I've told people this for years. I listen to depressing music because it's how I already feel. It helps me to break myself down and feel my own emotions. Otherwise I block them out and suppress them until I can't anymore and have a violent breakdown that usually involves some kinda damage. I've lost a few jobs because of mental breakdowns at work that ended with me cussing out co-workers. Sorry to ramble about my crap. Point is these songs, and this band specifically, are my self therapy. They're amazing and have helped me see a lot of myself I'd been hiding from.
@xceryxdemurstra6323 you don't need to apologize it's perfectly fine these comments are a safe space for you and anyone else who needs it just vent and try to relieve any built up stress and anger you have in a productive way and I promise things will get better. Don't hold your feelings back and don't ever deny they exist.
"You gave me everything, so why do I feel so alone?" God, that line hits harder than it should... I just want to thank you guys, your songs have helped me through some of the darkest parts of my life, and knowing I'm not alone in this is a comfort. Can't wait for the next track you guys make
My issue is; I know how, I know why. Unfortunately I'm really effected by emotions around me, and I've lived 20yrs surrounded by negative emotions... It's hard to reverse this, but these songs hit hard enough to to help a little bit, at least. I really appreciate your hard work! Thank you.
I think this song perfectly portrays My Ex - he couldn't be faithful from Day 1, and never could stop needing the attention of other women. He set out to destroy me, along with his friends and family. Sad to think he is spreading hate which eventually his grandkids will learn. 💔 I'd rather live on the streets than have that kind of life and heart. Good luck to you and yours, revenge isn't a Godly life, its hypocritical. You'll have your own karma.
@@overemail6834 i don't think this song is for those who have gotten numb and *refuse* to change, but for those who have, and *are* trying to change... Even when they know their best will *NEVER* be enough...
This is spectacular!! The lyrics are really powerful!! I love the long intro, the best was in point!! I love everything about this song!! I can’t wait for your next beautiful masterpiece!!
I don't know how you manage to do it every time, but I was left so shocked and moved! As always, I watched it with my best friend and... We couldn't stop talking about how damn accurate this song is. And this is so good on so many levels! The animation also adds another layer of depth, showing how excruciating depression really is, having a "good" life, yet being so broken. "You gave me everything, so why do I feel so alone?" It's just so powerful - I felt guilty (and was told that I should be more grateful that I have everything) that I had a good life and everything I could ask for and still was so sick. I was told many times how ungrateful I was and that I shouldn't have reasons to be sick. And of course "You let me in, I let you down" is by far the best verse. I always felt so much guilt for telling people how I felt, because they were always let down by my words, so I stopped telling them. I stopped asking for help. As always - thank you so much for your music. Please never stop writing more 💛
I pretty much came away with the same feelings you had. You and I seem to have the same people in our lives… lol. I love that Citizen Soldier is bring awareness to depression and anxiety, and what the struggle feels like.
I completely understand how you feel. I am lucky to be born in a family that gave me everything, and yet I couldn't help but feel lonely. Nobody in my family takes my side or stood up for me when my aunt from my father's side kept talking shit about me. Even if I wanted to tell my parents how I feel, they did nothing for me. So I simply stopped talking with them, knowing that talking with them always leads to fights or them being 'Ooh, I'm older and more experienced than you, you should listen to me because I know more' that kind of bull crap. I'm so sick of my parents thinking they know everything about me and yet they don't. I'm just so used to them that I've already grown numb to the pain. But anyway, this is good music.
"My sickness this has never been your fault" that part hits so close to home- your music is just something on another world. how you manage to make music that can make people feel less alone in the world, EVERY time you release a song is amazing. words can't describe the amount of gratitude
I’m a veteran and all your songs just seem to hit home, especially this one 🖤 these songs keep me going, I swear they speak to me. Keep up the amazing work!
I've been numb for a long time. I've been through a lot, and I continue to go through stuff. My relationships with people have been affected by how numb I've become over the course of my young life. It's hard existing when all you feel is a numbing feeling. I don't know how I get through the day anymore. My girlfriend left me for someone else, and even though I've been through that before, I don't feel the pain anymore. I guess I've gone through that so many times (people leaving me whether it be someone I'm romantically involved with or just a friend or a family member), that I've just grown used to it. The hardest part for me when it came to my depression, was to admit that I wasn't alone. I'd say it, but I wouldn't ever believe myself. I made myself believe that I was the only one who was born in hell. That I'm the only who is so numb, and that I'm the only person in the world that doesn't know why that is. There's still days where I think I'm the only one suffering, and that is a battle I'm always going to have to battle. But this song, did something for me tonight that you guys will never understand. I've been a fan of this band and it's messages ever since I heard you guys a couple of years ago. And finding you guys was like finding a band for my mind, because you guys are always writing songs about things I and many other people deal with and go through. I honestly don't know how to thank you guys for the amount of graves you helped me out of, and I'm not quite sure if I'll ever be able to thank you guys for all that you've done for me and my mental health, but I just want you guys to know that I'm thankful for this band. Citizen Soldier really deserves so much more recognition for what this band does for this community of Earth's population. Some people who deal with depression are lucky enough to get out of it. For other people like me, who are just stuck in it, there's movies, there's music, and there's Citizen. Fucking. Soldier. Oh and great animation by the way. -Travis
You guys are insanely talented! You’re the only band that produces banger after banger, no flops in between. I genuinely can’t think of a single song of yours that’s bad. Keep up the great work!
Thank you Citizen Soldier for this. I really felt numb last night after almost doing something I would regret but decided to continue on and seeing that you posted today really motivates me even more to keep going.
I'm sure you hear this a lot but I'd like to share this anyway. You are the reason I am here today. Your music saved my life. Your song "would anyone care" is the song that made me take my finger of the trigger. I had heard the song on by a complete miracle. I was in a dark place and had made a will. Life had broke me and I was listening to a Playlist of 6 songs I made called "my goodbye". It had finished and I put the finger on the trigger when auto play started that song. In tears I listened when at 2:27 of that song right before putting full pressure I on the trigger my attention drew to a line of lyrics. "If your dying inside". i listened tears running down my face. Finger on the trigger when one single line changed everything "You can't be replaced, no, tonight is the night". This line made me think of all my successes. In the moments after that line my finger left the trigger and I started crying hysterically. It was 4am and my girlfriend heard me in my gaming room. She opened the door and grabbed me. It was that line that brought out the sounds that saved my life. I cannot truly thank you enough. A year ago would have been my last. Immediately after this I called and checked myself in to a temporary mental health hospital. Sought help and I am in a much better place now. I've got the correct medication and I have come so far. I gave my firearm to a family member and sold everything associated with it. Tore up that will and deleted that Playlist. Found a support group and started talking about whats going on in my head. Thank you citizen soldier. 🙏 your music helps more than you'll ever truly know. I'm sure there are others like me. With life stories just like mine. But I hope you stop to read them and realize that you have done so much for so many. Much love to you and your families! Stay safe.
I'm always amazed by how Citizen Soldier can keep pumping out songs that sound so different yet have such soulful lyrics! Powerful song. Keep on rockin'!🤘
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Just ended an almost 13 year old relationship due to my scars and traumas. Just cannot feel the same future she sees with me. She gave me everything, but still I've felt alone all this time. This song, these lyrics. They relate so goddamn much.
I'm in the exact same boat right now, except i couldn't take how he kept treating me. Dimissing my pain, endless cycles, and he can't step up for me. It's hell to walk away but hell to stay.
this song was exactly what I needed right now. always had a really hard life with so many traumas cuz of my past and that made me a broken person. i really hate myself for being this, my demons took away from me the person that I loved most, my depression is crushing me so damn hard again and I don't know what to do cuz i just wanna give up. thank you for making such a powerful song, u guys helps a lot when I'm in my worst days!
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This is one of my avorite song of yours, maybe my favorite of all, despite it making me cry so hard the first few times I listened to it, because it was so f*cking relatable... My favorite lines: "You've wasted so much time, Waiting, wishing some day I would change Hate so much what I've become Where did I go? How did I get so numb? It's not you it's me, I'm so sorry, I can't feel you here at all So why do I feel so alone?"
"Hate so much what I've become. Where did I go? How did I get so numb?" I came here to have a good time, and I'm honestly feeling so called out right now. 😜 Seriously, though, this song is amazing! 🔥💜
Thank you, so much for this song. I relate to it on a very personal level due to my best friend and I being worlds apart with how we are. I'm have loads of disabilites(The main ones being Autism, Depression, and PTSD) and he's neurodivergent, making communication and such very hard for the both of us. We recently had a fight about something small and this song just.. it put my feelings into the words I couldn't express to him because I'm so used to people not willing to try and understand me but he made the effort. I love him but a lot of the times I feel as if I'm hurting him more than I should and it pains me every time I lash out at him. So thank you, for putting the feelings I was trying to word to him into a song. I hope we can work things out. I love your music by the way, I found you guys in my darkest times and I haven't stopped listening since. Thank you for being people's hope and light at the end of the tunnel. Bye! o/ 🤎
YASSSS so excited for this song you guys are an amazing band thank you for every song you make your songs are truly a blessing!!!! (And I’m an atheist) sometimes it feels like I’m numb to everything! So thank you I literally love you guys!!!!-Colby
Whenever I’m in a bad place, music is how I get out of the hole. Sometimes I listen to it by myself, other times I try to get others to truly hear what the lyrics are, since I’m not good at communication.
😶Another great song! As always CS blows me away! I hope everyone that sees this has a great day/night! Sending hugs and love to anyone that needs or wants it. You're doing great! And you're so worth it! You're great just the way you are don't let other's take away your shine. And don't listen to them if they say you're not or you're not worth it. You are. Keep fighting keep pushing on you've got this!😶💙💙💙💙💙
Wow I really can feel your music guys even tho I am psychopathic borderline but every time I feel your songs deep in my heart and soul... It's amazing, I really love your music and I love you guys. I hope one day that you will perform in the Netherlands and I can come to your concert because you guys are my heroes you are awesome. Sending you all my love guys 💜🖤❤️🖤💜🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹
I'm not very good at expressing myself through words and was struggling to tell people how I felt.. I was finally able to express to people just how bad my mental health was thanks to you guys... So.. Thank you
It's crazy to think how we already got four new masterpieces in 2022 alone, and it's just February!🤯 Really amazing and hardworking! So much respect! Thank you for making songs that many of us can relate to and help us to feel less lonely❣
This is coming out while I am going through a very numb and destructive phase. I fell in love with someone who simply gave up on me and moved on from me after allowing me to get close to him. I was willing to stay regardless how hard it would be. The only thing I feel now is pain and this emotional numbness to everything and everyone. I don't fall in love so easily, I am greyromantic and this feeling is super rare and this is why it hurts even more than it should. You guys always deliver songs with deep and true meaning and I am so thankful for everything you do and every song you release. Love you my dudes ♥
This song made me cry. It was very emotional and relatable because it si how I feel, I feel numb to everything and everyone that it blinds me, constricts me, chokes me. I have been looking for a song to describe the thoughts in my head and then you released this work of art.. Thank you..
Thank you. Words can't express how much your music has done for me. This song has left left speechless. its everything I feel but can't say. I hate being silent and hiding it. Numb is what I wish I could be. I should be happy right now my 16th birthday party is in 3 days...but I'm not. I just want to feel something good. I just want to fix myself. But no matter how hard I try I fail everytime.
An absolutely amazing songs again you guys!!! I don’t know what kind of witchcraft you’re using to release songs that match up with what I’ve been feeling for that week but don’t stop haha it’s just the perfect outlet for putting what I’ve been feeling into words, anyways keep up the amazing work and I can’t wait to hear what comes next 💛💛
you guys needed more recognition with your songs, the lyrics, the song, I felt connected with it. Thank you for your efforts because it really help me this year ever since my depression started since 2016, Im thankful ive found your channel, your songs are meaningful and has kept me strong, you guys are amazing
Why is every song so good?! My favorite part is the almost echoing "so numb"s. It adds so much depth of sound and gave me a serious case of goosebumps.
Hot damn, this reminds me of "Forever or The End" by Skillet. The lyrics even sound somewhat similar. "How did I get here, was it something I said? When you said forever, is this what you meant? Is it wrong that I miss you? Because you never left. But the burden feels heavy, And I'm just so spent Is this forever or is this the end?"
I love hearing the old Three Days Grace influence in their music. Takes me back to when I really started discovering hard rock, bout year 2000. Keep it up, I love every song you guys release. Never cease to amaze me 👍
the only songs about bad mental states depression anxiety and all that other shit like it that make me feel good are the ones that dont try to give optimistic bullshit sometimes all it takes is for someone else to know what i feel i dont need the thing i heard my whole life for 43 years "it gets better" "just wait and see" "you give yourself value" all that optimistic bullshit PISSES ME OFF optimism and the ignorance it brought me is why im so hateful i have had my world view all my beliefs all of what i thought was true shattered on THREE separate occasions i tried optimism and its a huge portion of why i hate everything all i can feel is apathy i feel purely jaded i feel purely negative all i feel is the polar opposite of what human kind is meant to feel lonely alone anxious depressed hateful hopeless helpless useless worthless pointless and i have noone to blame but myself it was my own failure to break out of my ignorance my own mistakes my own problems all the things i did wrong all the people i hurt all of everything only 3 things werent my fault ODD autism and my severe ADHD everything else that caused me to get to the fucked up state i am now was my fault and my fault alone i cant deal with optimism i just cant i tried it and it fucked me up songs like this that simply explain that noone is alone that yes there are problems do better than just spouting the same generic slop of optimism that means nothing
There’s so much great with this it’s crazy. First off I really like the more aggressive screaming in this one. I really liked a lot of the less aggressive songs like Bedroom Ceiling, but this style is also amazing. Typically, I’m not as big of a fan of that sort of thing, but you really sell it here. The heavy guitar riff helps really drive home the sound. I remember a few years ago I was in a relationship and I felt nothing for a while and just felt guilty for feeling that way without any real reason. Also, with the visuals, I’ve never seen a band like you guys. Especially in more recent videos, there have been a lot of different visual art styles, helping make each song feel even more unique. The visuals are always killer, and while I’ve only been listening for about 2 years, it’s been awesome to see how you guys have grown and changed. Keep up the good work and I’m excited for the next release!
This song makes me think of my husband he's been numb to everything give him three beautiful children and all he wants to do is drink and get high and he's 67 years old what a waste of life
Citizen soldier is the best because you can actually relate to what there saying there not singing about drugs s## or anything like that they are singing from the heart there meaningful the message is meaningful the lyrics are meaningful
6:34am, another sleepless night of suicidal thoughts and self harm. And then I notice this in my notification box and for a moment, I'm lost in the song and forget about everything. Thank you guys.
I hate numbness but as the time goes by, I feel it stronger and stronger. I see something that I know I like but I feel like I am totally indifferent to it. The best food in the world is worthless when you have no appetite. May God help us all get our appetite for life and its little things back. 🙏
