I can decide if I want to be Lying in the deepest part of the sea I can decide if I want to die Thinking of the wrong that could have been right Even if my fears tear me apart My good intentions help me carry on Even though I'm making it through my mistakes I don't want to bring pain to nobody else I see the surface from the bottom of the sea I'm fighting to break through just trying to breathe The waves of disillusion are there drowning me I'd rather find myself there if I'm not gonna win It's too complicated! I speak with the bitterness of my heart I've lost the will to fight for what is right Your hands make me, yeah, what I am And now I feel like you've forgotten who I am How can I revive what I once knew The whole buried deep inside my soul I know it's in your heart to give me peace I ask for your compassion found only in you I see the surface from the bottom of the sea I'm fighting to break through just trying to breathe The waves of disillusion are there drowning me I'd rather find myself there if I'm not gonna win It's too complicated! I see the surface from the bottom of the sea I'm fighting to break through just trying to breathe The waves of disillusion are there drowning me I'd rather find myself there if I'm not gonna win It's too complicated!