In my youth I was taught to earn what I need and leave something for others, but I learned others will take all they can get, more than they need, it's never enough! I still find joy in having less, less stress.
Thanks for continuing to share your inner thoughts and anxieties with us. I know it must be hard to put it out there but I find it comforting to know other people have similar problems to me. I'm not an expert, just a fellow adventurer trying to live their best, least socially anxious life, but I've found that disproving all the (daft) reasons I think I can't do something to be really helpful. It's slow work but doing the safest version of what you're anxious about a few times proves nothing bad will happen. You'll prove your thinking was wrong and get used to doing whatever you were anxious about. I hope you share some of this with the people in your life. We're all a mess on the inside, and in my experience they'll appreciate it and probably reciprocate. Least dark thoughts first though :P
It sounds like a great way to build up self belief, by slowly convincing yourself that your brain isn't always right the first time! Thanks for sharing :)
Feel the fear and do it anyway. The best way to overcome limiting beliefs is to firstly ignore them, then prove them wrong. Instead of ruminating on them, overcome them :-)