Childhood trauma.... understatement for me. Sexually abused by one, physically abused by another, emotionally abused by my mother and abandonment with my father always gone. 45yrs later I'm steal trying to cope and deal with issues.
I can relate to this,sorry you had to go through this,but one day I will invent and fight for a law,that monsters shouldn't be able to create another one again,ever
I think you need to write it out in a journal (which you can immediately shred/destroy). Every time you think of it, write it down. I'm not an expert, but you need to get the poison _out_ of you, and the best ways are talking about it (could be very difficult) or writing about it (much easier to shred). Writing also helps to organize your thoughts, and that could help you move on. It's already been bouncing around for 45 years.
I got a Trauma when I was in my childhood: 1.I got abused for doing mistakes like accidents 2.I never get enough love from my parents even when I study hard 3.I felt like I was abandoned and replaced by my cousins, since my parents admire my cousins more. 4.I feel like I never have enough attention 5.Only my dog and cats understand how I feel, since I cry only with Them.
I was 3 years of age when I was sent away to a foster home for 3 days. My dad was whisked away to a hospital that night. I remember he told me that he wasn't feeling good and I remember at the time scooping ice-cream into a bowl. Then after my dad told me what had happened there was a knock at the door and only the bathroom and Kitchen lights were on in the house at the time. I opened the door and there was a police officer with a flashlight on asking me a question but I was scared. It was my first time seeing police at 3 years of age. Not even 2 minutes later my dad was hauled off in a stretcher with electrodes attached it him. I was placed in a police car I don't remember feeling anything for a number of hours. I was numb inside and I didn't know about my Aspergers diagnosis until I was 17. Anyway I remember being in the front seat of the cop car as we went by a convience store and got me some ice cream. I even remember saying hello to someone in the back seat of the car. At 3 I didn't know that people who got arrested were in the backseat then. I don't remember being held by an adult until after it was with my mom 3 days later. I didn't have an adult to talk to at the foster home. Next I remember being in a room with a coloring book and the people were deciding who to bring me to. I remember sometime after being in a car and driven to a house by a sweet black lady with two boys and they were nice. Their dad was busy working most of the time. When I got there I cried for my mom and dad. I remember being so scared and when I cried she briefly yelled "your mommy and daddy aren't coming to get you." Looking back as harsh as it was I cried even more. I don't remember much except waking up the next morning with the pillow covered in puke. The two boys tried to talk to me but I didn't say much. My memories of then were vague and seldom. I don't remember much except one of those days being fed funyuns and absolutely hating it. By the morning of the third day there was a knock at the door as it was opened I saw my mom and run to her. I admit that since then I've had trust issues with people as I got older. Into my teen years I experienced verbal abuse and made mistakes along the way. It hurt getting yelled at everytime and by the time I was 22 years of age I froze up anytime I sensed anger from someone. I don't remember much of those three days through reminiscing about those three days I mentally shut off from talking to anyone. I was 3 years of age. The process to overcome childhood trauma, and verbal abuse has got me to adapt what society would consider as unusual things I like to do. One of them is to wear diapers. Unless you've been a mile in my shoes you wouldn't understand what I've had to cope with as adding to the mix I never had anyone to teach me socially. I've had to learn it on my own with loads of trial and error along the way.
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childhood traumas of mine. alcoholic mother and father. father with anger issues. Mom who would pass out drunk on my birthdays. dad kicked me out because I left a mess in the basement (a couple empty ramen noodle cups) couldn't sleep because of the sound of arguments and holes being punched in the wall. broke my arm and they wouldn't take me to the hospital until I begged them. the list goes on.
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my dad once chased me up and down the house for not wanting to eat my food i had extream ed and he thought i was lying anyways my respect for him in not out of comfort but out of fear . he also laughed in my face and told me i was lying about my cousin touching me without consent .
When I was younger, I used to think what's wrong with me. Everyone including my parents and teachers treated me worst. I always wondered why I can't be happy, why I am always sad, why am I always depressed, why I have to tolerate other's anger for no reason and many a times I wonder if I have to live my whole life in fear like this. Childhood trauma really affected me badly. I have anxiety attacks alot of time and many a times I'm depressed. At this point, life is useless to me and I can give up at any moment. I can't take this anymore. Am I not worthy of love. Don't I deserve happiness? What did I do wrong to deserve a life like this?
My childhood fucked me up... It all started when I was a kid I saw my parents fight every day and like cats and dog , having multiple extra matrimonial affairs at different stages of life then when I was in class 5 there was a girl whom I liked some how I asked her out for a date and everything was going right , my parents were not fighting any more ..I was having a good love life 2years later the girl whom I like died at that age i lost a close one I ended up in depression didn't tell anyone about the situation I was in some how manged to get over depression five years later my elder brothe died in a bike accident that was the biggest trauma after that my parents were again having extra matrimonial affairs everyday they fight with each othe even today ... right now I really don't have a single reason to stay alive any more can't think of anything i don't know what to do .... Might end my life today with a drug overdose
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My childhood was bad, trust me 1. I saw my Dad dying in front of me because, let's say 2 criminals literally held him at Gün point and then sh0t inside one of his girlfriends cars since he was driving and his girlfriend was literally crying and I was traumatized , didn’t know what was going on since I was little and 3 Year Old me was so confused but yeah I know right it sounds so traumatizing 2. I got Physically Abused 3. I got Emotionally Abused 4. I got verbally abused 5. I literally saw my grandparents from my Dad's side fight in front of me 6. I know that it all wasn't my fault, but I have flashbacks since I think about traumatic things that happened to me sometimes, and it affects my mental health and brain, 7. But I just think about positive things if I am going through a situation and that is what's most important 8. I also got $€×u@ll¥ H@r@$$€d online last year 9. But I am happy about the better and good things in my life 10. Sometimes, I worry about stuff too much, but not all the time 11. I know how to express my feelings now ( not like when I was younger )
Trauma help: - provide sage space - let them talk and vent, be empathetic and validate their experience - hold them and love them - easy relaxed daily routine - help others
