are mental health tucked away.
This interview though short and brief was really and truly an eye opener on how we as human view death individually. Some of us need a whole lot of time to mourn and grieve and some of us could not of bear such sorrow agony pain and suffering and just wanna do the unthinkable ourselves. I admire April for holding on she must be one strong and very courageous WOMAN to endure such SORROW and find joy and comfort in times of despair. Cheslie made peace with her mother and didn't blame her for any mishaps nor misfortune that may or may not have occured . Cheslie adored and lived her life through the eyes of her beloved April/ mom/confidant she looked like her she talked like her she was just as small and as petite and just as pretty as her they honestly favor GREATLY I look back over my life and think about where GOD brought me from I think about how momma taught us children that she would not always be around and that there was a greater love out there greater than a mother father sister and a brother and and for many years I tried to copy and live through the eyes of my mother but once I found out about this greater love greater than a mother it was at that moment I stopped trying to live like mother and just be me that's all I can really be I'm just so very sorry Cheslie K ❤️
NeoMoses. This interview took place three months after Cheslie’s death. The father is still in shock and grieving the loss of his daughter and how she died. It will be years before he’ll come to terms with that. No one grieves in the same way, her mother may appear strong and stoic, but in private she’s grieving very much I’m sure. There’s no such thing as grieving the ‘right way’. Everyone grieves in their own way and no matter how long it takes, it is OK. P.S. My father passed away suddenly many years ago, I was unable to cry and didn’t cry until eleven months later. That’s when I began my grieving journey.
@@Lauren-j468 thank you for replying to my comment, I understand the frustration and sadness I lost my dad last year in December. I appreciate you being patient and kind to me with my response, I understand it’s difficult and different for everyone
That blonde wig thou🙄🙄 Even the interviewer demonstrated a genuine grief and sense of loss. Stepdad facial expression shows sadness and pain while Mom is busy rendering emotionless intellectualized presentation. This is not about being strong. Something is oddly off.
Just goes to show, you think someone has it all (looks, career, money) and you wish you had their life. But you don't know how torn up they are inside. You don't know their real story, their pasts, their hidden traumas. Be happy for what you have and don't compare yourself to others.
I had depression and anxiety, it was definitely spiritual for me. Lots of prayer and seeking God. I had to get to the root of it which wasn’t easy. Had to face some tough truths but it was so worth it and I am now better ❤️
Why do I feel like this last text thing is a big FAT lie. "You've done nothing wrong, you've done everything right". Why go around for interviews when your child has just committed suicide by throwing herself off a building. There's so much more to this and I will never believe this last text nonsense.
She had everything. She was so stunning in every way. Just exceptional on every level. I really wish she could have beat this. I hope her parents can survive this
I lost my sister to suicide and I totally and one hundred percent get where her mom and step-dad are coming from. I really and truly appreciate them coming forward and explaining the struggle with depression. My sister was beautiful, smart, highly educated and had everything going for her but the disease won. My family and I tried everything we could to help her and twenty hears later there isn't one day that goes by that I don't think about her. I'm so glad that her mother brought up that people that push on with deep depression for years and decades should be given credit. My sister was about Cheslie's age and would put on "the mask" of happiness and hard work and nobody really knew just how deep the depression was affecting her. Her mother is so strong and absolutely lovely. But, behind closed doors....the grief and sadness is real. It truly does change you forever when you lose a child, sibling or parent to suicide. But, you come to realize that they are no longer suffering....they are at peace. RIP Cheslie and prayers for her family and friends.
I don't like when people say just get over it - you can't just get over it (depression). Her death hit me really hard and this video helps me to understand more. Seeing the pain in her dad eyes and face; I pray their strenght. She was such a light and will be missed💔🙏🏻
Depression is real... Sometimes the thoughts in your head over powers your reality and nothing can stop you from replaying these thoughts and the only way to end it all is by suicide .... she was such a beautiful soul and had her world at the tip of her fingers ... rest in peace 🙏🏻
Hi Cheslie! You inspired me so much. I promise to fight for the rest of my life. Face fears and be fearless , beautiful and kind like you. I hope your reading this from heaven. God bless you and Rest In Peace beautiful 😻!
This was beautiful. I'm glad her parents are together and sharing their daughter's struggle with us. I felt that when her mom said she deserves the victory of hanging in there for so long. As someone with clinical depression it is very hard. My prayers for them. I feel so bad that she struggled with this. She seemed like such a joy!
Exactly!!! We on the outside looking in. But her depression from a child up came from somewhere. Her mom could of been overbearing or something she ain’t dropped a tear. Even the interviewer was emotional not her. People don’t pay stuff like that attention , just saying she strong naw I get a vibe from her. Smiling and saying all the right things can fool people she is very intellectual. I maybe wrong or not.
I totally agree. I said the same thing, something is off. Her dad seems to be genuinely sad but the mama??? Anyways we will never know. May she continue resting.
2:07 This question....Cheslie's Moms answer,watching the tears begin to stream down the interviewer's face....made me have to pause. "The courage to fight as long as she did"😢😪💔💔💔💔💔
That's a worst fear of mine 😥 to give life to my child and them take it away for whatever reason, especially before I pass. Praying for these parents and others going through this 🙏
Imma be honest I’m down bad been thinking bout leaving this place and this gives me some weird comfort. Knowing that its not just because I’m not where I want to be… She was MEGA success and still she let her life go. It makes me feel like I’m not a loser for being this depressed. Even majorly successful people can lose this fight I’m in.
Something about this mother doesn't sit right in my spirit. The way this woman is smiling and joking just isn't normal. The father on the other hand looks very sad.
@@IndigoCosmic if you notice what supposedly brings her closure is in her estimation her name being cleared. It disgusts me as a parent to hear her say that. She sounds like a narcissist.
@@fromhopelesstovictorious275 Totally agree. My Spirit said the same. Not only does she sound like a narcissist, she look like one too! She come across to me like the witch in the story of Snow White & the 7 Dwarfs that constantly looked in the mirror & repeated "Mirror, mirror on the wall, who's the fairest of them all? Furthermore; the mother said that she knew Cheslie was battling depression so if she knew, why is it that she never speaks on how she encourage and assist her daughter to see a medical Professional so that Cheslie could be properly diagnosis & treated with "Anti -depression medication. ?????? Where the proof of medical documentation? I believe the Mother is trying to bring closure so that she can go on with her own Narcissist's life. A lying & '"gaslighting is embedded in the personality of a narcissist and if one is not careful the Narcissist will be the cause of your early death...poor Cheslie and that whole family!
@@BeneIsrael I completely agree! Idc, idc, idc… something is terribly off with her mom. If you’ve ever dealt with a narcissist, you can spot that spirit a mile away.
To be honest what keeps me, is my relationship with God. I don't want to sound cliche, but it's the word and constant prayer that keeps me in line. Now that I recognize it's mental, I say it out loud when I pray and then I speak positive words towards it. If I relayed on myself, things, or the people around me. I would have done it long time ago. No questions ask.
It’s unfortunate that depression is still so misunderstood. I had to become my own advocate. The medications that are pushed can actually make it far worse because many cause emotional blunting which makes you not feel anything. If you’re suicidal then you feel no guilt, no remorse, nothing. I think many suicide victims are in that state. If you feel nothing at all, and everything and everyone around looks gray with no color at all, there’s not much to live for.
@Cece Mccain I suffered from chronic back and hip pain due to a car accident which caused some anxiety and depression. Work stress also contributed to the anxiety. I was put on Cymbalta to help the pain, and they hoped as an extra benefit it would help with anxiety and depression. It suppressed the pain, but also suppressed my emotions, feelings and anything else that would allow me to be emotionally present and care about my life, job, circumstances. I felt like I was floating around stagnant in a gray haze and life was just revolving around me passing me by. My life began to deteriorate. I quit cold Turkey when I realized the danger I was in as the emotional blunting was just getting worse and I was afraid I would commit suicide as I was beginning to think, “gosh I see why people give up.” When you don’t feel anything giving in to giving up begins to look like a viable option. Within 6 weeks I felt better, but the meds can cause permanent residual damage. The side effects were manageable and considering the trade off, I’d put up with them in a heartbeat. I was Overwhelmed with pain and emotions but at least I was feeling things again. In time things calmed down. I was even able to manage and resolve my back and hip injury. When you “feel”, you can do something about it, deal with it, etc. I’m 💯 better now. My energy, zest for life and creativity has returned. I read that 75% of people experience emotional blunting on Cymbalta and neither my doctor or chiropractor mentioned this very severe side effect. Glad you’re doing better as well. ♥️
I don't understand why or how someone so accomplished and having so much together, killed herself. She seemed so happy. She was beautiful and had everything. How, only God knows our heart and only he can save us. Life is hard, I can only imagine, the inner struggle. God please help those with this condition.
I feel the same. I wouldn't call it weird but it seems entirely strange. Some have speculated it may have to do with family dysfunction (as mentioned by her biological father) and other more personal issues.
