@@Vampire_Girl93 I find citizen soldier helps me when I think of my pain loosing my dad at a very young age all the hate the pain the sorrow I hold it up in my head when I sing with this band I am free
@@CitizenSoldier hyy I'm sorry for the bother but do you think you can write a song about specifically dealing with Borderline Personality disorder.... Cause I doubt I'm alone and I was hoping to have a song to or maybe a piece to fall down to... P. S this is beautiful. Got me crying on the first go. Thank you so much for your music. It means the world to me 😖
I'm a teenage girl and your songs always hit way too close to home. I suffer from PTSD and although I'm taking steps to get better I know it will never completely go away. Your songs have brought me a lot of strength on really dark nights. Thank you, seriously. 🖤
Not a teen, but I relate. I wish these guys were around when I was 16-19, especially right after losing my dad to cancer... It would've helped me a lot.
@@TheZephyrsWind I fell you on that one man. I lost my best friend at 12 to a gernade. It was way to young of a age to go down this path but I got pushed in bc my mom had started divorcing my dad 3 months earlier. This entire album would have been so good to have. It's been 3 almost 4 years and I was recovering but my best friend now stopped talking to me after he got a gf, (this was about 3 months ago) and now with school getting ready to start back and my mom yelling at me for no reason and other crap in my life it's like a nuke going off in my mind and I've already almost grabbed a knife wanting to just end it all. I hope we can both find a cure one day.
This song is just indescribably good, it says what you are trying to hide deep in your heart, I can only say thank you again and again, thank you for all these masterpieces that say more than a million words could ever do.❤
When you're constantly stuck in the past, the negativity, the endless night, you lose sight of what matters. I think this song perfectly depicts the stress traumas cause, the stress constantly feeling like everyone's out to destroy you is like. On top of what severe depression and bad thoughts about staying in the living realm feels like, as well.
“Now life goes on but I’m stuck in December” “Slave to what I remember” “The more I think the more I can’t breathe” This song is just beautiful and so relatable Citizen Soldier!!! 🧡🧡🧡
"Panic is my personality" Fuck dude that shouldn't have struck my heart as deep as it did 🥺😭😭😭 This whole song though is such a call out to how easily I sometimes let my mental illness spiral. I'm still strong every day even just at a fraction but I'll admit there's subtle moments at times that could last either mins or hours of my mental health feeling like a demon that I have to go square off with just to feel steady/calm/afloat.
Can't wake up, can't wake up From living in yesterday I've had enough, had enough Of watching it on replay I'm so scared of every trigger because if it gets pulled It's gonna turn my brain into an endless hole Going down When will it happen again? No more golden weather All war and no surrender Now Life goes on But I'm stuck in December No more golden weather Slave to what I remember Now I just pray That nothing lasts forever With just a taste, just a touch My whole world is crumbling I'm either numb or feel too much And there is no in between Like a soldier fighting battles back behind my eyes These days giving up is looking more like paradise Going down When will it happen again? No more golden weather All war and no surrender Now Life goes on But I'm stuck in December No more golden weather Slave to what I remember Now I just pray That nothing lasts forever Am I manic or is this just me? Panic is my personality The more I think the more that I can't breathe If I show you I know you'll just leave If I show you I know you'll just leave If I show you I know you'll just No more golden weather All war and no surrender Now Life goes on But I'm stuck in December No more golden weather Slave to what I remember Now I just pray That nothing lasts forever (Nothing lasts forever)
When I really have a bad time or bad moment, you upload a song... For example today, which is one of the worst day of my life, you saved me from my loneliness. Every time you made a song, I really found a piece of myself in that song. I don't know what is your secret to making me feel better but thank you for this.
If i ever got to get the chance to write a song about how i feel, then this would be it! "When will it happen again" hit me extra hard... Thank you, and good job, Citizen Soldier!
"If I show you, I know you'll just leave" has me crying. Thxxx for the music. Much love. Y'all are amazing and stronger than you're capable of believing or ever even knowing. I don't know who needs to hear this, but you're amazing, you're beautiful, you're strong, you're absolutely not alone, and I'm so proud of you. 💪❤️
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@@janicelawson8887 i understand i have been in a hospital before so i get it. good luck with your path to healing, ik one may not fully heal but know you have cheerleaders chearing u on and friends and family and people who will stit and let you vent and or talk for help. i send good vibs and healing love.
I am sitting outside of my Partial hospitalization program while listening to this. I just got out of the hospital for being suicidal and being off my meds for a month. This song has given me some hope. Thank you @citizensoldier !🥰❤️
When I think you already covered all of my emotions in your songs, you come up with something new and I am once again in awe of your talent. Thank you guys for giving me hope in my dark days 🌤️
I just LOVE how each song seems to reference previous songs! It makes everything seem tied together...like it's one person with all these experiences. Which it is.
Ikr! I have the same vibe with "Wanted" and "Hand Me Down" with the lyrics saying "I open up, I get replaced like who I am is a mistake". Moreover, this one has a picture similar to "Madhouse".
@@Ashiro_Sasaki there are a lot of their songs that reference other songs and I love it. Those three songs have some really vivid imagery and I love their messages.
I'm in the middle of a depressive episode right now and you have no idea how much this helps Your songs have been one of the main things keeping me away off the ledge for a long time, and I am so very grateful. Your music brought light back into my life after years of living in the dark Thank you ❤
Just listen to it. Chills I remember feeling this so hard just months ago, I still do but the help I’ve gotten has made it easier. Keeping going guys, stay for a little longer
I’ve been here for so long, and I’m so proud of you guys coming this far. Really. From humble beginning to now half a million. I’m so proud of you guys. Your music has reached so many people, your humor has reached so many people, and your band captures, validates, and helps people. I’m so proud to be a part of the citizen soldier army
Honestly, I used to feel like this. It sucked. My dad was verbally and sometimes even physically abusive. My brother bullied me when we were little. My uncle r*ped me for 4 years. And the entire time, I had undiagnosed Autism. My brother is much better now. My uncle is dead. My dad is better, but he still confuses me. Sometimes, he says he is proud, and other times, he yells at me even in the middle of a panic attack. I know my relationship with my dad will never be that good but I'm finally truly happy! I have all these amazing, kind friends who I can always count on. I have my online bestie, who I tell everything. I've grown up to be a pretty good person. I help whoever I can, and I'll do anything to see someone else smile! Your songs really helped me. Thank you so much! Now, sometimes I'm so happy my chest hurts!
....... Give me a second to catch my breath. This is the best song I've heard all year. I've been a fan for a while now but this song just means something more to me. Love you guys!
Another incredible song by CS as always! Hoping everyone that sees this has the best day/night you can! And sending hugs to anyone that wants/needs them!🤗🤗🤗
I...we just moved out of our abusers’ house a month & a half ago...& we're regaining our ability to cry, slowly remembering who we want(ed) to be...& I haven't found anything that describes how we've felt as we unravel & process everything- not till now. This is perfect. & I'm crying. Thank you for putting our feelings into words 😭💚. ~a DID system who adores all of your music
This is so accurate in describing my ptsd that its almost liberating. I've actually shared some lyrics of your songs with my therapist when I ran out of words to describe it. Truly I thank you.
@Sarafina Summers thats messed up. Sometimes you just run out of your own words and can't describe things as well as someone else. There have been times where Citizen Soldier has made aspects of my pain much clearer through their lyrics.
I actually don't wanna cry...but yes! 🥺 Golden Weather - the prequel to Always December! You are maybe the only one who tell a fairytale through your songs. Golden Weather is the moment before the mental-breakdown, before you're stucked in your bad thoughts, experiences. The screams in the background teased it, that this person wanna fight against his/her agony. And Always December is the point, that you gave up, that it's too late; the darkness was stronger than the GOLDEN WEATHER. 🥺🥺🌤 Thank you so much for this lyrical-masterpiece! I love it! Thank you!🙏🙏🌤
I have no words, this song left me speechless, "I'm either numb or feel too much" every bit of this song was too relatable, I don't know what to say other than that this is my favourite song and that I can't wait to hear what you have in store for us 🧡
"Like A Soldier Fighting Battles Back Behind My Eyes" is just so relateable. We are like trying to re-fight the battles from the past, and even tho we cant really fight it to make it stop, the music helps me always get through my darkest days. I just wanna say, Thank you for always making me feel better when im at my lowst, and spreading awareness for ptsd. 🧡💙💜
Great song, I love the video style you guys use for the music, a lyric video that's fun to watch and really adds to the music. The way it draws attention to some words to help them stand out more is a good way to emphasize them.
This song hits hard, It’s written and sang so well! I loved the line “These days Giving up is looking more like Paradise” it describes exactly how I feel daily
"No more golden weather. All war and no surrender." This line is such a double edged sword. Not only does it describe the "monster made of memories" in our heads, but it also describes the warriors fighting that monster everyday. Also, I love the way this song mirrors Always December!
this moment when someone makes a song that you can show other people so they can understand your PTSD and also a bit of your BPD better. Thank you so so much ♥
"I'm scared of every trigger because if it gets pulled it's gonna turn my brain into an endless hole." "These days giving up is looking more like paradise." These 2 lines hit right in the soul and pretty much sum up my existence.
Despite the lack of exposure, these are songs that *need* to be written. These songs you make are so strong they practically will themselves into existance. Thank you for speaking what must be spoken.
I am ABSOLUTELY stunned by this one. The animations, the lyrics, your voice, everything is just so stunning that I don't even have the words to describe how lit this song is. I love all your music! 🖤🧡🔥
this is the music nowdays needs, not some stupid pop songs about dancing monkey either rap songs about drugs this si the music that should been played in radio bcs this is what people needs to hear and not what they want to hear
The bridge of this song is literally me. It’s part of my nature, as an introvert, but moreover it’s also my personality. I love being alone, but when I have someone by my side, I will cherish that and do all I can to never separate from the person or do something to get them to separate from me. I built this belief up in my head, and it’s holding me down in my social life, though I’m an introvert, I’m the social type of introvert. That bridge literally just hit home for me. But I am very lucky that the current friends that I have made, still have faster graduating high school and the few that I have made in my first year of university this year, understand me, and I understand them. Share our personal feelings, we shower in that darkness and rise back up together
Thank you for making relatable songs. I'm in a pretty dark place and it just hit right in the spot. "Now, life goes on, but I'm stuck in December". It's just how my life feels like. Time goes on, responsibilities go on and I'm expected to push though it all because life won't stop to give me a break. It feels like I'm watching people through a window and how happy they seem and I just pray they'd never feel the pain I feel. I can't enjoy the happy moments because they're so fleeting like the wind. I know at night it's gonna be war again. Really, thank you guys for everything you do. You are getting us through the pain and although most of us don't feel like we can tell anyone "because you'd just leave", we can relate to these songs, take our torch and let that very dim light guide us all. Love you all guys! 🤍
I don’t normally comment on posts like these, but this song… Change December to November and it would be my story… Last year at this time, I almost gave up the fight. I was driven to the darkest of places and wound up in a mental hospital for trying to end it all. It was there I learned this song isn’t just my story, it’s so many others’ as well, fighting every day…
I feel ya there. I can't think of anything worse than that. Even if my health wasn't absolutely terrible, still, my mind makes every day hell. It never shuts up, always finding a way to make me suffer mentally as well. I turned 36 recently & when my mother (dad's dead), then later on my doctor, told me happy birthday I actually had a real smile & said thanks, but the smile was because inside my head I was thinking "I'm a year closer to being free." My mother knows I feel that way, but I never come out & say it anymore, it's terrible to do that to someone who genuinely loves you.
I'm literally speechless, your lyrics are so deep that everytime I listen to them I got goosebumps, I'm so glad to know you and listen to these masterpieces, please continue 🙏 , love you
IF I SURRENDER + ALWAYS DECEMBER = GOLDEN WEATHER ORGULLOSO DE ELEGIRLOS, SIEMPRE... GRACIAS POR TANTO NEW SONG, AMAZING... I LOVE MY FAVOURITE BAND 🧡💫
