Around these times it gets dark quick, The world aint just gone bad its been heartless, I wanna spark shit, start revolution, But i need to work on me, several loose ends, Cut the ties to my family, I wont follow suit, fuck the vanity, Im tryna figure out my passions, sanity, My mom says "impractical, all fantasy", Damn... I know she right, I know that im slippin with my hold on life, I wanna put a hold on life, till my dome is tight, Take time - turn these stones to ice, im owed the right...
Boy: Sometimes I think about what's life after death? Girl: Well? Boy: Well, I feel like I'm wasting time writing up lines to people who don't care about me and how I exist. Been spending too much on daydreaming and hoping on a false reality and images. Girl:What do you mean? Boy: What I mean, this is so obscene talking to a dream. Not living life but only interacting with what it seems. I hate to say this but girl you don't exist- I project daydreams of the past that I reminisce, in fact, It's like a case of schizophrenia and loneliness. Serene yet demeaning, looking for a reason on why I am breathing, I am not beaten but yet inside I am bleeding. I put all my feelings on a RU-vid Page, outside I am just filled with animosity and rage, contradictory on the internet where I am calm and smothered by fame. Shame. Constantly talking to myself or you of what's left in my brain. Girl: Don't worry one day you'll find happiness, Godwin. Boy: Sad, I haven't found joy or happiness ever since, so grinding on life but the outcome still hasn't been evident, compared to the rest, I'm jealous- they're all 100's but filled with arrogance. God- why do you think he does this? Making me cry every night in my bed, thinking about regret, anxious and stressed? Double-checking on life and it's messages. Why is it that I can connect with the world and understand beaten people, why am I tragically broken, is God truly evil? Are you sure the world treats everyone as equal? Why do I smile when I'm facing pain, why is it better to walk in the rain? Am I insane? Asking all these questions constantly on mind, If I die, is heaven really there? Or is it just pitch black and despair? I waste all my time always thinking about change, but there's still no impact so what the fuck am I doing wrong? What did I deserve to do this? I've been humble and I haven't been clueless, I treat people with respect, I talk to people who are dead. I talk deep shit in my head. So Jess, what's next? It's been 10 years and it seems like there hasn't been shit! Girl: Relax, only time can tell, look how wise you become based on everything that's happen. There's more to it than just pain. In contrast, you can't see the forest for it's trees. Boy:I guess you're right, it's just one of those nights. It's either your too optimistic or I'm too pessimistic. Whatever it is, this whole atmosphere is just happily depressing.
This song just helps me figure shit out yah know. Really an emotionally charged piece considering it doesn't even have lyrics, excellence once again from Chuki
if u need insiration miight wanna listhen to JPB - Summer Rain. amazing track. here iam hoping ur going to make a chill trap/hip hop mix like it should be. without vocals and shit. keep the good stuff up dude frkn like it
Ive been staring at the street lights, Contemplating the way ive been living, I literally didnt have a choice, But this life was just givin, And i really dont know what im go do, I have to pick choose, Its either i win or loose, My mental state just need to come through, Cause im fucking confused.
