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MASSIVE thank you to Citizen Soldier for believing in us. SO excited to TOUR TOGETHER!!

I don't think a song has hit me harder. " A million thoughts on my head and they all want me dead but I'm too good at holding them down." This song is what I've needed for years.😊

Who here feels like that they forgot how to cry

As someone who went through apathy, this song... Is so perfect. The feeling of feeling hollow while so full is such a heavy thing

I adore the icy visuals of this one, like ice that won't melt, eyes that won't cry.

This song describes how I’ve felt for years In my life I’ve been through a lot and I lost my ability to cry out of sadness and while I have emotion it becomes more difficult to be sad when I can’t cry from it and yall always describe me through your songs thank you for making this music

Didn't expect to encounter a song that I instantly love. Been wanting to cry for a long while. "There is NO healing in NOT feeling ANYTHING" hit quite hard even for how true it is. "My life is full of love but I'm empty."

I've lost the ability to cry about 9 years now. Lord knows what I would give to be able to cry again. Treasure the tears guys ❤️

I'm 22 weeks pregnant and found out on February 6th that my baby has a rare condition that has effected her development in a way that gives her a 1 in 16,000 chance of being alive when she's born and an even smaller chance of living past a week old. Some days I find it hard to cry because of how much I've been crying since I found out. This song really hits me hard. Citizen soldiers music is the only thing getting me thru this.

Here we go ! A great collab with a great tour is coming 🖤

Gut wrenching lyrics. 😢 Appreciate your honesty.

"Wish I could cry right now" You have no idea how many people you saved and how much you've helped. This collaboration is a true miracle, thank you for those beautiful sounds^^

Wonderful song ❤

Each new song is a new peak, and this one is no exception ❤ To this day I'm still amazed at how you are able to transfer all the emotions into words

There are very, very few songs that can transcend just being a song and flawlessly express raw human emotion, and even fewer songs that can do it on the first listen. This is one of those rare songs. Absolute perfection, from the lyrics to the slow build-up of the instruments in the background and how it truly symbolizes how bottling up our emotions will eventually cause us to break. Halocene does such an amazing job contributing here too. Absolutely amazing work.

I have been waiting for this song since I first heard it in the shorts. It's everything I've imagined it being. It just......it's real. It's something that I wish people in my life could hear. They might finally understand me at least on some level. I've had so many arguments with family over "not caring" when the truth is I've just numbed my emotions because I grew tired of the pain that came with feeling. And it's reached a point where I just wish that I could feel anything at this point rather than just being numb to the world around me. "I'm living not alive." It really describes things so well.

You guys always hit hard with the lyrics. "I really wish I could cry right, but I'm afraid I've forgotten how" kind describes what my life has turned into; people always tell me that I'm never upset, sad or something... They only see my smile, even on my worse moments... Appreciate how you guys can express what others like me can't ❤

Ouch.😂 that hurt... another incredible song and the vocals on both parts are incredible! Sending hugs to anyone that wants/needs them!🤗🤗🤗

God this is hitting me to the core, and bringing tears out, which is very much needed. I've been dealing with the ups, downs, why after 27yrs of first being diagnosed with chronic depression and anxiety, the hell, trauma from toxic fam, friends, and what I believed was true love. 2014 diagnosed with PTSD, and I also now deal with chronic illness. After my last relationship broke me to my breaking point, I have tried. Not one friend still around, and growing up in what I thought was a loving, close, family, aunts, uncles, sis, all. But reality hit n I have my dad, who I trust 99% and my daughter, who is only one I know without doubt loves me 100% of the time. Not I feel like I'm just a lost cause, but because of my daughter I refuse. Pray it is going to get better, I believe God has me still here for a reason. But I will also fight n hell, and come outta the fire for my daughter

This is another amazing song! ❤❤❤❤ I’m in love with the chorus

This song is so, so beautiful. Great job from both Citizen Soldier and Halocene!

You have no idea how much it means hearing a woman's voice in one of these songs. I love you Citizen Soldier, but I think I needed to hear her.

Wish I had the words to describe how beautiful this song is

Beautiful song Addie really complimented your voice great on this.

caught it in time before work! I LOVE THIIIIIISSS!!!🥺❤‍🩹

That’s an incredible song!! You guys never let me down for a second

I don't think I've ever heard a song that describes me more than this

WOW ❤ LOVE SONG !!

This is fire, damn 🔥

Been waiting for this song for so long and it didn't disappoint. Feels like I've run out of tears to cry, so your music has become my replacement to release those feelings

I so felt this song so much, that even I wish I could cry, too. 😭

Playing this on repeat all day at school 🖤🖤🖤🖤

Love you so much thank you for every song!

I feel this song. I cry a lot, but no emotion really gets let loose, crying doesn't let loose all the negative emotion. It's like, you take the tears, and before they spill over the dam, you filter out all of the emotion and capture it, sending it right back. Love these songs so much!

These songs always seem to come out right as I'm feeling that way 💔

It hurts how much this describes my life. Thank you for putting the feelings in words that I dont know how to articulate♥

The titel just don't fit for me, cause I'm literly crying right now a bit.🥺 Wow was this an impactful song. Straight from the first verse it's so beautifully made. You two made a great piece of art with a meaning, many out there are dealing with. Thank you!❤🙏

Ain’t no way both my favorite artist just collaborated to make a masterpiece 😭💗💗

Hearing Jake and Addies voices together hits a lot different. Being a fan of both bands for a while now, and I don’t regret stumbling across either of them in my times of need.

I just woke up to a new citizen soldier song. Love this masterpiece of a song

I needed this in everyway. It tells the scars Im too scared to tell anyone about.

Another depressing banger. It's strange how pain and suffering can make something beautifully. You guys really had master this craft and the second singer just adds so much. Its perfect.

"To fall apart right now would feel like ecstasy but these walls weren't built to break" This line hit me in the chest so hard! I haven't cried in longer than I could remember even though I know it would make everything better..

Wow ❤, I really wish I could cry right now. Today marks 2 years since a friend of mine died and there's nothing better than a new Citizen Soldier song to brighten your day a little

You guys have helped me beyond what you know. I would give anything to have the money to see you guys live ❤

This was one of the songs I was most looking forward to.😍 Your band and music are my safe space when I'm going through difficult days. Your songs always help me, comfort me, give me strength to remain firm! and it makes me feel like I'm not alone. So thank you very much for existing! ❤️❤️❤️

Wow... absolutely amazing!

This is one of the best songs ive ever heard!!!!!

I've spent 26 years being gaslit to the point I can no longer cry. This song speaks to me in a way that's both raw and healing. It's like my mind's been given a voice by you, it can finally be heard. Thank you

So amazing how every song hits every bit of my trauma dead on! Thank you Citizen Soldier for being all of our voices when we cant speak the words!🖤

This song hits so hard, the lyrics are amazing. This song makes me wish I could cry. 💙

and i thought wired for worthless was the song i was gonna be the most connected to, thank you for putting my feelings into words you guys.

This song is so beautiful I can't even describe it. It reminds me of how beautiful ICU is ❤❤❤

Beautiful song. It hits so hard

This…is perfection

I haven't been abel to cry in month's but just listening to this made me start to tear up and cry, thank you, yet another masterpiece.

This song is so relatable and touching. It's how I feel on the daily but I'm too scared to let it out. Thank you so much for this amazing song❤

This song is so amazing I can really relate

Hell yes to this song!! Hell yes to everything Citizen Soldier!! Seriously!!

I've been coping my reading,by numbing my feelings. Sometimes I can't cry and sometimes I can't stop. I'm broken hut your songs have been helpful. I've been broken for so many years and I never even realized till I realized I'd dint wanna live. Then j found you guys. THANK YOU ❤

Beautiful song 😢

great song. thank you. you say words so many other people cant say

I love how the melody/chord progression mirrors Therapy. It's like two sides of the same emotional coin.

The "I really wish that I could cry right now, but I'm afraid that I've forgotten how. Being numb's how I cope with the hell that I've known" really felt that .❤

I simply love the harmony in the way voices of you both match and mix together. It feels so heavenly. I don't know how to describe this.... So much emotions put in one song. The best part about your songs is that I can hear just a little bit of it and then can't get it out of my head and i'm waiting unpatiently for the full release. There are so many of your songs that I adore and it really feels like each new one is better than the previous one!

Excellent collaboration!

Was just realizing the other day that my SAD had developed into the numbness stage, and I'm having a hard time feeling emotions, so this hit a lot harder than it would've otherwise. Thank you as always for putting lyrics to feelings in a way the rest of us can't. 🙏🏻

"million thoughts in my head and they all want me dead, im too good at holding them down" that hits hard

I feel this. Everyday and night. I've been hated by friends and people. Never felt something hit harder than this truthful song that explains my feelings tonight. Thank you for such an amazing song.

Love itttt, I have been so excited for this song and such perfect timing because I'm struggling with my emotions quite a lot at the moment. The lyrics "My life is full of love but I'm empty" I relate so much to that as I could be surrounded by people and still feel alone. Thank you guys, love you❤

Thank you jake for everything I have been feeling sad here lately but you always make me feel better about myself I just want to say thank you

I hope u are ok, while helping us u may forget yourself. We fans feel u too

Thank you for this beautiful and emotional song!

I've been waiting for this one to drop 🖤🖤🖤

Another amazing song and with Halocene in chefs kiss awesome work

Beautiful song, hit me so hard. "I really wish that I could cry right now I really wish that I could let this out", "I've had to wear a thousand faces be fake to just replace this" I needed this, thank you!

FOR SURE GOING ON MY SONGS I CRY TO PLAYLIST 🖤🖤🖤🖤

The meaning is so deep I love how citizensoldier never fails to bring a meaning in every song they publish

Your songs once struck a chord in my heart and brought me to tears, but now they don't. Now, I simply appreciate their beauty. This means your songs have healed me. Thank you. ❤

This brought tears to my eyes. Thank you

Another close to home song for me🖤 amazing collab as well.

Love this song so much ❤❤

Ironically, yall made me cry. I remember before therapy started working and this is exactly how I felt.

This is the stage of therapy I’m in right now. Confronting my comfortability with being in the frozen stage. Citizen Soldier never fails to be relatable and hard hitting.

This is the collab we needed😍In love with this emotional masterpiece🥺It reflects my feelings and say things that I couldn't say🥺

This is Amazinggggggggggg, the lyrics are super real and hit hard.

Every one of your guys songs has always hit me hard, but this one specifically has really hit me hard. I don't think I have every felt so in common with a song. Glad Halocene was able to team up with you she is an amazing artist, her voice works so well with your guys band. Great job never seems to amaze when you guys produce such great music.

I relate to this song in a different way than probably intended. I don't feel like I can open up to people and be vunderable, and I wish I could cry. 💙

Pure love ❤

Another amazing song! I can relate to it so much🤧

Had to listen to this song because it really fits right now. Have you ever had that moment that every part of your body says you should be crying but nothing comes out. My eyes hurt like I’ve been crying for hours but not a single tear will come out. FML…..

Once a legend, Always a legend. Citizen soldiers never makes a bad song❤

Love this song! You guys did great. One of my favorites and super relatable.

I love your songs so damn much. I'm listening to them every single day. You guys are so great! Thank you so much for giving me something that makes me feel understood. It's like you know everything about me, even though we've never met. Keep going, you are doing such an amazing job! Thanks again❤

I was falling apart emotionally last night. Falling asleep alone these last few months have been nothing short of agonizing. I really needed this. Thank you.

How does this hit so hard?! The amount of times where I think I should feel scared or sad about something but fell nothing….dang. Also the fact you can hear the emotion behind “cry right now” is amazing!

Holy 💩 I love it so much that was an amazing song! Y’all sound so good together ❤

Beautiful. Love it. Not bad. Seriously! 💙💛💛💛💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙🎸🎸🎸🎸🎸

Not only are the lyrics the type of lyrics that penetrate the deepest part of the heart, but it is the best duo I have ever heard. Two beautiful voices in one song!!!!