UPDATE: I didn't know there were so many people that related with this video. Sheesh, I'm with y'all, please know you're not alone. If you're struggling with something similar, my prayer is that God would walk you through it. Love y'all. Psalm 51:8 "let the bones that YOU HAVE BROKEN rejoice." ▸JOIN THE DISCORD: discord.gg/8GHhQcqNVA ▸TWITTER: twitter.com/Samuel_Out
The reality is you are somone who is brave and Christ lead to be able to be the light you wish to see in others, I admire that honesty you have with yourself and God.
I didn't have a good high school experience, and I thought college would be the place where I figure things out and make a bunch of friends finally, but it's turning out to go just about the same. I'm honestly just so lost. I don't understand how people make tons of friends and have great grand experiences, it feels like everyone dislikes me when I put so much effort into the friends I try to find, I didn't peak in high school, nor have I peaked in college, I'm still trying to climb but slipping at every move
When I feel like this, I remember that God is always there for me and everyone and when people hurt me or things go sideways, he wants to keep pushing and bring loving to everyone. I guarantee things can and will get better, but some of it involves making a change for the better and some of it just takes waiting it out. Just try to love everyone, including yourself, in the meantime.
Fuck, man. This video hit way too close to home for me. College was a good amount of fun for me. There was even a point that I would describe as the last time I was actually happy. But there was a lot of pain in those four years too. The pandemic especially just destroyed any happiness and any sense of community I had, and I’ve been extremely lonely since then. I’m a grad student in a different state now (not sure why the hell I did that. Awful decision in hindsight) and there is not a day in recent memory When i havent (at least jokingly) thought about ending it. I know i’d never actually do it, but that doesn’t make the thoughts any less real. I’m really hoping things can get better, but I really doubt my capabilities to make them so.
trust me man shits gonna get better. at one point i was asking myself what the whole point of life is. it lasted for a while. eventually something in my brain clicked and shit started to get better but I think tending to dwell on negativity rather than positivity didnt help, I know thats easier said than done.
When I graduated high school I was determined to start a new life. New school new me type of deal. I wanted to get away from high school. Not because it was bad or anything but I wanted to start fresh. The issue was many of my classmates from high school got accepted to the same college. With two of them we decided to move in together into the same dorm as in high school we were kind of best friends, a fiend trio. So essentially I share the same dorm, college classes and means of transport (since we have the same way to get to our dorm) with these two. Let me tell you I haven’t felt this lonely and depressed in years. Yes, I have made many new friends I hang out with but I feel like to some extent it is me trying to run away from one of my roommates since she has been nothing but toxic. I feel like she barely gives and takes so much. Even if I move out I will still share the same classes with her for the next 3.5 years, potentially more. I feel like most of my new friendships aren’t deep and that the only people who actually really do care about me, not the shallow “ig i should care cuz you’re a person ik”, are the guys who want to date me. I had left so many friends in the city I studied high school in, they all study there and as much as I want to spend time with them I still study far away so I’m almost never able to join. I relate to your college experience so much. I’ve only been here for three months but it feels like years. Every day I wish the pain would end and this feeling of loneliness is only amplified by the fact my college is so demanding I barely have time for my assignments and work, let alone taking care of myself. To anyone out there feeling the same way.. Good luck, I hope it gets better soon for the both of us :)
I know I'm late to the post but I'm going to graduate HS school and I'm REALLY nervous about meeting new people. I'm gonna hopefully use this as a learning experience, thank you man!
Holy this video popped out in my feed and it really did fit me to a tee. This video really help ease me a little knowing I'm not alone in this kind of situation.
Damn i respect you for sharing even brings some self reflection crazy when you those chapters in your life close somtimes you dont even know its happening other times they slam closed in your face and you have nothing but the memories lifes a fuckin trip man stay up
College was not the best 4years of your life but you are coming out from the egg and standing front us and God wouldn't give us any status without reason, but sorry for your bad experiences making you not so good. for me you are the best since now and not give up to subscribe. have a nice day.
Hey Sam, I appreciate how genuine you were when talking about your struggles at UCLA. My only memory with you was us playing each other in NCAA Football. I had some similar experiences to you as friends I met in my first year started to drift away in the later years. I also felt like shit during my college years as I felt empty while trying to keep up with academics, social life, and career pursuits. On the outside looking in, it seemed like you were doing ok and I guess we all want to hide our pain to not burden others. You seem like a great dude to hang out with and I always thought of you as super funny. Wishing you the best in the future and glad you're still here!
That's the worst part of having a "friend". You wait for them to contact you since you always contact them first, but they never do. And damn that hurts a lot.
Damn bro I can relate to you a lot man 😕 except that I’m not as smart as you and didn’t go to UCLA haha. Keep your head up, keep on believing in God, and keep on uploading RU-vid videos
Appreciate the comment man. I realized surrendering our desires and goals and plans to God is the best thing we can do, because He'll steward it better than we can. I know it might be tough, but keep believing and surrender all to Him who cares for you. Again, thanks for the comment :') Also, I'm not that smart haha XD
I know I'm really late to this but I'm going to be graduating soon. I also am reflecting back on my life and realize that I am dealing with similar situations as you did. Great message
In the UK school is so different to US. High school is essentially 11-16 then 16-18 is like college. High school I had shit friend groups. Constantly trying to appease, doing dumb shit just to get recognition and attention. People knew me but not for any valuable or good reason. College, I had enough. I felt I didn't have people who respected me but simply tolerated me. Basically cut everyone off. Spoke only when spoken to. Did really well in school. Kept my head down whilst others went to parties; talked about common interests and socialised. Had "fun". I asked myself why I can't have this, and then answered it with nihilism and pessimism reflecting on the fact people barely recognised that I existed. Once I kept to myself and stopped trying to put myself out there, nobody cared. Occasionally some attempted to speak with me but these are the people who speak with everyone or are willing to. Maybe I just wasn't willing to: constantly downtrodden by suspicion that these people were purposefully trying to deceive me. That's all I'd known before, maybe I was paranoid. It would always be regarding revision, or whatever; outside of lessons I would continue to be this lonely ghost - it just confirmed what I thought of others and myself. Started to hate myself. It hurt because I did want to speak with others, especially about common topics but I didn't know how to initiate that, because I felt like such an outsider. Or I felt that it would be out of character, cuz this quiet, lonely, smart kid was all I was reduced to. Honestly, the worst, most lonely years I've ever had. It really changes you as a person. You end up getting stun locked in this overwhelming current of insecurity and depression.
Damn this was sick as hell. I'm in college right now, and this definitely isn't the fairy tale that I was promised, but there are certain things about it I can still appreciate and be grateful for. Thanks for the video : )
i just graduated college too and this video really resonated with me. It was filled with a lot of confusion regarding my beliefs, especially my faith, and heart break. I had my first/last relationship in college which ended up in a dumpster fire. However, it led me to reevaluate my priorities. I got closer to my family, have been repairing my relationship with God, and am investing more of my time as a church leader. College was just a stepping stone for me as I am preparing to apply to medical school. Life still goes on and everything that happened in the past can be turned around for good by God’s grace.
Some friends will come and some friends will go. Where your next comes from, nobody knows. Some will stick to you as sticky as glue. Dont worry about a thing, just keep being you. God bless and have a great and fun filled life my friend.
No clue how I stumbled upon your videos but here I am. Highschool was not that great and my perspective on college is the exact opposite of yours but man this: "I was tired of being the one who always put more effort into the relationship." Hit home right there. I'm an extrovert by nature so I always loved meeting new people too until I realized that I have a finite amount of energy to give and it was always me who reached out and no one reached out to me. No balls in this court. This continued beyond as I continued higher education and even before the pandemic, I kind of gave up socially, quit social media. Thankfully I've never consider quitting life and I just survived one day at a time. I don't what it is about this year though, I'm trying to "get back on track" with me, my thoughts and my goals. I'm even considering reaching out to people I haven't talked to in years. I'm glad you reached out to God because one fine day, he'll show you the way, the light and the truth. I'm reaching out too now but I still feel like I'm just in the dark. But I'll wait. And life will also likely get better. But the way I see it, you have to live today in order to discover tomorrow. So thank you for being here still.
Great video I know how you feel because I feel the same way I’m a sophomore in high school going into my junior just feeling alone but I know one day god will make everything better in my life
I have been watching your videos recently and I feel you when I was a care free idealist child back when I was a senior in high school and freshman in college, I believe my life changed when I was a junior in college when COVID-19 hit. I graduated from college in May of 2021, but like I said I miss the old me but I am still improving as a person and trying to make the most out of life!
Didn't expect to stumble on such a great message.. thanks for sharing. Just happened to be exactly what I needed to hear at the moment. Keep going and don't die because we need more people like you in this world. I hope you find/found happiness brothah. 🙏
Your video echoed in me. I entered university alone. All my high school friends went to different cities. During the three years of my bachelor's degree, I've never felt so alone. Developed social anxiety, my shyness got worse, I couldn't talk to anyone. Then covid hit. Isolation, loneliness. Not depressed, but I had lots of dark thoughts. I lost weight, hairs, the little self-confidence I had left. But I didn't give up. I've never stopped breathing even if the majority of the time it was hard to breathe. Now I'm studying in the masters's degree I wanted, I made new friends I love, and I know what I want in my life. Everything improved, I worked really hard on myself and still do! I can confidently say you'll see the light at the end of the tunnel. 💪🏻
I used to be so happy in highschool :/. I even carried with me to college a lot of the same friends and my boyfriend who I’m married to now. But my degree absolutely ruined me. It’s been so difficult and I’ve never had so much anxiety and depression. I hope it goes away after graduation
THIS VIDEO IS SO GOOD!! Why do I feel like you're like me but the male version of me and also asian 😭 😭 😭 amazing content man it's like chicken soup for the soul
I'm at the different side of things. I'm a person who seeks quality friends. I cut out all the friends who don't actually care about me. We were a group of people. One of them only cared about meeting new people, not about spending time with us, another one is my ex, another one basically cut us off (she cares about her family instead). But then there's good friends who slowly start losing contact with me. I'm sorry that we're drifting apart. I'm always busy, one left the town, the other one... I should message both of them. It's a sad truth that we're getting more lonely with time. Social media is causing all of this. And some (like me are fine with it), but some (like you) suffer from it. Dude, if you wanna spend time, come to Germany for a few days. I'm sure you're a cool person to talk to
Thank you for making this amazingly powerful (and relatable) video, and thank you for still being alive and still around. God Bless you buddy, keep breathing and making people happy.
amazing photoshop at 3:17 lol but fr good vid man I haven't started college yet but I am in the dwindling months of my senior year and it doesn't feel good right now.
thanks for coming out about everything, man. i'm going through painful times rn mentally and i feel like no-one's there for me in my life. it's good to know it gets better.
👏👏Sincerely, congrats on getting through college👏👏 I was soooooooo hard on my self in my 20s & looking back- I wish I had just traveled more on soul vacations, versus fixating of trying to figure everything out. Wishing BEST for you.
