I think this is a normal human behavior. We always wanna be the best and there are so many streamers out there these days that make it look so easy and you wonder what you are doing wrong. You aren't doing anything wrong Geno. You are doing the exact opposite. I can't tell you why things are the way they are but you are amazing Gene
It's not easy and some have a hard time identifying those issues. I'm aware of how in tune I am to my issues. I'm fortunate. But I pray that those who suffer similar issues can find the small things that gnaw at them and remove them.
You doing this makes a huge difference in people's lives and THAT me is way better than having 1000s of followers and millions of dollars. In my opinion anyways
It’s easy to say “I want to grow organically” and that is fine but what we really mean is “I think you’re cheating” lol I myself haven’t streamed in almost a month because $$$$ seemed to be what fuelled my stream and who I was so I took that all away and ready to grind away again starting today Dec 1st if people want to support me I will lovingly support others. I have dumped about $10K to get my name out there and I do not even have Merch so that falls on me, I started streaming because I loved playing games, with friends, with family and I was following numbers which took me away from everything I am. I never open my creative board but I’m slow so I’m glad I never did that. Negativity breeds negativity as well as positivity breeds positivity. I can’t go inside my head like you do because I hate to be alone and I am saddened easily.
