Chester Bennington - In His Own Words 

We all do. Chester was my favorite singer in the world

Yup! Always

❤‍🔥

This is exactly what i was thinking while watching the video. Here, take my fucking upvote.

Mike adored him.

Fuck we miss you Chester

You got this, I’m sure of it. Life may be hard right now, but I promise, with time and confidence and all the positives, you’ll have a better life

I've been there, bro. keep your chin up every moment counts from the good and the bad. 🤘

Ive been ,there man, keep fighting. Remember who you are.

Good luck man! Remember tough times create easy times.. every cloud has a silver lining and even Chesters death has a positive.. he found his peace. Your current position is temporary... as is everything. Just find a way through it and be you!

Idk how long you've been out there but while I was I was surprised to learn; I can actually survive on absolutely nothing. And It always gets better even if that takes forever.

Chester knew only u can save urself.

One could save millions, but millions couldn't save one...

You’re absolutely right 😢

He didn’t kill himself

same

same chad . mine never stops . i dont produce testosterone , so ive been depressed since birth . it wasnt until i was called a problem child at ten . i had a brain scan . n they found the cell that produces it was dormant , now i have to have a really high dose of anti depressants to replace the serotonin i need .

@@durv13 Dude I know, I have problems with this shit too, it's like I'm some fucking Monday version of a human being. It's like my soul is just stuffed inside this crappy body that can't produce hormones in a balanced manner so I just want to get out of my head, but I can't. Here I am what the fuck am I supposed to do, when my own thoughts haunt me day and night..?

@@mikaharkonen9771 prob like me , take a bunch of stupid pill's to make you expectable to society , which doesnt help us much . and keep telling ourself , we can beat this , and try n ride it out . i hope you can find a way , and the days become more meaningful for you . just remember , were not alone in this , there is many of us . we know that now , thanks to chester .

every day . so true chad .

Nobody truly understands what it feels like if you never suffered from depression. It’s like a clock it never stops ticking.

Ditto.

yep you are a failure . but unlike chester , you can turn that around . you have the power to do that . you also have the power to ask for help . you just did . the choice is now yours . now you have two paths to choose from . chesters . or your own . own that choice . good luck . :-)

Shit, same feeling here man,

@XLC nahhh. There’s no hell except here. He went to a better place. That’s what I believe

@@simoneshannon6144 see ? thats what ppl dont want to hear , as i said , i suffered depression for 40 years , telling ppl that are depressed that they are fine and things will work out , are empty words , not helpful at all . we need to be told the truth , not pandered to . if someone has a bad injury , you dont tell them it.ll be ok , you tell them the truth and do something about it . theres an old saying i learned during my 40 years of depression , ' beautiful words are not always sincere , as sincere words are not always beautiful . now you were saying about idiots ?

I agree with you 100 % I love this dude so much with a passion but I hide it cause my mom is like he’s not a great person I’m like look what he did for the world he’s a pure empathetic funny person and think a lot of people will understand my Linkin Park obsession

@@samuraiclanz7777 Hell yeah I understand you, he was a great guy

The greatest. 😠.

absolutely yes

that's all that matters, leave out all the rest

I couldn’t say it better myself…. Excellent observation and the saddest selfish disregard of ignoring the suffering and pain was disheartening to watch,all this man was doing,saying was I’m in pain,can someone help me? No one really understood the agony of an existence without hope 🕳

Oh yes! Finally! Somebody said it! Thank you! It is like that Everytime even in the private sessions. Even the pros do!

You hit the nail on the head. I told a dr this summer that I’m drowning, and he laughed at me. I can relate to Chester’s struggles hard, I have since I first listened to them back when I was 14. My kids keep me going but the battles are always there. How Chester said he is uncomfortable with life, that hit me so hard because I am the same way. I try to keep pushing but I’ve been so close to the breaking point many times. It’s hard to live in a world where you just have to struggle alone.

People only understand what they've experienced. You can't be mad at them for not getting it... even though you want to be. It's not their fault. They haven't experienced it, and they don't understand

Realistically Chester probably had a million people throughout his life sit in private and listen to him and not “put him back in the box” or whatever “muh patriarchy” shit and it didn’t matter. Some things, some people, simply aren’t heal-able. It’s unfortunate but true. It’s very matriarchal to think that just talking things out a 1000th time is going to fix a broken man. He was Uber wealthy, millions of people loved and respected him, had a huge loving family, and it still didn’t save him. Truly broken men are just broken. Just think of how many millions are out there just in the US without the wealth, fame, women, family, or a single person to talk to. Kinda why it’s hard to feel extraordinarily bad. For all you know the interviewer could feel the same negative feelings and that’s how he’s had to deal with them

he tried so hard, and got so far. but in the end it didn't matter.

@@truestbluu he had the wrong people in his life. They just didn't understand his pain.

@@truestbluu But he helped so many others and that mattered to him and to all of us!

agree

My beloved singer and secret night lover

damn. i wish i could've met him

What a memory though🙌❤

Really???? I thought he had a VERY unique voice when talking as well. Such a thin timbre, yet really empathic sound to it.

Thats the spirit . I hope you can keep it up ☺

When I realized the pain I felt and the pain other people felt after hearing about his death it encouraged me to not take that route and to keep fighting

I suffer from depression but I won’t do it my dad committed suicide and I’m left with the pain and unanswered questions I will not do that to my grown children

@Aytch and Gigi um there is absolutely zero solid evidence to back up these conspiracy theories. Chester had a long history of depression, drug and alcohol abuse, and he even attempted to commit suicide earlier that year. He sang about his demons in multiple songs, he poured his heart and soul into the one more light album and didn't take the criticism and hate the album got very well at all. These ridiculous theories need to stop and people need to start taking mental health much more seriously because when we don't we get more people who end up like chester and it's sad that these things can be prevented when we listen to people and give them the help they need.

@Aytch and Gigi of course chester would have never encouraged anyone to take the route he did. But chester was fighting his own battle and Chris's death and the hate towards their last album affected him a lot and I can imagine that played a part in his suicide. I've looked into the conspiracy theories almost believing them but when I had a look at it myself I seen no solid evidence. Only weak theories and things people had made up but nobody could show any actual proof to back up claims and what "proof" they had didn't actually prove anything. I don't understand why everyone wants to keep believing he was murdered and not take a minute to understand how important mental health can be. You can't always see it from the outside but it's there and chester talked about it in multiple interviews and he described it on point. Mental illnesses like depression can warp your reality and talk you into doing things you wouldn't normally want to do. It makes you feel unhappy and drained to a point all you want is to make it stop and you'll do anything to make it happen. Chester was at that low point and thats the only way he seen out of it. That's why we stop making crazy theories and look at it for what it is and we take it seriously and listen to people. Sorry for the essay but I'm so tired of seeing these theories with nothing to back them up and put weight to them

I can now be honest about my psych problems ,because of him!

@@annemarie1100 thats good i hope you're happy :)

Yeah people just shut you up and tell you to go get help

That was definitely one of the most special things about him, no question. His openness and emotional honesty were rare and beautiful things, and did so much to make the concept “acceptable” to people who might otherwise have bottled it all up.

And still his wife says "you'd never know"

Thank you so much! Everything you said is exactly what I wanted to show. He was such a lovely soul.

@@Avanas He really was 💖 And you're welcome! Excellent job. Thank you so much for putting it together 💗

Yo estoy en las mismas condiciones que el...el viento puede más que yo,y no se que hacer...😐

I agree and that was very insightful, thank you.

Shinoda pra mim foi o seu grande guardião . Pena que a família o deixou sozinho em um momento dificil😢😢😢😢😢😢

If you wanna be real he loved us fans the most as we could relate to his struggles and therefore connect to a beacon of light.

It's so sad. Even the first few seconds are so hard to listen to

😙👌🏾💎

thats the world we live in sadly ,

Exactly, totally agree! We should be able to love the negative which is where we are most creative.

I'm sick and FUCKING tired of exclusive positivity, aka toxic positivity

@@pluviophile1988 we aren't saying be positive

@@pluviophile1988 oh right reread it you're agreeing with us 😁

see that’s the problem, glamorizing negativity and mental illness and making it out to be the source of creativity when clearly it’s not. A clinically depressed person isn’t going to create Art just because they’re in pain. I’m so sick of the tortured artist trope and the belief that being happy and positive is somehow boring and leads to nothing. Chester truly struggled and while he helped many people including me there will always people glamorizing Mental illness. Most people would think something is wrong with you because you’re happy and positive not the other way around.

Everyone's got their reasons, probably something happened and that thing made that person feel bad even small things can throw people off

if you have very extreme hyperacusis ... But in that case like i. I should go out... take earplugs. and go back.

Except he didn't kill himself

@picklesandufos7860 Why would you say something like that

@@bigfootdude247 it's the truth

@@bigfootdude247 Why would I say the truth? Because it's the truth. You need it to have been suicide? You're fine with that, but him being murdered is what upsets you??? Not that it matters, he's still gone, but he was murdered, it wasn't suicide.

@@picklesandufos7860 Bro, what... You just watched a video of a person being heavily depressed, and expressing how hard it is for him to fight, and you say stuff like that? The thing that upsets is that you can't accept the truth, making a truth out of a delusion, it is not healthy in any way.

No - but being in poverty and forcing yourself to go to a shitty job to live in a shitty place exacerbates things so much more. Although being famous has it's own struggles too I'm sure

Hey , I'm with you. I understand what you r feeling. I'm going through depression my whole conscious life . . Noone seems to understand, thinking it's just the matter.of will and control, that I can just simply control how I think or feel all the time. Say some affirmations and quotes, U will feel better they say... I mean cmoon, wtf. But even if I didn't meet in person smn who can relate to my feelings and situations, doesn't mean that there aren't such people. We have to create the community, break the stigma around it... No one will, if we don't start ourselves in this sense .. People create robots for god's sake, while still being so blind and unaware of human minds and nature... It makes me feel extremely frustrated and upset. Anyways, I'm here. I care about U, believe it or not. If U need smn to listen or to share urself, I'm here. P.s. it's fuck hard and sucks. Just remember sometimes Ur thoughts aren't real and aren't actually urs. Just keep in mind . Sending hugs❤️

You can talk to me if you want.. I’m there; I do understand. X

@@NataMessi tysssm!!! I've always been an empathetic person and all my life, I've cared more about everyone else and put myself last. I've struggled with depression a lot of my life, but nothing like the past decade!! I never knew depression could get this bad and trying to figure out a way out of it almost feels impossible! Makes you feel absolutely lost! And our wonderful Healthcare is set up horribly so therefore, it fails ppl! If mental health did the proper testings to get accurate diagnoses, we'd get the right medication and help! Instead, they ask you a few questions, diagnose you in 15 minutes based off the little information they get from you.... taking your word for it... then write you a script that you hope works... when a lot of times it doesn't and you get side effects that suck!! If our country dealt with mental health the right way and cared to, could you imagine how many ppl and circumstances that could help?!! It would be wonderful!! I've tried so many antidepressants and honestly, they all make me so sleepy that I don't hear my alarm in the morning, and if I'd sit down, I'd fall asleep! I sleep enough! That's my go to, to shut my mind off... sleep!! But I can't afford to sleep 24/7 nor do I want to be tired all the time! Its embarrassing to a point that I'm like this, but as time goes on, I don't care more and more... but I also know it's important for other ppl dealing with these things to know that they aren't alone and it's real! No one wants to feel this terrible!! It feels like a prison! And when you don't have anyone that understands or tries to... it's even worse!! I have always tried to be a positive person and I still hold onto faith and knowing that it will get better eventually! But it is so damn hard when your stuck in this for years and years!! It just gets worse when there's no help! I have a 15 year old son and I feel like a failure of a mother bc I can't get myself better! He's my life and I'll never give up on him! But I want my old self back when I was able to feel truly excited and happy!! Idk... but I'm tired of this! And I so greatly appreciate your words and caring!! Tysm!!

@@ThePrblmKd91Xx i greatly appreciate it!! Bless you!!

@@jessicarenae5107 no problem, that’s what I’m here for 🙂 I pretty much got the gist from your essay above there ⬆️ x

Me too

makes you wish there was a linkin park for chester ...

reality dont have any cure. life is hard and meaningless

@@paulch7513 well.. yes, you're kinda rigth.. Happiness its not a destynation but a constant effort; like we have to constantly aim to trick ourselves into thinking everything it's fine and the achivements we make are gonna makes us "happy".. at least temporarly.. at the end of the day it's meaningless so it doesn't matter.. but still, we have to keep trying, we might as well give our best shot..

Only cure is Buddhism

Actually at home ketamine treatments having an 85% success rate with chronic depression looking up it's a game changer

We live in a toxic, trauma-creating world. We need more compassion, honesty and healthy ways of living (both physically and mentally.)

People with mental illness have a hard time recognizing their own accomplishments, because of how bad their depression is because it clouds everything positive in their lives. I’m so impressed he fulfilled his dream of fronting STP. Not many people can say they fulfilled their life’s dream but he did. I hope he was at least proud of that.

As a suicidal and severely epileptic person myself, i must say that general society doesn't give a fuck if someone is suffering/ contemplating suicide....

@@rjvowels many people care. I know you don't feel like it, but there are those of us who care, even though we don't personally know you. Hold on to that thought. You aren't alone. There are many of us.

I remember how mean the internet was about One More Light months before he passed. I still remember reading comments on every video I watched and they were always shitting on Chester himself or the “pop’’ sound Linkin Park adopted. There was negativity everywhere I looked and it made me bummed because I was thoroughly enjoying all their new singles. Then The news about Chester happened then all of a sudden the comments were overwhelmingly positive. Just sucks how people can be so unappreciative and fake.

I didn't buy it when it first came out because of the change in direction. It was only this year I began to go back to their music, so got it, and I love it. It's the album I play in the car

Yup... it was his friends birthday, the dear friend who killed himself, he was alone (shouldnt have been), so he relapsed and... probably figured there were no more options at that point. Its so so sad

Viictor he saved me so many times. I wish everyday I could have told him this and maybe saved his.

It could also have been just a matter of having the house to himself and not wanting to do it with his family around.

I just want to hug girl. Like I’m listening to my own feelings and life poured out into your message. X I can totally understand what your saying.... c

wow . i hear yu vic . thats exactly what i thought . what was chester thinking at that time ? i really really hope it was happiness , that he finally got peace . because he gave so much to us , and could never receive it back . i hope he knew how many ppl he touched . they werent just fans he had . they were followers and believers . R.I.P my brother chester .

“Be strong because things will get better. It may be stormy now, but it never rains forever.” - Anonymous. You'll be ok I promise! And it's not a waste! I just watched some of your gaming video's and they made me smile! Thank you for making my day brighter. I hope this message makes yours a bit better. Eat a cookie! Watch a funny movie! Get away from your mind for a while. It helps!

Much love to you and many hugs. I know what you are feeling and the storm will pass just hang in there. If you need a friend that truly understands, I am here for you. It can't rain all the time

Where are you ! Please answer ! I don't know you but i care !

Me too. Me too.

we love you!!!💛

Damn thats heavy. How are you doing now? Are you british? You can talk to me if u want to.

hi Erin . im doing ok thank you . hope your doing well ? i was born in england . but mum n dad came here when i was 5 . sooo a long time ago . lol i actually replied to you earlier . but i hit a button and wiped it all out lol . so i took a breather , and came back , now i forget what i wrote . i know it was something about linkin park and chester , lol . i appreciate your kind reply . thats the 1st time anyones said that . but i really dont like rambling on and whinging to ppl . it gets annoying lol . but just saying i can talk to you , was a lovely gesture . but youd be sorry if i did :-p i can rave on about nothing and everything .lol . i try not to use excuses about things , so i dont usually tell ppl about me . but i had to back chester up . lol . again , i really appreciate your message . you must be one of those special ppl . ive honestly never had anyone ask me how im going now or if id like to talk . thats made my dad . thanks Erin :-)

@@erinhand so if im not british , you wont talk to me ? lol

@@erinhand damn.. I’m not British.

Sincerely sorry Dave, I hear you loud and clear. Major depression is horrendous. HORRENDOUS. I am in a similar spot, and wouldn't wish it on anyone. It is phenomenally hard to live a life when all your energy goes to keeping yourself alive...and all the while no one seems to understand how excruciating the pain is.

He saved me, too! He saves all that call on Him. It’s so cool how He works!

Not everyone believes in a god/ or in gods. I think a practical piece of advice is to visit a doctor and find a psychotherapist that can truly heal your mind. Religion can be a good support, but it will never truly heal someone. You need professional aid with mental issues just like you do if you have broken a leg or similar

@@iammyself7885 nope, their is no impossible through God.. It is my belief. I think you just dont know what your saying, but still may the good lord guide you...

Saaaaame. Lets keep fighting this shit!

@@Dawnrazor93 always, brother!

*what it is like

2020 sucks

I dread to think actually.. if he was still here for COVID and lockdown, I'm guessing it might have been awful for him to not be able to go out and work, be as busy he was used to being.

I came to the comment section for this comment!! 😂

​@@Mel-yw9lf he wouldn't endure it, he just wouldn't he would have died same way causw of the death of relatives by Covid or by the lockdowns.