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Honestly your Dad saying you had a pot belly while in hospital was awful. I remember when I was recovering from anorexia and gained weight. We were at a family wedding and I had an outfit on that showed a small bit of my belly which exposed a microscopic little roll of fat on my belly when I sat down and out of happiness my Dad pinched it and started laughing. I was so upset, mortified and I really wanted to restrict for weeks afterwards. People have to be really careful about their words around ED sufferers. Flippant remarks can really set them back.
list of comments in one now. 1. your dad's pain is painful to watch but i know he loves you, do not ever doubt that when he reminds you that you need to do better or recover - they all want the best for you and it's beautiful. 2. you did BRILLIANTLY. i was so happy watching this. you really did well. 3. you and your sister had lovely christmas outfits! 4. @ your mum, i used to look thru the quality street wrappers too 5. not a criticism, but maybe a good recovery pointer is to stop double checking on if your portions are too big or if you're eating too much because their answer is always going to be no. you can't have too much if that's what you're hungry for right now.
@Dawny K as far as what i have seen he is not toxic, just pretty blunt which is not inherently unhealthy, especially when it comes from a place of love. eating disorders often involve delusional thinking / beliefs and not challenging them is actually quite unhealthy. a bit more tact and coaching on how to go about it would not hurt, but from what we have seen in the videos she probably does not like it because he is speaking some pretty raw truths (he also probably sees / knows things we don't)
Dawny K I used to think this about my family but looking back I needed them and their bluntness. It may seem they aren't healthy for her mental health but they are.
Double checking and asking for assurance is always going to be hard to break. I do it with my OCD and I know I don’t need it but it’s like a horrible compulsion. I’m really proud of you though. It’s hard to beat the habits but you did great.
I’m so sick of all these comments saying her dad isn’t encouraging or supportive. Elzani doesn’t vlog everything and you guys assuming he isn’t good through her recovery is disgusting. As somebody who was been struggling with anorexia nervosa restrictive type of 11 months I can say that some dads are very supportive but take a step back. Elzani dad reminds me of my dad. My dad doesn’t really talk about it too me that much but when I’m upset or my Ed is around he’s always there but i tend too tell my mum everything.. her dads visibly worried about elzani and the pain and stress he must go through is unimaginable and the fact that people comment on this video having no idea what her family have been through is disgusting. And with her sisters. They don’t know what it’s like to have an Ed and I bet they do there absolute best to understand her.. I have seen vlogs where they’ve been very supportive and I bet there worried about there sister too. I’m sorry but it had too be said. Your doing so well elzani, I’m updated with your channel and have gone back to watch your old vlogs as they help with my recovery a lot. I’m proud, I love you xx
Thank you! All if her family will deal with this in their own ways as well. It's hard on all of them and like you said, we only see so much of their lives
Some of the things he said could be damaging but I feel like she knows how she means it, it's her dad, she knows he means well, even if he doesn't communicate it in a way that we think would be best. It could set her back but he's always doing his best to be there for her and encourage her, she knows she has to continue for herself, first, then her family.
I cried out of pure joy at the amount you ate, I AM SO PROUD OF YOU ELZANI!! You did so well, this was absolutely beautiful & totally inspiring!!! THANK YOU for your courage, strength & effort toward recovery!!! 👏💪💖👑
Aww your nan is an angel adding the extra scratch card fun to everyone's Christmas crackers! What an amazing Christmas, thanks for sharing it with us, hun. Looking forward to an even better one next year! :)
You have thousands of people supporting you getting better! Keep going...i wish I was your age and could choose recovery instead of always reverting back to my eating disorder. You can have whatever life you want and put this behind you...it doesn’t go away on its own..you need to fight it out of you. Believe me, 25 yrs later I missed out on a whole life
Well done girl!!!! Indulge in the things you feel you want at that exact moment, give yourself everything you felt you couldn’t. I wish you all the best in your recovery, we’re all behind you, thinking of you, and hoping for a steady and fast recovery! That’s my Christmas wish for you.
I’m learning so much from you, what a fighter! I was very ignorant at one point and didn’t understand what a devastating illness anorexia is. I’ve been trying to educate myself and I found you. Your family are amazing and proof that love can conquer all. I have a very high appreciation for the fight you fight everyday and only wish you fully recover and live the life you deserve! Much love Mel xxx
Elzani, although it may continue to be hard at times, I wanted to let you know that you are both doing and looking so much better! Very proud; keep up the good work!
Oh my god elzani you can’t imagine how much I would love to be friends with you. You’re so awesome and I just love watching your videos of your journey to a better life. I have an eating disorder too but I’m fighting and so are you. I know that it’s hard sometimes but you have such a lovely family who will always be there for you. You’re such a big fighter. Keep on!😊 Greetings from Germany 🇩🇪
I love how determined you are, but just a reminder it’s really normal even for non ED people to have a bad eating day weather it be too much or too little. So if you do slip up one day soon, just know it’s temporary and you can move past it the very next day :) xx
Your such a beautiful person inside and out! Proud of you! 💗💗. Also I’m obsessed with your family meals, your mom seems like the best cook! What were those round brown things at dinner? Still need a cook with mom video!
you did absolutely amazing! wonderful to see you recognizing that you’ve finished your food & accepting yourself for it. thank you for having the courage to share your journey with the world. i’m proud of you. BUT stop promising to other people that you’ll keep eating, promise yourself! your the most important person. i would love to give you hugs and kisses! you’ve done a great job & have come a long way ! everything takes time so don’t forget that your a work in progress. if nobody has told you yet today, i love you! i love you for being so strong & brave & outgoing! i may not know u but i see your talent & you truly have a pure soul & great heart. keep it up please !!! if you fail, get back up and keep going. ITS ALRIGHT TO HAVE BAD DAYS AND BE NEGATIVE! don’t be discouraged cause u are having a hard time, it’s ok to feel sad. it’s ok to be unhappy. BUT ITS THE WAY U GET BACK UP & NOT LET IT BRING YOU DOWN FOREVER IS WHAT MATTERS!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Elizani-- we're holding you to it. This time next year, you'll be doing the swim and be doing better! We're here for you! ❤️ happy Christmas & new year! ☺️
So proud of you Elzani! I kept thinking of you on christmas day when i was having a few food fears of my own and felt a little less alone and i faced them head on. Im 18 months in recovery now but your videos are so inspiring, please keep going . I know it will be scary at times and i was scared of the same things too but i promise you wont gain weight forever our bodies are far more clever than we give them credit for if we give them the fuel to do their thing! You are doing so well , just keep pushing through those not so good days, bodies do odd things when they get out of deprivation but it all levels out if you keep going. P.s we do the same thing with quality street wrappers too haha!
“Am I gonna feel like this after every meal?” For awhile. Your stomach is not used to having food in it so even with meals not as large you might feel full. However once your body starts to realize having food in it is going to keep happening it’ll adjust and you won’t feel as full!
Absolutely. It’s how most none-Ed people feel after eating too but it’s not alien to them and part of just eating. It’s passes. Just like everything. Every feeling is transient and hold on that in the tough moments, feelings and bloating pass like clouds skipping across the sky, you’re amazing. Recovery is where living begins and you deserve all the riches in life. Peace and love xx
I really watched the whole video LOL. That book was so sweet! And the cat 😂😂 and your mom is so adorable and sweet to you, shes going to be that good voice in your head when you eat and stop to ask if you should eat something. Youll hear her saying u should :D im proud of you for eating more, i hope you eat loads everyday!!!
You’re such a sweet, kind, lovely person. I know you’ll succeed in your recovery. I watched your first ever video about a year ago and I’m so happy to see you’re better than you were in the beginning. You still have a long ways to go but don’t give up. Keep fighting for the beautiful present and future you have.❤️
Almost 10 k subs, yayyyy! That's like a small village. You did SO WELL! I'm so happy to see you had a great da, and kept what you promised yourself! Good girl. :) Awww & LOL at Leonard. :D
it was really nice to see you having a great christmas! have you considered coming up with a meal plan? they can help a lot with the daily pressure of what and how much to eat
You are so beautiful in your recovery, the light is coming back into your eyes, and your movement is slowly getting smoother. Don't give up! It's so hard to see how each time you take a bite you have a flash of fear in your eyes, but then the beauty and strength of a warrior as you finish it! 😍😍😍Keep going!
extreme hunger comes with re feeding syndrome, your body is starving but the more normal your eating the more you will find balance. and omg i love your family your so lovely and that cat on his back is cutest thing ever lol . love your content Elzani
also I want through a phase in my recovery of literally eating everything. don't restrict afterwards. it is normal and IMPORTANT. You won't gain weight forever I promise
hayleee toomoth - I don’t find that he comes across as mean at all....just as very concerned and having a hard time believing that recovery will be possible. It def looks very difficult for him and I have often found it’s much more difficult for Dad’s to open up and Dad’s tend to have less support. But that’s only my opinion!
Yeah, my Dad is similar. I’d never seen him cry until I got Anorexia. He doesn’t acknowledge it, probably because he wants to forget that it happened twice, and just wants me to be normal
Elzani your doing so well. Im not sure what you way but many people told me how lucky i was to be alive and i didnt really believe i was that sick. I weighed 27kg when i was admitted so i was in fact very ill. Ignore the e.d., listen to your family and there rationality. Keep eating, your amazing, you can do this!!!
So proud of you today! You know what, you should treat every single day the way you did Christmas day! You challenged the anorexia and fought back!! Good job hun
I love watching your Vlogs, they genuinely help me so much. Your Mum is such a caring, wonderful person. I truly believe what you said about recovering & being healthier next Christmas. Like you, I always go for a Christmas dip in the sea, but last year & this year I was unable to do it. Next year, I will also be in a healthier place and will go for a dip too! Sending you so much love & courage - we can do this! Your family is so awesome! Xxx
Elzani, Merry Christmas! Looks like you had a wonderful time. I just wanted to comment on 2 things you said, that you want to eat loads, everything and it is normal to eat 10 thousand calories plus a day in recovery. That is the Mini Maud method of recovery and it honors your hunger, and 2, you will stop wanting so much food and hit a set point and be able to keep eating loads and not gain weight. It is so great that you got your hunger back! Very big step in your recovery! We are cheering you on!
thank you! It was amazing! And I have heard a lot about that and experienced it, the body is incredible I guess it is silly so many of us don't trust it haha!
@@elzani6744 Omy! Thanks for responding! Yeah, trust your hunger! Trust that you will stop also, it might take many months of eating bins and bins of food, but eventually you will stop and don't feel guilty about it, enjoy food, even if it is the WHOLE box or bag or pot. You deserve it!
I started watching you a couple of days ago. Your journey and I have to say I can’t wait to see your Christmas family vlog for this year. You have done incredibly well I feel so proud of you💝 you have an awesome family. I’ve cried with you and laughed with you. And most of all seeing your journey has been inspiring that you truly can beat anything if you have the strong desire for life. In your recent vlogs you look amazing girl so healthy. Xx
Well done you! Thanks for letting us share your family's Christmas. Your day looked so civilised whereas my kids woke up at 4.30! I ate loads of chocolates too but to stay awake lol xx
Hi Elzani , I’ve been binge watching your videos you are a very Courageous and beautiful woman, recovery is the hardest thing to do , I’ve had anorexia for 30 years I’m in recovery now , every day is a struggle isn’t it? But it’s so worth it , we don’t deserve this awful, cruel illness , we deserve happiness, your family is amazing especially your mum , my mum is my best friend and is my rock , keep fighting! Stay strong sending you love and hugs ❤️🥰💪🏻
Aside from your mum, everyone else seems to almost ignore you or hardly interact back to you like not as enthusiastic? Maybe it’s not personally towards you and maybe it’s just them being fed up of the illness ?
If she has been suffering for years it’s pretty normal that especially siblings get tired of the illness. Just put yourself in her sisters place. They will always get least attention, the focus will always be on big sisters illness, the whole families lives revolving of Elzani must be though for them. Every meal time every hour. They love their sister of course but they still will always feel left out and some siblings evolve and ED together. It’s tempting to get sick as well so they can get the attention the same way. It must be so hard for both Aisha and Satara. So it’s unfair to expect them to be all happy and supporting 24/7. Yes it’s and illness and not her fault but no one can expect her younger siblings to not struggle mentally as well. Everything is not seen on camera. I’ve struggled with an ED and I was awful towards my parents and siblings. It was like I was possessed and a demon had taken over my body. I was not myself. So sad I hope Elzani gets well both for herself and her family.
I can actually understand both sides. My Brother has OCD for 15 years and he claimed all the attention of my Parents so i felt often neglected and fed up about my brother. With 19 i got Anorexia and i felt finally recognized (especially by my father), I enjoiyed the attention but I also realized that I have to recover, for me and my family. Therapists said me i am seriously ill and i should go inpatient but i decided to do it by my self. It was for shure the hardest thing I have ever done so far but it was worth it. I gained 20 Kilos in a short period of time and I'm at a healthy weight now. I wanted to recover as quickly as possible and managed to do so. It has been 8 months now and i really had to pusch myself trough but it is wort it. I went vegan and i currently enjoy to try new recepis. I still have a hard time sometimes but im working on it.
@@ItsMelliB they are my biggest supporters, I am so lucky and they are so patient and understanding. I don't know how they have put up with so much, they never make fun of me at all!
Merry Christmas to you and your family, Elzani! I was so happy to see you finish your Christmas dinner, you're making so much progress :) keep it up, I know that 2019 is going to be your year! 🎉
Her Dad’s horrible to her. He’s so discouraging. I know how hard it is for families but it’s 100% harder when you’re the one suffering and unfortunately the disorder leaves you needing constant reassurance and even if she doesn’t show it his words and lack of belief in her will be hurting her so much. When he said about her “pot belly” my heart absolutely sunk. That’s probably the absolute worst thing you could say to someone with anorexia and not one person questioned him about it. Not sure how he expects her to recover when he behaves like that. Makes me realise how lucky I was to have a Dad as supportive and caring as I did.
Did you ses the hospital video? He is very supportive. Elzani is very lucky. The whole family can't bow down to Elzani 24 hours a day. It's their Christmas day too. It gets boring listening to someone talk about food non stop. I used to do the same, but have learnt over the years to keep it to mysef, especially on special occasions. Elzani has a very supportive family. I am glad.
Did you see her hospital video? He's lovely. Here he is clearly angry and in pain, and I'm not gonna sit here and judge him when having a daughter with an ed and being afraid she's not gonna wake up tomorrow is hard enough.
I’m so proud of you!! You can do it don’t give up everything you’re doing is for yourself and you’re bettering yourself that makes me so happy and I wish happiness for you everyday!!!
The thing y'all did at the table...with the monopoly thingy...did y'all buy thise pre-made or did someone in the famiky make it? And then yall just pull and see which one gets it?? Never seen such but that looled so fun. Im so proud of you! You are doing great!
I know it sounds like her family comes across harsh about Her illness and it’s all people I are talking about in the comments but it can help. When I started recovery it was the tough love that helped me get back on track. No one wants to watch thei child kill them self and it’s incredibly hard for the family too. ❤️
Hiya elzani (sorry if that’s spelled wrong) I just wanted to say that you are a beautiful soul and even more so because of the daily things you have to face Anyone should feel privileged to know you. And it’s great to see you face your fears. Although it would be a challenge how do you think you would feel coming to stay with a family or people that lead a different life It would be great to be your friend
I know this could come across as mean, and I really hope it doesn't because that's the last thing I want to do, BUT I really think your dad should get therapy. I think would not only benefit him and his mental health but also your recovery. I know how much easier recovery when you don't feel guilty about having an eating disorder. When the people around you are positive, hopeful and supportive and when achievements (whether they seem like small things or not) are recognized and praised- because, although the majority of people can eat snacks like chocolate, cake, etc. without thinking too much about it, people with anorexia have to have a lot of mental strength to convince themselves to do so. I just feel like your dad could do with some advice/help/support. I think that whatever he's feeling is 100% valid but projecting it onto you isn't going to help anyone. None of this is your fault elzani, no one can truly understand how much an eating disorder can control and manipulate you until they've experienced it themselves. Its such a sneaky illness and it takes a lot of strength and resilience and determination to get rid of one. Equally though, I know that you've got all that and, although it may feel like its taking longer than you want it too, I know you can get there. You did so well today, I don't even know you but I was so proud of you and I think you should be proud too :) You're such an amazing, strong (and honestly, inspirational) person and I know that you're going to get better xx
Her dad is normal, on the stressed side of course because he has to provide for his whole family. Not to mention hes the only male in the house, he just needs guy time with buddies if anything
Carmello is my favorite chocolate....besides original Lindor. And dipping chocolate in hot drink is best. Lol have you tried to put a hershey bar in microwave?
In my experience if im able to graze on chocolate all day it's when im at my worst and my body is desperate for sugar spikes. Im glad Elzani is in a better place now.. xx
I’m so proud of you but I’m afraid you’re not focusing enough on why you have anorexia and how to MENTALLY recover. Eating lots and lots of food is super important but you also need to find out why you have anorexia and why you developed it and remember that therapy is sooo important in this stage of your recovery 🖤
Although I do fully understand what you say and do agree that getting to the bottom of why everything happened in the first place is important, I dont think it necessarily is the most important thing in the first stage. As a recovering anorexic myself, the biggest thing is getting over the food rules, fear foods and regaining weight. Low weight also impacts on your mental health and reasoning. As my weight increased and I realised the world wasn't going to end if I ate something before 1pm, it all became easier to deal with overall. Then you can delve in to why it happened in the first place. And actually, sometimes there is no reason. It can be as simple as a healthy diet and lifestyle gone wrong! I am fully behind her breaking her "rules" and facing those fears head on. Eating loads is f***ing scary and you need to just get on with it and battle that straight away or you NEVER win.
I love your videos, such a supportive loving family and you are AMAZING, like I have said before. You are going to get well and I think have a wonderful life. Love from a former Anorexic. :)
